.Tuesday, December 23, 2008 ' 12:05 AM Y
it's the time of the year again... Christmas.
When it comes to Christmas, i have mixed feeling about it.
I used to (i think i still like it now) like Christmas alot! with all the lightings and deco, snowy and chilling weather.. presents and parties.. and like what is always depicted in the drama.. Christmas is a fun cosy homely romantic happy joyful occasion.
But as i grow up.. or rather when i become a christian, a CGL.. somehow Christmas took on a new definition.
Christmas now is organising CG party.. collecting attendance.. sending forecast.. inviting friends.. doing follow-ups.. getting souls saved etc. Christmas now has a bigger and more purposeful meaning. at least im impacting someone's life for eternity =)
However in the midst of doing all these things, i realised i do not have the left over energy and time to do what i really really really want to do for Christmas.
i wish that i can buy lots and lots of presents for my friends and my family. i dont have the time, i dont have the money!)
i wish that i can plan and organise a really homely and cosy party with my close friends. i dont have the energy.
i wish i can go overseas to some snowing country, or at least some colder countries to experience the Christmas feel. i dont have the break to do so. holiday is soon gona be over.
i wish i can receive lots of presents from people. oh well.. normally i dont get any.
somehow.. i feel Christmas is a lonely season. with all the festive lights and celebration going on.. i dun feel much of a celebrational mood. when i look around, i reli dun have much friends to hang around with.
Christmas is my Lord's birthday. its meant to be celebrated with joy and thankfulness. and indeed im very thankful for Jesus's birth on this special day. but taking it out of the church and christian context, Christmas seems to be dissapointing every year.
ok, maybe i watched too much drama. maybe i have a high expectation of Christmas.
ok this post seems kinda depressing. if you are reading this, sorry to dampen your Christmas mood a little. but ya, merry Christmas to you, to myself.
=)
.Wednesday, December 03, 2008 ' 1:24 PM Y
HI READERS! IM BACK!!!
so sorry for not updating for yester-years... you know once u stop blogging for a long time, u'l need lots of motivation to blog again.. ha
anw here are some recent updates:
1. EXAMS ARE OVER!! (that's like very long ago on the 2nd Dec. hee. results gona be out on 23rd Dec! why must it be before xmas -_-)
2. CG Christmas and thanksgiving party was last saturday!
3. Zone leaders thanksgiving was last sunday!
. . . well actually there's not much updates too, cause i think i've been slacking after exams! hee
things i wana do this hols:
1. go CHEK JAWA!
2. go HOLIDAYssSS!! anyone got suggestions? anyone wana come along too? ha
3. go FARM visits!! (Mr KL, stop postponing this! =p)
4. go iceskating!
5. i realised actually i dun have much time to do all these... =(
ok my mind is blank now. shall update again. ha! buai!
