hahs.. so fast a few days past lerx.. i dyed my hair light brown! onli some parts nia lahx.. den i trimmed it today.. oso dunno whether considered trim or not.. quite short lo.. hahah.. nvm lahx..tml going Obs lers... so fast.. i oso dun feel much abt it... ne`wae.. i almost forgot alot of stuff.. hahahs.. i nit to bring plate lahx.. then nit to bring alot of things lo.. liaox.. nvm lahx.. hahah.. first three days we go ubin then after tt will be in east coast lo.. ahahah.. kkiex... on sat horx.. kaung called at abt 11.30 lorx.. he flying off lerx.. then he juz call to say bubuai` lorx.. haix.. saddiiee... nvm lahx.. he coming to back on january lo.. haix.. bt at least he happiiee lahx. hahaha.. mie now si bei ji dong.. gort rain.. den i juz ate an egg.. hahaha.. lalala.. later marmie going compass point develop photos lorx.. haha.. charmaine mux see doctor because she kanna skin infection.. ahaha.. ytd i watch the incredibles with dardie and maine`maine nehx!!! very nice!!!

manx manx manx.. before ytd horx.. i went out with kaung lo!!! hahah.. then we go pasir ris park.. so farn.. then i saw some things.. i will kip it in my heart.. and i wont say it out.. then after tt i went out with adora to watch the polar express.. touching.. *gan dong*.. i hab band juz ytd and i hab it tml again.. haix.. ytd i went back fer band horx.. i gave yue an the seaweed lor... den play until siao.. foundations all i dunno.. then summore muz play so manii.. chew of coz angry lahx.. then we play SOE book two... so sianx.. muz repeat and repeat.. then he kip suaning us... haix.. i play until very xin ku lorx.. i so long never play lerx.. then i blow until lip pain and muscles ache.. then bandology horx.. i cannot pitch the high notes!!!! ahhhhh!!!! my gawd.. then chew si bei angry lo.. hahahs.. how i wish i could pull debbie back from beijing!!!! ahhhHHH!! then after tt we hab sectionals lo.. then alot of sec four come lahx.. even jillian oso.. then she borrow debbie der trombone.. oopX... maybe debbie will hammer mie.. hahah.. nvm lahx.. ne`wae ... JILLIAN OWES MIE A DOUBLE SCOOP ICECREAM CONE.. hahah.. yeah!!! becox i help her kip trombone.. lalala... nort bad arh... liddat oso hab business.. hahahs.. den after tt mie yue an clarice and theresa go home lerx...at night i call kaung.. yue an.. clarice.. and theresa.. hahahs.. ytd i in compass.. theresa told mie arthur sick lerx.. how i wish i could call him and console him.. but.. i dunno why i juz cant do it... its juz like something pulling mie away from the phone whenever i wanna pick it up and dial his number... haix.. some invisable force.. some kinda resistance.. i cannot overcome it.. at all.. haix.. i hope less lo.. then i today cannot go to the class gathering.. they actualli suppose to go escape derx.. but end up going for a movie.. haix.. nvm lahx.. they happiiee i oso hapiiee.. hahah.. i read my past diaries juz now.. recalling the past lahx.. recalling those times when those small little troubles were considered so big to mie.. recalling how i went through those problems.. with the help of my friends.. actualli.. everyday.. in the past.. my brothers trusted mie the most... i didn;t realise it.. and i took them for granted.. arggghhhh.. i stupid lo.. i didn't even manage to realise tt they were alwaes there fer mie.. maybe the saying is right.. you will onli learn to treasure when you come to lose it... haix.. i lost it.. then i learnt how much they meant to me.. too late now for regrets.. so.. i must not repeat my mistake.. and i m gonna treasure everyone now.. everyone.. hahahs.. no matter hu.. i will do myy very best.. to make them smilex!!! hahaha.. but i am sure.. those memories of the past will never be replaced.. hahahs.. and i am sure.. my ex gors.. have a place in my heart forever.. hahahs.. yeah!!!! hahah.. tml gort band!!! hahaha.. then muz see chew's face again!!! hahah.. nvm.. i noe masree alwaes dere derx.. hahahs.. kkiex.. i dun wanna update lerx.. so sianx.. friendster so lag.. hahah.. buaix!

