Thursday, December 31, 2009

Lookback at 2009

2009-a look back.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Went to Australia & Korea ~
Watch after-midnight movie ~
Spend the whole night with deardear ^^
Book and organise chalet~
Learn drivin and gt my license!
Having non-family member staying overnight
Overnight at friends' house
Sign up a lot of membership
Start a blogshop
Went for filming cls
Went oversea w/o family

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions,and will you make more for next year?
LoL... I didn't even have any in the first place!
Hmmm... see 1st... most prob not :p


3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yea...

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope :)

5. What countries did you visit?
Australia & Korea...

6. What would you like in 2010 that you lack in 2009?
The stuff on my wishlist? hehe~

7. What dates from 2009 will etched upon your memory,and why?
25th Dec: 1st after-midnight movie

8. What was your biggest achievement this year?
Gettin my license! woohoo~~

9. What was your biggest failure?
Quite a few friendship prob... n study as usual~

10. Did you suffer from any illness or injury?
On and off... Feel like gng to fall sick bt didn't? Did visit e doc once thou

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Jigsaws - sooooo many diff style, diff pattern
Crafting tools and material - let e creativity juice flow ^^

12. Where did most of your money go to?
Jigsaw, craft, car lesson

13. What did you get really,really,really excited about?
1st anniversary...
Can't really rmb others...

14. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
Gekkou & Happy Birthday by B'z


15. Compare to this time last year,are you:
a) Happier or Sadder? Happier
b) Thinner or Fatter? Erm... shrug
c) Richer or Poorer? Poorer @.@ somehow, I'm not earnin as much as I had wen I was in Guardian. And also my jigsaw and craft addiction as well as e car lesson fee totally eat my bank out...

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
More focus in study... spendin more time wid love ones... earn more $$ (look @ bank acc)

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Broodin in certain stuff?

18. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Of cuz~

19. What was your favourite TV program?
i can't even rmb what I did watch tis yr... But if wanna choose favourite... will b 'Qi Er Pa Pa' cuz GG in it ^^

20. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope...

21. What did you want and get?
I finally got a new mp3
I finally got my car license
I finally got more crafting stuff

22. What did you want and not get?
*point to wish list* nah~ those are the stuff I want but yet to get... any kind soul? @.@

22. What did you do on your birthday,and how old were you?
Wendy came over... Then deardear came aft work... Watch movie with deardear b4 he send me home...
I'm 19... e last time my age will start wid a '1'

23. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Gt my car license!

24. What kept you sane?
Family, bf, da & fel (though sometime she can b e 1 drivin me insane)

25. Who did you miss?
How about every1? hehe

26. Who was the best new person you met?
Fel!

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Sometimes, things ain't what it really is. Give some time, and you'll see the true colours.

28. Quote a song lyric that sum up your year:
can't recall any song to really sum up my yr..

Driving TP

Woohoo~~~~ PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS!!!!!!!

Passed my TP wid 12 points ^^ yay!!!


will get my license 1 month ltr... wish fulfilled ^^ pass within tis yr~ wee..

Shawn ah dior even sms me tis wen he knew i pass:
Welcome to the Driving world~



p.s. dad gng to let me drive to aunty's ltr for e countdown part ^^

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Movie: Sherlock Homles

Caught Sherlock Holmes with deardear @ The Grand Cathay just now...

enjoy e movie wid quite a lot of laughters here n dere...

the onli thing tt puzzle me is that... how come it seem tt sherlock holmes is like nth much without watson? it's like watson e one hu can c those stuff 1st n oso alway e 1 hu get holmes gt of tight spot/dangers everytime??

the dog is super cute though...haha... used as experiment :P to quote e nanny: 'the dog die AGAIN!' hahah~

not bad a movie...


p.s. still yet to figure out some part though.. hmm~

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Movie: Avatar

Caught Avatar wid Deardear @ Amkhub... caught it aft touching down... My 1st after midnight movie!!! It's at 1am! *yea~ u can guess how tired i was... *

super duper amazing movie! so great tt I wanna watch 2nd time! and in 3D... *too bad i'm workin on New Year Day -.- family watchin 3D @ SDC T.T*

love the storyline.. Despite that I'm super tired... I still manage to keep awake throughout the whole movie~ fit for both gender... Action, romance, mystery, blah blah~

Deardear plan to watch it the 2nd time. and in 3D!!! bt not cfm though :(

Friday, December 18, 2009

End of Common Test

Finally e end of common test n e holidays are here...

Though still lots of assignments to clear up...

