.Saturday, February 28, 2009 ' 1:10 AM Y
im just wondering...
if ever blogger can have this notice status. that inform you, for those people you have linked, "xxxx has just updated his/her blog xxxx hours ago", just like facebook. wouldnt that be nice? so that people will not waste their time to browse through blogs that have not been updated for yesteryears?
oh yes, the very fact that im blogging abt this is that sometimes i feel quite stupid to blog surf and realised everything is still the same. -_-
oops. is it you that im talking about?
(time to log in and start blogging!)
anw have been studying for this one whole week. i feel like a book now, think like a book now. and may even look like one now. 4 tests next week and its all the heavy memory work! argh.... i need to get out before im eaten up by the books! hopefully tml i can catch a movie or sth.
ok i feel like doing some "soul spa" now. time to tuck into my cottony blanket, on that dim reddish light and read some magazines!
good nights.
.Saturday, February 21, 2009 ' 12:38 AM Y
ok i think blogging is addictive. once you blog, you cant stop!
just had a good cgm. at least i think its a gd one. haha.
preached with passion and convictions today. shared abt communication, self-interest and values.
somehow i think im so much better in preaching. i feel more confident when i preached than sing. oh but today, for the 1st time ever in my whole life, someone praised me and said that i have a good voice and i sing very well!!! *rolling on floor*
thanks helga for that comment. be it to fu yan me or for real, at least i felt that my singing can still make it. haha!
i used to think that i have a good voice. in primary school. but as i go to sec sch and onwards, n esp when i came to church listening to all those beautiful voices every week, i realised i cant reli sing. haha! but thank God for giving me the ability to preach well. n i think my preaching skills have improved this year! (some of my mem feedback)
wad did i do? actually nth much.
i just reli believe in wad i preach and the secret to good preaching (at least for me) is mix your preaching with your real (nt fake or cliche) convictions and passion. share personal stories so make it personal. and of course, let the sermon preach to you 1st before you preach it to the members. i tell you, they will know if you really prepare well ant. cant bluff them. haha.
ok thats the end of tonight's "bedtime story". (as quoted fr evelyn)
anw im so into this song:
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL BEYOND DESCRIPTION TOO MARVELOUS FOR WORDS
TOO WONDERFUL FOR COMPREHENSION LIKE NOTHING EVER SEEN OR HEARD
WHO CAN GRASP YOUR INFINITE WISDOM WHO CAN FATHOM THE DEPTH OF YOUR LOVE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL BEYOND DESCRIPTION MAJESTY ENTHRONE ABOVE
AND I STAND, I STAND IN AWE OF YOU I STAND, I STAND IN AWE OF YOU
HOLY GOD TO WHOM ALL PRAISE IS DUE I STAND IN AWE OF YOU
. ' 1:16 AM Y
haha.. some brainless conversation i had with kl. we were talking abt our recreational needs and i volunteered to help him "cast out the spirit of boredom". and this is the "deliverance" process:
(ps: smily faces cant be copy n paste over here. so they are in brackets. put on ur imagination!)
Me says:
father i pray for my brother now, right now in the name of jesus, cast out that spirit of boringness!
me says:
out!
me says:
out!
me says:
out!
he says:
(green face)
he says:
(confused face)
he says:
(crying face)
he says:
(angry red face) -manifesting
me says:
angry red face (staring back at the spirit)
he says:
(roaring face)- roar roar roar
me says:
(confused face)- (confused, maybe not spirit of boredom. wad shd i do now?)
he says:
Play "Pig"
he says:
spirit of boring ness is a pig!
me says:
(clever face) -(oh! i got it! the spirit has went into the swine!)
and it goes on and on.....
this is so brain-less.
waste of time actually.
simply impractical.
maybe this is romance. cz romance involves the impracticals. haha
i simply enjoyed "crapping" with him without my brains on.
=)
. ' 12:02 AM Y
hello everyone! here i am blogging once again! i better write some stuff before my blog become an "abandoned settlement". haha. so much things have happened since i last blog.. which one shd i start with... hmmmmm....
ok lets talk about today!
just came back for a badminton session with KL (oh, i heard that "woah" from u! haha). ok was thinking tt at least we can spend time fulfiling his 3rd need (recreational companionship).. and "jian fei" at the same time.. but ended up we had a 15mins game of badminton and 45 mins of makaning session! haha.. not that we are not motivated, but the wind downstairs was simply too irritating.. so we gave up. so we kinda concluded our overlapping interest is TO EAT!