hahah... i two days never update lerx.. so shitto.. hahahs.. kkiex... ytd.. was saturday...correct lahx.. so marmie at home... then we go eat breakfast and go kovan lorx.. den saw xiao ting lahx.. so... muz bi kai! hahah.. oso dunno why.. maybe its because of her connection with cherie bahx.. but ytd was boring.. so nvm lahx.. come back oso nth much happen.. hahahs.. but i noe i was happiilliiee chatting awae with jillian.. hahahs.. lalala.. .then after i go offline.. i went to watch tv with marmie lo..at tt time should be abt 11 ++ bahx.. then we decided to eat maggie mee at abt 12... so i cook.. and as we ate.. we watched.. errr.. should be snow white in terror or something liddat..then gor come back lahx.. actualli we must sleep early derx.. because today we are supposed to go to the zoo with marmie's whole office company and famile... sianx right? but no choice.. nvm.. so i set alarm clock.. 630 lahx.. then go to sleep.. then in the morning.. my alarm ring.. i put beside marmie.. marmie slam it and sleep.. so i go back sleep oso lo.. hahahs.. then my hp alram ring at abt 730 liddat.. then marmie wake up... then say what 630 liaox.. she blur like sotong.. hahahs... so farnie..then.. we juz rushed lo.. then gor oso.. he took the longest lahx.. he style his hair so long.. then after tt we go to the zoo by taxi lo.. but go thr like abit early lo..hahahs.. so marmie talk to her colleauges.. wah sai... so WARM!!! hahahs.. then one of my marmie's colleauges der son.. very shuai!! hahahs.. budden.. too old ler bahx.. and aniwae.. not onli he shuai in this world.. budden horx.. i a lil'o bit attracted to him.. hahahs.. forget it lahx.. i oso dunno him.. hahah.. den.. we mit auntie irene then go gia gia lo... we see what monkeys and donkeys and ponies and blah blah blah.. most of the time is mit the shuai ge.. hahahs.. then after tt go KFC eat.. then go home ler lahx.. so quite fast.. actualli we planned to go the crematorium to pray to ah ma.. budden gor gor insisted on going home.. so we juz had to... marmie's fwen sent us home.. we gort lost... i fell asleep.. budden reach home i wake up lahx.. then reach home.. i cook egg w/ cheese for charmaine and macaroni for myself.. den after tt.. we juz watch tv lo.. den we had this crazi idea.. to play princesS!!! so i pretend to be stylist lahx.. [ and i make a pretty good stylist myself i must say.. ] then i made her a VERY pretty princess kiex.. i did her hair... and made her costume.. not say like those gowns lahx.. its juz like a modern princess of the 21st century.. hahahs.. then we wore tiaras.. .and took pictures.. and i did her hair over and over again..until we had to eat dinner.. then she is stilll with tt hairstyle.. ahahha.. after dinner we play com bahx.. my sis made mie tell everyone i was busy .. hahahs.. sowie lahx.. then we play all sorta games.. then now she go out lerx.. so i come update blog lo.. hahahs.. i now chatting with kaung lahx.. jillian oso... so.. quite ok bahx.. i oso dunno whatta do.. i now trying to make kaung say EEEE ... so he can smile lo.. hahaha.. hu ask him to haix!! hahahs.. sianx lahx.. aniwae.. i gng out tml!!!! yeah!!!! hahahs.. go with kaung to beach.. then might as well force him to do the maths project.. hahahs.. oh my.. he is realli realli sad... oh my.. oh my.. haix...

i solemnly swear to try to make kaung smile!!!!

kiex.. i trying lerx.. update tml..

