Monday, July 23, 2007

today felt like a dream.

haha. the day i have been looking forward to for so long, the match and all.

we lost it all just like that.

but i had to admit that the other team wanted the win more badly then us and thus deserved the win. :)

anyway, i just want to thank all the people who have been supporting me all these days throughout the competition. thank you for putting in so much time and effort. i also want to thank all the vjc supporters who came down and we really really appreciated it. i'm sorry we just let you people down.

so fast, the season is over. i'm just very proud of my team who has fought so hard. at the beginning of the year when the cca just started i would have never thought that we would come so far. so many of us picked up the sport this type, overcame many conflicts and stood together as a team. that i'm proud to say. :)

i have learnt a lot from the competition. i promise i will not make the same mistakes again and i will lead the team better next year.

VJC floorball, all the way!

on the other hand, thanks to the group of people i went to meet after the match who cheered me up so much. you all are really the best. :)

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

today is a bad day for me.

not because we lost the match.

just a very bad day.

i think the team fought very hard today. proud of them.

many people were unhappy with the gameplay and how rough it was. i too myself am unhappy.

but that's all part and parcel of 'sports'.

they became the champions. i hope they're sastisfied with it after all that has happenned. :)

i was quite pissed off by the facts that some vjc students from a certain CCA group actually supported the other school due to reasons of which i do not know of. i mean can we put all these inter-cca conflicts aside and at least show our school some respect for once? haha oh well. speak of loyalty.

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

IJC guys are really great inspiration.

their determination to win was proven on the court.

they are my favourite team as of now, apart from the vjc team. haha.

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Friday, July 13, 2007

i just received news of my final grades for my main subjects.

Maths - S
Physics - S
Economics - S
Chemistry - E

by the way, S grade means 30%-44% and E grade means 45%-54%.

i have never failed so many subjects before in my life. i feel quite sad that i studied away my holidays and get much worse grades than those who study much much lesser. i think it's the way i study. i don't practise enough. but i'm just so sad about the results. life really isn't fair.

anyway, i really studied my hardest for the mid-years. i'm glad i did. i don't care if my pride has been shaken, but at least i know i didn't slack. i don't care if others such as friends or teachers think that i didn't study or that i'm quite loser that i study hard but fare so badly.

because i know i did my utmost best. :)

but the best just wasn't enough...

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

OMG. i posted this post in the wrong blog AGAIN. i accidentally posted it in the floorball blog. =\

here it is anyway...

i made a BIG FAT stupid mistake today.

that was to go for PE lessons, just because they were playing floorball.

the 'smart' me fell down, sprained my wrist and hurt my butt real bad.

i was so depressed over my stupid act that i went to this secluded area in school to think over it for like 1hour. i prayed real hard that my wrist would recover.

thankfully it did recover to a certain extent.

i'm just so glad i survived the match with my sprained wrist and injured butt. i didn't dare to tell the coach or any of the guys about it till after the match. even though i didnt managed to score any goals, i'm still quite happy and thankful that at least i could play. the team did really well today and i believe they can keep up the form.

praise the Lord!

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Monday, July 09, 2007

i really didn't expect us to draw for today's match.

i haven't really gotten over it yet. we had like 2 disallowed goals in which the referee's decision was questionable.

i played quite horriblely, and to think i only realised after the match. haha i can expect myself to get benched for the competition.

BUT.

i will still praise God for the match. :)

i know he has the best installed for the future.

i believe today's draw served it's purpose well, that is to give the team a wake-up call and not be complacent.

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

tommorrow is finally the competition day.

haha. i can't believe im entering the competition without my number 9 as the printer forgot to print my number. i took 14 which was one of the remaining 2 numbers left.

i really am hoping for the best.

i have no idea what's installed in the future.

but whatever it is, i will praise God when we win a match and still praise God even if we lose a match.

i will leave everything to Him.

i hope i will be a good testimony throughout the competition.

God please make me strong as i'm weak.

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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i felt like shit today, literally.

i got back my maths results only to find out that i got last in class, in addition, i was the only one that failed. i got 40 marks my dear friends. i was having mixed emotions. i didn't know how i should be reacting because i was always one of the top few in upper sec class and this has NEVER happenned before in my life.

i seriously wished i wasn't in my present class. i feel really dumb. the only subject i can beat those PRC scholars is GP. and wait, did i mention before that i did not have time to finish my GP essay. right.. getting 40marks in my present class is like a terrible thing. argh. then again, changing class before that wouldn't have helped much anyway.

i really hate it when people say or think that i never study hard enough or even study for my maths. it's despicable. in fact i spent 3weeks of my holidays studying and training at the same time. they just don't know. i'm just not very good at grasping concepts on my own.. and yes, i feel even more stupid when i study hard and get such shitty results. argh. i should have just slacked my holidays away, perhaps going on my photography outings and expeditions which i havent had in a long while.

why? why? why are the people around me so smart.. that's the price i have to pay for going to VJC. i miss the 'normal' people in VS, so we can all be 'normal' together rather than being the 'abnormal' one.

and yeah. i dropped the class' birthday cake today. it was literally smashed. so sorry xianglin, i wasn't quite thinking properly due to certain stuffs.

HAHA. okay, enough of those rambling. i just needed to let it out. somehow, i could manage my emotions today, like not show it and also not be that affected by it in school. afterall, training for competition is more important. i rather focus on that part and be a good captain.

i was rather happy today over another incident. im so happy i obeyed, even though i was rather scared and doubtful.

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

GOOD NEWS! I PASSED MY CHINESE TO THE SHOCK OF MY MANY LOVELY SCHOOL FRIENDS WHO DOUBTED MY ABILITY TO DO SO. HAHA. kidding about the school friends part.

BAD NEWS!

my maths is really DEAD. my teacher came to me just to say my maths was terrible and asked if i studied! haha. what a nice comment!

training these few days is really madness. we're like running 4.8km EVERYDAY before training, not to forget the suicide shuttle runs. and oh yes. i think i might not be in the starting line for the competition. ahh shit. haha. so sorry to those people who want to come and support me. all thanks to my massive deprovement. :D and i seem so jubilant about it.

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Monday, July 02, 2007

help me to pull through, Lord..

make me strong in my fraility.

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