whatever.
i know posting twice a night is weird.
so.
here it is-
i am touched.
really i am.
to this special someone.
thank you alot.
thank you really much.
i cannot speak her name.
it will cause too much confusion.
thank you.
really.
=)
i have weird dreams.
dreams that picture what i wish for to happen.
if dreams were real.
then wishes would be fufilled.
it never happens.
but i wish for it to.
maybe sleeping on a different bed for 2 nights affect my dreams.
LOL.
but they seem so real i feel the warmth of it.
and how i wish it was true.
=)
chinese new year was good so far.
my collection of red packets can be considered fairly large.
and eating to much oily food have caused myself to break out.
waiting for people to come is so tiresome.
so i have to occupy myself with so many games of sudoko.
i even got tired of playing it.
i resorted to chatting people through sms.
but i gave up.
i was so darn unfamiliar with buttons after a year without a handphone.
so i called.
but it was so difficult to communicate.
the majhong table and the dining table were the sources of noise.
in the dark room.
there was no fan and no chair.
so it was really uncomfortable.
LOL.
so yeah.
i just survived through the whole night like this.
i drank so many cans of soft drinks.
'soft' drinks = fizzy drinks
the diet coke tasted horrid.
it has no calories. no fat. no sugar.
ISNT IT WATER?
lol.
then the bak kwa.
it was covered with layers of carbon.
and i think it causes cancer.
so i skipped it.
the soup at dinner was so red.
theresa said it might be red dates.
but when i peeked at the humongous pot.
it was filled with prawns, prawns and more prawns.
so i skipped that too.
i only filled my tummy up with drinks, beehoon and meatballs.
unhealthy food.
hahahs.
but thats the only thing that can keep me kicking.
i almost puked of eating too much cuttlefish to keep me awake in the car.
and when i am finally back,
i found two blisters on my feet.
lol.
i cant wait for tml.
i want to see my cousin.
WAHAHAS.
enjoy people.
enjoy your holidays.
enjoy the new year.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
i want to do something crazy.
like making my heart skip a beat.
or racing to the phone when i hear it ring.
or maybe.
i want to feel special for a day.
like seeing someone waiting for you under your block to company you to school.
or having someone see me home in the rain.
sometimes.
i want to own something precious to me.
like someone i will always love.
or something i cannot lose.
at times.
i would feel like going somewhere.
like a place which hold memories, vivid in my mind.
or a place where the sun rises and never sets.
the craziest of all.
i would want to feel sad.
knowing someone would rush over.
comfort you in their arms.
and softly whisper a lullaby in your ear.
knowing well enough such events only take place in fantasies.
yet i wish hard each day.
how i wish.
how hard i do each day.
YEAH!
i have just bought soooo many cans of drinks!
hahahs.
my mum bought 2 cartons.
and loads of cans of different kinds of soups for our steamboat this coming saturday.
LOL.
i sooo look forward to it.
heheh.
=))
today was sort of messy.
i couldnt seem to sort myself out.
plus.
i was soo freaked out when that stupid mascot of ps stood tried to hug me.
what a day mann.
what. a day.
LOL.
great day in fact.
i am really happy i did something good.
i dont plan to share it.
HAHAHS.
me the evil on.
WAHAHAHS.
i suppose thats it.
XD
i need to stop making band a major part of my life.
i cannot stand seeing myself going bonkers just for this cca.
there are like so many other things worth my attention other this particular event.
WAHAHHAS.
x))
i feel soo sick.
not physically.
i mean.
i started disliking band already.
HAI YEA.
it is taking up so much time and effort.
plus.
theresa and yuean seems so dedicated to it.
oh mann.
they are BAND FANATICS!
i dunno about theresa but i know yue an is one.
THERESA and YUEAN. are you reading this?
LOL.
i cant believe that with a snap of the fingers and the band has the right to detain my friends to hold meetings and such stuff.
AHHHHHHHHH!!!
i am going bonkers.
x))
anyway.
nowadays.
life seems boring.
maybe we should add some colours.
make it more vibrant.
create a miracle.
do something crazy.
act like idiots.
or.
just simply hop around the whole day.
it could just make me happier.
