Let Him Who Is Blameless Cast The First Stone.

Finally in the mood to blog since a load's taken off! Plus, fruitful exercise day!
I woke up feeling troubled still. Its like Id and Superego at work(regarding the sponsorship). Went swimming at noon. THE SUN'S GOOD MAN. ON MY WAY TO BIKINI AND LIL BLACK DRESS!! Haha. Lunched alone at Kim San Leng. Had not so healthy chicken rice. But bahh.. Checked out if there's salsa dance class at Bishan CC! Put on waiting list. Will be ringed if there're enough ppl to start a class. :D
Next moment, im back at home bloggin! Going out soon to City Hall. Lookin for ideas to wrap Sis Faith's giftS. YIPPEEEEE!!!!! Ribbons.. Papers.. Fabric paper.. And stuff. Any ideas out of the box!?

Sunday ended well after jogging at the mini park with lil sis. Mummy whipped nice dishes the entire day! (Though it was Mother's Day. Haha.) Shall bring her out for celebration this coming Sunday!
Woken up by HIM early in the morning at 8. Wanted to meet him up for Mac's breakfast as i knew i may not be able to meet him in the evening. But he didnt want to. I was made even sadder after knewing that he messaged me only at Admiralty, instead of e 1st step into Spore. Remember when i went for my Genting trip last Dec, i was so anxious to get back to Spore for a long chat on the phone with him.. I activated my auto roam.. and stuff.
Really disappointed in him this time round.
Went for a quick swim at Bishan Swimming Complex. A mere 15mins walk away from home. :D The sun was lovely. Made a quick 30mins swim and went for wash up as i promised to accopany Ping to Sengkang for hair cut. MY JOURNEY WAS 1HOUR VIA MRT AND NE-LINE MAN. Waited bout 1.5 hours for her. In the meantime, went to the bank(which killed 45mins of que-ing time) and idled around Compass Point. BISHAN'S STILL DA BEST. Headed down to Aljunied for interview. It was rather dumb.
Urm.. BEST HIGHLIGHT FOR TODAY :
WE HAD DIM SUM!!! YUMMY. We paid 7 inclusive of Soya bean milk, chee cheong fun, siew mai, har gao, fried carrot cake-white, glutinous rice, fried prawn salad, chin chow jelly.. QUITE A SPREAD. Was supposed to grab a SNACK man. Had a big difficulty ordering food as it was all in Chinese characters. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE IN TAI WAN!? Left the ordering and translation to Leen and Ping. :( They told me not to make any sound when they're bargaining in taiwan. (the locals would know we're tourists and overly charge us.)
Cabbed down to the cheapo hairdresser. Ping did treatment and thought it was free from a dye session the other time. Turned out to cost 15$! Leen had a hair cut-$6 only. Jus a trim. I? I chatted a lil with Cady while WAITING.. And browsed thru couple of hairstyle magazines. Have quite a clear picture of what hair style i want next. But the question now is.. To do it in Taiwan or Singapore?! Boo. Shall think bout this on Wed when we plan our itinery.

Unfruitful Sunday.
Mummy didnt want to go out at all. She said it was raining (afternoon) and she didnt want to squeeze with the Mother's Day crowd.
Wanted to go for a swim in e afternoon. Rain ruined my plans for the day. :(

Dental Hygiene's paper was a killer. I did my best. I barely slept(2++hrs?). Hoping to scrape thru.
Upsetted me for the entire day.
He's away. To redang.Since Thurs. He didn't apply for auto roaming. he promised me he would.

Oh no. Made a mistake. Its 180. WHAT?! IM ONLY CHARGING 20/HR?! =l Deprived.
Anyways, confirmation for sponsorship's here. And im in this super big dilema. Whether to still go for it or to leave it. Some say.. Take it as a stepping stone.. Its only 2years.. Its our only route(But in 2years, lots can happen) Why not?Its worth it.A gaureenteed job!
How huh!? Pray bout it!
The feelin in me right now is.. Ok ruth, don't take, go NDC upon graduation, work on both kids and adults, then 2-3 years later go private practice.
Hmm.Sounds good? Not as good as getting 900/mth for 1 year, 950 for subsequent. And what will i do with the money? Prob needa pay for the house.. If not, jus save it, prob use it fr further education or something.
Carrying a burden i almost cannot bear. Overwhelming me. But i look to You O Lord.

ITS WEDNESDAY! Kinda felt that the rush's over! This time round.. No exam mood eh! Not at all! Let Your peace be upon me, all the days of my life..
Calculated tuition fees for the mth of April. WOA. ITS 225 $. Kinda.. Shocked! Minus thithe.. AND THAT'LL COVER MY ACCOMODATION LIAO. It's never been so much. Usually, bout 100+ abit.. April's rollin in money!

The prices for air ticket(352 to and fro) and accomodation are irresistable. Ok, air ticket, may plunge in the near future. But definately not for accomodation as we are gonna lodge in Ping's Fren's motel. (Yes, i've decided to go!) So i hope it'll be cheaper? Haha. Moreover, there'll be someone to bring us around!!! Why not eh?! :) Cant wait to try out the food, shoppppppppe, play and stuff. I guess the 1st thing i'll do when i touch down is to visit the salon! By that time, the frizzies would be sprouting like no one's business! (its budding even right now)

Really cant wait for next week(exam week) to breeze pass! The 2 weeks of attachment 'turns me off'. Without that, i could start work, which generates $$$$$$!!!

Oh yes, went out with father and lil sis for lunch yesterday. Seriously i was VERY reluctant. But i went anyway. I needed to have lunch.. And yet save money at the same time. Thank God, father picked a 100$ Takashimaya voucher and it flew into my pocket! What i have sown last Sat during svc indeed brought back a tenfold return! Amen! Cant wait for 6th of May to PARTIEEEEEE!

Any temp job to offer?
In a dilema. To go or not to go.
Where to, u'll say. TAIPEI !!! With Fuglians (Confirmed - Leen and Ping.)
Air tix via JetStarAsia- 325(Tax inclusive)
Accomodation plus food for 9-10 days - approx 500 SGD?
That sums up to 800 $ !!!
How bout shopping, blah blah. Ping says 1k is enough.
But its kinda weird right. I mean.. To go abroad and have fun is not quite possible without spending power. Im not talking bout coming back with bags of LV and Gucci or some other high end brand. But... Aiyah. How should i put it? I hope uunderstand!!!!
In a state of euphoria now! Thinking bout how fun it'd be if i were to go.
But uh huh. Back to reality. Examinations - couple of days away. Next tues, wed, fri and its OVER! Yes, O-V-E-R. And it'd mark the end of my 1st year in NYP. Boo. How fast time flies!

STUDY BREAK! SOUNDS COOL EH!!! Sadly, i wasted monday and tuesday. Monday - busy sorting out the notes and stuff. Tues - Lazed at home till it was time for tuition! Tuition sure was easy today! Simply summarized the Geog Text for Viron and made him write notes! Hope this study method works for him!
Wed - Ping called me up at like.........8.40AM. I AM TIRED CANNNN. But i dragged myself up and headed to sch's library. Studying was REALLY SLOW. Was still at inflammation while she was way ahead of me. Soon came lunch. After lunch, Ping and i went up the lab in search for Dr Hema. Ping wanted to submit her MC. Saw the NEWBIES. They really looked kinda square. But how square they really are can only be 'diagnosed' 3 weeks later? After they open up that nut shell of theirs.
Thurs - Which is today! Still on GOP. Hope to finish GOP today and 2 lectures on Op Tech! Way to go!!!! Thats all for now. Taken a break thats wayyyyy toooooo longgggggg.

