OH YES.
finally.
after 2 hours of hardwork.
my friendster css stylesheet is FINALLY done.
LOL.
its alright i guess.
for the time being.
hahahs.
the exams are approaching already.
and fast.
but i think i can't be bothered to catch up just yet.
i didn't know web designing was fun.
but very tiring.
BUT i am STILL not going to listen to mr tan's lesson.
its wayyyy too boring.
hahahs.
too bad!?
XD
we had a geog test today.
and i think i am going to pass it at least.
hahahs.
last minute revision can get me no where.
but at least pass the boderline mark.
heheh.
=D
i am gonna stop revising.
not really stop.
but just relax for the time being.
because i feel to tensed up already.
LOL.
i can't stand tensed up muscles.
i prefer loose muscles.
hahahs.
not loose until it is out of place.
but just simply, relaxed.
hahahas.
so i am relaxing!
LOL.
crazy me.
my mum's gonna kill me when she finds out i stopped studying.
hahahs.
nvm lahs.
its not gonna kill anyway.
ciaos` peeps.
good luck!
=D

i am feeling ummm.
a little tensed.
maybe like what yanting said.
feeling stressed is only normal.
hahahs.
okays. at least i know i am NORMAL.
LOL.
hahahs.
=D
everyone is normal too right?!
hehehs.
i think i am a little crazy.
because i am a little sleepy.
but to people who happen to pass by this blog.
the previous blogs of me being angry !?
hahahs.
i guess its over.
hahahs.
i am not raging anymore.
theresa said to let nature take its course.
well. that advice is already well- heeded.
XD
LOL.
nites ppl.
and to all you guys out there.
WORK HARD.
JIAYOUUS!
=))

i am so messed up and confused.
like red beans and green beans scattered all over the floor.
i have already decided.
made a decision from reasons that convinced me so well.
but now i don't know why.
i feel flustered.
i don't know what to do.
i scratch my head at times.
knock it sometimes.
asking myself what am i doing.
but honestly.
i don't know.
i don't know.
i can't untie this little knot in my heart.
my 'not so warm' heart.
its turning cold.
i suppose.
its like supressing all the bood from being pumped out.
maybe those times will never come back.
but it will never have a chance to happen all over again.
it will be beautiful memories.
but just some memories from long ago.
even now.
i can't sort out what the hell i am talking about here.
i am just typing to just vent it all out.
i am going insane.
its a misunderstanding.
or is it not?
i don't know how it became like this.
but it just did.
maybe i just have to learn my lesson the hard way.
i just have to fall and pick myself up again.
but this fall seems to be caused by someone pushing me.
or in a more polite way,
someone tripping me.
arghhh.
whatever it is.
i am almost knocked out.
do things have to end up like this.
a dead knot never to be untied?
can someone just confront me and clarify things?
OH MAN.
i would rather be beaten up then just sitting in front of the com screen.
imagining ; infering
whatever it is.
i just want this matter cleared up.
even if its gonna be red and green beans all together.
at least its gonna be clean.
spick and span.
good luck guys.
the eoy`s are approaching.
Go GO!
=D

okay.
i am feeling okay already.
i think.
well at least not raging.
nor burning.
or even a spark of heat.
so yeah.
i am okays.
LOL.
maybe i shouldn't jump to conclusions.
and yeah.
it is true that the problem started with me.
so just let nature take its course.
and i will bear the consequences of what i have done.
don't worry.
i will bear it myself.
the exams are just a week and a half away.
and my revision notes are all over the place.
my mind is in a mess too.
the end of year is just coming to me like a bullet train.
and i feel like i am gonna be knocked out soon.
LOL.
yepp yepp.
Fight on people!
keep on going!
jiayous!
hai yo eh.
its going to be a tiring week.
really it is.
how i wish its over already.
ahhh nvm.
good luck people.
we must work hard kaes!
=D

