Wow!!!!

Not a bad day since August 15th. I am not sure why but sooooo very greatful. Maybe this has something to do with it. http://joe-ali.blogspot.com/

Why?

I just don't know why. It isn't mine to figure out, just to fight each day and work as hard as I can. I have a medical condition known as bipolar disorder. I am not bipolar. I am Joe Freeman and this struggle might be with me my whole life but it isn't me. I am Joe. Giving in or giving up isn't the answer. My God loves me, my family loves me and I love me too.

Hey I am back.

Since my last post many things have happened and I don't know just how to describe it. Some things were good and other were not.

A challenge for a bipolar person is to now when they are going down or up and fight w/pdocs, exercise, sleep patterns and so on. This too will pass is something that I tell myself often and I have to because being bipolar isn't easy. It is the toughest challenge that I have ever taken on (I really had no choice.). I am going to have to fight it till I reach 100 years of age.

I have been working hard to make things up for my kids. A divorce is the last thing imaginable but my kids are great and need my love. It definitely wasn't their fault. I love each and everyone of them. Zack 15, Zoey & Zane 11, Quinn 7.

Sometimes.....

Sometimes you just have to say "What the hell!" kinda like saying "can I get an AMEN?". The life of a bipolar person is never steady. This is rule #1. After hours, days & months of ready bipolar blogs I can tell you that even the most cared for patient cannot be controlled or be steady. We all want to fire our p-doc and see if this new doc has the answers for me. They don't and we continue going up and down.
Oh how I pray for a cure. It has destoyed everything I love. Life is too short not to atleast have control of ones self. Choa.