.Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 11:35 PM Y
warning: do not read if you are a NUS student.PROJECTS!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!
i nv like projects. have to work with others to get things done. esp if they are not interested and SU-ing the module and giving excuses like busy with other projects and tests and this and that... cant stand it!
some reli "gruesome" cases:
1. "sorry, im busy with other projects and tests" (like who's not!?!?!)
2. practical report due the next day. everyone just email each other the results without interpretations, expecting SOMEONE to know whats gg on in the practical and compile the results. didnt even bother to sms or email to see if everything is ok, just leave it hanging in the air.
3. out of 4 practical mates that i have, 2 absent today. left with 1. me and her. seriously i think she can make herself more useful, not just passing me the pipette and opening up the caps for me truout the whole practical. darice shd know who i mean. haha! to share a report with her would be like me doing the report by myself. joined other groups in the end.
4. in the other group, now too many ple. trying to be SO FAIR, splitting the questions so precisely into each fair bit. one girl commented: "if your part do wrong you all got to edit yourself hor, im not gg to do it for u!"
5. one grp member holding on to the compiled project which is due next week. no idea what has he done so far. nv reply sms or email.
yesh! thats NUS! argh!
students are just so self-centered.
im leaving this place. bye bye NUS and hello workplace. (maybe its even worse in working life)
but admist all the annoying ple and projects, some stuff that realli cheered me up:
1. Qinchu who helped me and bash tru with me for the practical report till midnight. if she's ever reading this, thanks girl! hope u are Ok with ur diarrhea alr. =)
2. Madeline who really showed me some seriously in project. and her comments reli brighten up my day. this is wad she emailed me: "Miss juan, I am really thankful for all the efforts and time u spent on this project.U really helped me alot :D Thank you!" thats v encouraging!
im having a love-hate relationship with NUS now.
(well not so much of the sch, but those only-know-how-to-mug-without-basic-common-sense-and-EQ kinda students!)
if you are a NUS student reading this, sorry that i've offended you. im not refering to u, im refering to that SOMEONE.
.Monday, March 16, 2009 ' 8:35 AM Y
its 8am on a monday morning. im in the school library. haven been in the library so early in the morning since this sem. its very quiet here and a few sparse souls alr started their day mugging in the library.
well.. not that i purposefully woke up early just to come here to study. but waiting for 9am to meet up one prof and 11am another to discuss honours project. God, pls grant me favor of man! hopefully they'l take me in for honours project.
meanwhile, shall just continue working on my project report. Singapore's Global Education Hub. thats the reason why we have more foreign students here now to compete the limited vacancies of honours project! hahaha!
pray pray pray...
.Thursday, March 12, 2009 ' 11:29 PM Y
just sent out 9 emails to all the different profs from all the different depts, asking for a honours project with my humble CAP.
pray and hope that they reply. (heard that profs dont reply mails.)
very tired these few days. slept everywhere i go. bus trips are my fav nap time now.
stil confused. honours? or graduate?
planning to go redang during june. anyone?
.Monday, March 09, 2009 ' 2:18 PM Y
the rain is good.
let it rain let it rain let it rain...
supposed to go swimming. but the rain disappoint me. but found another kind of enjoyment with the rain. =)
raining on a monday afternnoon when i dun have to go school is like a simple pleasure of life.
just took a bath. feeling fresh now. in my room with the radio tuned into my fav fm yes 933 (just realised that it has been so long since i listen to it! i used to listen to it everyday since p6).. with a reddish glow of the table lamp in the room.. having a cup of hot chocolate at my left hand side.. having a tinge of warmth under my shawl.. at the desk facing the lappie trying to read articles in order to finish up my changing landscape report..
this type of monday afternoon is simply awesome.
God, can we have rain every monday afternoon?
.Sunday, March 08, 2009 ' 11:41 PM Y
ok im in this post-horror-movie-kinda-mood now. not that i just watched a horror movie. but i just watched unexpected access on channel 5. it is a show hosted by wong lilin, where she brings you to all the secret places which have unlimited access. there was this episode abt embalming the dead, meaning to drain up all the blood in the dead person's body and put in some chemicals to prevent the decay. its grossed. just go youtube and type in embalming, you have lots of "horror movies" as search results. but be prepared. hahha.
im playing praise and worship now in my room, trying to get rid of that grossed and horrified feeling. haha.