A WHOLE LOT HAPPIER.
hahahs.
=)
its not that i am not satisfied with my life now.
its just that i need to catch hold of life's best moments.
is that to much to ask for?
xD
i wonder if she has done this for our own good,
or simply just to stop rumours from going round.
but whatever the case.
it was bullshit.
she did nothing to lighten our burden.
i myself cant seem to find a reason why i pick on png.
but the thing is.
I JUST DO.
it comes naturally.
hahahs.
whatever the case.
i believe we can accept him in a way or another.
we can do this simple task.
besides,
the person we REALLY wish to pick on is KCK.
hahahs.
x))
i suppose i just chilled.
i actually woke up twice in a row after i slept last night.
i slept at 10.30
woke up at 1.30 and thought it was 6.05 in the morning.
wanted to brush my teeth but couldnt find my colgate.
and when i asked my mum for it,
she scolded me and asked me to go back to bed.
so i went.
then i woke up at 4.30 and assumed it was 6.20 in the morning.
i thought i was late so i went to brush my teeth.
this time round, i went to my bro's bathroom to get his colgate.
then i REALLY brushed my teeth.
and then when i woke my mum up,
she shouted at me , showed me her clock, then asked me to get back to sleep.
then i woke up at 6.20.
the real time.
hahhas.
so dumb.
really.
and i am sick.
i have a very sore throat.
yet i havent lost my voice.
XD
oh yeah!
LOL.
thats it for today.
i seem to be soo temperamental these days.
every thing seems to weigh so much on my head.
yet i found nothing when i tried to recall.
i only know i was really angry ytd and the day before.
and now,
i am wondering why i was.
maybe it was because i was hurt.
most probably i was.
because if i was not.
i wou;dnt have reacted like this.
but why was i hurt?
i do not know.
i've yet to find out.
i took out time to type this nonsense.
just because i hoped that i could come up with something.
but after so many lines.
i STILL cannot rmb anything.
but at least i know.
i was hurt.
maybe.
thats something to start the ball rolling.
yepp.
but i am back to normal now.
and i really hope i find out what i refuse to acknowledge that hurt me so much.
really really.
=)
you guys actually found my tagboard in my previous blog?
WOW.
i couldnt even find it.
GOOD JOB.
hahahs.
x))
i dont understand how i can ever type the word HAHA here.
but..
i just did.
=)
i am so frustrated.
i dont know what to do.
and i guess i just got to get use.
yepp.
i seriously need an attitude adjustment.
really.
xD
btw.
i have a sore throat.
i am back to this blog once more!
hahahs.
well.
many events took place in band-
i shall not say and neither would i comment.
but i really hope the band pulls through this crisis.
CRISIS (in the above statement) = ADAPTATION CRISIS + IDENTITY CRISIS + CONFUSION
lol.
i dont wish for anything unfortunate to happen.
besides.
today is FRIDAY the THIRTEENTH.
which means its a BLACK FRIDAY.
which means i should be discreet.
hahahs.
=)
today was just like any other day.
till i made a totally ridiculous decision just now.
i agreed to go out with my mum tml.
SHYT OKAYS.
my sis will be darn angry if she hears of this.
THIS means she wont get to play maplestory
and she'll go hopping mad.
hahahs.
she has been trying hard to please me so that i can delay the date whereby i completely delete that humongous file out of my com.
really.
ahahahs.
and i think that book that my bro bought was never going to be put to good use again.
BOOK (in the above statement ) = 101 EXCUSES TO BE LATE.
hahahs.
because i went home slightly later than my mum.
hahahs.
and it did prove itself handy!
LALALAS!
xD
as you can already see.
i am VERY influenced by MATHEMATICS.
i have been doing maths for homework NON-STOP for the past two weeks-
EVERY SINGLE DAY!
hahahs.
plus the song which yanting sang.
SONG (in the above statement) = MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB (tune) +FORMULA FOR SOLVING QUADRIC EQUATIONS.
and theresa and yuean sings it too.
it is terribly influential.
