i'm angry.
and i think no one will believe me.
YES.
im ANGRY.
im FRUSTRATED.
im FUMING.
and if i carry on typing that,
i might blow my top.
oh well.
thats, dumb.
felt ecstatic when i saw liya and haolun today.
greatest seniors of all time.
colman is m.i.a.
lalala.
anyway.
if i could.
i would choose to banish this person.
EEKS.
im mean.
but ya.
i really dislike that sort of learning attitude from someone.
and so i say, as always;
i can NEVER EVER be a teacher.
and even if i do?
that student should be brilliant.
because i'll condemn the student if he shows me any sign of utter stupidity.
no,
im not a genius.
but i have sense. at the very least.
and i think.
..
hahah.
so, perhaps its probably my fault that i discriminate.
BUT HEY.
i seldom do that.
i'm coping much better than last week.
at least i know what to expect.
and i know how to react.
because if it were ytd.
or the day before.
or any day before the day before.
i would have hit the ceiling.
or just cooped myself up with my iPod and my handphone.
now?
i just simply spend my time on the tv. and myself.
hahaha.
=D
happy teachers day.
a special tribute.
to all the great people out there,
who spend their lives creating hope and moulding lives.
=D
19+60= 79
yupp.
i have 79 coins with me now.
ROB ME.
xDDDD
LALALA.
the weekend was BORING.
PRELIMS are tml.
and im not nervous.
BOOO.
scare me, anybody.
hahaha.
ya.
im trying to be funny.
i'm typing with the keyboard on my lap.
LOLS.
=D
was really moody in the morning.
particularly since i got rants and complains the moment i opened my eyes.
oh well.
its over anyway.
=)
fortunately.
AKQ makes me high.
and spending time with friends during the weekend, (even for studying), was enjoyable.
kind of kept my mind off those stupid mood swings i cannot overcome.
i think i think too much.
i really do.
but i'm feeling much better already.
The Rise and Fall of Venice wasn't very captivating.
and a maths wasn't great.
but it was a what you call, O-k day altogether.
eeks.
i think i think too much.
but you make me think alot.
i'm going crazy soon.
waiting endlessly by the phone.
staring blankly at blocks.
finding excuses.
please.
spare me this cruelty.
=(
ok.
i promised someone to go off at 2145.
i've exceeded the limit by 10 minutes.
=D
oops.
xDD
JUST A FEW SECONDS PLEASE-
yupps.
english oral was alright.
wasnt nervous and didnt screw up.
i love the malay teacher.
=D
im not the last few in class for PHYSICS.
i CAN DO PHYSICS.
lalala.
HOORAY!
xD
i've been experiencing a series of emotions.
anger. disappointment. happiness. and jubilation.
haha.
=D
IM OFF TO WORK HARD.
i guess.
i've just uploaded pictures into myfriendster acc.
lols.
just had the impulse to do so.
so i did it.
LALALA.
feel overjoyed viewing pictures from long ago.
not that long ago actually.
but any oh how.
=DD
this never ends.
lols.
OH YA OH YA,
DID I MENTION?
11:11
i managed to catch that point of time today.
=D
lalala.
i'm freakin' bored.
and this is already the 5th post of the day.
i reckon this is gonna get CRAZIER.
HAHA.
time is passing real slow now.
BAH-
i need a break.
before i start my race tml.
=)
falling, and picking myself up again.
it just happens to many times.
i'm so used to it.
it doesnt matter how many times i fall does it.
since its more important to stand up after it.
nope.
i'm not trying to hide anything by typing in small white font.
just trying to waste YOUR time by making you SQUINT YOUR EYES.
=DDDDDD
lalalala.
EEKS-
i'm having the
GREEN MONSTER attack.
:S
even milo tastes sour.
look who's the
FABULIST now.
=(
i'm freaking jealous now.
HAHA.
nah..
its no one's fault.
i know im thinking too much.
BUT HEY.
I HAVE THAT RIGHT, right?
xD
Just changed my bg sound.
no luh.
im not EMO.
i just happen to fall in love with it.
=D
My Flash Fetish rocks.
xD
enjoy!
SONG FROM A SECRET GARDEN- secret garden
lalala.
yupp.
had this sudden fluctuation of emotions.
and now im OKAY.
=D
and to prevent myself from carrying on with a long list of people to thank.
i have this big thing to announce-
YEAH.
my cousin's really important to me.
=)
but i know you're just as important too.
=D
i'm sorry.
so its about time,
i know it sounds cliche.
but i just have to say it:
you only learn to treasure,
when you lose it.
HAHA.
FORTUNATELY.
i havent LOST it.
=DDDD
BRILLIANT DAY TO KICK START THE WEEK!
LOVES TO ALL WHO LIVES!
xDDDD
ya.
guess what.
i'm bloody blue.
even more than in the afternoon.
=|
im speechless.
because i'm bloody blue now.
UPDATE.
ya.
its just an update-
lols.
to prevent my blog from rotting.
ahahah.
=DDD
just a few things to pass along....
#1
the O level Chinese Examinations results are out already.
performed better than expected,
but still,
i havent reached the school's expectations.
SO..
RETAKE LO.
xDDD
overall.
i was quite happy! =D
B3 with MERIT.
HEY.
for someone like me.
its an ACHIEVEMENT.
XDD
#2
I GOT INTO NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC!
=D
Business Studies.
lols.
honestly.
TP was my preferred choice.
but didnt happen to offer the course i desired.
xD
ANY OH HOW.
I'M HAPPY!
+D
unless you give me THREE HUNDRED reasons why i should be unhappy.
then probably, i'll reject the offer and try something else.