2 weeks to enjoy... But many many stuff to do~~~

Collaboration invitation cards. Journal review. Confirmation with teachers. AHHH~~~~

But there's fun time too~ can't wait for the parties on 26th and 31th dec... as well as the pitstop outing on 29th~


Holiday HERE I COME!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Movie: Planet 51

Finally caught Planet 51 wid Deardear 2day @ AMKhub...

it a really great movie tt is worth watchin!! I'm sooo amuse by e part tt chuck actually like hoppin wen he plant e flag.. n even hummin e victory song while dng tt... haha...

totally love rover!!! kawaii!!!! he's sooo smart la~ n e scene tt it's rainin... it's soo amusing! haha...


Sometime, what we truly are afraid of, isn't what's threatening us, but it's the unknown. Not knowing about something, not knowing what's going to happen, put us in fear. Little did we know that perhaps, this unknown is nothing to be fear about. It may be our friend, it may be the moment that changes our life, it may be a knowledge waiting for us to comprehend.

Sometime, we thought we know. But what exactly do we knew? Chuck had thought that the planet is uninhabited, because that's all the photo that they received from rover. Lem thought he know about the universal, but he barely know much about it. The SGT thought he know what the 'alien' want, but truth is, he isn't anywhere close to it.

really ought to catch this movie. Rather light-hearted with lots of laughters...

Sunday, December 13, 2009

StageArts - TMT

Two years. That's the duration for my journey in SA-TMT.

In Jan '08, I stepped onto this journey.
On 18.12.08, I was being recognize and given a responsibility of assisting in running the department
On 11.12.09, it came to an end.

A short, but eventful two years.

The friendships that I had made because of SA in these two years
The ups and down that I had gone through during the events
The knowledge that I had learned over the events

The laughter
The joy
The disagreements
The hurts

I could still remember how much I had dread it the first time when I had to work with the rest of the department. Having to just join TMT for just couples of months, I still feel like a stranger in SA. I was the last to join SA, for my batch.

Having to be chosen to be in the committee for SA Night '08, had change my view. I enjoy working with the rest. And that was the time that I realise, I do get notice. Notice for my existence in the cca by someone in the committee. It's something that I had not felt from GG. That made me feel really good about myself, as it felt that I was being appreciated, being recognised for my effort.

Then, camp came along. Bonding between departments as well as all levels in SA. It had been fun, interacting with everyone. Not forgetting those games that we had.

Production, the majaor event throughout my SA-TMT life. I was choosen to be the ASM. But due to certain circumstances, I ended up being the SM. Indeed, it was a once-in-a-lifetime chance. It was my first, as well as my last. Unforgetable memories from production, a whole different feel when you work behind the curtain and in the control room. Through production, it brought me even closer with the rest of SA. Hanging out with some of them after the production at S11 for supper had gave me even more chances to know my fellow StageARTers better.

Halloween was a blast. Was unable to attend it originally as I had to oversee another TMT event. But had swop duty on that day. And boy, am I glad about it.

I could still recall about the committee interview. I know completely nothing about what's going to happen. I didn't even know that I was going for an interview. Not until the rest tease me about the TMT positions.

To be truthful, I had my eyes set on being the Head of TMT. And that was why I had join SA-TMT, when Amin first introduce me to SA. But as time goes by while I was in SA-TMT, my mindset change, especially when the next batch came in. I see someone as a better candidate than I was. I was no longer eyeing the Head of TMT, because I feel that the better candidate deserve it better than me.

But nonetheless, I was disappointed to know that I got the Assistant Head of TMT. In a way, I feel that I was given false hope of I getting the Head of TMT. But looking back now, I realise, signs been showing pretty early, given how the other person was chosen for the task, be it for camp or the production. I'm just second person-in-line.


I accept my position, despite the fact that I didn't want to accept that person as my Head. Biasness because I didn't manage to get the position and she landed on it? Perhaps. And to think, I had mention in the interview, how much I feel that she can't hold that role, that responsibility.

Then 2009 came. And my duty as TMT Assistant Head started as well. Clubcrawl, SA night, camps, production... All had became my responsibility as she's busy with her fyp and attachment.

I had voiced out, how displease I was. But due to miscommunication, nothing was done. The only that had change was, I no longer tolerate it quietly. And that was also the time that I realise, I wasn't the only one who doesn't like her.

Thinking back, I really wonder how many times I had to clear up the mess she left. Wonder if she really deserved her position?

SA night seem to be the start of the unhappiness. Realising how little she know about the way things work. Realising how little attention she's paying to TMT. Realising that the direction in which I hope to build TMT on, she don't even bother.

I grew tired. Tired of handling her responsibility. Tired of clearing up her mess. Tired of the unhappiness that was growing in me.

2009, I have to admit, was a pretty unhappiness time I had in SA. True that I enjoyed myself during events, etc. However, the reponsibility and duty were making me wary, making me really tired to even carry on.

In a way, I was looking forward to stepping down. It will be the end of responsibility. And most of all, I'll no longer be under her and she will be out of my life.

Yet, I'm not ready to end this journey. Despite to how unhappy I was. I was looking forward to Alumni Night, yet dreading it at the same time.