LOL.
and thus.
i have been burning midnight oils just to complete maths homework.
hahahs.
it is priority!!!
HEHEH.
ok.
i am beat.
tatas.
well.
let me clarify some things about the previous post.
hahahs.
i highlighted the word YOU with an italic font.
i havent exactly found someone to live for. see..
so i was hoping.
that IF i really work hard for this resolution.
i could find someone so important that i could live everyday for this special one.
hahahs.
so.. yeah.
its that simple.
no complications.
really.
x))
and theresa..
hahahs.
i find my life meaningless.
living for myself..
it sounds soo...
i don't know.
hahahs.
i just want to share this life with someone else!
hahahs.
LOL.
yeah.
i 'll live life to the fullest!
;)
i got my new year resolution already.
after 9 days.
its a little too late.
but i believe i found it alright.
My New Year Resolution is :
to live every single day for
you.
=)
it has been raining.
for the whole day.
and i am freezing.
and now..
there is like, a charity show on air.
like WHO will ever donate?
after the NKF case,
i suppose every singaporean would be paranoid or biased.
i mean,
even if we DO have a kind heart,
we would still be a LITTLE stingy.
right?
hahahs.
anyway.
i cannot be bothered.
only my mum would be interested in that.
x))
life's cool.
too cool.
i also mean cold.
hahahs.
ciaos`
sorry.
i think i spouted too much nonsense.
LOL.
whatever the case.
i think i have cleared my brain.
i cant supposedly be have so many things weighing on it anyway.
besides.
forgetting some things can be such an easy task sometimes.
except for some.
HEHEH.
school's started.
and so far,
our class seems to be progressing well.
its just study and more of it each day.
homework comes in piles too.
i'm beat after the first week.
add on those cca hours.
i get less than 2 days of sleep in a week.
=(
thats why i love my bed so darn much.
i havent done my homework yet.
shyt.
i'll work on it tomorrow.
NOW.
i needa clarify something.
to this someone.
who reads my blog,
and DO NOT comment,
TELLS ME how to CHANGE my blog,
and asks me a whole lot of crap.
to YOU. you know who the heck you are.
PLEASE
stop telling me over emails how i have erred in this bloody webpage.
i detest your emails.
yes. I
DETEST THEM.
i DO
NOT need your silly comments about
MY blog.
because i LIKE it.
and just because your blog sucks, get off mine.
besides,
i DONT even know you.
and what makes you think you have the right to tell
me what to do?
:/
putting cute little hearts beside the names of my DARLINGS doesnt mean i am a HOMOSEXUAL.
when i post something YOU DON'T understand, you SHOULD
NOT understand.
and.
MY TAG BOARD IS PUT UP FOR A PURPOSE.
so PLEASE STOP SENDING THOSE BLOODY EMAILS.
and from now on.
PLEASE GET YOUR ASS OUT OF MY BUSINESS.
thank you VERY much.
maybe its just the weather.
but i feel cold.
really. really. cold.
don't ask me why.
i just need an attitude adjustment.
it hurts alot.
too much in fact.
and i really need to get down to it fast.
because if not,
i will lose my head everyday for no heck of a reason.
really.
i see no evil.i hear no evil.i speak no evil.whatever you do i do not see.whatever you say i do not hear.whatever you speak i do not comment.but i still hurt alot inside.maybe its just because of the distance.but this is a single sided thing.i am willing yet you are not.i never seem to exist in your world.neither do i matter in your life.i still hurt though.and how i wish you could know.:'(
i am so darn irritated with my mum.
she is such a nuisance.
just because she fell out with my dad,
she takes it out on ME.
what. an. idiot.
whatever.
i CANNOT be bothered with HER.
ARGHHH.
blah blah blah.
:/
and i cannot be bothered with my homework.
even though i went crazy over it.
i started screaming and shouting when i saw the pile note i left for myself.
it was actually a reminder.
but i sort of overlooked it.
well.
who cares?
HEHEH.
i just hope 3H's form teacher won't be an ass.
like agnes chua.
HAHAH.
o.k.
done.
post complete.
ciaos`
