Who is that girl I see, staring straight back at me?

Why must we all conceal what we think, how we feel, must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
...I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time..

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

instead of anatomy..

>>Blood Saves life..

'i dont drink blood, i donate blood'



2 weeks of break! wohoo! but sadly d 2nd week's almost comin 2 and end....no! and i am yet to get much of studyin done (did u get any?err....)

having random stuff on my head is kinda on the way of anatomy so y dont i get it out..see if it helps.lol

~parasitic activity kinda increasing day by day..will i be conquered? struggling to fling it away
~the burns hurt! how could i be so careless?
~wondering wat's my moon doing at this hour?
~thinking of when i should bake a carrot cake
~missing home quite a bit
~why things go the way they are going..guess its all for a reason
~did i make the right choice?
~why isnt JPA replying my mail...arrghh..
~hate the lighting in my room>>spoiling my eyes! =(
~missing mi Ford 5 gals
~i should eat more vege..and drink heaps more of water
~excited bout Kumar anne's wedding
~worried bout my moon
~disappointed that i din go to d gym today
~why people fall in love? knock knock..no answer?
~why did positive pics close down?
~should change my bedsheet
~isnt there any site to download 'get low'
~why some people just dont get that someone's not interested? how more obvious i can get?
~trust is virginity
~missing my hometown buddies
~have a changed since i was 18?
~wats plans for Winter break..dunno
~Happy Birthday Neelu
~losing his mum...must be hard for him
~friendship or love? friendship!

i guess i digged out most of it out of my brain lobes..try get some anatomy in.

Ta...

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

First year in Dunedin, New Zealand...

What i find different there compared to Malaysia?

1. They usually say dinner as dinner..it's tea time.(when's dinner then?lol)
2. You don't bathe..only shower.
3. What's liquid paper? its called twink(that's how its spelled i think) peeps
4. Shower once a day? ewww..
5. People wash dishes in mild soapy water..and no rinsing after that!
6. Sun's out, time to be bare footed on the streets.
7. Enjoying the sun? Just chuck your couches out and jump on it.
8. Fashion Buzz..u wear skirt on pants.
9. The newspaper is town specific!
10. Mandarin oranges are called mandarins (er..that's a language..isn't it?)
11. Those coming from Malaysian are Malays..not Malaysian.(I'm a Malay Indian.lol)
12. The only way to have fun is to get drunk and wasted!
13. raisins? no no..its sultanahs.
14. Everyone's warm and friendly..even strangers go..'hey, how is it going?'
15. Dominos only have large pizzas
16. 24/7 shops are called dairies.
17. You don't say house..u say flat. get it? lol
18. What's SMS? drop me a TEXT k..
19. Discounts are actually real discounts..clothes which were pricy will actually drop down.time to shop! lol
20. Sandwiches for lunch? aren't they like snacks..?
21. method of advertising: all you need is a chalk! and you scribble on the streets. See!

I kinda had a culture shock when i got back to Malaysia but i've adjusted..back to being a pure Malaysian i think.lol. Soon i've gotta start Kiwi life again..lol.

Welcome home to all those who have got back to Malaysia! its good to be back!

Saturday, October 20, 2007

I used to...

...collect stickers.
...have a crush on my neighbour guy.
...be obese.
...hate kangkung.
...tie my pony tail with rubber band.
...write letters to my pen pal.
...not wear sneakers when i go out.
...love junk food.
...play red alert.
...sleep early.
...never wear sleeveless tops.
...sleep in the toilet.
...read sweet valley high.
...be scared of cockroaches.
...like bananas and potatoes.
...lose my patience easily.
...have a study time table.
...bite my nails till it bleeded.
...watch power rangers.
...have a boy friend.
...be crazy bout Prashanth.
...not like long skirts.
...never wear belts.
...not drink coffee.
...watch Akademi Fantasia.
...gayut on the phone for hours.

There are things bout me that have changed.. I have grown..lol

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Selfish Friend

someone said i might be feeling lonely? may i know who's the someone? ur not gonna tell, r u? u n he are my good friends (well at least i tot so) but that doesnt mean that ur my ONLY friends..i can live without u guys if u can..