But things have to come to an end. And it ended on 11.12.09



The places that I get to go because of SA. Blk E room, Sport hall, Dome, TFA, Auditorium. All these places held memories for me, especially TFA. I had hang around the backstage for two events, which happen to be a time that I had misunderstanding with deardear in 2008. That was also the place where me and Erny had experience something creepy. The camwhoring session during the first events. All these had became nothing but a memory.


SA... Even though my journey for it has ended. But still, I'm an alumni. I'll still be back for events, but this time round, as an audience.

Thank you SA, for those memories and friendship.












p.s. SA is so damn pro. 3 years since I step into NYP, never once that I wore a skirt. Yet, for the alumni night, I wore my blue, flowy, full-length skirt. My first and my last I believe.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Fetchin mom

great... My psp decided to die on me just when I pretty lack of entertain!!!

Bloggin frm hp (1st time tryin out sia!!! Thought can't blog frm hp all these while... Zzz) currently @ airport, waitin gor mom to be out... Can't seem to spot her anyway *look around*

Phew... Lucky airport gt wireless.. Haha... If nt cfm bored to death *nod nod* shall go surf net while waitin for mom... Too bad hp can't view e normal fb mode... If nt can play game.... Hehe

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Thots

Seems to have lots of stuff going through my mind currently. School, CCA, relationship, and whatever there is that I yet to be able to categorise into...

School:
Just had one quiz down... and 5 paper to go next week. Then it will be 2 weeks break. Projects and stuff... Glad that most lab pract are over and done with. So left with projects to settle.

Pretty vex over PDD product. Wish it can really just turn out the way it ought to be. Solutions were offered by others, perhaps ought to take it up? Couldn't help but ask myself, why did I even choose to do on snowskin mooncake when both me and my groupmate didn't try it before. And best thing is? mooncake isn't in the season now... zZz

Things are pretty manageable, but just confusing. Don't want to think so much into it le.


CCA:
in just a few days later, it marks the end of SA for me. 2 years. That's how long it been. Lots of stuff that happen which I half wish it didn't, especially for this 1 year. But still, I'm glad to be in this cca, for it have bring friendships to me. Experiences that I would never forget. Dreading, yet looking forward to it at the same time. *shrug*

as for the other cca. I really wish things are resolved and settled by ytd. I can't help but wonder, it is a wrong move all along? The decision to join, to stop for a period of time, to resume, to be a better leader. Or perhaps, all these shouldn't have been done? To leave it as how it is 2 years ago? It seems to be, if that was done, things will be less complicated now?

But like I always say, things happen for a reason and with each decision comes along with a mark that is left. A mark that is not removable, it may fade, but not gone. But, in a way, it feel as if those marks and decisions are huanting me, questioning me if this is indeed what I decided on, if I'm able to face up to the consequence of those decisions.

Thinking too much? Perhaps I am. Things can be rather simple. But they ain't, when things are interlope with other stuffs, like priorities, or even relationship.

It still boils down to how much I willing to sacrifice isn't it? But to sacrifice, you have to know the priority. All I know for myself is that, I'm a 1st-come-1st-book kinda person. I don't like cancel out on people or events. And that's the way I been doing things. However, it seems that to some, I'm not prioritizing my stuff well, that I'm not putting enough effort. If there are people doubting my skill, I'm ok with it, because there is still a lot more that I need to learn, to improvise on. Yet, commitment being questioned, that's one thing that I find it hard to accept.

Relationship:
Not that anything is screwed up or what. But just that there been too many bumps and hiccups this year. Some got back on course and moving along well, yet some had fall off the course and gone in a totally different direction. I hate it when I feel/have the impression that I'm being blame for the drifting etc in the relationship. It's a two way thing, it takes two hands to clap. I don't deny, I'm taking some for granted at times, that I seem to be can't be bother with it at times. It gets really weary at times, if it keep happening again and again, around the same issue. I learn about not holding too tightly, afterall, people comes and goes, even for the bestest friends.

Been thinking about quite some stuff, especially about future. And chat with my PDD mate had left me thinking. Both of us pretty much share the same mindset. Now, the thing is no about how we think, but rather, how much of it will be put in action? 100%? 50%? or perhaps 0%?




Lost in a way. Yet seems to be in 'control' in another.


Time is too short for regrets. Before you know it, dec will be over, 2009 will be over. On the last day of 2009, a reflection is indeed needed...

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Movie: Twilight Marathon

Caught Twilight Marathon wid Da @ Vivo... Watchin both Twilight and New Moon~



Totally totally totally love e marathon!!! Me and da was telling each other that if all 4 movies are out and they have a marathon along with it, we are the 1st to get the tix... Haha...