Monday - Thurs*18-21/04/05
Only phrase to describe: Life's a straight line . Except for few gossip sessions here and there, clinicals were wayyyy toooo dryyyy. Ar huh. Hitched a ride from Dan on Tues as i had to be at kembangan at 6pm and had somehow met him at the lift. At first he offered to alight us at City hall, then PayaLebar as he had change of plans on his side. Final decision: Drop us off at our respective destinations. Really nice of him. It was polite of him to drive at snail's pace. Too many cool gadgets in that silver box of his i cant remember. Stared blankly at the roads on the Eastern side of Spore-So very foreign! Couple moments of silence after Carmen alighted.
Than came Thurs. Couple of cards to express our gratittude were bought by my fellow class mates. After office hours, Fuglians turned cranky (as usual). We were wrecking havoc at Tutorial 2A! Each of us contributed to the 'design' of the card for the 3rd years. In our concious effort to make our messages turn fugly, it looked ok afterall. Its like.. What we wrote is really creative and has some form of..Stlye incorporated into it. Hence, no matter what horrible colour combi we planted, it was simply NICE. Haha. Is that the correct word? Anyways, that is history. This incident- i will never forget. Somehow, there seem to be hope once again!(Guess u wont know what im referring to here eh.) Consider this warm up session for Friday's geling session.
Friday. Time FLEW. Some parts of it probably disintegrated. Clinicals soon ended. Basically bidding our good byes, expressing thanks to them for being such a great host and not forgetting that 'event' starting with G. Yes, thats right. GOSSIP SESSIONS.
Fondly miss the ppl there. Seriously, what is learnt during the procedures are secondary. Its the communication and interpersonal skills thats primary. Eat the meat, throw the bones. Whats left? Sweet memories. Whats thrown? Complaints of insignificant others.
Library sessions again. B-O-R-I-N-G. An evaluation form was given. One question was: What was the activity u enjoyed most? I had the urge to fill: LIBRARY SESSIONS. AHahahaha.
Early dismissal. We turned from Blue Ducklings to Pulchritudinous Swans. Took 95 down to Holland V. Long walk to the spot of life. Half way thru, 4 of them decided to hail a cab. Leen and i were persistant and wanted to complete the walkathon. Threw some stuff into the cab and headed to Hagen Dazs hands free. Was kinda...Sweating profusely, but we denied. Afterall, they are Fuglies and knew what we were really thinking about. Leen and i were exposed. (We wanted to act as if the walk there was light and breezy but we failed.)
Thrashed 'things' out at Hagen Dazs. Really a great session. All the unhappiness were spelled out. (With elaboration and exampleS!)
An unpleasant incident happened at the ice cream store too. Shallnt elaborate.
Headed to Tango's as WaLaWaLa was full. If only we were 20, we'd go up for the live band at Wala's!
Had Strawberry and Mango Marblahblah PLUS lotsa fooooood. Played games and poked at each other's folly. Great time spent. ('Lady Luck' wasnt smiling at me. I 'striked' several times. But resisted drinking.) How often we get to spend such happy moments together!
Left at bout 9. Went home, smiling to myself. Retired to bed as soon as i got home.

Thurs
Allllright. We forgot bout the Denture session. Oh dear.. Needa look for that lecturer for a sincere apology. The last impression i'd like her to have is that we are a big bunch of useless and forgetful bums.

Friday
WACKING FUN DAY. Ended kinda early. (3Plus) Thats the only best thing that happened today. Haha.
Gotta know lotsa news bout Ah beng. Suddenly all that we talk about would somehow be linked to him! Thoughts of unbelief ran through my mind. Curiosity filled me! Gotta find out more on Monday!!! Like what the hell right. He's the... 2004 Cleo's Top 50 Most Eligible Bachelor.. Ex swimmer.. Owns a factory.. And blah. Alright. From Mon to Fri. Perception bout Ah Beng changed a whole lot. He's rather gentleman. Thats all i could say. No talks bout personal stuff just yet. Probably probing more into this colourful life of his on monday! Spaciality mannnn.. In a foreign ground afterall.. hmm, how should i start?!
Bused down to Holland V. after changing outta that BLUE STUFF. At Holland V, gotta change back cannnn.. Thanks to Cady lorrrrrr. We (Leen ping and i) desperately wanted to wear 'home' clothes, but Cady didnt bring clothes and felt weird. Verdict : ALL OF US CHANGED BACK INTO THAT BLUE STUFF. Jus that now, its more crumpled. Shopped and i bought pumps from x:odus. Sat down for Bites and Cuppa Coffee at Breko. Gossiped larh.. What else man. Left for home at bout 8plus.

Sat
Supper with Dan, Shan, Lyon and Robson after svc. Had zi char together. First time in history mannnn.. Ordered medium, the portion was ALOT. But.. i seriously wasnt feeling fullllll. Reached home at bout 1245am.

Sunday
Me : So when can we remove the braces?
Kenji : Today, if u want.
Me : Alright. Sure.
Kenji : U like the alignment and the bite?
Me : Im ok.
And...... Gone were the days where i had braces on. And i sure look WEIRD to myself! I realised i have BEEEEEG teeth. I prefer myself in braces. I thought i look kinda cute! :P Ok, u'll feel like slapping me after reading this yeah?

On The First Day Of Christmas My True Love Gave To Me...
I mean, on the first day of attachment..
What else could be worse than putting on the blue cleaners' look-a-like uniform.

On bus no. 95 stood a man in blue collare. And i passed a remark i wish i could take back. I said to Kel : Whichever student in dentistry wearing blue today is quite suay. He'll look like he's one of us!

Outside the Dean's office were pictures taken way back before i was born. Spotted Dr Hema in her younger days. She was SO CHEERY. And she still is now! Cuz she's teaching the cream of the crop-US. Haha.

WOW. An eye opener, indeed! Worked with the 4th years. Nice ppl. Ok, not all. Some were rather shy, some were quite friendly. That foreigner i worked with was really approachable. He made me feel so at home!

Couldnt have been more tired. Stood all the way in the clinic man! Too shy to sit eh.

And yes, the most horrid incident : An old indian lady from DSSU.. (Which we thought at first is a toilet cleaner) said : Same ar Same ar! (Referring to our uniform larhhhh. Dont u get what i mean?)

2nd Day was ALOT better. BORING PREVENTIVE DENTISTRY LECTURE. Was like Oral Health Promotion! 1st 2/3 of the lecture, busy taking down notes. For goodness sake. She rattled on and on so quickly that i couldnt bother much more.
Afternoon sessions were great. Starting to feel alittle more comfortable. But need to adapt to the new faces-e 3rd yrs.
Alright. Some looked arrogant. They probably were shy. And we had this prejudice bout # at the very last part of the day.

2 Funny Incidents
1) A toilet cleaner in off white gave us that kind of 'what-are-u-doing-in-that-blue-top' stare. He was literally giving us a disgusted scan from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet! Pointed that out to Pinggy and we laughed over it.
2) Cady and i were at the ladies brushing and grooming. Than in came a lady, peeking in and she went : Fook u! Cady and i turned and looked at each other, bursting out in hilarious laughter.

Pingy had a needlestick injury today. Fault lying in the in-house departments. The needle was embedded in the gown! Shallnt elaborate on it. They paid in full her medical checkup. Hope all will turn out fine for my darling girl.