I din even ask wat it is? how dare u say that..i asked. I asked u, i asked him. None of u were gonna tell me, all i got was 'come back, we'll talk bout it'. Fine..then stop messaging me n saying things that can hurt one's feelings, especially when I'm bout to have my exams.

Wat a blunder i am? man..that sounds soothing. doesn't it? I'm being childish? excuse me, i'm not the one hearing stuff from ppl n trusting them n doubting a friendship which pretty much has gone through lots of things. I have the guts to talk to u face to face, i doubt u have it. its always been like that..u say u wana talk but u never do when the time comes..so look at urself before u say things like that.

Its always been only bout me? may i know wats that suppose to mean? u n he enjoy saying that so much huh..but i dun get y. Care to explain? U guys pretty much know it hurts but u still do it..ah...maybe now i get why u say it. Well u can go on saying it but I'm already hurt quite a bit that it can no longer hurt worse unless u come up with something else.

Ppl say many things bout me? u live on what people say bout others huh? is that it? n they're my own goos friends? do u know my own good friends? good friends dun say bad things bout friends..if they do, they're not even friends. so i'm assuming ur trusting things from strangers..that's wise of u.

i'm actually lost of words..if go on i might just burst into tears (I"M SELFISH, WHAT ELSE CAN I DO? right friend? JAISHREE=SELFISH) do u wana be friends with a selfish gal like me? do u?

lastly, no matter if we r still friends or not after this, i'll still give back ur frienship keychain. U can give it to someone less selfish or more worthy..thanks for giving me the privilege of having it all this while. Thanks friend..

Thursday, October 11, 2007

goodbye forever

Hey there..i got ur message. Sadly i din have credit and happily i din coz i wouldnt have replied to u either. I have no clue of what ur talking bout and I'm sick of asking you wat it is. You're making me feel like I'm the worst friend a person can have and I don't think i'm entitled to that. Its so generous of you to accept me for who i am but you dont have to make do with my 'weakness' or my 'evilness' and bare with me. You deserve better people and friends in your life which you already have heaps. So i guess this is the end to our friendship...Don't worry, I'm not lonely here..never. I've got great flatmates n friends around me. Thanks though for ur concern. You have a great life and all the best to you in wateva u do.Its time our pathways split for good..bye.

Monday, June 18, 2007

Wake up Lazy Bum!

As expected..I started a new blog n ended up killing it half way. I'm lazy!

Exams are over n since I'm just too free(shaking legs) some blogging shouldn't do harm..

er..I'll start tomoro though. lol

Thursday, March 8, 2007

DuNeDiN's WhiTe GhOsT

Dunedin's weather is extremely unpredictable! but what's even freaky is 'what' you see walking on the streets..just inches away from you! It can be ur worst nightmare...except that its happening not at nite.

The day started off bright. It was pretty hot and windy (nothing surprising in Dunedin). Chem lecture turned out to be boring coz it wasn't by Mr.Maggie but Mr.SemiBld. We should have left at the beginning. Lost, I was during Physics lecture! Simple Harmonic Motion???? How come something I've learnt before seem so hard and blur to me? Something was wrong..but i never thought it could have got any worse..

Lunch time! As we (molly, Tharma and I) stepped out of the lecture hall, it was raining! (now, that's a surprise in Dunedin!) None of us were prepared for the rain. No umbrellas, no hoots! Luckily my jacket was there to safe us..at least the 2 of us. Jacket over our heads and off we were back to City Coll..

Then we saw 'it'...or 'him'..or 'her'...

Just a few inches away from us it was. Moving at a slightly faster pace than we were. Molly and I slowed down.. a white figure..with 2 legs but no hands! We could never tell what it was ..But it scared the hell out of us..

an imaginary picture of what we encountered on that day

only legs..where's the arms?

We had no choice but to walk behind it..widening the gap between 'it' and us. oh my God, where did Tharma @ Big T go? We got even more worried..We lost him! There was no way we were turning back to go find him. You can never tell what's behind us..

Finally, we reached City coll..The white figure turned back, and there was a bright glow! It blinded us..and vanished!

Dunedin's rain not only brought us by susprise but it horrified us..No wonder people say that it hardly rains here, no one wants to mention bout the white ghost that appears when the rain come down...