Caught the whole movie of Twilight. Had miss the starting when I caught it last year. Sweet Sweet Sweet~~~ ^^

Love New Moon!! haha... The starting is sooo sad!!!! Ok~ e only thing that I didn't really like about e movie is the ending... What kind of ending is that seh?!?! Die Die must watch 3rd movie liao

Oh... What I like about Twilight & New Moon is that they follow the story in the book... *coughnotlikeharrypottercough* Though there's parts where certain stuff ain't explain... Like what's e power of each of the vampires, etc...

Can't wait for the 3rd movie to be out... oh~ n I can't wait for the last harry potter to be out as well...

*imagine the possibility of having a harry potter marathon! woah~ tt will be like 14+hr o.O

Story: Train track

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange. You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make........ ........

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess. Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally..

But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how
farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined.

And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens..

If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track!

Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe. If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

December's here

2009... one last month left... 11 months have already gone...

Year 2009 have gone by way too fast. Just can't believe that it's already 1st December... Where had the previous 11 months gone to?!


Too much stuff happen, til the point that I find it hard to believe they had only happened this year... School, work, friendship, cca... Too many~

One last month to go, before 2009 comes to an end... Part of me can't wait to start a new year... While part of me just wish that time slows down...

Suddenly feeling so lost. Too much stuff going around in my head that I can't even be sure what those thoughts are.

Realise quite a few stuff this year... Shall slowly reflect on the last hour of the last day of 2009.

Just realise that it's the month for my TP. Really hoping that I can just get it on my first try.


Better get back to work. Haix~

Monday, November 30, 2009

Won movie tix

Oh great... for e 1st time I don't feel happy about winning something... And to think it's tix to e movie tt i wanna watch!!! ARGH!

Just won a pair for Planet 51 movie premiere tickets as well as movie premiums... Following is the content of e email tt i received.

Hi Jie Ying,

Thank you for participating in our ‘Planet 51’ online contest.

We are pleased to inform that you have won a pair of ‘Planet 51’ movie premiere tickets & movie premiums (straw cup, magic cube, yoyo and poster).

Details of Movie Premiere:

Date: 2 December 2009 (Wednesday)

Time: 7.15 pm

Venue: Shaw Lido Cineplex Hall 1

Kindly bring along your NRIC and nEbO membership card to collect your prize at:

nEbOmation, located at nEbO Hub @ E!hub (level 4), Downtown East

Click here to find out the operating hours of nEbOmation.


All prizes are to be collected by 1 December 2009.

Thank you and we hope to have your participation again!


Yours sincerely,
nEbo



Was soooooo happy wen i see the title... but wen i open, i feel like screamin la T.T e premiere is on e SAME DAY as TWILIGHT MARATHON!!! n same timin as well =.=

Haix... nvm... now c who can take over n watch it... zZz... it's e movie tt i gng to watch wid Deardear n he happen to have off on wed... ARGH!!! Why did I go for e twilight movie marathon!!!!!

*bang head*

My planet 51~~~ *wails*

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Movie: Happy Flight

Watch Happy Flight with Deardear @ AMKHub

Totally enjoy this movie!! even though it's just revolving around one plane... But the story is good! And got a lot of laughter from this movie...

Pretty last minute to watch this movie... so kinda miss the start a lil... But e movie is really really gd!!! ^^


This movie remind me of how much life of different people is being intertwine... And how a person can't be judge by how they look etc...

Seriously, having to watch this movie make me feel like being part of e airport crew... it's soo cool!!!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

nEbO: The Quest '09

Went for nEbO: The Quest '09 - Museum Edition. Had sign up with Fel, Da n Atikah...

Fel stayover @ my hse.. Original plan was tt i accompany her @ her camp overnite... But some stuff pop up, so ended up she's stayin over @ my hse instead... Chitchat til veri late... til e next mornin we nearly can't w8... Still feelin amused by e way fel had act wen my alarm clock went off...

Meet Da n her sis @ AMK mrt station, before makin our way down to douby ghaut for registration. Collected our tee and head over to LJS for breakfast.

Flag off at ard 10am. Need to collect a stamp @ checkpoint to mark e start of our race...

Was a bit sian wen we look @ our station... we haf a station @ douby ghaut itself! but it's e 3rd station! 1st station @ tampines n 2nd station @ Bedok reserviour... zZz... talk about travelling -.-

Didn't manage to complete all station... left last 1 did not go... Wasted too much time for 1st station...

N guess wad... throughout e whole race... I tink 80% spend on travelling... 5hrs bein allocated... But we spend last den 5 min @ each station.


Waiting for pic frm Da...

Had fun... Can't w8 for The Quest '10!!! I have great groupmates, who make e race even more exciting and fun!!! ^^


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Movie: 2012

Watch 2012 wid Deardear @ The Grand Cathay

Interesting movie, but some of the effect can look kinda fake in a way? As in compare to Day After Tomorrow etc...

