I'ven been having disturbing dreams.. death related dreams. it's freaky.

frankly i'm not feeling too positive over everything.

i think im suffering from what others widely label as middle child syndrome.

Law Of Investments

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Law of Investments
by John McLaren, Melissa Simpson and Mary Toohey
2nd Edition

Original.
First hand.
Wrapped.
No writings. No highlights.
Important concepts neatly tagged for easy referencing.
Includes lecture notes, and additional research materials for exam.

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money money money.. it's so funny.. in a rich man's world..

Maaran and I (ok i did the bookings) booked a trip to Hong Kong in December. Budget Airline and 3* Hotel-Sounds forgivable? No, not at $1618.

On top of that, school fees to pay for in July and wedding stuff to pay for. O good lord save me!

No shopping unnecessarily till... i get to HK!!! (Haha i don't sound too remorseful do i)

No folks, this is not a Honeymoon. I guess we might do without a honeymoon. I mean... travel means travel, lah. Why must travel especially after getting married..

Yet Another..

Big sigh. Here's the place to let out a big sigh.

I don't ask for too much at work. All i humbly ask for is peace and cohesion. And i thought it's always within, no i'm wrong.
Nevermind that, i'm so thankful for being able to attend night class next semester, and hell yeah work 4 days a week.

It's been a year since i've dived. I'm itching for one yet i don't dare take leave on Sundays. I don't even dare call in and report sick. How many times i went to work feeling too cold yet too hot. Oh well. You know, a weekend where you'd just eat dive sleep, some others smoke and drink too. It's so much fun being out at sea; if you're lucky, a pod of dolphins performs for you while you're on boat. How i miss those days.

M has promised that we'd go for an annual overseas trip!! Yipppe yayyy!

E helped me get a new school bag from UK. Too bad it's black, again. The colours i wanted are all out of stock. It's definately oversized and i'm gonna dump so many things into it. :D I love the idea of it being seemingly waterproof. In our unpredictable climate, it's so awesome!
But the tiny tote i wanted was out of stock in the outletS. I was desperate for one in beige, where it'd fit a wallet, phone, water bottle and camera-just the right size for a night out with friends.

And the damn school. It's a week till school reopens and our notes are not on the Portal yet.

We're going for lunch now, bye!

Sigh.
Big sigh.

The Invite cards was the 1st task we embarked on, but it's not getting anywhere near completion. I have what i want in mind, exactly, but i dont know how to execute it.
I wish i had Graphic Design knowledge; to be able to draw out everything from scratch. If i knew, i can stay up for nights perfecting it.

But i dont.
Neither do we have $ to pay for it.

So what's next.

Help i feel like dying. There's nothing much worth living for.

Thankful

Hi guys, IDEM is over and i've got no more excuses to not start serious revision. It's 2 weeks away to exams and i think i'm 5% prepared. *Gosh*

Maaran and i were hunting for shoes at town last evening. I'm way too unlucky. Everything i like were either last pair with some fault in them or out of size. If i were to put this task aside, i'll be left with 2 weeks post exams to hunt for The Wedding Shoes for photography. Oh god save me. Oh boy, it's not the first time i've been This Unlucky with shoes, anyway. Should've seen it coming.

I'm so thankful that we're in this preparation together. I've not quite heard of any man who gets so involved in their wed prep. In fact, M has been doing bulk of the liasing. My job thus far has been plowing through the net, filtering vendors and sending him their contact details. I'm way too grateful that M does all these despite his heavy work schedule.

It's monday and i shouldnt procrastinate on revision anymore. But guess what, I'm down with Leftover Sinus Probem from yesterday's episode, a slight fever, sore throat, lazy bones and a constipated tummy. Dear Lord. Help!

Hi folks, first things first, sorry to disappoint but i'll be getting married this year end.

Next. I'm now working on a part time basis, not to mention the drastic pay cut. Funny, i feel less stressed now. Why did i go part time? The appointment books are way too empty, and that makes me stressed. Though my salary is fixed, and we do not have listed quotas to achieve, i feel a strong sense of having to achieve an amount that would justify my pay. Not having a chance (cause the appointment pages are white) to do that gets me really stressd up at work. Working twice a week gives time to catch up on the entire semester's work, in preparation for Examinations in the first week of May. I can't recall the number of times i've skipped school. It also gives me time for wedding preparations. (Cant wait to buy shoes!)

Oh boy, time to start on my Law assignment due tomorrow! Chao!

There're so many things i want to do, yet i couldnt wait for the day i die.

I'm still feeling depressed.

Right now, im thinking of diving, not just in the murky waters of Singapore, but at somewhere really beautiful, like Sipadan, and alot of other places we've not explored.

I'd like to climb mountains. I'd like to sit at the Grand Canyon, meadows and gaze at how beautiful Earth is without high rise buildings.

I'd like to put on my boots and build a snowman.

I'd like to help others who are very much less fortunate, to be born in a place without proper sanitisation, governance and health care.

I'd like to change my destiny. Cause i hate my job. Really.

I don't see myself working as an 0HT for the rest of my life. It'$ not worth the aching shoulders.

im feeling so down i want to go out but have got no where to go.
im feeling so down i want to eat but there's nothing else i feel like eating.

I've been extremely out of sorts the past few days.
Since Tuesday, to be exact. Nevermind what happened at work.

My night's sleep was filled with nightmares.. of accidents, deaths and all things unhappy.
Then came Saturday. I ate. and ate, and ate alot.

I know i binge when i'm down. This time, i binge cause i know i'm depressed.

Maybe it's time to quit.

happy lunar new year

M and I spent the Chinese New Year holidays at Thailand, Bangkok. Here're few things from the trip i'll never ever forget..

1) We walked so much on the first day, i got stiches halfway.
2) Nevermind point 1; we took a taxi on the second day and he was a Private Transport Convert after that.
3) "Why did i suffer with you on Day 1?"
4) At the tailor shop during fitting (before final stiches are made), while i was trying to curb my anger..
4a) "Boss, this cannot (alter) that cannot (alter), then i come fitting for what?"
4b) "This morning everything can can can, now everything cannot. Why, boss, why"
4c) We were 'designing' a male version of the CheongSum and the boss wanted to cut a business shirt. "No boss, Im Chinese i know. It's like........" "Ok."
5) At the Pharmacy after paying for topical cream. "Erm, this one real right?" (pharmacist jaw dropped, "Excuse me?") "Thailand everything fake; just checking" (pharmacist: "Not in Pharmacy!") We scurried away, giggling.
6) Screw the restaurents; i loved the food courts and street food! (no, didn't lao sai)
7) The massage parlour with the prettiest ambience had the suckiest massage. Check out Mr Feet. Best.
8) Thronging in Chatuchak Market despite the sweltering sun gave us most satisfaction. We bought a couple of household items!
9) I was stuffing my face with so much food M called me a Fat Girl.
10) The trannies put me to shame! And it's bout 100SGD to watch 'The Caberet'; so paeng!
11) The B.Suite has got a damn musky smell that we got used to after being in the room for awhile. And we had to get used to it everyday. Yucks.
12) Don't attempt to hurt your back lifting a filled luggage. Tip the bell boy well. It's worth every Baht.
13) Don't gulp 500ml of milk at 1 shot. I swear it gives the runs; those you can't hold/control at all. Or rather, don't buy breakfast milk thinking it would pass the customs.