Silent words

It's true when they say you never realize how much a person truly means until they're gone.

Read this from LeLove and it is so so true.

All those nights of tears should come to an end.

I have to learn to stand up from where I fell down.

And I am hoping that one day will come soon whereby my heart no longer cry silently..

I need your prayer on this.

Take Care - To The Loved One

The relationship has came to an end.
No more late night callings for sweet talk nor the fights over the phone.
Even now,I still remember we both laughed at the jokes he told in the phone.
Phone bill wasn't something that we really bother at that time.
Distance is what makes us differently as a couple.

Words can't describe how much we used to have.
Memories kept them all.
When you graduated,I was there feeling so so proud of you.
When I graduated,you were there and you bought me flowers for the first time since we have been together.
We were there for each other during the important moments of our life at least.
We never failed to say I love you to each other.Countless time...

It was our 47th monthsaries.
We had another phone call as a celebration.A different one.
That was the time when we both agreed to let go of each other.
I can't be selfish anymore.
And sorry for all the mistakes that I have made in this relationship.
Thanks for being there for me through the ups and downs for the past 3 years.
Glad that you allowed me to be part of your life.Being once a precious babe of yours.

I am having a heavy heart now.
I am so used to having you.
Merely survived through the first day of adjusting myself.Here I am writing.
And I have to continue the battle tomorrow- to get used to the fact that we are no longer together.
This city is lonely without having you on the other end of the phone.

You could have been having a better life without me.
Perhaps it's really unfair for you to see me grow and take care of me.
The next girl deserves to own your love more rather than me.
I thought one day you could be the one on the other end of the aisle waiting and whom my father will hand me over to you.
Its never going to happen....

We both need time to heal.
And this will be the last time to say this : I love and loved you...

This Blog of Hers

I nearly forgot about this blog.It seems like I always use the same opening each time I started to write.
That day a friend of mine asked me why have I stopped blogging.And guess what is the reason that I gave him?
The blog has become too negative.
I felt sorry because I only spill sad things in here.
I am gonna rectify it then.
In another 29 days to come,I am gonna turn 24.
Getting older means you have to be more mature.
Well,its time for the little flower to bloom....

Nowhere

心情低落到不能再低落。。。
还可以再低吗？
我不知道自己可以负荷多久。
困在里头，好难受。
我钻不出这个无底洞。
已经不知道自己该怎么走前面的路了。
累到一个不行。
我想不到要用什么话来形容此时此刻的心情。
不敢再梦想了。
什么都不敢想。。
只想闭上眼睛，从此不要再想了。
连最亲近的人都无法了解。
这条路似乎无法回头了。
是我自己造成的。
没得怪谁。
谁能帮助我？
好难受！！！

Disciplinism

My life has no discipline at all.
I can't keep a routine life.
At times I will skip applying lotion,toner or even moisturizer.
At times,I will binge on junk food.
Being not disciplined,contribute to major failure in my life.
Even reading God's word is also like this.
tsk tsk.
Time to pray for a more discipline life.
A short and simple,quick post.Am gonna go back to work.
Aftermath of a tired working life.

The Libra

天秤给人的感觉，永远是气质优雅，好像不会生气，总是很温和的态度，对谁都很好的。其实私底下，也只会在很亲近的人面前表现出懒散的、无理取闹的样子。秤子都是比较理性的，很少会感情用事，不太会拒绝人，在衡量中会给人犹豫不定的感觉，如果给她一点时间，那绝对的会很干脆利落。

也许永远没有人能明白，到底天秤有多麼的嘴硬。如果没有人进入天秤的心看一看，那麼天秤便是自私的，不可理喻的。或者只有世界末日那一天，所有爱过秤子的人才会恍然大悟，原来秤子曾给了自己从来不曾有过的爱，不可取代的爱。

天秤座的人喜欢和没有心机的人交朋友，就是那种为朋友两肋插刀的那种，一旦成了朋友，秤子就把你归为自己人，在他的控制范围内了，那样有时候会给那些人带来困饶，因为觉得秤子太粘，感觉不太对味。其实天秤心理明白付出不一定有回报，但是，作为天秤来说，寧愿别人负我，也决不负人。