Was prepared to cry lot, since fel say tt she did -.- end up onli tearing at 2 scenes only~ Am I getting immune to touching scenes?? o.O


The fight for survival. If you know that end of world will be just hours away, what would you do? Fight for that chance to survive? Or just wait for death?


Sometime, it's really only when it's too late that people realise how much they have neglected their love ones. And sometime, it's through accidents/events/disaster that people bond.


Life is complicated enough without us having to make it even more complicated.
Treasure your love ones.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Lousy day

Reach sch @ 8.30 only to get inform that there's no 9am class @ 9+am?

zZz... could have slept for 2more hours =.=


in n6 lab now, tryin to decide if to get mc for e rest of e day. Achin allover, sore throat n even feel feverish, even though not havin a fever when i took my temp... Just feel kinda stupid to get mc for e rest of e day wen i'm oredi in sch... oh great =.=


Trying to get another day off frm work. Hopefully she can find someone to replace me. I'm feelin worse den ytd. Haix~



Just came to realise, I seriously can't rmb wen was e last time i took mc for sch... or even c e doc cuz i'm sick... hmm~

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Fallin sick?

Seem to be falling sick for real this time.

Sore throat since the start of the day and it just seem to get worse. A lil headache as well... haix...


Manage to get off, despite that I only inform my i/c @ 12.38am when I'm working at 10am. There goes my $30 :(


Hopefully dad won't end up dragging me to the meetin... I rather go work in sickness than to go to that meetin *cross finger* though I know that gng to work in sickness is way worse than anything.


Turnin in soon. Tired yet unable to slp. Hate it.

ColourGenics 15.11.09

Name: Jie Ying
Date: 11/14/2009
Colorgenics Number: 27063514


You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

You have a high opinion of yourself. It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offence.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety. You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

Story: Taking hold of Chances

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.

I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.

All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.

I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.

Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.

I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.

Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.

One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?

I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.

The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her.

Maybe that next day will never come at all.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Movie: My Girlfriend is An Agent

Watched My Girlfriend is An Agent with deardear @ AMKhub

Totally enjoy the movie as it has lots of laugh in it... Kinda expected ending, but still really nice movie. Just love the amusement park that scene... Haha...

Funny ending... And it's really sweet!!


Love the lil vid during the credit roll~

Monday, November 09, 2009

A regular?

Somehow, never once that I will though myself to be relate as a regular customer at any of the stores despite the fact that I had sign quite a lot of membership since June '08...

But that term was used to describe me when BTP and I were checking out the Jigsaw Puzzle World @ Marina Square last thursday. She referred me as their regular to the delivery men, when the delivery men were trying to recommend some jigsaws to me.

I was surprise, really surprise that one day, I'm link to that term. Especially since that the last time I had bought jigsaw was back in July? *shrug*


Come to think of it, it feel kinda good and bad in a way... Good that I'm being recognise as their customer, a familiar customer... Bad in the sense that I'm going to that shop a bit way too often?! o.O

Song: If today was your last day





My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Pissed!

damn it damn it damn it...

stupid online survey...

Now i need to pay just to access to that 55 responses that I got for my survey... If not I have to resend to get another 55 response... damn it... practically asking me to redo my whole survey!!! ARGH!



Pissed pissed pissed!!!!


Those who are helping me, please do not click on the 1st link!!!

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

PDD survey

Hey peeps.

Please help me with my survey for PDD. Thanks ^^



Click here to take the survey


If the limit for the above has reach, please go to the below one.



Click here to take the survey (2nd copy)



If 2nd link also reach limit, please go to the bottom one.


Click here to take the survey (3rd copy)



Your participation is greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Numerology part 2

I see you floating in a sea of endless time - great vistas and a
feeling of lifetimes behind and ahead of you. I get the feeling of
urgency with you Jie Ying, things that must be done,
lessons that must be experienced. I sense the rhythm of life, the
cycles we all experience.

From your Life Path in combination with your Soul Urge, I get the
impression that you have a pleasant personality, and are generally
liked by others. You can be easily hurt at times, and as a result
are more careful with displaying your feelings than you used to be.

Jie Ying, I sense that you are a very busy person who is
always on the go. The more you have on your plate, the better. At
times you wish you had less to do, but you would be totally lost if
you woke up one morning and found nothing at all to do! This
couldn't happen, of course, as every time you get a space you seem
to fill it up very quickly. You'll be just as busy in late life as
well ... in fact you won't get time to grow old, you'll just simply
keep on growing!

Having said that, it's not surprising you need a break after this
past year. Let's face it - we all need a little breathing space now
and again to re-charge our batteries. Remember to take time to
smell the roses!

Jie Ying, you have had a few worries recently about money,
but you know you have the power to solve them. While it's been a
bit of a bumpy ride financially these past couple of years, the
next 18 months or so will be a lot easier.