Wed
Pinggy didnt join us for today. Feeling feverish, she decided to give today a miss.

Boring time at lab, to the extent we sit down for occassional chats at some discreet corner of the clinic. Only our 3rd day and we are sick of observing. Everything seems mundane.

Gave my first.............................to a guy.
Assisted WeiQiang in charting and procedures in Perio. I know i kinda flopped when he stopped work and wore his goggles. Bah, he probably forgot to wear them. :D not that im not doing a good job. And oh, dont get the wrong idea! Dental Therapist/Hygienist dont assist dentists. Any P6 student with average dexterity can do that closing one eye.
These peeps are really a fabulous bunch of big kids! They have their fair share of fun though they look kinda serious at e clinic, I guess. However the staff were not too hospitable.

Thursday's gonna be fun-something new! A staff invited half the class to pop in for denture making session. Cant wait!

Summary of this week
Mon:Walked a shorter route to Bras Basah, ended up going an entire round on my way back as i exit at the wrong exit. Brisked back to CityHall meet Jul, didnt manage to go down Orchard get da pair of shoes as i was 20mins behind schdule! Didnt wanna be late for meeting. Meeting was fun cannn! Literally lauging every 2 mins. Really felt i've grown in ministry.
Tues:Went down Sembawang order cake. Banu and i almost had a cat fight in the bakery! Well, crashed thoughts. Different style of working i guess. Haha. Bebe's treat to Sakae Sushi at Yishun!! Yummy. Averaged out to bout 36$. Reached home dead tired, read thru Radiography once. Thought i regret going for Sakae, running errands? No i didnt! Read on!
Wed:Supposed to have 4hrs to study for radiography. In a short notice, we had to stay on for additional lab sessions and were left with bout 2 hours. U know how girls like to drag time.. Studied for 1hr and went in for paper. Woa. Study so little can get kinda...better grades lorrrr.
Thurs:Finally got the cards for AWW. After so many days of worrying bout it, it finally is in my hands! Stayed up till the wee hours to complete ringing them. Went Woodlands with Cady after school this afternoon in the search of black pants. Its fugly can. BLACK PLAIN PANTS. I suggested pants with some strips of white or sumthing, but was rejected flat by Mdm Soh. :)
Mrs Quek suan me till i bo chun. As in, she was reallllllly scarstic. No evil intentions but she was really harsh on me. :( Dou Shi Wei Wo Hao... Hurt by what she said, Dr V seemed like the one who treats me the best! :D
Friday:Farewell party, lots to elaborate but too tired to type.HPB interview, will elaborate again.CGM meeting:FARN.

Sunday night
Actually forgot bout OpTech test tmr, totally slipped out of my mind!

Anyways, jus back from sch after prac test. And Gosh. What bad remarks DrHema gave. But true la. Haha. Like what i usually do during lab is wrong cannn. In my concious effort to restore the pits and marginal ridge, i left out carving the cental groove! How silly i can get. 3 mistakes DrV pointed out: Little shortage on mesio buccal, scratch on mesio interproximal, little contact point. Bahhh. Quite a demoralising day.

Quite a couple of errands to run today.
1)Bras Basah's Art Fren get da stupid rings.
2)Found a black shoe im ok with at Charles&Keith, will be getting e discount card frm Julienne at 0630, than head down to Wisma get da stuff. Dun wanna hold on to the card for too long cuz she's like doing me a favour. Plus the next time i see her would prob be 2 weeks later.
3)Ministry meeting at night. Have ta rush back to city hall after trip to Wisma.
Will prob drop dead when i get home. Like leaving me only Tues to study for Radiography. And that sounds like i have to pia again.

You Are My Sunshine, My Only Sunshine. You Make Me Happy, When Skies Are Grey. You Never Know Dear, How Much I Love You. Pls Dont Take My Sunshine Away.

After one has removed the carefully polished mask, are you able to overlook it, accept it and love him?
Went to Naked Fish Shoppe(Grassroots Club, which is mere 5mins walk away from school) for lunch with fellow Fuglians. Was there cuz a coin decided our fate of restaurent or canteen lunch. We were registered as guests, not public! Cool eh! Food's not bad, but serving's small.
Bebe lost his phone in a cab yesterday morning. The phone was returned to the rightful owner. What a miracle! Thank God man... Bought the man Merci Chocolates as a small token. The rest is history.

Finally got a watch-digital one. Sad. 1st day and there're scratches on the steel part. Prob an attitude the watch would like to have? Really damn xin tong now alright. And a fren rubbed on it, adding salt and pepper to the fuming me. Bahhh. Its ok Its Alright. Puay Yong Puay Yong fight fight fight! haha. Suddenly Cady's stage line came to my mind.

Met bebe up and wasnt a very pleasant day. Like, after all was patched up, we felt weird shopping. Its like, the feel isnt right. Somehow, somewhere, something went wrong. Decided to head back home while he meet up his pals. He'll be more glad out with them.. But bahh. thats a totally different story.

The True Meaning Of Easter
by Polly Griffin

To understand the true meaning of Easter, go all the way back to the beginning of creation..

God made a beautiful earth and heaven to be a home for His son, Adam. (Luke 3:38, Genesis 1:1 thru 3:24) Adam was made in the image and likeness of God, his father. Out of the ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field and every fowl of the air. He brought them to Adam so Adam could give them names.
Also, out of the ground grew every tree that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. At this time, there was no sickness, suffering or death.
And the Lord God took the man, and put him into the garden of Eden to dress it and to keep it.
"And the Lord God commanded the man saying, of every tree of the garden you may freely eat: but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat of it: for in the day that you eat thereof you shall surely die." (KJV Gen. 3:16-17)
God said that it was not good for man to be alone and so he caused a deep sleep to come upon Adam. God removed a rib from Adam and formed a woman from the rib to be the wife of Adam. Adam named his wife Eve. They truly lived in paradise, the earthly heaven.
Now, in the garden of Eden was a serpent. This serpent was Satan. (Rev. 20:2) Satan is also known as the tempter, Lucifer, and the devil. He personifies evilness and rebellion.
The serpent tempted Eve and said:
"Ye shall not surely die: for God doth know that in the day ye eat thereof, then your eyes shall be opened, and ye shall be as gods, knowing good and evil." (KJV Gen. 3:4-5)
So, Eve looked at the fruit and saw that it was good for food and pleasant to the eyes and she ate of it. She then gave some to Adam and he ate of it.
By eating the forbidden fruit, Adam caused the downfall of man. God expelled Adam and Eve from the Garden of Eden and sickness, suffering, and death came upon the earth.
In spite of Adam's and Eve's failures, God did not lose His love for mankind and promised that He would send a Savior to restore man back to the paradise state that He had intended for man.
(God speaking to Satan in KJV Gen. 3:15) "And I will put enmity (hatred) between you and the woman, and between your seed and her seed, it shall bruise your head, and you shall bruise his heel."
(Romans 16:20) "And the God of peace shall bruise Satan under your feet shortly/ The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Amen.
Throughout the centuries, the prophets told the story of a Savior that would come to earth to save mankind from their sins and restore them to paradise: (Isaiah 7:14), Matthew 6:10, Hebrew 9:12, Revelation 21:4)

