Felt a little distant from the world today. I was so absorbed in everything I did, but nothing really went well. Felt like I lost direction. Felt like nobody was near. Felt like darkness was closing in.

Or maybe, it was the barrier that was building up within me; again.

I think its time I snuck back into my own shell for some time to recuperate my soul.

Woke up today at 5am with a fever. Dawdled for an hour plus before I decided to skip the BAmazing trials. Then my mum fed me 2 panadols, which totally knocked me out till 12pm. Managed to text Nicol and Purdey and called Ian back.

Gosh, I feel really bad. The worms they need for the trials are still with me at home. :(
Maybe its my retribution for skipping many society meetings and being absent for the trials.

The worms actually created an infestation of ants on my desk. The ants were prolly hanging around, awaiting the death of the worms before they could start a feast. Anyhoos, my courageous mum saved the worms by hanging them in mid air in the kitchen instead, where the ants couldn't reach.

I'll be stuck home the whole day I guess. Much to my dismay, especially since I know the adventure has been going on without me. Sighs.
Thank you ruth, for making me feel better. (: Can't wait for chocolate crinkles on Monday! :D

Currently, I'm hooked onto Heal the World by Michael Jackson. Found it pleasant to the ears, especially when I'm doing work.

There's a place, in your heart, and I know that it is Love. And this place, could be much brighter than tomorrow. (:

I really need some support right now. Just this moment. Maybe a shoulder to lean on. A big hug. A pat on the back. Just something to tell me everything's alright.

But I'm never gonna get it, while I'm still awake from insomnia, wasting away time to heal my heartache.

Then tomorrow will be fine again.

Maybe there's an angel in disguise. Tell me where you are. :(

Goodness, I've been racking my brains on Access 2007. WHO IN THE WORLD THOUGHT ABOUT THAT MAN. I salute his logic and stamina. Dang, the whole thing is an amazing system with so much flexibility. Think my backbones are more rigid than the 2007 system.
I hope I pull through these 2 weeks with my Access books.

Met up with Gary! today. Those few hours are probably that energy boost I need to burn the midnight oil each day to complete my work. :)
I LOVE YOU henduohenduo! <3

Ok. Now I miss my bed. Gooodnight! :)

I'm almost dozing off on the sofa when I suddenly thought of blogging. Nice weather, no tests (for now), and project deadlines to meet. what more can make a night more exciting?

Then an email comes along. And then an sms. Both from imBAS citizens. HOHO.

Society is really tough. I'm kinda lost when it comes to assuming my role in society. It's confusing when your role ties up with everything else. There is no clear definition of what you can do, what you should do and what you must do. Everything is a blur. Currently, I'm still trying to adapt to the people, and the style of their meetings.

Honestly, my bad habit of profiling is seriously killing me. Plus, I've been really anti social with imBAS people. gosh. Time to smile and wave and do small talk (if that works). A team only works with unison ain't it?

Events, events and more events. Looking forward to a successful Walkathon, Movie Marathon and Lecturers' Day for BA.

Before I log off, I'm going to attempt to finish off a poem Gary started.



Ok, the last line was seriously random. I was just thinking of the cookie bible Roooth borrowed this afternoon. :x

May this feeling never end. C: Ciao!

I walked out of CMA's test today and suddenly felt rejuvenated. It was like as if I was breathing air for the first time again. My mind was clear and focused.
All the deadlines, project meetings, and every other thing to do, just flushed in all at a go.

Surprisingly, I didn't feel overwhelmed, like how I would normally feel. Maybe I've shirked the responsibilities I was to hold. Society events, Youth for Causes, my school projects, poof!
I'm slowly regaining that excitement, and I hope it just gets better. C: May Sylvia find that strength to persevere with all her might! :D

Gosh, I agreed to join TCP with Bih Shean and Clarice today. Well, at least there will definitely be company when it comes to seminars and workshops! No camps though. I seriously cannot survive camps.

Scholarship Presentation Ceremony is gonna be this Friday and I hope it goes well! A leeeeeetle anxious but, all the same. Its just the same ol' procedure of walking up the stage gracefully, thank the Principal, smile widely at the camera, take a bow and exit.
Though it should take no more than 7 minutes, the process is endearing, and thrilling all at once. You won't know who's noticing you under the spotlight, or what's going through the mind of the person who just shook your hand. (actually, I think the hand shaker should already be blinded by the spot light and the flash light from the camera.)
Anyhows, I hope I don't trip and fall!

ECD tomorrow! I haven't studied though. What a bad decision to make when the test is just hours away. Off I go to study again!

P.S Dearest, check your email. C:

This week's going to be lazy, and probably not so hectic. But the moods still come and go like the wind. I don't know what to feel already!

Classes are starting to vaporize, become a little more dense with content, and then vanish without a trace. Then before I know it, it'll be time for the Study Week and Examinations again!

Sweet like sugar, you're my candy.
Sometimes' missing someone becomes addictive. C:

P.S Study ZHUANGZHUANG! CMA and ECD MOOLOOLOO!

Haven't kept in touch with the world. Or at least, through this blog.
Anyhoos, I want to give a shoutout, to all the people I really love.

To my family, my boyfriend, my girlfriends, my classmates, my society mates, and everyone whom I once crossed paths with:

I Love You! C:

Terribly random I know. But honestly, I just need to get it off my chest.
For now,
SAYONARA!

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.