20100228
I know I shouldn't, we shouldn't be complicating things. But I guess all these problems are only cropping up because I miss him too much. I think he misses me. But does he miss me as much as I do? I think he only said that because he didn't want to complicate things too. I think he has feelings for me but we don't know how to put these feelings on the table, how we should be treating these feelings. We don't know how it's gonna go but we both know that this friendship is way too precious to be tampered with. We both treasure this relationship. It's really at its peak for the time being. We love each other. But just on which level and how is should be dealt with is unknown. He's really a great mate. But I want the future. It's working out.
jazzy juby 11:13:00 下午
20091109
seems like freaking out was the right thing to do. My instincts were telling me to do the right thing. One more lesson. IT'S NOT TIME YET.
jazzy juby 12:31:00 上午
20091017
I am really tired and there are so many things going on at the same time. I need the rest at the end of today. Although I slack everyday before I sleep. I don't want to justify my actions. I should feel guilty.
I should shut up. It has been progressing well. But I am starting to freak out. The usual process of my relationships. But I know this is different. It hasn't been like old times... at least.
jazzy juby 8:01:00 上午
20090524
This is like the first holiday for me since I have become a tutor. I had floral tea. It was divine.
jazzy juby 11:11:00 下午
20081108
What the crap.
I feel like getting drunk in a bright morning.
Maybe it's just a biological urge for excuse from work.
I really feel like going back to sleep all the time.
But hey! I am the one with the slacker's job.
Yes, yes, i haven't feel like I have started work at all.
I feel like I am still fooling around.
Who says I ain't?
I dunno.
jazzy juby 8:10:00 上午
20081016
Of course I am friggin scared. No job. No money. Plus my debtor is out of a job too. What am I supposed to do? But I know there's no time left to panic. I am trying my best, savaging every possibility for tuition classes, my best way to earn my way to school. The best thing is at least I have my own place now. I have so many people around me to support me. Though it could be difficult to differentiate friends from foes. There's a chinese saying, it's colder than water, to describe the slim chance of achieving something. A classic phrase for my money now. But the thing is Hong Kong is really an amazing place. Imagine how many of us have fallen and how many of us picked ourselves up again. It's a place you are unlikely to starve, unlikely to have a hard time. I don't consider working hard as having a hard time because I enjoy working more than anything. Except for friends, of course, and family too. Come on, I am ready to work my tits off. (touches wood.)
jazzy juby 1:48:00 下午
Another way out
20080913
Okay, I have been giving some thought to this.
It seems like I am one that is always seeking the other way out.
It doesn't necessarily has to be the easy way out but it appears that I am always looking for the alternate option.
Well, I am definitely not the person to judge if I have been making the right decisions though I have to admit I have been quite enjoying my life.
Does that indicate that I have been choosing the easier way out?
I have so defend myself by saying no.
I enjoy my life but it doesn't mean mine has been an easier one compared to others.
Of course, I agree that I have been blessed by god and there are a lot of people who care so much for me.
But please, don't tell me what's the right way to live my life.
Especially when you THINK you know a lot about me.
Oh dear, this kinda sounds vengeful.
jazzy juby 5:49:00 上午
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