Looking at your Personal Days and Personal Months, you should be
pleased Jie Ying ... it shows that shortly you will receive
some pleasant news. It is nothing momentous, but is sufficient to
raise your sights and hopes. It is good news.

I sense a period early on in your life - teenage years perhaps -
when you felt misunderstood, as if you couldn't really get close to
anyone, as it you are walking on the outside of life. These
feelings very occasionally reoccur.

You are a very special person Jie Ying. The experiences you
undergo are all for a very special purpose, one I'm sure you are
not aware of yet. Nevertheless, you are progressing in exactly the
right direction. Your timing is good and you are learning from
every experience. I don't know if you believe in reincarnation, but
I get the feeling that you are a highly evolved person, as if you
have lived many times before. In time you will have much to offer
the rest of us.

Romantically, it has not always been easy, and your outlook on life
has changed because of this. The future is much easier in this
regard than in the past.

Jie Ying, you have sometimes wondered if you have made the
right decisions at times, and it looks as if you have. You work
best when you make your own mind up on things, though it is useful
to ask other people for advice before you make your own mind up.

I see some travel in your future, and several new horizons
beckoning. Your progress in this world has not always been as fast
as you would like, but I can see significant growth in the future.
You tend to feel you have a lot of unused capacity, and that people
don't always give you full credit for your abilities.

I can see you happy and productive in your old age, surrounded by
friends and family. You are of above average intelligence, and will
keep on learning all the way through life.

Driving Practical Test

Woohoo~ Finally book my driving practical test! weee~~

Will be taking on the last day of 2009! 31st December 2009!! Really hope can get my license within that one try... So that I can fulfill my wish of getting my license within this year... And if I get it during this try, meaning that I may be able to drive during CNY!!! wee~~



But totally hate it how hard it is to book the date. Just over a weekend and more than a week of TP is booked!! damn it... if not for e Korea Trip, I would I book the earlier date on Fri... Haix~

Made a wasted trip down to SSDC just to see what is the available slot for TP... end up? Not a single slot... zZz... But had a pleasant surprise of meeting my 1st driving instructor. And even more surprise that he still recognise me and even say Hi to me~ haha... Missed having him as the instructor during those practical, though he only took me twice?

Another one more lesson to go just before the TP... Kinda hope that I can get him as my instructor~ hehe... or at least, can I have my usual instructor please?



P.S. was kinda surprise last Fri when I saw my uncle's friend at SSDC. He's one of the instructor there.

Monday, November 02, 2009

Comic: Selective Memory


SUPER DUPER KAWAII!!! can't help bursting into laughter when I read it...

Indeed, selective memory at its finest ^^ remembering the good bad, forgetting the lousy part... Can my memory be as selective as that as well?

Tired

Taken from devian.com

In less than 8hours, I'll be back in school for the third week.

I have no idea why, but it seems, I getting so tired with school. Projects, tutorial, practical report, journals reviews!

It's not as if I have not gone through it before. But somehow, this semester seem so much tougher even though it's just barely two weeks only.

Really feel like just letting go. But seriously, it's dumb to do so at this point of time already. Just another year to go, that is, if there isn't anymore failing.

Somehow, I'm feeling really lost this semester. It's like I really don't know what exactly am I suppose to do.



Really feel like just put down everything and walk away. Yes, escaping is crossing my mind again and again. The need to get away. The urge to hide away... I just doesn't want to end up venting on the others unintentionally. But where to escape to? Where to hide away at? When the person/thing that I really want to escape from is actually myself?

Sunday, November 01, 2009

Numerology

Birth name:

Chew Jie Ying

Date of birth: June 22, 1990

Hi there Jie Ying,

The best place to start is with one of the most basic calculations ... your "life path" -- based on your birth date of June 22, 1990 -- is 11.

How Is Your Life Path Calculated ?

This is calculated in four steps:

  1. Add up the digits in your month of birth (if more than one digit)
  2. Add up the digits in your day of birth (if more than one digit)
  3. Add up the digits in your year of birth.
  4. Add up the answers from (1), (2), and (3) above.

With all the above calculations, we keep adding until we end up with a single digit, or an 11 or 22 (which are special cases in numerology, known as "Master Numbers").

In your case Jie Ying, you were born on June 22, 1990.

Your month of birth is June, which is the 6th month. As 6 is a single digit, there's nothing to add here

Your day of birth is the 22nd.

Your year of birth is 1990. Adding 1 + 9 + 9 + 0 gives us 19. Adding 1 + 9 gives us 10. Adding 1 + 0 gives us 1.

The totals, then, are 6, 22, and 1. To get our final answer, we add these three numbers together: Adding 6 + 22 + 1 gives us 29. Adding 2 + 9 gives us 11 (note that we don't add the digits of 11 together, since 11 is a 'Master Number').

Here's how it looks in the Life Path Calculation Chart



Read the each line from left to right, it shows the life path calculation for your month, day, year and how they are reduced together to arrive at your life path number.