(='.'=) s m i l e x ! !
[='.'=] u look nice !!!!
{='.'=} be happiiee plx....

yeah!!!!! so happiee.. wootx~! joe online!!! shhhhhh... hahaha.. kkiex... today i go out with clarice and theresa lahx.. at first go pass up book list derx.. then after tt go chinatown.. hahahs... go eat dumplings.. then drink pig organs soup.. lalala.. i gib them the seaweed ler lo.. wah lao.. clarice forgot to bring her ez link card lo.. so i help her pay her mrt fare.. hahah.. mie and theresa bought gelato.. than all of us bought corn... we go og kia kia.. then then go home ler lahx.. i mean its like.. so sianx.. we go cp lo.. i took the hp back from hui xin mahx.. then .. i go fetch charmaine.. go buy hair straightening cream.. hahahs.. then i straighten charmaine's hair.. shhhhh.. hahahs... lalala... ai ya.. dun care lahx.. hahaha.. they organise a outing to escape on the 24 lor.. then i ask theresa hu organise der.. she say ish mie and kaung.. WAH! i was like.. HALLO? when did i get pulled into the picture? omg... den they all spread until everyone going ler.. omg.. i oso dunno anything abt it.. hahah... but never mind lahx.. i call kaung tonight.. then i ask him.. hahahs.. i think tt is the class gathering everyone was talking abt.. hahahs... lalala.. den still gort the maths project... arthur is doing the powerpoint lahx.. then i help kaung with that worksheet.. hahahs... haix.. he flying off ler... so sad.. nvm lahx.. *brb* sowie sowie... i went to eat.. hahahs.. haix.. i think i go pasir ris on monday lahx.. aniwae its like.. no time ler mahs.. haix... i dun wan!!! i dunno why time pass so fast lo.... actualli... i miss those daes bahx.. i mean its like.. its juz came back to mie.. its was like.. everyday smiling and never frowning and full of laffs.. then.. its the same now.. onli thing gort different ppl.. hahah.. last time is joe and ppy.. now is theresa clarice and yue an.. hahahs.. gort one more person lahx.. hahahs.. but oso the same lahx.. at least i am happy right? so must treasure.. if not lose lerx den regret again.. i dun want history to repeat itself.. and i won't lose them.. i will try my very best to kip them.. hahahs.. come oN!!! lets see how fortunate i am kiex?
i've got best friends like...

clarice... well shes a one hundred percent friendly and nice gal! hahahs..

jillian... my very capable and reliable and very farnie and lame derx chio bu senyor!!! yea!

i've got caring and lame gors like...

kaung... hahahs.. he was alwaes there for mie.. whenever i needed him..

zi jie... he lame lah he.. nice chap..

aloy... hmmmm.. dunno him lahx... my sis' big crush! hahahs.. but he blur blur der.. friendly..

darren... dunno him well lerx.. but still ok lahx..

soon siang... hahahs.. my darling gors.. help mie alort alort lerx.. he kai dao wo de nei!!! hahah..

chun leong... hahahs.. he ish a one hundred percent gentleman!!! hahahs.. kute!

i've got funnie and caring sis.. somemore all chio bus.. like...

Theresa!!!! she arhx.. one big lamer.. very nice and caring jiex.. forever there fer mie derx...

Yue An!!!! hahahs.. this chio bu ish my twin oso lahx.. been through thick and thin together derx. hahahs.. love her!!!! muacxz!!

joanne!!!! hahahs.. this gal ish chio bu.. not say beli close.. but she got help mie before.. and she oso beri caring derx.. hahahs..

debbie!!!! wah.. this woman here horx.. big time chio bu lahx.. hahahs.. kkiex.. she very jiang yi qi derx.. hahahs... lamer oso.. hahas..

wen min!!!! hey hey.. she is the person who pulled mie together.. lalala... thank you!!!!! muacx!!!

shereen!!!! nice gal lahx. very bian taix. hahahx...

yi hui!!!! hahahs... she ish my full time larkie star!!! hahahs... she ish nice gal lo.. she help mie loads.. hahahs.. thanx!

li ya!!!! wah seh.. without this senyor horx... i wont be able to survive in band lerx.. hahahs..

yee shi!!!! hahahs.. this jiex very nice derx.. she horx.. alwaes smile and never frown.. she brightens up mie dae!!!

ying ting!!!! hey hey.. she got kai dao wo before... budden.. never chat for very long time lerx.. hahahs..