About two thousand years ago that prophecy was fulfilled when a virgin named Mary became pregnant with a son that had been conceived in her by the Holy Spirit. This child was no ordinary child because He was the incarnation of the Word from heaven which came to earth in the form of God's only begotten son, Jesus. (KJV John 1:1-14, John 3:16, 1 Corinthians 15:47, John 8:23)
Mary was engaged to Joseph when she became pregnant by the Holy Ghost. Joseph married her, but their marriage was not consummated until after the birth of baby Jesus.
When it was almost time for the child to be born, a decree went forth from Caesar Augustus that a census of the whole world should be taken. This first census took place while Cyrinus was governor of Syria. And everyone was going to his own town to register.
And Joseph and Mary went from Galilee out of the town of Nazareth into Judea to the town of David, which is called Bethlehem. The town was crowded and there was no place for them to stay in the inn, they went into a stable. Mary delivered her child there and placed Him in a manger. Suddenly an angel of God appeared to shepards and spoke:
"Fear not, for behold I bring you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord.
And this shall be a sign unto you: you shall find the Baby wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.
And as the angel spoke, the heavens were filled with a chorus of angels proclaiming, "Glory to God in the highest, and on Earth, peace, good will toward men."
God's great love for mankind was made manifest through the birth of His son. The long awaited promise of a Savior had now come to pass.
"For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16
God's heavenly son was the only person that could save mankind. The price for redemption was His blood. He paid this price upon the cross at Calvary when He was put to death. He conquered death when He was resurrected. His resurrection is celebrated each year at Easter time.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place, having obtained eternal redemption for us." (Hebrews 9:12 KJV)
Like Adam and Eve, everyone has a choice to make. Each of us must decide if we want to choose to follow Jesus which leads to life or do we want to follow Satan the evil one. His way leads to death. When we choose Jesus, we are reborn. We cast away the lineage of God's earthly son Adam, who fell from grace. We take on the lineage of God's heavenly son, Jesus.
"He that committeth sin is of the devil; for the devil sinneth from the beginning. For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that he might destroy the works of the devil." 1 John 3:8
Jesus is calling for workers to help him restore the earth to a heavenly paradise like it once was. He pleads for workers to help with the work.
"'And Jesus went about all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues, and preaching the gospel of the kingdom, and healing every sickness and every disease among the people.
But when he saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd.
Then saith he unto his disciples, The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few; Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest, that he will send forth labourers into his harvest." Matthew 9:35-38
"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away." Revelations 21:4 KJV)

The Killing Of Three Lambs
Lamb #1
Long ago lived a man named Abram who was married to a woman named Sarai.
God made a covenant with Abram saying:
"Unto thy seed have I given this land from the river of Egypt unto the great river, the river Euphrates. (Genesis 15:18) Sarai bare Abram no children, but she had a handmaiden named Hagar. She told Abram to go into Hagar and have a child by her. He did and Hagar became pregnant. She bore a son named Ishmael. God told Abram that His covenant was with him. God changed Abram's name to Abraham. God told Abraham to circumcise all males of his seed and all males purchased with money.
God said that Sarai's name would be Sarah and that He would bless her and she would give him a son. She would be a mother of nations; kings of people shall be of her.
With this statement, "Abraham fell upon his face and laughed. He said in his heart, Shall a child be born unto him that is an hundred years old and shall Sarah, that is ninety years old, bear?" Genesis 17:17
God said that Sarah would indeed bear him a son and his name shall be called Isaac, and He would establish His covenant with him for an everlasting covenant and with his seed after him.
God also blessed Ishmael. He said that Ishmael would beget 12 princes and he would make him a great nation. However, he said His covenant would be with Isaac.
Sarah did bear Isaac. As Isaac and Ishmael grew, Sarah did not like Hagar and Ishmael. She asked Abraham to cast them out from their home. God told Abraham to do what Sarah asked. She said He would also make Ishmael a mighty nation. Abraham obeyed.
Then God decided to test Abraham's faith in Him. He told him to take his son, Isaac, that he loved, and offer him for a burnt offering. Abraham obeyed God. He bound Isaac and laid him upon the altar. Then he raised the knife to slay Isaac. The angel of the Lord called out to Abraham and told him not to slay the child because he had proven his faith in God.
Then a ram that was caught in the bushes was slaughtered for the burnt offering.
God told Abraham that in his seed all the nations of the earth would be blessed.

Lamb #2
Isaac had a son named Jacob. He had many children, but he loved one of them more than all the others. His name was Joseph. The other children hated Joseph because their Dad loved him most.
One day Jacob gave Joseph a coat of many colors. This really made the other children angry and they decided to get rid of Joseph. They sold him to some merchants who were on their way to Egypt. They killed an animal, put its blood upon the coat and told their father that Joseph had been killed by an animal.
The merchants sold Joseph to the captain of the guard of the ruler of Egypt. The ruler of Egypt was called Pharaoh.
Pharaoh loved Joseph because he had interpreted some dreams for him. Then Pharaoh made Joseph ruler over all of Egypt. Only the Pharaoh was more powerful than Joseph.
Time passed and a famine came upon the earth. Joseph's family came to Egypt to buy corn. Joseph told his family who he was and they were reunited.
All was well until after Joseph and the kind Pharaoh died and other persons took their places. The Israelites (the name of Joseph's family) grew. The Egyptians became fearful of the Israelites because they thought they were going to take over all of Egypt, and they put them in slavery and made them work and serve the Egyptians.
God heard their crying and grieving and sent Moses to lead them out of slavery. God gave them the land known as Israel today for their homeland.
Moses met with the Pharaoh that was ruler at the time and asked him to let the Israelites go but the ruler would not let them leave. God gave Moses the power to show the Pharaoh many signs, but still the ruler would not let the people go. Finally, God said He would do one more thing and after that the ruler would let the people go.
This was to be one of the saddest days in all of history and God said the Israelites must remember it always and to always observe it each year. He was going to set them free from slavery by killing the firstborn child of all the Egyptians.
The Israelites were ordered to eat special foods during this time and they must also kill a lamb and take its blood and paint it on the door so death would not take the lives of the firstborn of the Israelites. When the destroyer saw the blood on the houses of the Israelites, that family was "passed over" and the firstborn were not killed. The ruler of Egypt finally let the people leave Egypt to go to the land that God had given them.
God instructed the Israelites to observe this day by eating the Feast of the Passover each year on the 14th day of the first month. This month is called Abid (or Nisan) on the Jewish calendar.

Lamb #3
Many years later, there was to be another lamb slaughtered to free all the people on earth from the slavery of sin. This time God used His own son, Jesus, as the lamb to be slaughtered and by doing so, the world could be saved.
The slaughtering of our Lord Jesus Christ upon the cross coincides with the days of the Passover and both times must always be remembered as an expression of God's love for the people. Love isn't love until it is put into an action .
As the days drew closer for eating the passover meal, Jesus goes to Jerusalem. As he entered the city, the people laid their garments and branches off the trees and laid them in his path. They cried saying Hosanna; Blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord. They gathered together in an upper room to eat the passover meal.
Judas Iscariot made plans to betray Jesus. He was promised money if he did.
"And as they did eat, Jesus took bread, and blessed, and brake it, and gave to them, and said, Take, eat; this is my body.
And he took the cup, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to them; and they all drank of it.
And he said unto them, 'This is my blood of the new testament, which is shed for many. Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine,until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God. And when they had sung an hymn, they went out into the Mount of Olives." Mark 14:22-26
Jesus was betrayed by Judas Iscariot and was arrested. He was tried and sentenced to die upon the cross.
He died upon the cross. His blood bought redemption for all mankind.
"Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place , having obtained eternal redemption for us." Hebrews 9:12
The third day after his death, he rose from the dead to live forevermore.
The day he was resurrected is called Easter!!