i feel a sense of betrayal rising in me.
an act of betrayal from someone i never thought would do it to me.
i feel betrayed.
and i start to think of how it all started.
and i guess.
the cause of this act started from me.
logically speaking.
i shouldn't have told ANYONE at all this lil' secret of mine.
NO ONE at all.
but i confided in my confidant.
and soon it spread to someone who was my confidant's confidant.
and after a VERY short period of time.
this little piece of news has already reached the ears of someone else.
who else can i blame except me, myself, and my dumb mouth.
RIGHT?
yeah.
anyway.
this secret was destined to be made known the moment it existed in this world.
so let it be known.
let it be spread out wide.
let everyone hear of it.
and let everyone blame me.
me the evil one.
me the hated one.
me the notorious one.
the blame shall be on me and no one else.
me, myself and my dumb mouth.
ppl asking me to open up my heart.
tell them my secrets.
and when i start to do so.
my most simple and little secret is already out in open air.
so how do you ever expect me to trust anyone at all?
tell me honestly.
would you trust someone who betrayed you so easily all over again?
for me.
i guess no.
call me petty.
call me dumb.
but its me.
maybe this is all just a misunderstanding.
but i don't think its so simple as that.
i am raging.
raging.
like an inferno burning down every building in its way.
but if i am wrong in the end.
tell me.
and i would apologise.
but still.
i believe what i hear and what i observe.
not just plan lies i hear almost everyday.
whatever.
i suddenly feel like hating you too.

hahahs.
the eoy`s are just 2 weeks away.
i just study like crazy nowadays.
but something just bothers me.
maybe hating someone is not as easy as it seems.
maybe being angry is not as simple as it seems.
but i can't help but hate her.
or simply.
just get irritated and angry with her.
LOL.
i'm honestly crazy okays.
can't be bothered with personal matters now.
i am like so disappointed with my science results.
i had this very borderline mark i didn't expect.
XC
i actually don't know how to calculate a menstrual cycle.
and i don't know that sperms disintegrate after fertilisation.
ARRGGHHHH.
i am soooo mad at myself.
honestly.
WHY MUST THEY TEST US ON SOMETHING THAT WE WILL LIVE WITH FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.
its not as if we are not going to find out more about it ourselves.
idiots.
HAI YA.
its over.
if anyone can ever tell me that their ovaries disintegrate and sperms DONT disintegrate.
then maybe i will gain a mark more.
LOL.
ahahahs.
but seriously.
i wonder why i am so anxious for the exams to come.
hahahs.
i am honestly so crazy.
but each day don't seem long enough for me.
i have not enough time to do everything i wanna do.
and time is running out.
hai yos.
but nvm lahs.
hahahs.
getting to do something is better than nothing.
and now everyday is revision, revision, revision.
nothing more.
ahahahs.
but i still have time to sleep in class for at least an hr a day.
LOL.
cool eh!?
but don't try it okay.
hahahs.
XD
good luck people.
study hard for the End Of Years!
tata`

I`M FALLING IN LOVE
WITH KOREA ALL OVER AGAIN.
believe it or not.
full house is just sooo touching.
i long for this type of life kaes.
to be somewhere you long to be in.
to be with someone you love to be with.
and to live life like any other.
but i guess its not going to happen in the near future.
SO I AM GOING MAKE IT HAPPEN.
i want this dream to become reality.
and i am going to work doubly hard for it to happen.
LOL.
=D
i've added more wishes into my wish list.
hahahs.
i won't tell anyone.
hahahs.
but i feel so glad after making this wish.
so i guess.
i wanna make these fanasizing wishes turn into reality.
I AM NOT GIVING UP!
hahahs.
WOOHOO!!!!
okays.
i am going crazy.
jiayouus ppl.
the end of years are just two weeks away.
cheeriO`x
XD