choi yan!!!! hahahs.. dunno how i get this jiex derx.. but she ish pri skool fwen.. good gal..

aline!!!! wah!!! another primary skool fwen lahx.. my clique! hahahs..

see lahx.. mie so xing fu lerx.. onli thing my ex gors are no longer my gorx lorx.. haix.. if they were in my life.. my life would be a brilliant coloured fully bloomed tulip garden.. but too bad.. all the tulips in my back yard are all orange!! but it is wonderful too right? hahahs.. but dun worry.. that beautiful coloured fully bloomed tulip garden is my dream.. and i believe.. if i work hard to realise my dream.. it will come true.. so i will be determined!! and i will change myself.. till they are satisfied.. till one day they realise.. that.. there is someone called me existing in this world.. and maybe.. while waiting.. i can move on in life.. learn new things... grow stronger.. and be mature.. hahahs.. i noe... tt this awaiting time can be very long.. very very long.. it might take years... but i dun care actualli... i will wait.. till the day i have to leave the world.. but by then.. maybe.. everyone could have buried the hatchet.. so... i will be waiting fer this day to come.. hahahs.. so... i juz gotta move on! haha.. and on my journey.. my jiex and gors would be there for mie and guiding mie.. so.. no worries!!! no sweat!!! hahahs.. i planned lerx.. i will be eating to my hearts content while i go through the hard times.. and through those hard times... my gors and jiex will be supportin' mie.. and with each fall.. i pick myself up.. i will learn something new.. and i will become stronger.. see!! journey planned well! hahahs.. so the same goes for mie OBS camp lahx.. at least i learn something new.. and besides.. it is juz 5 days.. and whats more.. i am with my skool de ren.. so no nit to be afraid.. the onli thing is.. i scared to make poh yih angry or irritated.. or yoo noe.. juz appear in front of him.. i dun want him to hate mie further.. so i would rather him hate mie tt much than hate me even more... haix... suan ler bahx.. aniwae.. poh yih is a nice guy with compassion and kindness.. hahahs.. so.. i onli can stand afar and watch him lo.. if i wanna tell him something.. i whisper it in my heart.. and i am sure.. one day he will get to hear it.. no matter how far... same goes for joe and arthur.. its all the same.. i noe i was biased last time.. i wont anemore.. i wont ane longer.. i swear and i promise..hahahs.. tt is one lesson learnt... am i supposed to be happiiee? hahahs... but actualli.. at least joe poh yih and arthur gave mie something for rememberance.. joe gave mie a cd... poh yih gave mie a teddy bear.. arthur gave mie a block of wood.. hahahs... joe loves music.. so he gave mie a cd.. poh yih is so friendly.. juz like a teddy bear.. hahahs.. and arthur? his passion for design and technology cannot be oblivious to everyone.. its his talenT! haha.. so tt explains the block of wood.. hahahs.. ne`wae.. its juz the past.. those were happpiieee moments shared together..
[ can i say sowie? ]] *
[ can i care fer yoo? ]]*
[ h. i . a. x ]] *