it makes me think. life is so fragile. very often the time, we are so concerned abt wad we eat, wad we wear, wad haircut to get, wad colour of make up to put on, the colour of our braces etc... but at the end of the day when u die, actually your body is just treated like any other carcass (sounds like the body of some animal, haha), ok i mean cadever. they saw you up, take up your intestines and blood, put some cotton wool and chemicals in, and sew you up and stitch you back, and carry you around in a strecher and finally into the coffin where you are waiting to get burnt into ashes, which ultimately you end up like a "genie in a bottle", i mean end up in an urn, placed in some hdb-look-alike place, waiting for your descendents to come and pay you respect anually.
life is simply so fragile. how have you been maximising your life? after so much hard work and slogging, have you been truly enjoying wad u are doing? or have you always tend be so affected by the little things happening ard you? our life here on earth is so limited. before we become that "genie in a bottle", wad do we really wana achieve in our lives? well... i guess godliness with contentment is great gain. worst case scenerio: when you die, not only that your body is burnt, your soul still continue to burn in hell!
phew! thank God im in God.
ok i think this post is such a heavy hearted post. just like wad im feeling now. trying to get rid of this feeling. ok lets have a good laugh now.
anw its good to have a good laugh everyday. i used to have good laugh everyday during my schooling days (sec-JC). when i enter into uni, i realised i dun laugh as much. people ard me so so serious. there's a few peeps in my life that can reli made me have a good laugh, one is the woman darice, the other is the man kl. haha
some good laugh we have tgt:
case 1: me and kl in hougang point macs, ordering an choc sundae....
me: (at main counter) hi, can i have one choc sundae pls?
guy: oh sorry, the counter for ice cream is over the other side (pointing to that smaller counter)
me: orh ok (walking towards the smaller counter)
SAME guy: (running to the smaller counter) hi, how can i help you?
me: (amused) one choc sundae pls
me and kl:(trying very hard not to laugh, got our sundae and left)
away from macs: we laugh until peng!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
case 2: me and darice on our way to church....
me: (random) hey i feel like shitting
darice: (also very random) i feel hungry
me: (ting ting! light bulb! idea!) hmmmm why not you eat my ____ then? its a win-win situation!
darice: pengzzzzzz..................
its good to have such a friend and such a bf to always be there whenever you need a good laugh.
have you have your good laugh today? if not.......
step1: stretch your lips to the left
step 2: stretch your lips to the right
step 3: open your mouth
step4: say "ha-ha-ha"
step 5: increase the speed
there you go! you are "laughing" now =p
maybe someone should invent some tickling machine to make ple laugh. they just need to wear it on their waist and whenever and whereever they need it, they can have a good laugh!
.Monday, March 02, 2009 ' 11:52 PM Y
had a good chat with my prof today. was asking her abt honours project and research fields. she said sth which i think is so so true. when you wana do research, the key word lies in the "RE". basically, you search and you RE-search and you RE-search somemore. that is like revelation! haha. not alot of people can stand that. anw enjoyed talking to her. just the both of us in that tutorial room laughing away. it feels so different to get to talk to a prof up close. you break away from the normal "student-mentality" and get to know how their profession and thoughts are like. kinda enjoy talking to profs nowadays. haha. will "hunt" for more to talk to. its always useful to talk to people who are different from you. they open you up to another world and reveal things which you nv will know. oh! and i was talking to my technical assistance that day regarding her job and prospects of her job etc.. and i found out that she is actually my jc friend's mother! what a small world! i think i enjoy talking to people who are different from me nowadays. feel that im exposing myself up to that "adult world" which used to seem so far from me last time.
anw prof asked me what do i like to do. well.. honestly what i reli like to do has nth much to do with science! i find science an interesting subject, knowing more about your body and whats gg on inside. when i study science, i feel i dun just study for the sake of passing and getting good grades, i study it with an very open mind of just wanting to know more of God's creation. and i find it v useful, as i study with an open mind, things seems more interesting and less boring.
but to ask me to do science as a career, i do have my reservation. i dun think im those person that can coop myself up in the lab to search and RE-search and RE-search somemore for the perfect answer. prof said you dont get much of a social life in science. its a v different field.
well well.... im confused now. i thought i will be clearer after talking to her. but ended myself up in a unsure-of-my-future kinda mood. was just pondering about what she said on the way home. my CAP now is not so good to secure a good honours, so it all depends on this semester. if i can pull up my CAP at least by 0.2. (the greatest improvement i had so far is only 0.11) if not, maybe i will not consider honours anymore, which means im only a few months away from working life (dreadful.....) feel like im in some cross road now. help!