无论你想做什麼，你的想法如何，都请坦白的告诉她。天秤座能包容你的任何缺点唯独不能忍受被欺骗。你可能觉得无所谓的一次撒谎会让你永远的得不到天秤座的真心，失去这个真诚的朋友。在天秤座的世界裡，非对即错，澄澈分明。

天秤是个具有理想主义和现实主义的星座，他们因为喜欢在一件事情上犹豫很久，给别人的感觉就是性格极其矛盾，复杂到了无法理解。而其实，天秤的内心是很单纯的，他们追求的也是最平凡的快乐，只是太多的是是非非让心迷失了方向，於是出现了迟疑与踌躇不前，只希望最亲密的人能够体谅，如果不但不包涵，反而不停的催促著，丝毫不理会他们的想法，那麼，善良的天秤也只能用沉默来表达不满和鬱闷了。

天秤座容易相信别人、容易被骗，很在乎朋友亲人又常常懒得联繫、很宅懒得走动，要不很沉默内敛、要麼高兴起来让人觉得很傻，喜欢很开心的笑、其实很多时候不知道为了什麼而开心。要嘛很洁癖、要嘛就是环境毁灭者，吃软不吃硬、喜欢装坚强。最嚮往自由、特别情绪化、宽容、怕被欺骗、毒舌。厌恶和别人一样、双重人格、外表给人的感觉很开朗活泼，实际很内向、特别敏感、脆弱。但是真的遇到打击又特别坚强、真的很坚强，就算是装的..。

当天秤为你流泪的时候、天秤深爱著你，如果有一天、天秤不再为你流泪了、那是天秤的心受伤了、也慢慢学会放弃，后来、连心痛也失去知觉。没有放不下东西、伤心了自然会放下，你若不珍惜、天秤亦不爱，等到某月某日、变成陌生人、那就什麼都没了。那时天秤会对你说：祝你幸福！你就带著这句话、离开吧。

天秤座很简单、不喜欢跟别人去争些什麼、吵些什麼、除非真的忍无可忍。看似坚强、其实平静的外表下内心很容易受伤。会偽装、即使遍体鳞伤还是会假装一副无所谓的样子。越长大、会越坚强、也会越脆弱。会在经歷一些很大的事情时时常会很坚强，可却会为了一件小事哭得撕心裂肺。其实并不坚强、是因为试图掩饰自己。也不是脆弱、只是偽装得太久、一旦有一个导火线就会引爆，所以请相信、天秤没有那麼坚强、也没有那麼脆弱。

天秤座对最亲最爱的人容易暴走脾气、特别不好，对外人从来和善、常被人说好。天秤废话很多、在对话过程中不知不觉就会把自己的想法强加在别人身上！

天秤死要睡觉、常常迟到健忘、对大多数人和事不上心，不在意周围、太自我，忽冷忽热会有冷淡期、让朋友受不了。

天秤座是一个充满浪漫、梦想的星座、温柔的星座，坚强且自卑、顽固且软弱、骄傲且自怜。一个一直扮演好孩子的角色、却一直拥有坏孩子心态的星座，有时乖巧、有时疯狂、有时坚强、有时脆弱。

天秤很容易受伤，很容易自卑，很容易满足，很容易爱上一个人，很容易流泪，很容易。但是很难走出悲伤，很难忘记一个人，很难背叛友情和爱情，很难有心机，很难拒绝，很难对得起自己。天秤寧愿牺牲自己的利益都会保全他人的利益，天秤真的值得深交。

会让人觉得有点呆呆笨笨的永远失衡的瓶子。

她。

久违了。
好久没这么自恋的自拍。
那一天就那么一下的心血来潮。
脸上稚气的笑容不见了。


头发随着岁月长了。
一天一天陪我累积人生的经验。
当我把它剪掉的时候，
是不是该重新开始呢？
期待下一次剪头发的时候

新的一个星期开始
祝大家今天有个好天

加油哦~

Fashionista Love-Ep11

My Fashionista Love blog post was last updated in year 2010.
After being MIA for a year plus,this year am gonna bring it back again.
So today for this post,I am gonna intro you all my recent finds.
Now fashion is not only about posting pictures featuring your own daily looks.
Here comes the fashion vlogs which I recently find interesting.
I have compiled a few fashion vlogs that are listed under my Favourite list.