Sitting right here looking somewhat like a lobster. Burnt by the scorching sun from yesterday's intercourse(Ops. InterDiploma i mean) Captain's ball match. And this v shaped burn under my neck prohibited me from wearing wad i wanted to wear to church. =l All cuz i stupidly wore a polo tee. Did i forget to mention the fair skin i have under glasses? Man, its funny. And, dumb. How would i ever forget bout this?
Its Sunday and im still in a state of euphoria. i still cant accept the fact that we won. Victoriously. Yes, we made it to 'trash the nurses'(sounds familar?) and surprisingly, the therapists too. Dr Ron even visualized Yas gulping champange from the trophy!
The pre-tournament trainings were all worth it. The players were so comfortable by Sat, and displayed wonderous coordinations.
Regristration was scary. We looked like dawrfs admist the tall the huge the tanned the fit and the netballers n never forgetting the 'smelly' basket-ballers that used a weird stretegdy no one would have ever thought of.

All of us had this premonition that we would be kicked out after round1 cuz the1st nursing team that competed against us had 2 giants-The defender who literally tapped away every ball we threw to huemin, and the big man who played rather rough thought that the girls would feel intimidated! When the score was a draw, the defender tried hard to stall time by pulling a quick one:stomachache. However, the empires stopped time and ruined his plan.Over the mountains and the seas, we won 5-4! Close shave indeed. Confidence grew as we got pass the 1st round.

2nd match was against Occupational Therapy. The pace was so fast. The co-ordination was pur-fat. DT won comfortably;9-1. Thanks to Ping who did long shoots as the team's energy was draining. HeeShen was there to 'support'. He wore this 'sunglasses' over his specs. I dont mean those that have magnets at the side for clip ons. Get the picture : He wore glasses prob meant for Radiography. =l Some said he looked like he's all geared up for diving. Boo. Will that be made possible?

3rd match was against RG. The most memorable one. The match Ping was looking forward to. LoL! The unhappiness DTs harboured over them having 4 guys were finally blurted out. The argument made Kel ignite in flames. In e end, compromise was made : They were allowed to replace 1 guy. Most memorable incident: Desmond ROARED at Kel. LOL. Everyone who caught that was laughing hysterically. A moment to remember, indeed. Another incident : No4 n Kel were snatching over the ball. Kel got it when she whined to the umpire I GOT IT FIRST... Sub Ping as i needed to do something, though i was a reserve. Slowed the entire match playing around for 5 mins. I blurted out a loud "SHIT" as the opponent got the ball. Thank God, wad was rightfully ours was gotten back. 11-3 was the score.

Final match-against Yr2 Nursing. The guys passed the balls to their female mates only when they were left with no choice. They had real weird tactics. Trashed them with 13-6.

Dr Ron : Thanks for showing your utmost support all the way. And having confidence in such a horrid player like me. I can thank u till the cows go home for having in me such great faith. Haha.

Supporters
Tan weiwei, Marilyn, Cady n YuanQi took the effort to cheer in the blazing sun. I was somewhat a supporter too. I yelled my throat away. Without all these shrieking support and cheers, I dun think DT will win. The supporters were truly their only source of motivation. The prize is secondary. What was important was that we really got to care for each other. Really, deeply touched by your attendance. Loads of kissies to u all!
Attn:Cady, thanks for taking the trouble of waking up early(earlier den me!) to make me egg butter breakfast instead of PizzaBreakfast every1 was having. And not forgetting the effort of making it triangular! Thanks alot baby.

Iliyas : Dude, PLEASE RELAX. Glad that the idea of being knocked out neverever cross your mind.

LeEn : Firm. Swift. Only words to describe u!

Huemin : Really glad u joined! U are really great. Goals wouldnt had been ours without your long legs and hands!

Huiping : MVP is the term, perfect for u. (Most Valuable Player)

Mastura : Ever ready, ever steady

Yusri : You are jus too good to be true. So agile. U are really EVERYWHERE, EVERYTIME. Indeed living up to ur name! Wouldnt had been possible with your incredible legs and hands!

Ruth : Girl thanks for comin down, u aint a reserve. U were GOOD n that's why u were chosen to join e team. u improved tremendously n for e 2nd game u were steady n made some good passes n catches. impressive performance after only 3 trainings :D (THIS IS FROM KELLY!!!! SHE REALLY MADE ME FLY SKY HIGH)

DT emerged as champions. No one ever would expect dwarfs to get that tittle. But was everyone there to share this joy?

Mundane day. Little communication with heem. Well, not only today,every other week day. Whereas Sats, busy with own stuff, den church in evening, talk so little. Sunday, prob abit better.
Had some sort of misunderstanding. Too long to elaborate here. Well, verdict : I cant take it anymore. Always sprouting all the qi hua, than apologising after that. Heee thinks i've got no temper and no angry words to splish splash spatter? I keep them all. Cause i know its not gonna help things. In my point of view, i'd rather be the sour one, keeping the flame burning right in me, than letting it out and making things worst. I know how bad this tongue of mine can be. But i decided to control it, to tie it. Cant YOU? Really. I cant take in any more apologies.
See how u've dampened my study mood. Tired. Really tired. Its so late(1am) and i'm not done with studying. Much more to cover.
Heeeee jus called. As what i anticipated him to say; too tired, had long day, viscous cycle again, good night, slp now. muack bye. C= Cool ya?
And no, not trying to demean heeem. Jus want to let it out thru a medium that's non responsive. U know, sharing it with others may twist the entire thoughts and feelings, and inculcate in me evil ideas. muaaahahaha.

Nice time im having right now, sitting down with the fan blowing right at my face to cool me down.
Had 1Hr of GOP 'lecture' today. Basically chatting away. Infection control marks has been compiled and thank God for the good results. To Him be the glory. amen.

Next came a wacking farn time shouting and yelling at each other during Captain's ball. Really fun playing under rather cool weather. I happened to be damn blur today! I dun recognise members in my group. I'd either take awhile to recall who is and who isnt in my team, or directly throw it to the opponent! =l Still, all of us laughed over my folly. First game-running around. Next 2-defender. Alright, i feel flattered when some said i was a rather good defender. I turned beetroot when they put me in the best light! Okay, i went too far blabbering bout i me and myself.. Haha. Prob wont be playing much in the game. Will be placed as reserve. But i dun mind la. Im not into balls. Jus trying my best to show my utmost support. Pls pray hard for springs in my legs and superb ball sense!
Oh yes, i forgot to mention. Guest player, Dr Raj joined us today! *Cheers to sporty Raj* He's rather good. I feel this enthu in him man! He could only join us for a mere 10mins as he has a lecture after that, but he was all geared up! I think he was with us for bout 20mins. He really is good. Almost 'touched' him a couple of times.
All of us forgot bout spaciality during the game. Shout outs of RAJ RAJ or RONNIE was heard a million and one times. LoL.
Dr Ron's treat to drinks after the intensive 'exercise'.
And, Mari really is this horrrrr-nie lady in our class. She really is. Guys out there, GRAB HERRRRRRRRRRRRR. Haha. Well, aint funny.

Memorable lecture with Dr V. He's rather particular bout stuff. Alright FOLKS, time to take off that coloured lenses u used to sterotype him with! He's GOOD. Really good. And cheeky too i guess. He cant wait to show that bushy tail of his. hO hO hO. And Leen's in lurve with him. I admit, her aims are always of excellent standard.