it has been a week since i updated.
the end of years are like only two weeks away.
i don't really feel the heat of it.
LOL.
well.
i am thoroughly exhausted this week.
suffering from exhaustion is worse than falling ill.
i guess i have to buck up before my exams kill me.
hai yo.
tiring week i guess.
my home econs practical went totally wrong.
but i guess i managed to complete it with some help.
PE was horrid.
i strained my arm and shoulder muscles while playing volleyball.
band was painful.
my arm hurt so much and my trombone weighed a tonne.
thursday was heartbreaking.
my bro and i had a fit.
it was quite a heaty one in fact.
the whole house was in a mess after it ended.
and I had to pack it all up.
band on friday was so stuffy.
i actually had to sustain for 4 bars without breathing.
my usual was 2 bars a breath.
mr chew and his stressful rules.
exhausting yeah!?
but at least i breezed through my maths test.
it was simple i guess.
i don't think i will fail.
but i don't expect to get full marks for it.
even though i hope for it to happen.
=D
i have homework.
we have to do a science summary.
energy transfer in the ecosystem.
it sounds so complicated.
so complicated that my brain hurts just reading the title.
hai yo.
i have a english formal letter writing test on monday.
a science test on chapters 5 & 6.
and i think many more will be coming right up.
LOL.
but i think i will loosen up after watching my korean drama tonight.
hahahs.
go crazy and watch it again and again 4 times.
hahah.
XD
madness.
not much of happenings this week.
i only look forward to my birthday.
but its still so far behind.
i'll wait.
even though i cant.
hahahs.
LOL.
ciao`s ppl.

the september hols are over.
and i was ill for 2 days.
hahahs
LOL.
believe it or not.
i am like so down on my luck.
i suffered from severe headache.
and backache.
my muscles almost killed me.
and my head weighed a tonne.
LOL.
but i guess i am fine now.
and i am rushing through my projects and homework.
ahahahs.
i don't know how my salad will taste like for my home econs practical test.
because i just added in the ingredients my mum said was appropriate for a salad.
(and i added in some of my very own favourites.)
hahahs.
and the drink?
i think i will just mix two juices together.
and top it up with some fruits to make it look healthy.
hahahs.
i know its not kaes.
hehehs. XD
shhhhh.
don't tell mdm ernie.
hahahs.
okok.
LOL.
i haven't completed my maths homework.
i will do it tomorrow bahs.
i am sooooo bored.
my eyes are sore from staring at the com.
ahhh.
i needa break.
hehehs.
byes.

hahahs.
ALL my fans in the hse broke down.
hahahs.
so its sweltering the whole day long.
LOL.
there is gonna be band tml.
imagine that.
and its early in the morning.
I NEED SLEEP.
X(
hahahs.
anyway.
i wont mind sacrificing some sleep time for my friends!!!
i know you guys are so touched to hear it right?!!!
hahahs.
okay okay.
lame.
i watched My Boyfriend is Type B.
hahahs.
its soo practical.
but i love it any-o-how.
hahahs.
cool eh!
and i instead of doing homework..
i ended up watching
The Princess Diaries 1 and 2.
hahahs.
its like so addictive.
i am like so engrossed in it ;
that i added soya sauce to th cabbage soup i was cooking instead of oil.
hahahs.
i am so darn idiotic.
LOL.
but the soup still tasted nice.
i guess.
hahahs.
lalalas~*
my mum is gonna be late tml.
so i have to buy dinner.
if not i cook again!
oh yeah...
hahahs.
but i just wonder.
how tml willl turn out to be.
hahahs.
OH YAR!
i found out...
after watching My Boyfriend is Type B,
i went to look up n more info.
about how blood type has to do with our human characteristics.
so ... I FOUND OUT!
hahahs.
it originated from Japan.
This phenomenon is as popular in Japan as the idea of matching horoscope with personality is in the States.
hahahs.
care to check it out?!

