.Tuesday, July 12, 2005 ' 9:44 PM Y
woo~~~ no nid to see principal! ha. tts lk my oli truly wish for tis jct. even so.. my results wun tt perfect either.. i'll work harder not jz to gt a pass.. but much more than that. =)
i realised time is reli reli running short. (thanks to mr ng for e knock in my head.) less than 10 wks to prelims.. wow.. tts lk less than a term.. n im in e middle of nowhere.. uds abit here abit there.. topics here n there left uncovered.. i'll mk sure i reli work doubly.. no triply hard for prelims. so for those out there wandering in their lost souls.. now is a good time to get ur soul back into ur body.
sianz. tot spa is over for me. gona retake bio spa skill c. nvm.. its a free chance tt cost me nth but allows me to score better. how optimistic.. (im still sians tho..)
todae pe was lk... "fun"! i did climbed over gate before.. tried climbing trees.. but it nv occur in my mind tt i wan to climb longkang before.. n todaes pe gave me e chance to do it "legally". ha. hmm it was tough.. but fun.. n all e gers made tru it. gt small scratches on my knees.. now still abit red red.. hopefuly can still were skirt. ha. it oso displayed a spirit of unity.. i jz liked it.. nt e part of being "tortured".. but all these reminds me of those tough trainings in my uniform grp daes loooong time ago. i guess ms naomi tan wasnt reli in gd mood.. kana scolded n punished for no obvious reasons.. n mk us run round tt private estate.. mk all e dogs barked at us.. (i guess e dogs r communicating among emslf.. wonderin hu r these mad gers dg there in e hot tuesday afternn.) it was kinda a memorable grp pe session.. gttin in longkang.. n running admist e melody of e dog's barkings.. dead lizard.. ha. so for those hu r gttin ms naomi tan for ur pe cher.. jz a piece of warning for u here. bless you.
im turning 18 in 2 hrs' time....
18 means..........
i can watch m18 movies!
i can buy beer. (nt as if i will. ha.)
im left w 2 more yrs of teenagehood.
im gttin older.
im no longer 17.
im turning 19 next yr.
i nd to grow. (nt in physical size i mean. dun wish to anw.)
but im jz 18. ha.
long way to go.
excited for tml. hee.
.Wednesday, July 06, 2005 ' 11:28 PM Y
got back jct results. hmm... well.. thk oli maths was ok. (i wonder if maths toppin in class oli happens during jcts. ha. i wan it durin As! ha.) other than tt all fall below my expectation. haven gt back gp. hope i'll pass tt n its cleared! ha.
i've learnt. allowing peace to dwell in me. thank God. im more an optimist now. =) though my results might nt be e ones i wanted.. i still give thanks. i thank Him for all e wonders He had done. even if my results arent tt gd, i'll take it as a signal from God tt im heading towards e wrong direction.
1st time ever in my life i hf fasted. hmm.. stil nt reli use to it. will stil be tempted by food. by i'll turn my physical hunger to spiritual hunger. somehow i felt im growing more n more in Lord. gt tis hunger to noe more of Him n dwell in His presence. oso went for wow todae. hmm.. nt bad. a min cell grp. but oli noe a few ple there. ha. somehow gt tis tot inside me. since my church pastors r willing to go to e extend to sacrifice during their sch days, we can do e same. moreover wow is alr a platform tt is set up. jz nid to gather more ple n revival will come to tj one day. will be gg for tjc-chc prayer meetin on fri. hope it'll be an enlightening n freshing one. =)
celebrated xw's bd todae. was so fun. tho we did nth much but jz hang ard in canteen takin stupid photos. but tts wad mks it so fun. ha. lk tt part where everyone tk turns to tk foto n tt foto where xw herslf gona tk foto of us. ha. love u guys! has been a long time since we r reli tgt lk todae. but a pity is tt jf n zx always din join. reli hope tt they'll join for e next celebration. eh? isnt tt mine? hee. hope to reli tk a quan jia fu den. 1 thg im so glad tt isaac is backed! backed to us! despite all those unhappy incidents n conflicts, we hf proved tt we r still one big family tt bear no grudges of one another. thanks isaac, for making e picture more complete. =) (equation proven! hee.) other than hoping for a true reunion of dsc one dae.. another more impt one is to hope tt all of em will gain salvation one day. how nice will tt be. we'll meet agn in heaven one day! saw caleb's blog tokin abt tis too.. somehow feel tt we can somehow somewhat bring revival to dsc.. i duno how. but i noe its tru God's way. jem, reli n sincerely u wun backslide but slide back to Him.. come back to enjoy His love n peace agn tgt. hope u can reli mk it for tis wkend. i jz love e dsc ple. feel tt i din reli spen much time durin hols n even b4 hols w u guys.. duno wad im bz with oso.. ha.. miss u guys loads. todae was reli great. =) i jz cnt imagine wads life in tj wout u guys. guess it'll be reli dull. thanks so much for making my tj life so much much wonderful. sometimes i jz wished we can go back to e dsc times where we can hf more chances to gt tgt.. i promised i'll be more committed n more enthu. ha. guess i've missed out q alot last time. but im glad im backed into e pic n din miss out much more. true reunion will come one dae. i just love u guys so much.. we'll continue to be a bunck of fun-loving ple yea~~ (woa.. jz look at e length of tis para.. u guys wil noe how much i love u all. ha.)