What Does Your Life Path Say About You?

You are probably a fairly well educated person who is still looking for answers when it comes to spirituality. One of the character traits of a number 11 is to look far and wide for lofty spiritual answers when often the answer is right underneath your nose....

Jie Ying, your Life Path of 11 ...

Wow ... your life path is known as a master number in numerology

You are what is known as a master number. The number 11 is the symbol of the spiritual seeker. Your purpose in this life time is to achieve enlightenment. Sometimes this is done by finding a teacher and other times it is a matter of experiencing an number of negative situations that are designed to rid you of toxic emotional connections and clear your karma. If you are a number eleven and seem to be having a rough time then keep in mind that is typical of your number to experience a life filled with mysterious losses and either very fortunate or unfortunate twists of fate.

Part of your trying experiences is the cosmos' way of pushing you into finding the spiritual awareness that you need to elevate your soul. The number 11 path is often called the Path of Extremist simply because you lead a life filled with so many highs and lows. You are often like two people. One life is your public life in which you might appear as an eccentric or unusual character and the other is your secret life, which is obsessed with finding the answers to eternal questions.

You are probably a fairly well educated person who is still looking for answers when it comes to spirituality. One of the character traits of a number 11 is to look far and wide for lofty spiritual answers when often the answer is right underneath your nose. As number 11's can be quite snobbish or proud of their status as a spiritual seeker the universe often presents them with many lessons that serve to challenge their pride.

You probably don't fit into society very well and have to do a lot of pretending and acting to survive in a normal job or relationship. You have unusual tastes and may have a bohemian character that is very interested in the new and avant-garde. Your broad-minded point of view and permissiveness with morals makes you lots of enemies and friends alike.

If there is one thing that your friends find frustrating about you it is that you are a bit of a fence sitter. Your ability to see so many angles of a situation often causes you to be indecisive or not to act at all. For this reason many 11's often let opportunities in life pass them by. They are so focused on being visionaries that they forget to pay attention to small practical details.

Your sharp intuition and rich understanding of both spirituality and human nature makes you the perfect spiritual counselor. Even if this is not your profession you have probably noticed that others naturally seek out your guidance and advice during a crisis.

You are a very idealistic individual and envision a world in which everyone is equal. For this reason you somewhat dislike the idea of relationships as they mean that one human should be more exclusive to you than another. One of your highest spiritual qualities is to make everyone that you meet feel like they are special and a soul mate.

If you are an 11, it is also typical for the needs of your personality to be in constant conflict with the direction of your higher self. You have probably noticed that you get away with a lot less than other numbers. For instance if you do a bad deed, the resulting bad karma seems more immediate. This is because your path is a path of retribution that is about the negation of the self to allow the higher self to be divinely inspired by a higher power.

Your Expression Number

Your Expression - which describes your potential natural talents and abilities - works out to be a 1.

How Is Your Expression Calculated?

What we are going to do now is turn all the letters in your name at birth into numbers,
using the following chart :

In practice I put the vowels above the name and the consonants underneath. This is because your Soul Urge is derived from the vowels alone, so it makes it easier at the next step to do it this way.

Again there is one exception to the rule and this is with the letter ‘Y’. If it acts as a consonant and is pronounced it is classed as being a consonant. If it is not pronounced or acts as a vowel it is classed as being a vowel. The ‘Y’ in Yolande, for instance, would be classed as being a consonant, but the ‘Y’ in Larry would be classed as being a vowel as it acts as a vowel.

Let’s work out your Expression number, Jie Ying:

Using the above chart we would put a 3 below the 'C' of your first name. We would follow this with a 8 placed below the 'h', then a 5 above the 'e', a 5 below the 'w', and so on ...

We then carry on in the same manner with the rest of your name. When you are finished, you should end up with a chart like this:



5



9
5


9


C
h
e
w

J
i
e

Y
i
n
g
3
8

5

1



7

5
7

Now we simply add up the numbers in each row.

The top row: Adding 5 + 9 + 5 + 9 gives us 28. Adding 2 + 8 gives us 10. Adding 1 + 0 gives us 1.

The bottom row: Adding 3 + 8 + 5 + 1 + 7 + 5 + 7 gives us 36. Adding 3 + 6 gives us 9. .

We now add the total of the top and bottom rows, which gives us 1+9=10. Adding 1 + 0 gives us 1.

And so, Jie Ying, your Expression is 1.

What a Number '1' Expression Says About You

You are very clear and concise with your speech and body language. For this reason you often come across as being very forthright and honest, even if you are not!...

Jie Ying, your Expression of 1 ...
Your Potential Natural Talents and Abilities

You are a doer, not a dreamer. You express yourself through definitive choices and deliberate action. Nothing irritates you more than people who procrastinate, are self-indulgent or spend too much time analyzing a situation before acting.