LOLS.
#3
don't ask me why if i do crazy things these days.
=D
HAHAHA.
yupps.
best of luck for the english oral exam! =D
ciaos`
DO NOT.
i mean really - DONT.
DON'T EVER ACCEPT A ZIPPED FOLDER NAMED PhotoAlbum.
you'll cry if you do.
i almost did.
lols.
xD
(its a virus)
i feel out of place.
when i go out with a complete family.
My cousin, her husband, and her 2 kids.
i don't know how they get along so well.
don't know how they understand each other.
don't understand how they complement each other.
don't know how they discuss everything under the sun.
don't know how they turn controversial topics into something light and refreshing.
they're an amazing bunch of people.
i can see how closely bonded they are together.
too bad i can't feel it.
its really cool to have a father right?
a father that listens patiently and with understanding.
a father who tolerates nonsense and laughs heartily over cold jokes.
a father that cares about his whole family,
putting their needs above all.
its not that i don't have a father.
its just that i don't feel like i have a father.
i know i chose this path on my own.
and now, im REALLY on my own.
it seemed a little scary at the very beginning.
but its alright now.
i know im not alone.
i'm just walking independently.
not alone.
=)
i' get really jealous though.
when i happen to come across perfect mums and dads.
maybe i won't express it.
but ya.
i'm burning with jealousy.
i've encountered many, in fact countless.
everyone around me seem to make me jealous.
haha.
i think i need to start a family on my own to make others jealous too.
xD
BEHOLD.
the greatest meaning of life!
=D
lalalas.
i'm having some sort of solo high session.
even standing up is fun!!!
try doing star jumps on an arm chair.
its cool!!!!
xD
oh yes.
theres no free lunch existing in this world.
but i believe in free DINNERS.
xDDDDD
amazing!
brilliantly amazing-
i just did something i never thought i would.
i just updated my friendster profile.
lols.
xD
i guess i added some crap.
but-
oh well.
i guess its true.
im kind of getting more superficial by the day.
i never use my brains anymore.
lost touch on how i used to think a lot.
any oh how.
i'm gonna try again.
speak less think more.
thats the motto.
i need to go deeper.
its not intriguing enough to just touch the shallow bottom.
oh yes.
i'm a Fabulist.
but i know what i'm doing.
i like to take long routes to reach my destinations.
delicacies turn me on.
adrenaline brightens my day.
immaturity disses me.
i kill people with my mind.
and i don't express any truth in myself.
believe this.
FA
=D
say hooray.
i haven't slept for 32 hours.
and its still counting.
obviously,
i DO plan to sleep tonight.
my emotions are a little haywire due to the lack of rest.
i'm really all jammed up in my head now.
really.
so its not really a good time to come trampling on my toes,
or prick my nerve.
i might just flare up.
even with my high tolerance level for anger and irritants.
ya.
i'm having the uncontrollable mood swing.
be warned.
obviously,
no one heeds this kind of warning signals.
but its kind enough of me to do it.
lest i get stupid comments on why i show effing attitude.
no really.
go away.
till i get some sleep.
i had this dream.
and it came true.
it didn't happen to me.
and i found out who it happened to.
well.
this displays my potential in predicting the future doesnt it, ?
no. really.
i'm really upset.
i need to scream till my lungs burst.
i'm not stressed up by homework.
i'm not crammed up by problems.
i just experiencing some sort of internal breakdown within myself.
its not funny, seriously.
because if i can.
i will crush the exact source of all this crap.
digging eyeballs,
stabbing hearts;
i've done those a billion times at the back of my head.
i need a little push to make it real.
so don't try climbing on top of me.
i'll make sure you get stuck in the core of the earth for nuts.
changed the skin.
x)
the mock exams ytd were cool.
since the investiture took our minds of it almost immediately after it ended.
everyone was promoted.
given a new rank.
a new status.
a new task.
and not everyone was happy.
come on.
smile.
you'll get over it soon.
=D
high school musical was rocking the house.
im not sure why everyone was so into it.
but this is solely subjective.
because i've watch HSM like almost a billion times when my sis was crazy over it.
so i developed some kind of phobia.
hahas.
even Theresa Teng's When Will I Come Back Again sounded pleasant.
xD
Kanon in D wasn't that bad after all.
if i, a musically NOT talented human, can catch the melody.
i don't see why the rest cannot.
=D
a round of applause for everyone who went on stage ytd!
now investiture's over.
the roller coaster starts again.
xD
kae.
i've got exactly 5 minutes for this.
xD
i'll keep it short.
and perhaps concise.
i've been catching up on homework lately.
i do everything,
EXCEPT PHYSICS.
really.
i don't have the drive to even flip the book.
great.
late nights all week.
chatting away while overcoming the great stack of overdue assignments.
its strange.
because the mountain doesnt wear off.
=|
tml's the investigure.
and 2 mock exams.
the word MOCK and EXAM just dont happen to give a lot of impact.
its like as if it was set to mock us.
..
plus.
i don't really like to be MOCKED.
so who cares about a silly mock exam.
what really counts,
lie beneath that.
xD
theres was this sudden impulse.
and it died.
what may seem to be,
may not be.
the things i knew would happen,
might not have taken place.
how i felt at that very moment,
may have a devastating effect on everything else.
lies and more lies.
tears and more tears.
smiles that hide behind rainbows.
rainbows that cower behind clouds.
clouds that loom in darkness above us all day.
pessimistic?
yeah.
sort of.
i'm kind of infected by it.
perhaps i'll be fine soon.
real soon.
=)