wah... today like so sianx liddat... dunno what to do.. when i wake up horx.. daniel ong was flying solo on air AGAIn.. i wonder where is grace chua.. maybe she is sick? hahahs.. but daphne khoo was in the studio too!!! omg.. she was being interviewed.. yoo knoe.. she was kicked out of the singapore idol.. liaox.. i think she beta than olinda.. haix.. but this is called fate. ahaha.. kkiex.. then i read fruits basket.. [ again .. ] i think i read it for abt errr... 6 times ler.. ahaha.. then its like so... NICE!!! i love the characters and the story ok.. yuppie.. today i woke up considered quite late bahx.. abt 9++ liddat... becoz of kaung lahx! hahahs.. i chat with him ytd on the phone until abt 12 midnight liddat.. hahahs.. he siao one.. got gal gal prank call him.. hahahs.. siao ginna.. dun say him ler lahx.. come to think of it.. i ate my lunch very early today oso!!! i ate at abt errr... 12 liddat!! hahaha.... i ate rice with egg and meat and fishball soup with macaroni.. hahahs.. nice.. nono.. VERY nice.. hahahs... so like very sianx liddat.. so i went to edit the photographs i took in korea lo.. hahah... quite nice bahx.. hahahs... then after tt i took out the cd joe gave mie.. and copied all the songs into my winamp list lo.. his songs make sense... maybe its all destined to turn out liddat? i am not sure.. my destiny is in my hands.. but fate.. is brought to us once in a lifetime.. too bad i did not cherish that little gift fate brought mie.. and i regret.. but regreting is no use.. so all i can do.. is learn to cherish and treasure whatever i have now.. i kept asking myself.. must everything tt has a start come to an end.. just like life and death? does it apply to friendship? does it apply to love? his cd has songs whose lyrics reminded mie of the past.. the past when he and mie... were so close.. beyond imagination.. no one expected it.. but everyone knew it... too bad it came to an end.. i was to blame.. i knew it.. i shouldn't have neglected him... just like i neglected arthur.. but.. i still did it.. maybe i took him for granted.. or maybe.. i was too over concerned abt him.. maybe he could not tolerate it anemore.. but.. its no use thinking abt it le bahx... its over.. it onli makes mie sad.. why should i let the past make me sad when there are so many happiiee things in the present to be glad for? AHHHH.. think so much for wat!!!!!! hmmm.. kiex.. my gor in the morning ask mie to help him buy wax.. so i must lo.. then at night i will meet my daddie.. then go dinner.. haix.. debbie midnight flying to beijing ler.. then kaung leaving for myanmar.... next week.. then i will be all alone ler.. haix.. i oso dunno why... maybe i will try calling everyone everyday bahx.. hahahs... i hab to kip my promise to kaung oso.. to go to pasir ris with him.. but.. i dunno bt marmie.. becoz i hab to fetch my sis... so.. maybe i will have to break my promise.. but.. kaung.. i am realli realli sowie...realli.. if i ever had broken any promises to you.. i am sowie.. and i will try to make it up to u somehow.. sowie.. i will try my very best.. i swear.. i swear..

`-* that day might never come ___[x]

my gawd... hahahs.. this trip horx.. si bei sianx.. but still farn bahx.. i bought lots and lots of keychains and seaweed until i went broke sia.. then the keychains and seaweed still must split.. MY MONEY!!!! hahahs.. but aniwae.. still the same lahx.. i oso giving other ppl.. haix.. i come back dat tym horx.. i say a luggage bag left alone lehx.. then the tag reads ' Poh Yee'.. haix.. i was thinking.. does things tt happen in real life relate to these small little happenings? haix.. i dun wan Poh Yih to be alone... but he is feeling dejected right now.. yet i hab no idea how to help him.. i am helpless.. haix... lets pray he is alright.. anewae.. i am gonna gib all my jiex... a keychain.. together with my gor lahx.. then a packet of seaweed.. then a choco stick.. budden horx.. i couldn't find any comics lah.. neither any figurines.. hahahs..my gawd... debbie flying off to beijing tml.. then horx.. band onli got mie and joey nia.. shitto... haix.. my gawd.. dunno how to survive ler.. haix.. so muz jia you! hahahs.. today i sms kaung, arthur,theresa,jillian,yue an, clarice but oni jillian and kaung reply nia.. haix.. i dunno lahx... aniwae.. its like.. i wanna go out!! i ask kaung company mie to pasir ris beach!! so maybe we can ride a bike there... hahahs.. budden how to come back? so muz think first... i realised tt horx.. the maths group is mrs ng group de.. and not anione choose de leh.. so.. hahahs.. i am ok with it lo.. hahah.. haix.. dunno whatta do... right.. i wrote some things for four gors.. Joe, Kaung, Poh Yih and Arthur.. i type it out here..

:: Joe ::
When will you come back?
I willl be awaiting..
The day you return..
Lets make it the past..
Will you be there?
No matter how long it takes..
i will be standing there..
Not leaving..
For i'm stuck there..
Forever..