so this semester is the deciding sem! really got to work very hard and get very serious with every assignment, tutorial, projects and tests! no more falling asleep and being late! i calculated, i need to score all As for all subjects to only improve by 0.22! it seems quite impossible ya, but im seriously willing to give it a try. make it. or break it.
desmond testimonies never fail to motivate me. from a last in class in Boon Lay Sec to nursing in NP with scholarships (lost count) and always getting all the As in all the small tests and big exams, and the offer to do research with KK hospital and the offer to be the leader to lead teams to go overseas for exchange, and somehow i really believe with all my heart that he will be a v successful doctor one day. if God can use such a ordinary guy like him to shame the wise, He can do it tru me too! =) desmond, lay hands on me! haha!
with Him all things are possible!
huijuan jiayou!
i will go school everyday and put on my the best attitude from now on.
(eh? i thought i said im not supposed to blog?)
.Sunday, March 01, 2009 ' 6:39 PM Y
God is really such a good father. when He knows that his daugther has no umbrella and its raining cats and dogs, He sent me an angel and provide me an umbrealla! woohoo! (ok audrey, this shows that some singaporean still cares. haha. oh, but the one who sheltered me is a maid. either phillipino or indonesian. haha) it has been quite a few times that i got sheltered, quite "lucky" huh.. or maybe i got that "pitiful" look. heehee. ok next time i will shelter other ple also. pass it on! =) (thats provided that i bring umbrella out, which is very seldom the case. haha!)
anw i watched slumdog millionaire ytd. it was such a GREAT SHOW! (thanks to sirong mentioning it in her blog. haha) decided that i need a break from BOOKS! anw a super duper highly recommended show! (ok i know im q slow, some of u probly have alr watched it. was telling dev abt it and he said that was a long ago show.... -_________-)
the show is very different from normal hollywood show. not much action pact or sound effects. it was a british production featuring the lives in india, particularly the slums. this guy, jamal, who went to a "who wants to be a millionaire" show and through the questions, he began to reveal his life stories. this show really make you feel for the ple in the slums. it makes u realised that there are really things bigger than yourself. like child beggar (how they purposefully amputate and blind the children in the slum who lost their parents and work for the syndicate).. child prostituition... trusting your family member.. holding on to your 1st love etc. ok you should watch it yourself. it is really a very good show. n quite a gross one too. i made me feel so fortunate after watching it.
anw im just thinking. to the children, it might be a good trade off. losing an arm or an eye and gaining a place to stay and stable meals to eat provided from the syndicate, why not? i think they have no sense of human rights, they dun even know that they are entitled to something more in their lives. and i guess thats how terrorism starts. terrorist groups go to those not so well off places with abandoned youths and began to provide for them and "cast a vision" for them so that they can "run and not be weary". (but sometimes they do "faint", thats when they get caught. haha! ok nvm.) instead of countering terrorism, why not go to the root of the problem and solve the poverty problem? ok its easy to talk abt it, but there are really things that are bigger than ourselves. so dont just do your own things.
fast forward >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
i love the ending of the show! it was so touching. when jamal kissed the main actress (latika) on the scar on her face. it was so so so touching. it was more than romantic. by that very kiss, it signifies that he has embraced all her past as a child prostitute, and someone who slept with his (jamal) very own brother and who later the brother sold her off to another man. how jamal persisted on to find latika back and etc.... at that moment, i felt that this is THAT PERFECT LOVE that most ple cant give even to their spouse (common grace in that movie!)
so its a MUST watch movie!! it won 8 oscar awards! (or sth like that) go check it out!
ok i shall reframe myself from the com. wouldnt be blogging next few days. so pls dun &*%&^%^%&%&^ me if you see no updates here. haha. but will blog after my tests! by this weekend. got to study now.
tuesday:
1. understanding the universe (25%!)
2. changing landscape of singapore (13%)
thursday:
1. protein structure and function (20%)
2. immunology (30%!!!!!)
so pls pray for me. that thing that alvin chua told me on the 147 bus ride left a v deep motivation in me. he said "if you want an A, then you got to put in an A effort!" listen to him, a dean's list student. haha. its really true, i scored an A for my pharmocology test after putting in an A effort!alvin, if u happen to read this, yesh im putting in a A effort now! need to pull up my CAP to secure a good honours.
ok here goes the "A student" to study. (hahahha by faith!)
stay tune! =)