You are a courageous and natural born leader who is not afraid to makes things happen. The penultimate in self-expression for a number 1 is the outward manifestations of success: rewards, recognition and material abundance! These are the things that define you, not the opinions of other people.

You are naturally aggressive by nature, but a charm and a talent for persuasion temper it. You are an incredible multi-tasker and project manager. For this reason many of you thrive in such positions as producers, leaders, sales executives and administrators.

You retreat from situations where you feel you are not in control and may express resentment of authority or be uncooperative. This is why you need an occupation where you can act on your own without too much restraint from others.

You can be quite blunt in your approach to things to the extent that others can perceive you as being too controlling or heartless. These traits help you make a killing when it comes to business, but your frankness is not often appreciated in personal relationships. One thing that many number ones need to master during their lifetime is the fine art of tact.

You also have a tendency to jump to conclusions or make assumptions about others without fully analyzing the matter first. People are often startled by your tendency to "look before you leap." For this reason, you need a right hand man or woman or some kind of best friend to encourage you to sleep on important matters before you make a split decision.

Your natural physical grace and beauty often has you excelling at dancing and athletics. As you are a very proud number, you are always meticulously groomed and putting your best foot forward in life. People are often very impressed by the consistency of your habits and routines. However sometimes an over preoccupation with fashion or your looks can make you seem shallow to others.

You are very clear and concise with your speech and body language. For this reason you often come across as being very forthright and honest, even if you are not!

In love you tend to be the one to take the lead as you are usually eager to express your feelings so that the matter is taken care of in the future. This is sometimes too pushy to loved ones who may process their feelings at a slower rate than you. You may also have a bad habit of deciding how someone feels before asking them.

When it comes to fashion and style you prefer the simplicity of classic tailoring and traditional styles. However you also love anything that can bear your initials or a signature so many of your items may bear a monogram. You may also express your individuality by adding a personal unique touch to a classic piece of clothing.

Your fondness for things that are one of a kind may also extend to your furniture and heart. You express how proud you are of your achievements by taking good care of your possessions. You also take care of number one by paying careful attention to your physical body and for this reason tend to enjoy good health well into your later years.


Now, Let's Examine Your Soul Urge
(also known as your "Heart's Desire")

We have already done all the mathematics necessary to work out this number. It is simply the total of the top row (the vowels) of your full birth name.

In your case Jie Ying, this totals 1.

Jie Ying, your Soul Urge of 1 ...

What You Desire To Be, To Have, and To Do In Your Life

Your soul urge is to be the best at everything that you do. You play to win and when you don't win you suffer a serious crisis of faith. As you believe you are directly connected to a higher power you just can't bear it when you let yourself and others down. It makes you think that there is no God.

One of your greatest challenges is to put your life in perspective. Most ones are born into lives that encourage their personal development and in particular the expression of their free will. However it is often this sense of entitlement, that the world must always be your oyster that leads to your downfall.

You may see your pride as being evidence of your high self-esteem and confidence. However sometimes your ambition and drive is so extreme that it disgusts and angers others who may perceive you as selfish and controlling. In ancient cultures flaunting your talents and wealth was thought to attract "the evil eye." In your case the evil eye is often others desire to see your pride crushed or watch you take a big fall off your pedestal.

You on the other hand don't understand why others can't see that you are special. Many number ones suffer from a bad case of terminal uniqueness. You love things that are one of a kind and will resort to extreme or even outrageous behavior to prove that you are irreplaceable.

In your universe you are the sun and everything and everybody else rotates around you. Many number ones sabotage their careers in the early stages, as they cannot get past the idea that someone else might know more or be better than them. Ones that feel dominated may resort to overtly rebelling against authority and cause chaos.

Your eagerness to be recognized for your talents sometimes turns you into a braggart. This often incurs the wrath of others, as it seems that you really are concerned with taking care of number one and nobody else. One of your soul lessons might be to recognize that "to rule is truly to serve."

If your talents are not appreciated or recognized by others you may steal the spotlight by creating unnecessary dramas in your life. This is because in your mind even negative attention than no attention at all.

If you feel you are a failure you also risk the temptation of escaping into addiction or fantasy. You may get involved in troubling situations with emotionally disturbed people so that you can feel like the hero by rescuing them.

The conflict that you face is the age-old battle between your will and what fate has to offer. When bad things happen to number ones they tend to give up entirely. This is part of a damaging all or nothing mentality. This type of attitude often puts you in situations that are humiliating as you often persist out of pure stubbornness even though all signs point to eventual failure.

To be successful you need to temper your soul urges with patience and tact. You need to learn to see other people's point of view and let others win an argument once in a while. You are in such a hurry to succeed that you often make hasty decisions that you regret later. Acting on impulse is definitely a hazard for you on your life path. Rather than listen to your ego, listen to you higher self as well.