:: Kaung ::
Do you know?
That you will be deeply missed..
When you leave..
By everyone..
Even if they hate you..
They will miss you..
Even me..
And you will alwaes be in my heart..
Always..

:: Poh Yih ::
I know you hate me..
But rmb.. I dont..
And if you ever need someone..
And no one is there..
I will be someone..
And i will always be..
Hiding behind you..
Never leaving you..
Never ever..
I promise..

::Arthur::
You were there for me..
I know that..
I neglected you..
And had us land in this state..
I knoe we can't patch the gap..
But i must let you know..
You will be in my heart..
I will be there for you..
No matter what..

Those are written in the aeroplane lahx.. i sianx mahx.. then nth to do.. so i worte lorx.. i mean its like.. i can't be not missing them if i am dreaming of all of them every single day during my trip.. right? but aniwae.. its like.. its inthe past right? and i hope.. never to have these things happen again.. for i am gonna do my very best.. to prevent it from happening.. hahahs... wah.. u noe arh.. the photographer for our trip beli shuai neh!!! he is called charlie.. hahahs.. he beli nice and friendly de!!! haix.. too bad i not seeing him again ler.. hahahs.. newae... haix.. i beta start packing for camp ler! hahahs.. i hope i can survive bahx.. hahahs.. newae.. got my jiex company!!!!! but.. got poh yih.. haix.. maybe he not happiiee tt i going bahx.. haix.. nvm lahx.. will try my best to avoid him so he won see mie.. den he won angry.. neither will he be upset.. haix...

[hopeless + helpless ] miiieee... sowie..

These are dedications made to the ppl who have left deep footprints in my heart..
And i will never forget them no matter what...

To Joe::
Sowie.. Will yoo forgive mie?
I am sowie.. i really am..
I will rmb the promises and the compliments yoo gave mie...
And the memories from the past will forever be like a movie..
Playing in my mind..
No matter where i am..
And i will rmb those special moments..
We shared together..
And..
Yoo will someone special and someone i wont forget for the rest of mie life..
I will be waiting for yoo..
Will yoo be there?

To Poh Yih::
Plx dun feel dejected..
I noe u hate mie..
But i will alwaes be here for yoo no matter what..
And u will alwaes hab a place in my heart..
Rmb i told yoo i had high expectations of yoo?
I noe yoo can be someone of great heights..
Try your best adn strive hard kiex?
I am sowie ..
I am sowie i cant be beside yoo..
When yoo nit someone..
I am sowie..
But..
Rmb..
No one can make yoo feel inferior without your consent..

To Arthur::
Sowie i made yoo angry last time..
I am sowie i neglected yoo in the past..
I am sowie..
And i swear..
I was never angry with yoo..
Bu you must promise mie..
You muz never make urself feel left out..
You were the one tt taught me whatta do when i felt left out..
You were the one tt saw mie when i was invisible..
And i thank yoo for all the help yoo gave mie..
And all the care and concern yoo hab given mie..
I am grateful..
And rmb..
If yoo ever nit someone..
I will alwaes be there..
Waiting for yoo...

To Kaung::
Thank yoo..
Thank yoo for being there..
Thank yoo for your support..
Thank yoo for your company..
Thank you for your jokes..
Thank yoo for your smile..
Thank yoo for your encouragement..
You are one great friend i will never forget..
And one great friend anione could wish for..
I feel so larkie having you as my fwen..
And you will be forever cherished..
And never forgotten..
As you will alwaes be in my heart..
Forever..
I will be there when yoo nit me..
And that is a promise to our friendship..

To Yue An::
Thanks..
Thanks for being there when i needed someone..
Thanks for being there when i needed advice..
Thanks for everything..
I will remember all the tyms you companied mie when i was sad..
I will cherish you with my whole heart..
And i will never forget you..
No matter what..
You are a very great sis..
And i will never be able to find another one ..
Like yoo..

To Debbie::
I am sowie..
That i irritated you last time..
That i made you feel left out the other time..
And for everything i made you angry for..
You are one great friend..
And you are remembered by everyone you pass by..
And you must remember that..
You are lucky..
At least luckier than mie..
And you must noe...
There are ppl worse off than yoo..
So you must appreciate what is around you..
Just like how much ppl appreciate yoo..