During lab session, i tried hard to be serious. Aim was to complete cutting all by today.. But to no avail. Jokes were minimal. But i went overboard on the slangs today. Which kinda made me laugh my intestines out. Alright, not too bad, im left with deepening the gingival seat of my 34. Guess what? I did a DO instead of an MO. Cut wrong stuff for the 2nd time. =l I better not do it in the test.

Had a clone today. Really co-incidental! Same top, same model of jeans and nike shoes. C:

Captain's ball again tmr. What should i wear.

Alas, Radiography over. The torture of the delay is over, at last. The questions were tricky.. Wasnt in the mood to do the test cuz im so used to cancelling out not possible answers.. I jus love scribbling study methods on the test script. Like.. TE, FS represents Tooth positioned wrongly, Elongated image, Film wrong, Shortened image.. and stuff like that. But bahh. Anyhows, I didnt fare well. :c Not that i didnt study. Alright. It was tough okay. Fullstop. But that shouldnt be the sole reason why i didnt do well.

Viron cancelled tuition again. That makes it 9times of cancelling or postphoning in 4 mths. But couldnt help it larh. He claimed he's sick. C: Get well soon my BELOVED student.

Did grocery shopping. Basically healthy stuff that i can munch on between meals. Ceral n raisins!! *SLURRRRRPS*

Better start on Op Tech today or i'll not go for Wed BS in peace. 3 lecture notes to cover. So little, yet so march.

Combined svc at Spore Indoor today. Awesome. Past 2 days were BennyHinn's crusade. Vision restored, wheelchair bound getting up, cancer healed, arthritis healed, eardrums formed, kidney problems healed, and many more! Such a waste that the dist stopped Cady Baby frm going, e others had other appts. :C Bought a book, Welcome Holy Spirt. Its a good buy, best buy and a must buy! Its not only gonna change my life, but i believe i'll influence the others with my lifestyle. And yes, im gonna live being practical, yet not living a double standard way of life. You know. Im in the world. But not OF the world. Yes. Thats it.

Bebe accompanied me home. He took a nap while i did my stuff. After few moments into Radiography, i fell asleep. Waking up 2 hours later by an SMS. :c Mum whipped dinner in jus a few moments after i woke up. i ate ALOT. Cuz its all about CURRY FISH AND MEAT DUMPLING! Plus ladies finger! Yummy! Not forgetting, she stir fried Lala. Man! It was so saltish. =l Completed Radiography after dinner while bebe catch up with his Bible reading. I've got quite a couple of days to catch up too!! :c On top of that, i promised bebe to read Welcome HS by 3 weeks. Uhhh ohhhh.

Really is quality time spent, rather than what we used to do: Shop at town EVERY OTHER WEEK!

And yes. The latest want: watch. And u know what? I seem to like DIESEL now more than anything else. =l If i really buy it, it'll burst my budget. If i buy it, why not top up couple of tens more to go on mission trips? Brrrr.

I forgot to mention, hadnt met bebe up for almost 1 week. 6days to be exact. the pass few days had been horrible. I felt he was giving me lip service. No i dont need that. Words with action fall on the ground wasted. Tmr, hopefully can spend some quality time.

Past few days has been so busy. Really tired. Since Ulf Ekman week, which is like end of Feb, I hadnt had a good rest and time to do my stuff. Other than days in sch shrieking away with Fuglians.. I cant quite find a good reason to laugh. Other than serving God in bookstore, i dont enjoy my life.. Mugging and blah. Had a good time lazing at home today. Sleep till 10, had tuition till bout 1245. Had lunch and urged sis n mum to go SIS. Called up some folks, chatted with Kel and fell asleep. Haha. I think the last few mins with Kel, she was trying hard to get my attention. Sorry Kel. Seriously. I was not really listening. Ok, listening but not hitting the ball back to u. LoL

Thurs
Left lab bout 20mins before dismissal.Wanted to go home and nap for 1 hour. Thats why. I wasnt really in a rush actually, since mum decided to cab down to court. Shalln't elaborate, whilst u know my situation and pity me. No, i dont need your sympathy. I will survive. God will pull me thru.

Fri
DH test was really tricky. It wasnt wad i expected. I over studied. What i anticipated didnt come out at all. And that kinda feeling is horrible. The questions were easy, some of them. But i skipped it. I thought i knew. In the end............... The MCQ's are tricky and expensive. 2MARKS EACH!
Then came the next hour with DrHema. We had to shift as she took it for granted that no one would book the room. We'll usually have tutorial right after 1lect and no one would come in usually. But this week came the Adv Dip ppl, who barged in demanding that we get lost! Packed the stuff for the others and brought it out. MAN! The bags were heavyyyyyyy. Went up to tutorial room, had class discussion after that. Banu got quite heated up. Maybe she's a little more impatient. That discussion was funny. Cady and i literally were laughing our organs out!

Had outdoor captain's ball. No one, ok maybe a minority, was in the mood to play under the scorching sun. Cady n i cheered the rest who went to play first. Wasnt quite happy with the opposing team that footaged quite a couple of times. But its alright, jus a game yeah? I guess i was cranked up at that time. Cady and i kept shouting FOOTAGE!!! or REFREE KAY LONG!!! As we yelled, we laughed over it. Haha. Cuz no one. Literally no one bothered about us. Haha. As usual, Kel n Ping took control of the game, leaving the rest of us supporting somehow. Fun and friendly match. At the end of it all, we tried taking a short cut, but ended up taking an even longer and tedious route. Its ok la, once bitten twice shy. Had lunch, special guest, Mastura!

Cabbed down to Indoor for duty. $7! The uncle was screwed up and went circles. I bind that attitude of his. I curse that attitude. Stupid man afterall. Small girls money also wanna cheat.
Served at North ent and saw the ppl running in when the door opened at SIS. 5000plus ppl were turned off that night. I managed to sneak out of the booktables into the hall. The meeting is fantastic. Ppl came in on hospital beds with layers blankets standing up and walk, wheel chair bound leaping out of their seats, stomach cancers being healed, deaf ppl hear and one with eye vision restored. It really is God's healing hands. Bu You Ni Bu Xing! Wasted man. My frens couldnt make it. :C Hope they can come down for Easter. C:

Next week would be another hetic week. Sy Rogers coming back. That time he shared bout his life, how he changed from a homosexual into someone God uses. Take the week end off and start Easter preparation. After that i can have a good rest. Busy March.

I cant wait to know DH results. Would it be A B or C? Probably not a D i hope. Such a long entry. I spent 1/2 an hour here blogging about my bitter sweet memories. C: Seriously, without Fugs, poly's gonna be boring. Its a different thing having fellow church mates and good pals at sch. Really cherish each and every fren God has brought to me. I hold their salvation in this little palms of mine. Brrr. Wad am i saying.

Lab session at 9am. Waste of time today. The air pressure or sumthing wasnt working too well. Couldnt cut cavities. Ended up drawing and filling Class2 table model. Not forgetting, crapping around with Cady Carmen Kel and Dr Ron. I smell some internal conflicts among the staff. Did i forget to mention, ONCE AGAIN? haha. Mdm E said someone didnt want ppl to use the com during lab sessions. Somehow the key board was removed. The conversation was quite FARNIE. (U realised the word FARNIE has funny and strange mixed in it?) And i guess both parties were rather.. heated up. = Ms C guai guai de went and take the keyboard out. Discussions bout this incident was damn funny during a quick 10min lunch with e gurls. Logical, yet hilarious prognosis we made. Pack up time's getting earlier and earlier. It used to be 1/2 hour before we session end. Today we left lab at 1140.
As usual, Hema's lecture is way too boring. And somehow.. She seem to have this sudden sense of humor, but not too pleasing to Fugs who have gotten used to such low lvl non-intellectual jokes. haha. Surely but truly, Leen and Cady tried their best to suck up to her by laughing at it. Probably trying to get into her good books cuz of the upcoming tests! Haha.
Reached home at 0135. Slept from 0150 till six plus. Can u imagine?! I slept my afternoon away! = Feeling really guilty now. I better start some solid star-dying. I mean, stardie-ing. No. Studying.