Type A
People with blood type A have a deep-rooted strength that helps them stay calm in a crisis when everyone else is panicking.
However, they tend to avoid confrontation, and feel very uncomfortable around people.
A types are shy and sometimes withdrawn.
They seek harmony and are very polite, but all the same feel that they never really fit in with others.
A types are very responsible.
If there is a job to be done, they prefer to take care of it themselves.
These people crave success and are perfectionists.
They are also very creative, and the most artistic of all the blood types, most likely because of their sensitivity.
People with blood type A are also likely to be considered classic "type A's": stressed and conscientious


Type B
People with blood type B are the most practical of the blood groups.
They are specialists in what they do.
When they start a project, they spend extra time understanding and trying to follow directions than others might.
When they are doing something, all of their attention is focused on it.
They tend to stick to a goal and follow it through to the end, even if it seems impossible.
They tend to be less than cooperative, as they like to follow their own rules and their own ideas.
They are individualists.
B type people pay attention to their thoughts a little more than their feelings, and therefore can sometimes seem cold and serious.
People with blood type B are often considered more relaxed, freewheeling, and unconventional than other types, although not necessarily to an unacceptable degree.


Type O
People with blood type O people are outgoing, energetic and social.
They are the most flexible of the blood types.
They easily start up projects but often have trouble following through because they give up easily.
They are flighty and not too dependable.
O types always say what's on their mind.
They value the opinion of others and like to be the center of attention.
Also, people with O blood are extremely self-confident.
Type O, the most "average" blood type, is considered the best type in Japan.


Type AB
People with blood type AB are hard to categorize.
They can have characteristics on both ends of the spectrum at the same time.
For instance, they are both shy and outgoing.
They easily switch from one opposite to another.
AB people are trustworthy and responsible, but can't handle it when too much is asked of them.
They don't mind doing favors or helping out, as long as its on their own conditions.
People with this blood type are interested in art and metaphysics.
AB is considered the worst blood type.
In predictability-loving Japan, they're loose cannons.
They also like to set their own conditions and reserve the right to drop out when things don't meet their expectations.
They're known to be sensitive and considerate—at times—but it just isn't enough to balance out the flaws in this blood type.
For a while, some companies tried dividing their employees into work groups based on blood type, and no one wanted to work with the AB group.

ok...
don't get agitated!!
there's more to come!!
Japan used this reference to make the PURRR-FECT combination for couples.
care to see?
XD

A is most compatible with A and AB.

B is most compatible with B and AB.

AB is most compatible with AB, B, A, and O.

O is most compatible with O and AB.

kaes.
i guess tts all.
hahahs.
believe it?
its Japanese tradition.
ahahas.
cool eh?!
i guess its all i can find bahs.
hahahs.
but koreans got the concept all WRONG.
but maybe they got another way of looking at it!
ahahhas.
OH YEAH!
okays.
i guess i am going off.
nites ppl.
smiles. C=

i guess i got over my korean drama ending.
LOL.
hahahs.
i am now looking forward to the new drama.
hahahs.
oh yeah!
hahahs.
it just touch my heart and melts it within a minute.
hahahs.LOL.
oh yeah.
all the fans in my houses are breaking down one by one.
hahahs.
so its like sauna nowadays.
hai yo eh.
i have still piles of homework to complete.
i have a home econs practical test next monday.
and to add on.
i have to go to school 3 times this week.
twice for band.
once for maths rememdial.
LOL.
i guess its alright bahs.
hahahs.
but its gonna be tiring.
and a complete waste of my time.
because i can spend it at home with my sis.
HAHAS.
i am planning to watch
My Boyfriend is Type B again.
hahahs.
i think it is more realistic bahs.
rather than those fairytale stories in the dramas i watch.
so i guess i needa snap outta it once in a while.
hahahs.
LOL.
oh yes!
the vampire show on sundays!!
the girl is just soooo mesmerising!!
hahahs.
LOL.
so i am going to catch every part of it.
OH YES.
hahahas.
I JUST LOVE EVERYBIT OF MY TV.
plus an additional
KOREA.
hahahs.
I LOVE KOREA.
I LOVE KOREA.
I LOVE KOREA.
hahahs.
and i want the whole world to know.
I LOVE KOREA.
hahahs.
cool eh?!
hahahs.
I LOVE KOREA!!!!!
hahahs.
i don't know why.
their productions never fail to leave me touched.
hahahs.
XD
its just so cool to know that South Korea is just
an 8 hours flight away from singapore!
oh yea..
just an air flight.
and away i will be!!!
hahahs.
but that will be like..
years later.
hahahs.
so i guess i just hold on to that little wish i make everyday.
hehehs.
oh yeah!!
hahahs.
=D
well peeps.
make sure you do your homework guys!
hahahs.
work hard!
tata` C=