anw i think pst kong's romance and relationship preaching has take its effects slowly in our relationship. at least he is showing more affection and tries to communicate and talk more. not just making sounds (ah, yee, orh). at least he will purposefully put aside some time and spend special attention and focus on me. yea so pst kong, preach it to the men! sometimes they simply dun get it. haha
well as for my part, definitely i cant fulfil his 1st need, so trying to fulfil his 2nd need (recreational companionship). BUT! i think i have this need more than he does! im the one who wants to do sports tgt, do activities tgt. he is the more lazy type and his recreational time is surfing net and checking out on his ultraman stuff! erm... for me to like ultraman... hmmmm... that will reli take some sacrifices from my side! haha. hope he dun read this. no in fact he SHOULD read this! =p
so after our 15mins of badmintion and 45mins of makaning.. we slowly take a stroll back home (i like long walks with him, esp in the breeze!) and we did the 5 love language test tt evelyn sent tgt! and here are the results in order of 1st to 5th:
KL: words of affirmation, quality time, acts of services, gifts and physical touch (same rank)
HJ: physical touch, quality time, gifts, acts of services, words of affirmation
if u realised, his 1st is my last and my 1st is his last! no wonder he dun uds me and i dun uds him sometimes! i think its v true.. i like being hug and cuddled and being squeezed.. for him.. his man ego will grow expontentially when i say things like "dear you v good-looking today", "dear you are a v gd CGL", "dear you are my hero!" (ok i dun usually say the last one, when i say it, most of the time im joking and playing away. haha!)
(ok, n now he just msg me this: dear! *touch touch touch*) thats funny.
ok enuf of my love life.. recently i think im very into "world view". suddenly im taking interest in wads happening ard me. like wads happening in other countries, wads happening globally.. the plight of the people in diff places etc. all thanks to the national geography that i received every month! n i feel that my mind is expanding everyday when i go for lectures, there is just so much things that we dun know! the more we know, the more we know that we dont know. n when pst tan talk abt self-interest and having a global view, i felt that that was exactly wad i have been thinking abt recently!
it started a few weeks back when i was emo-ing. thinking that why are people so busy until they dun even have the time to care abt the ple ard them. busy having activities to bring an impact, but in fact, their very presence of being there is an impact itself. for that few days, people just seemed so "fake" and "ugly" to me.
anw i pulled myself tgt and moved on. i know that this kinda of thinking cant cling on to me for too long. so i decided to shake this "pest" off my mind. and it started on 3 sundays ago when for the v 1st time in a long long long time, i felt that im reli a CGL...
ok to cut the whole story short, one of my mem actually didnt wana come svc cz he is v busy. so as a v typical CGL, who is always so challenging and convincing, i managed to persuade him to come. so while i was on my way down for svc, i just felt that i need to do sth practical for him instead of just talking those "inspirational words". so i rushed opposite to grab some bread for him and was late for svc. so when i passed him the bread aft svc telling him to eat this while he continue rushing fr place to place aft svc, at that moment i felt a small still voice inside of me telling myself: "huijuan, this is the very reason why you are a CGL, cause you care for your people". i felt good aft this, and it reli brings me back to the time when i started out, with just a pure simple heart wanting to love and care for God's people. so with this, i shake off that emo-ing thought and moved on, telling myself not to be so inward-looking and look out for the interest of others. and i guess all things just come tgt well.. when i read abt the plight of those north koreans, how they fight so hard to get out of their cty, my heart just goes out for them. and when pst tan mentioned abt global warming etc, just felt that there are so many things that are BIGGER than yourself! dun just coop yourself in your little small world and think that you are alr doing alot! the earth is still revolving with or without you!
went for an honours talk today. i like wad the post-graduates say: "you must be teachable and big capacity to be a honours student. when you take honours, it is not about the information that you can find out, but the most you can find out about is actually youself." v true. sometime i feel some NUS students oli study and study and study somemore! no capacity for anything else in their life! ok i will go on rantlessly if i talk abt NUS students. so i shall just stop here. haha.
still thinking if i reli wana go into research field. but im having a growing interest in it now. as for now, just remain open to whatever options available =)
anw i think God is so amazing. i like wad im studying now. all the science modules with one understanding the universe module (yes, that one that zhanwei took before, that made his blogskin so "universe" some time ago. haha) in every era, God just put people here and there to make some amazing discoveries that contribute to the advancement of mankind! for eg galileo who invented the telescope, that guy who come out with radiotelescopes, that guy who discovered vacinations, that guy who managed to find a cure for that disease, this and that (ok im saying "that guy" cause their names are simply difficult to rem and i haven reli start studying yet!) anw people just made histories with their curiosity+perserverance! i believe maybe 100 years down the road, steve job (that apple guy) will be one of the person that is frequently mentioned in lectures. and those computing students will have more stuff to learn and memo becz of him! haha!
ok this is a reli reli long post, to compensate for all the "missing blogs" for abt 1 mth! hope that will keep you "well-fed" till i blog again..
next week is mid sem break! nt reli a break. have 4 tests in a week imd after that. hallelujah!
do tag me before the blog is going to be classified as "endangered species" and slowly into "extinct"! haha
=)