Yet, another wasted day. I dont know what i've done today. Anything but hitting the books. Ok, at least im done with GOP assignment.
With 1 sms, Dr Hema actually had the power to scare me out of my wits. Dental Hygiene test changed to Tues, PLUS Op Tech test somewhere next week, not sure when. Gosh. That makes it Tues-Dental Hygiene Wed-Dental Radiography Thurs/Fri-Op Tech. She sure knows how to arrange dates!!! God.
Mum was back to cook dinner before going back to night clinic. Before she left, we had this argument bout money. That i dont 'surrender' enough. Pls lor. Its almost all meals out (except occassional dinners like today) plus transport. And she went on bout my dad, then, suddenly, a long string of Hokkien vulgarities flew out. And no, my mum is not the sort of aunty, gossipping and 'swimming' in tiles every other day. She's English educated, rather smart and innovative. I really hate that attitude she has adopted from i-dont-know-where. Is that what her god taught her? I see her putting on this 'safety pin' before going out and in my heart, i really flared. One by one, i'll throw all the stuff i dont feel comfortable with.
It's like 6.30 now and i really dont have the mood to study after all that's happening at home. Things are getting worst these days. And i believe for better turn outs some day.

School school school took up my mornin n half an afternoon! Lunch was ex. $2.40 for 3kinds of veg. At the beginning of the term, it was $2 for 2veg, 1meat. Then it became $2.40. I was already grumbling. And today, it is ridiculous! 3 veg, for $2.40! If i had taken lunch outside it'l probably be just $2.30. Can u believe this? Canteen at school is more pricey than hawker food outside. If i had a chance, i dont mind reporting this to the sch authorities. Were they in the midst of renewing their license at the start of the term, hence the lowered prices?
Had a small shop at J8 in search of ribbons, 'tissue' paper and hair clips. I wanna start on my craze!!!!! Sadly, i found NOTHING to my liking. Came back, beat from travelling.
I forgot to include my experience on my way home. I didnt know wearing Pink Gio Polo Tee and folded jeans with pumps would turn heads! For a moment, this not-so-good body of mine was indulged. Sadly, they were the lustful eyes of construction workers. And u'd never know how much i DETEST them. I'd love to slap them, cut their hair, break their hands and legs, then finally rip them apart. As i brisked past, one of them was whistling to the tune, Xiao Wei. The 1st line was ok. Then came the 2nd, it was a 'lao-honged' whistle. Man, i'd sure have a good laugh if i was with someone. I mean, laughing aloud, being alone, ppl would see me as................ U know wad i mean.
Watched my 2 'a-little-out-of-shaped' blackies swimming in their 2 feet tank. GOSH! They are SO CUTE! Sorted out my Dental Hygiene and Dental Radiography notes. I thought i'll hit the books today. But im feeling so lazy now. There's too many things undone and i dont know where to start!
Probably time for a nap first before waking up to FOOD GALORE. Muaaahahahaha.

Ever wondered what's the worst thing that can happen on a train?
Let me disclose.
Sitting beside a person smelling sour. And smelling sour is derived from an entire day out, sweating, i guess. I tell u. This feeling i had jus now on my way back is HORRID. I literally keep looking right. (He was on my left) But still, the 'perfumed' stench waffled to my nose. And its not very nice to get up suddenly. I was hoping for some old or pregnant lady to get onto the train. Especially at Novena / Toa Payoh, where TanTockSeng Hospital and elder ppl are, respectively. Serious. And i forgot to mention, some ppl must have thought im mad to be turning my head against the wind direction. Which girl would want their hair messed up. But i was left with no choice. I was desperate. Haha. If u smell bad occassionally, use talc or deodorant. It is cost effective and yet considerate. Nowadays, everything is so 'portable'. Jus dump it into your bag or something okays.

Im feeling so stressed out today. Since early morning.
And Viron has once again triggered my fire hormones. He cant make it at 2pm. Why? Meeting. Most probably SOCCER meeting. And shit. Excuse me. I avail my everyday and week to accomdate 'you'. And here 'u' are shitting to me that 'u' cant confirm what time 'u'll' reach? Pls hor. 'You' are already in sec2. You dont need me to tell 'you' the 101 ways of NOT upsetting ppl's schedule. Neither do 'u' need me to tell u how to use your pea brains and weigh the consequences of skipping tuition. U sure u can improve like that? Pls lor. I know u cant make it by 2pm, i'd gone to sch for lab work. Shucks. And now, i cant go to sch after tuition as i need to make it for BS. I'd burn you if i have the chance to.

Next comes my irritating brother. When i use the com(or rather, HIS com), he'll ask me to get lost when i've not even warmed the seat. Jus to chat with gurls i suppose. He keeps trying to find fault with me. And i feel like killing him. This instant. Yes. Sounds like Hide And Seek's Charlie David? Argh.

And dad irritated me further by ticking me off when i didnt off the lights. Cummon. I FORGOT. If i want to waste electricity intentionally, i'd have left the air con on instead of using the FAN.

And next, im so blanketi blank blank bout school stuff. I have to go back sch early in e morning tmr for amalgam fillings, den meet Kel up at 11am. Study abit in afternoon b4 CGM i guess. In 2 weeks after hols, i've to complete cutting 4 more 'holes' and filling them. Then, next week, Dental Radiography on Wed, Dental Hygiene on Fri. Im phreak out at the thought of next week. Will i be prepared for the tests?

I've wasted the 3rd day of my holiday. And i dont know what i've been doing. Seriously, i need some time management. For now, i'l try sitting down, cool myself off with MORE dark chocolates, sort out my notes and hopefully start studying before Prince Viron arrives in his sedan for tuition. Go out for BS and then do cg bulletin when i get home.

Still in dilema whether to go for Prata Supper tonite with Den, Cherry and Alvin. I guess not, most likely. It'll be 10 after BS, reach prata house at 1030? U want my life?

This post is gonna be boring. Yes. Im warning u. This is gonna be dry.

Met Lyon up at ToaPayoh jus to collect journal, with intention to meet bebe up in evening for dinner. He went home for dinner and i had late dinner. I called him when i finished, it was 8.15 then. Wanted to go down Yishun, but i guess he felt it was too late. He was tired and didnt wanna come down either. I think bebe fell asleep - i miss him so. We've not chatted for many, many days. Went out yesterday after svc to Orchard library to read Bible. Shopped and had Subway after that. YUMMY. SUBWAY CLUB AND WHITE CHIP MACADAMIA ROCKS.

Chats with Kel has messed up my plans of shopping, feasting, ...
She reminded me of Dental Radiography test next week, GOP Assignment. And, i thought of.. Com App 2nd Assignment.. And i have to go back sch to fill more amalgam cavities. SICK. Burnt holidays.

Started on GOP today. So many foreign terminologys. And i realise there's not much i can write about. *_* Next comes putting them in my own words. Its jus so dunnoe-how-to-say.