To Theresa::
You are a great sis..
You are my role model..
And i admire you for your wisdom and knowledge..
You are a great fwen..
And someone i will never forget..
Your strength and courage is seen through urself..
And i am sure.
Every one will treasure yoo ..
As much as they treasure their lives..
Hope we remain..
As best friends forever..
Staying true and loyal..

To Clarice::
Heyyas galfren..
Thank yoo for supporting mie..
Thank yoo for encouraging mie..
Thank yoo for your advice..
And i juz wanna tell yoo..
Yoo are a great friend..
And for whatever you hab done for mie..
I am grateful..
And i give thanx..
For god has blessed mie..
With such wondrous friends like yoo..
And may we be friends..
Forever..
Till the end..

To all you guyxz..
You all hab been great..
I will treasure you guyz..
For as long as i live..
And my promise to our friendship will last..
Till my very last breath..
Frenz Forever!

**sobbie** haixzx.. i dun wanna leave singapore!!! budden tml night we flying to korea ler.. **sigh**.. so haix.. muz make the best out of it lor.. hahahs.. kkiex.. lets see kiex.. todae horx.. got band lo... i mit theresa they all ard abt 0830 bahx.. den at first wanna take bus de.. budden in the end we took MRT lo.. hahahs.. wait until sianx le mahx.. summore tt nonamie coming.. hahahs.. den we go band so sianx lo.. chew todae conduct us for tt errr... oh ya! foundations.. then those scales i dunno mahx.. so lan... then after tt when he teaching us tt time.. me and deb were like asking qns abt the notes.. then he angry. then mux go up to him and apologise summore.. haixz.. maybe we really wrong bahx.. then after tt got the bandology.. onli do the first part nia.. hahahs.. then after tt nonamie come ler.. then i sit behind with theresa and deb and listen to senyors play lo.. i down dere watch percussion play.. dey like so free liddat.. they playing SYF 2 mahx.. then i think the piece is very beautiful.. hahahs.. but i dunno how to play lah.. whatta do... haix.. deb down there play my handphone.. then theresa down dere crapp.. hahahs..so sianx.. haix.. den break tt time mie and deb go maintain instru.. after tt.. nonamie coming again.. then sit behind again.. hahahs.. then deb got this running nose.. then she pull mie go toilet with her wash her nose.. omg.. hahahs.. we run out then everyone look at us.. we like siao zar bo liddat.. den i sleep lo.. then kaung call mie.. siao ginna.. hahahs.. so after nonamie decides to leave.. we juniors hab sectionals.. then i learn classic cartoon capers lo.. quite easy so far bahx.. hahahs... juz the same note or if not going up and down the scale.. hahahs.. but debbie is beta then mie lahx.. ~duh. then fall in le lo.. mie deb and theresa were the last to go out mahx.. so its like.. joe and poh yih standing at the end.. then we join in oso mmuz stand at the end.. so its like.. can sense tension between mie poh yih and joe bahx.. haix... sad le... haix.. budden i kanna punishment lo.. stupid.. nvm lahx... den after tt.. i go mit kaung.. he pass mie the vcd.. then see yue an and clarice and theresa eat yoshinoya.. hahahs.. den i go back le lo.. see! i so guai. hahahs.. kkiex.. i nit to go out le.. byebye!! up date later or tml bahx.. hahahs..
dun avoid mie liddat can?
i feel so darn sad..
plx forgive mie ..
i am sowie...
so sowie...