i hate endings.
especially those that my korean dramas give me.
it just leaves me shattered.
oh mann.
i HATE ENDINGS.
why does it ALWAYS end this way?
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i'm feeling so depressed over it.
i hate it.
i loved it so much.
and i hate it at the end.
so i guess i still prefer beginnings.
as long as it is a beginning.
i will love it.
XD
leave it aside then.
i am still determined to buy the vcds even though i hate the ending.
i realise that korean dramas actually teaches life values.
hahahs.
at least it has a meaning.
rather than singapore's old plot.
hahahs.
LOL.
nvm.
maybe i am just biased.
hahahs.
yepp yepp.
oh yes!
don't worry people.
actually....
my mum over reacted when she went to the doc's that day.
the doctor thought she had appendicts.
well well..
my mum sure has great acting skills yeah!?
ahahahs.
she got three days mc for that.
so i guess.
she is glad.
hahahs.
yepp yepp.
i am still watching m korean drama repeat now.
but i just cant bear to watch the ending.
so i have prepared myself to switch channels.
next week they are gonna start screening Full House.
OH YEAH!=D
its soooo nice.
yepp yepp.
rain is in it!
hahahs.
can't wait.
but i guess i have to swallow and digest the ending of this drama first.
it may have a dramatic ending.
but i still love it all the same.
and i am gonna rmb it.
hahahs.
oh yeah.
their soundtracks are nice you know!
hahahs.
try listening!
http://www.kbs.co.kr/drama/feelyoung/
you might not have the program to read korean.
but the song will play automatically.
so just listen kaes.
hahahs.
work hard for the hols!
=))

hols have started.
we only have like a stack of homework.
rather than the usual heap.
so i guess its okay.
my mum is lying in hospital.
she is like under observation...
lame lahs.
LOL.
she like me liddat.
suspected case of appendicts.
so she gotta be observed for a day.
i was observed for 3 days!!
hai yo eh.
hahahs.
i passed all my subjects.
including my maths.
YES.
INCLUDING my maths.
hahahs.
oh yeah!
but i still have to go for maths remedial during the hols.
on friday.
hai yo.
nvm lahs.
hahahs. LOL.
its crazy.
i`m going to the airport an hour later.
so i guess i am gonna sign out lahs.
ahahahs.
XD. byes.

mann.
i did this lil' survey shereen sent.
it was soo scary kaes.
it just hits me right on the head.
hahahs. LOL.
tml my cuzzie is flying off.
so i am gonna send her to changi!
hahahs.
and off she flys to shanghai!
yeah yeah!
hahahas.
fun eh.
i am gonna start all over again this month.
everything from the start.
my attitude towards life.
my brain.
my thoughts.
everything is gonna change in just a snap.
its supposed to start already.
i guess it just had.
hahahs.
and everything is just gonna go on.
its like sooooo ....
i don't know.
hahah.
tomorrow is gonna be the last day of term 3.
and term 4 is gonna be soooo short.
so tt means end of years will approach shortly.
and its all anxiety recreated again.
LOL. =D
its a cycle isn't it?
it just keeps repeating itself.
only with different characters.
ahhahas.
and i am proud to say:
all of you guys are part of it!
hahahs.
cool eh!?
i love beginnings.
so i guess i just have to love today and tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow and....
it just keeps going on.
everyday is a new beggining yeah!
hahahs.
so i guess.
yeah.
its just gotta end here yeah.
i will just end here.
yepp yepp.
nitex.
cya guys around. XD

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.