as for class... hmm.. well.. i wld sae its nt as bad. jz tt its kinda bits n pieces here. we'll piece all these tgt one dae. since we can do it in e 1st 3 mths, we can again. all we hf to do is to piece it back. somehow i gt tis feeling tt i wana tk up tt challenge agn.. since after tt hawker incident n cny carnival.. jz wana let e class bcum "wholesome" agn.. i duno if tis will sd so fake to others or they'll jz thk juan is trying to act or sth.. tongues might start wagging.. i duno. but Lord noes n He'll do it for me. i dun care wad ple will say abt me.. cz tis is MY class.. i hf ownership over it. it belongs to me n all of us. we jz nid to move a little small step closer. nt tt difficult. we can do it.. as long as someone initiates to take a step forward.. ple will den tk subsequent steps closer. of cz i noe i cnt do it by myslf.. i nid ple to help me along. actually i see sl's effort in designing class tee.. he has been cumin up w so mani designs.. but no one actually go n do it. tis time i will. i will do it. i'll tk tis as a chance. thanks sl.. i see ur effort. tho ur no longer in e same class.. i feel ur spirit w us.. n tts wad ple call e class spirit. =) jz wana mk 25/04 a better living place.. it has always been a gd one. it can be better. i love u guys too.. n love nv fails. tj life has been great in 25/04.. u guys i hf met bring me different kinda laffter n memories.. im nt gg to forsake all those. cummon, be a class, one whole class.
tis is specially dedicated to those hu r affected by jct results.. feel tt maybe i can help in sayin sth.. butif it doesnt help.. i blif u can help urslf better than i do. =) look back at ur education life n see how mani tests n exams u hf taken.. so wads jct? its not more than a feedback system. its jz a way to signal u tt u r heading e wrong path. wrong study methods. wrong time management. n since u've acknowledge wad u shdnt hf done, do sth to it. nt jz acknowledge. our ultimate aim is A-levels.. til den we will emerge as true conquerors in our nation.. nt jz in tj. 2 more mths to prelims n 4 more to A-levels.. theres stil time. dun waste it agn. it nv come back. above all... be an optimist! no harm being one rite? it wun take away one piece of ur flesh or suck ur blood.
woa.. tis is a long blog yea~~ ha.
i pray tt tis new term will be an enriching one.. nt oli in terms of studies.. but my walk w God.. n my sch life..
i pray tt family will gt out of all those sicknesses we had. reli e whole fam is down w different kinda illness. out u go satan! theres no place for u here!
i pray tt those ard me will eventually gt to noe God n return to Him.
i pray n i pray.......
im a happy ger. =)
.Friday, July 01, 2005 ' 12:37 AM Y
seems lk ple r asking me to update my blog. ha. k. i'll let u guys read sth den.
after jct.nt e end. jz e beginning. beginning of endless mugg n stress. but meanwhile im nt gg to care.. at least for these 5 days.. im gg to play n slack til i drop dead. haven reli plan wad to do for e nx 5 daes.. seems lk gt thgs to do.. but all nt confirm de.. here n there.. shall see. ha. hmm.. wld lk to go shopping! before gss ends. n movies! hmm.. n dsc! see u guys ard in sch these few daes but din reli gt e chance to catch up w u guys.. we gona rock tgt yea~~ =) actually stil wana catch up w class ple.. but class seems so separated.. or m i separated fr them?
wad i've learnt fr jct.1. always check wads tested n e format of e paper!
2. if u r alr prepared.. wads most impt next to to reli get gd rest.
3. try nt to adapt to a stay-up-late routine.
4. its nt jz enuf to study n practise standard questions.. go out of ur own study comfort zone n challenge rslf to do more diff qns to bring urslf up to higher level.. (tis is wad i learnt fr jct chem paper. ha. but of cz provided u've gt e time to settle w e very basic.)
5. always hf a source of motivation.
6. try not to fall sick during mugg n exam periods.
7. exams period is e period when u seems to neglect ple ard u. esp family.
8. admist of all e mugg.. time can be stil squeezed out for impt thgs. we are e manager of our own time.
9. oh ya! i've learnt tt our sch lt n hall are cold. so learn to bring a jacket during exams. ha.
10. most imptly.. i've learnt how to depend on God, my mighty provider. my heart n my flesh might fail but i can alwz depend on His strength in me.. tru me.
well actually no big deal.. its jz a jct.. my ultimate aim n goal is A levels. reli gona slowly pace myslf up towards prelims n A levels.. (SAN. pacemaker. ha.) ..thkin to apply for social work scholorship.. so tt means it gona req my prelims results.. well.. jz thkin abt tis.. shall see how if i reli wana settle for social work as major. yesh~~ dreams n visions.. young men shall see visions n old men sahll dream dreams..
theory of electron cloud being challenged.actually wana catch up w class ple tis wk de.. esp so after 1 mth of hols.. esp e gers.. but.. aiya.. dun seems to hf e chance.. or shd i say.. im being excluded? jz gt tis feeling.. duno if they r havin tis thkin tt one being attached is always..or shd be spendin time w e other one. if tts e case.. im afriad they r wrong. i wld lk to stil spen time w my class ple n other gers. so dun assume tt im always busy with him, if tts e case. class gers clique seems to be growing bigger n bigger.. it jz seems lk chem bonding.. electron cloud getting bigger n bigger.. but is it as easily distorted as well? hmm.. duno. sometimes i'll jz feel excluded. wadeva e case.. i stil treasure all of u. =)
yawns..
sleepy...
but still dun wan slp..
cz its after jct!
must mk tis day seems longer. hee.
* give thanks to the Holy God.give thanks to the Holy one.give thanks.. because its given. *