my gawd.. i dunno lahx.. i cannot put down my jie muis and gorx.. den i cannot fly to korea in peace sia.. hahahas... shitto.. aniwae.. at least i get to spend one dae with them before i fly lahx.. hahahs.. kiex.. niwae.. i noe alot of things abt my marmie prob ler.. den i think i will try my bez to solve it.. i oso sorta worrying for arthur.. budden kaung assure mie ler.. so i no need worry so much le lahx.. hahahs.. kaung is gonna pei wo go pasir ris beach le.. so good horx? hahahs.. this type of gor hu dun wan.. haix.. larkie gort him lahx.. hahahs. kiex. finish dis up and sign out.. gor come back ler.. so he wanna use com.. tml nonami coming..sHit! gosh.. nvm.. muz try my best and play trombone.. hahahs.. kiex.. haix.. what to do.. these daes are like so sianx.. so slack.. clarice everyday go out.. yue an cannot be contacted.. theresa is helping her mum at her shop.. saddenin' arhx.. haix.. the kaung go comfort his bro.. so good.. den mie left alone.. so i update mie blog lo..haix.. why i like so fang bu xia liddat neh? onli i few days nia what.. haix.. actualli.. i miz all my jiex alot ... i dunno why oso..haix... anwae horx.. its like.. haix..i feel so far away from them.. then if i leave..i will be farther... *sigh*. but what can i do right? haix.. so horx.. as long as they my fwen i happiiee le lahx..hahahs... aniwae... they are all nice ppl lahx.. hahahs.. haix.. kaung not at home... den i juz called all of them.. yue an watching tv.. theresa juz came home.. clarice oso juz reached home.. then she hab to eat dinner.. hahahs.. liaox... kaung juz called back.. juz now when i answer the phone.. got someone say he went out.. actually is he.. hahahs.. so funnie.. den now we dicussing how to do the maths project... hahahs.. he arhx... ish a chao bang de gor.. hahahs...newae... i oso dunno wats up with him.. his bro juz cried.. then he muz comfort him...

missing you alot alot..
i will not forget yoo de..
i promise to get all of yooo gifts!!!
byebye!!!

omg.. i ytd forgot to update then mie marmie ask mie i neber reply.. so i now beta write one long long one.. hahahs.. kkiex.. i changed all mie passwords le lor.. to something special to mie.. hahahs.. can say i sorta sad now.. my gor leaving next year ler.. he going to medical college.. haix.. but he not sure oso.. haix.. but i will miz him somehow.. hahahs.. he has been there for mie everyday.. even at night.. hahahs.. haix... dunno lahx.. maybe i shouldn't get too close to him in the first place noeing that he will leave mie one dae.. haix.. right.. i beta do my vow now..

`` haix. so tired. !hey! even though i love band doesn't mean i am not tired juz going there. hahahs. aniwae horx. dis blog thingo is mie mum force mie write de. juz because i stop writing in my diary doesn't mean i will forget mie daily life wad.. so i hab to update this thing REGULARLY until i get myself i new diary. but i no money lahx. hahahs. kkiex. lets see. todae.. got band lahx. den after tt i go home le. see!! i so guai.. not like yue an and theresa.. alwaes say i notti gal. hahahs. shitto lo. i cannot pass up book list becoz bookshop close le. then forget to take band leave form becoz i going to korea next week.. hahahs. nvm lahx. next week take lo. hahahs. i lyk mie template! hahahs. riight.. my ear hurt lots sia! juz pierced mie sixth earhole le. i pierce with deb and jillian de. hahahs. so funnie. my marmie dun allow mie go out yet, becoz she scared later we sick den cannot go korea le. hahahs. budden still for mie own good lah horx? hahahs. i lurve mie marmie. hahahs. but i oso lurve mie gor\di\jie\mui `s de mahx. hahahs. and they all beli nice ppl de ok. aniwae right. i now oso no mood to get ani more siblings ler. i miss myex-gors lotx. haix. how i wish they could juzforgive mie and t0k to mie again. i noe we w0nt be as close as before lahx. but at least we dun have a grude against each other lo.. haix. think abt it i sad nia. nvm lahx. i suppose to forget them by now ler. hahahs. kkiex. muz at least show them i can move on in life. hahahs. i am moving on in life at quite an amazing speed lo. hahahs. all thanx to mie jiex who all brought mie joy and laughter through this journey. hahahs. oso gort some gor gor help mie de lahx. so muz thank dem oso, hahahs. kkiex. i dun feel like typing ler. hahahs. buaix.

Sylvia. Syl. And someone you'll never expect me to be.