If you like the vlogs,feel free to suscribe them on youtube~

Lilisimply


Wendyslookbook


Beautycakez


Anneorshine


Vagabond Youth

Beautifymeeh


Not forgetting Michelle Phan,Stylesuzi & etc etc....
If you asked me,among all the videos that I have compiled whose is my fav..
I will definitely go for Wendy's lookbook.

So,that is all for this post.
Enjoy reading,enjoy watching,and enjoy styling ^^

xoxo
Little Miss J

呼咯~ Hullo~Aloha~

还没忘记这个部落格。

想说：

工作一年后，我终于有机会实现我的梦想。

那就是自助旅行！！

就在年尾，而且是人生中第二次出国。

第一次是很小的时候，那时我还在念幼稚园。

这中间也隔了未免隔太久了吧？哈哈。

没关系，年尾可要好好犒赏自己了。

出发地点。现在不想说，还是保留点神秘感。

这次出国，出了旅行，还有一个目的。

那就是为自己一直想做的事规划。

神秘吧。。。

在这之前，可要好好的存存存$ $ $。努力做工。

明天还会再回来这里写写。

明天见~

The lost soul

My heart has been spreaded all over the place.
I find it so difficult to piece it back.
Lovely people that come into my life have taken away my heart a least a little piece of it.

This year the CNY is a total disaster.
I bought a few clothes & new year shoes.
BUT color matches and the outcome is a lil wee bit weird truth to say.
To comfort myself,I called it as color blocking.
Can you imagine that,I actually had turquoise blue adding in to my wardrobe collection.

My blog post is getting lesser & lesser.......
What a bad sign.
From 80+ posts in year 2010 decreased to 20+ post in year 2011.
Such a drastic reduction.
Hopefully this year I would be rajin enough to update my blog.
I know I do have few loyal readers.And I don't want to lose them.

3 more days
and I am gonna see him and my families.
The break up actually mended our relationship and we give more space for each other.

From 22 to 23..I started to feel scary.
I used to be beauty conscious.
But I kinda lost the motivation when a)I start to work b)I aged.
Another bad sign too..sigh..
Still remember I was really active writing the Fashionista Love Ep blog posts.
But now...these blog posts updates are nowhere to be seen.
Where is the old Little Miss J?

Enough of writing I guess.
Till the next updates.
I will surely miss here---->blogsphere.

-xoxo-
Little Miss J

QnA : 2012

It has been awhile since the start of year 2012...

He/She :How do you celebrate your New Year's Eve?
Me : I celebrated the special day in the Church @ FCC.Countdown in the church as well.I think its better than partying outside with the crowd and countdown with random people surrounding.A Thanksgiving Service is meaningful~

He/She :Anything you want to give thanks for the past 2011?
Me : I never thought I would come this far..So much ups and downs and so much tears....A lot of times I strayed away from God but He always found me.Give thanks for 2 of my lovely sisters both become pretty mummies.I have seen God's grace in new born child.God has revealed so much truthfulness of His words through my daily lives.

He/She :New Year Resolution for 2012?
Me : Shame to say that this year I don't have specifically any new year resolution.Perhaps save more $$,be more disciplined,less careless,more positive thinking.....so many personal improvements need to be done.Out of all things still,I wish to get closer to God.

He/She :CNY preparation?
Me : Of course looking forward to the actual day,but the thing is I really have not much mood to buy CNY clothes.All I wanna do is to go back home and spend time with my family and friends.After I grow up and getting older,I found that I look at CNY differently.Again not the usual mindset,whereby everything must be new.New shoes,new clothes,new hair,and even new inner wear.Found these things are really unnecessary.Bonding time instead is what i am looking for the most.