The other flower bud, and the beautiful one in bloom ^_^ Kirei deshou?

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The day after tomorrow, the month turns into September.

From the seemingly endless well of time that I was in, this single flip of the calendar abruptly pulls me to the surface of reality.

Time never stops, nor ever turn back. I realise this now, and feel sorry for myself for spending so many days sitting idly. I'm turning 20 soon... It occurs to me that youth is really precious. All of a sudden, I won't be so free anymore. Gradually, the responsibilities of an adult seeps into my consciousness. The things that I want to do in life, the things I wish I did, they become harder to attain because I will have more and more responsibilities from this point on. I wish I did them when I was younger. Even if I did a few months ago it would have made the difference. But instead I took time for granted... and now have some regrets in me.

I would really like to do something amazing in my life. It's kind of sad to think that my life is just going to be another passing soul. If I did something, if I were something, perhaps someone could have a good lasting memory of me.

Two days ago, I went to the hospital and bought medicine on my own. This is kind of embarrassing to admit, but I've never done that before. I've gone to hospitals, clinic, and pharmacies on my own in Melbourne, but never in Jakarta. It was really just running an errand. I looked for the bathroom while the pharmacist took 30mins to make my medicine.

Since it's the Lebaran holidays, the house maid went back to her village. I wash Gucci and Polo's food bowls every day (on the days when I'm at home during the noon). One the first couple of days, I was confused which sponge to use (the bowls are washed with the garden hose outside, not in the kitchen sink). Beside the garden hose, there were two sponges. Both seemed dirty. When I scrubbed the bowls with a scrunchy metal one, the water turned gray and black particles smeared on the bowl. Is this really the sponge my maid used every day for the past few years to wash my pets' bowls? The bottle of "dishwasher" was so diluted it was nothing much more than water.

When I asked my mother, she said the driver could have used the sponge to clean the car. The black stuff on the sponge was grease...?? I was shocked that my pets even consumed out of a bowl so unhygienic and toxic. And even more ashamed of myself that I never knew about this, out of my own ignorance.

Now, Gucci and Polo have a proper clean sponge and a bottle of dishwasher.

Perhaps this tiny discovery has made a slight difference in Gucci and Polo's lives.

Actually, this world has a lot to offer. If only we take the opportunities. And then... what can I do for someone? How can my life be worth something? If you really think about these questions, it might reveal a lot of past regrets. If it doesn't, you must have led a really fulfilling life.

This lovely flower just bloomed overnight! I'm so happy!!

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A dark pink flower is on its way....!!!!!!

Labels: flower, gardening, zinnia california giant

Ken just left, and we don't know when we can meet again. This separation will be the longest we've had. Of course, I'm a wreck of emotions. But as long as we are both breathing, healthy, anywhere in the world, I should be happy. Like they say, the world is small. Now I'm left with a lot of good memories that stick to me like a dream and with this I'm going to move forward in my life....!

A pleasant pleasant surprise!!!!
It's been literally months since I planted my zinnia seeds and since then they have grown to be tall sturdy and ...hairy. They didn't look very nice to boot. So everyone in the family was thinking about throwing it away. But I refused and said no...! I shall have faith that my own green work (this one at least) will flower!!! To keep you informed, all my other seedlings died except two pots of still thriving mint, a single stump of rosemary that never seems to grow (or wither), and this. My zombie-looking zinnias.

But look!!! Look at what was encapsuled in wraps of leaves and now exposed to the good sun! A bud.....! (no, two!!) Oh I'm so happy!!! I hope they open up soon as I am leaving for London next month and it would be nice to finally see some flowers I grew myself.

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Hi everyone~ it's been a long time! Right now it's 11:30pm and the electricity in my neighborhood just died a while ago ~_~ this happens often in Jakarta. But anyway, thanks to the power failure, I'm here on my bed with my phone writing a blog post!~

It's been 11 months since I finished my bachelor degree. I had a lot of fun but after all, I think it was probably better if I had a job. Next month (wow...!) I will begin my master's degree. I'm super nervous!! Can I do it? My brain has been inactive for a year after all. I'm so anxious...!~ Hope I can pass.

London seems like a really nice place for shopping. At least, my idol Mariko Shinoda had a great time shopping there. I also still have my dream to live in Japan one day. At this age, I really have to start being more independent. I hope to get a part-time job and save up. I've never had a part-time job before and for some reason I get nervous when I think about it. When I applied for and went to my design internship 2 years ago I wasn't even anxious. But part-time jobs seem scary..!! Is that weird? Anyway I hope to earn some savings soon. Wish me luck!

For now, it seems like it's best to study some things so my brain warms up. But my brain is filled with too much (useless) AKB48, Shinoda Mariko, singing, diet, dogs wellbeing, etc.. I also feel sad when I think that I will probably not be going back to my hometown for a year or more.. Especially sad beause I am worried about Gucci & Polo. I hope my parents can remember to give them the care and attention that they need. I hope that Gucci & Polo can give my parents the companionship they will miss too.

Well, that's all from me, goodnight everyone ♪( ´▽｀)