Sudden interest of making bouquets is back! I'll either spend an entire day doing it or drag till dont-know-when. Finally found a buyer if all is successful. I couldnt be making one and leave it lying around at home right. Muaaahahaha.. Woo Hoo!

Movie with Fugs tmr at Cine. I dread catching movies. Further more, horror movies. we'l be catch Hide And Seek. I hope they have a sudden change of mind. I dun wanna be a spoilsport so i had to tag along. Boo.

All of us want to do something grand to show our love for our loved ones. It would be marvellous if we have the opportunity to do it. But, we don't need to carry out grand things in order to show great love for others and for God. We don't have to do big things, only small things with great love. It is the intensity of love we put into our actions every day that makes them into something beautiful. It is not the magnitude of our action that counts but the depth of love we put into it. Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. It is hard for ppl with AIDS to cope with the fact that they are going to die. But being there with us and seeing us with others in their last moments makes a difference. They need to know that when they're dying, u'll be there holding their hand. The dying are moved by the love they receive. If our actions do not first come from the desire to be with a person, then it really becomes just social work. When you are willing to be with a poor person you can recognise his need and if your love is genuine you naturally want to do what you can as an expression of your love. Service, in a way, is simply a means of expressing your being for the person---and often with the poorest people you cannot completely alleviate their problem. But by being with them, by being for them, whatever you can do for them makes a difference. The message we try to convey to the poorest of the poor is: We cannot solve your problems but God loves you even while you are handicapped or alcoholic or have leprosy, and whether or not you become cured, God loves you just as much and we are here to express that love. And if we can help relieve their pain a bit all well and good, but it is more important for us to remind them that even in the midst of pain and suffering, God loves them. It's a difficult message to communicate, obviously, but we believe that being for them is the first thing. If you spend time with a person then that >is as much an expression of love as what you can do for them. take small steps of love every time there is an opportunity. Each step is like a candle burning in the night. It does not take the darkness away, but it guides us through the darkness.When we look back after many small steps of love, we'll discover that we have made a long and beautiful journey.Paying attention to people is far from easy. We tend to be so insecure about our self-worth and so much in need of affirmation that it is very hard not to ask for attention ourselves. Before we are fully aware of it, we are speaking about ourselves, referring to our experiences, telling our stories, or turning the subject of conversation toward our own territory. The familiar sentence, 'That reminds me of. . .' is a standard method of shifting attention from others to ourselves. That is why listening is so difficult. It means our moving away from the center of attention and inviting others into that space. know how healing such an invitation can be. When someone listens to us with real concentration and expresses sincere care for our struggles and our pains, we feel that something very deep is happening to us. Slowly, fears melt away, tensions dissolve, anxieties retreat, and we discover that we carry within us something we can trust and offer as a gift to others. The simple experience of being valuable and important to someone else has a tremendous re-creative power."
Ultimately, God will not ask us how many projects we have accomplished, the number of books we have read, nor how many degrees we have obtained, but He will ask us if we have done our best, for the love of Him and others.

Suffering from Post Captain's Ball Syndrome. My butt, thighs and back are aching after fighting 'bulls' on hot pans yesterday. Though i didnt contribute much, i did try my best to be wherever i think was right and appropriate.

Viron missed tuition again. And im getting REALLY frustrated. When can there be a month with decent attendance. The rates are peanuts and i've to spare all my time to accomodate him. NO. This cannot be happening. I will improvise somthing to make tuition work out. Yes. I will do it.

Wore red checkered mini and 'casper' top today as i needed to look 'formal'. Basically, more presentable. But i feel.. Its fashion disaster man. And no, im not trying to force u to say, "No larhh. U look great! Really!" I dont derive pleasure from that alrights. Casper top is like... one year old? Looks new but outta fashion, i think.

Had quick lunch with mummy and lil sis at Kim San Leng. And oh, i feel so WEAK without meat.

Busy day at Attributes today. Every step and bent i took was of great efforts. Everything is so messy. And i kinda... couldnt really manage. I felt like and octopus-An injured one. I felt so lost. I felt so small. But i believe for greater capacity. Yes. Amen. And for the 1st time since i've done accounts, i dun have to cab home frm church! Met Hong and went home with him, Den and andrew(an usher). Long time since i last saw Hong, or even chatted with him! I hope everything goes on well for him this year. C= We are conquerors. Yeah?

Cabbed home from AMK as the train terminated there. Was too tired to accompany Den to 7-11 for a drink, not talking bout supper mind u. He offered to send me home. But bah, i dun like the idea of ppl sending me home. haha. CG members should know. C: So, sorry den. No offence alrights.

Cooked mian xian with prawns and egg. Yummy. Some kind of meat at last! But the hunger pangs are here again. Gonna sleep real soon and ignore the grrrrr, grrrrrr, grrrr.

How bout popping a piece of DARK CHOC before bed?
Nah. I forgot to mention, i had a cuppa vanilla ice cream today. I mean.. offered by someone.. couldnt reject ppl's good intention larrr righttttt...
Me : Gosh. Its 6.3 g of fats.
Him : Its ok. U can afford it.
MUAAAAHAHAHAHAHA.. Pleasurable. Really was. But i didnt say im fatttttttttttt ok. I simply commented that its 6.3 g in.

Captain's ball with class today was great. Really sweat it out. Felt my fats melting. (-Adapted frm Fug's conversation.) Drip by drip, i'l reach my goal one day. YES, I WILL. Comments from Fugs were.. not good. And i agreed totally. Its better that they tell me where im weak at, rather den deciving me that im not bad at it! Its da truth. I feel like i've been set free after all these years. haha. But, if given more practice, i believe i can do it one day! It was still fun though.

When entering the gantry of the sports complex, some unpleasant things happened. Not to the Fugs, but one of my fellow mates. The incident happened and blah. I really felt the guard was a hypocrite! = Deep down, my id was screaming out : No wonder he's a ......... all his life. *_*
Well, all's over and its a happy day after all!

Rushed home after the game as i needed a bath, put down my notes and take bring my bible out. I di-li-dare-li-ed at home.. bathing, didnt know that kel, cady n cham were waiting for me at sch for lunch. Guilt filled me when they called man. Flew down to sch in 20mins. including walks and waiting for the train, mind you. One word to describe lab from 3-6pm - FRUSTRATING. but its all right. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. I'll learn the ropes. I'll soar like the eagles. Yes. One day i will. Not for my glory but His.

Im so tired after a week of pia-ing assignment, conferences at church and online, studying till 2plus am last night.. Hence i decided to give today's a miss. I do hope to catch it online. Really praying that my irritating brother will not be back till 1030. I weighed the consequences of going. I'll be dead beat. There's tuition tmr morning and duty after that. I'd probably break down on Sunday. But no. Im gonna charge myself up by............................................ heh hEh heh.

Funny day at sch with Fugs again. As usual.
Gosh. Infection control is killing me. Cant get anything in. Its jus like Oral Health cannnn. It goes on and on and on cannnn. Da notes dont look like its prepared by Dr Ron cannnnn. Its SO WORDY cannnnn. Wonder if i'l be able to present anything on the script later cannnnn. bAh. Im so tired cannnnn. Wasted too much time after sch at Bishan with mei mei having dinner and all cannnn.
Notice my new lingo cannnnn?
Captain's Ball tournament later on. Im gonna have a wacking fun time. Its gonna be hilarious. Its gonna be funny. Its gonna be embarrasing. I've got no ball sense. Really. None. Zero. But im physically fit. Bah. So what? Its not too revelant. = Its bout teamwork and ball sense after all. dUh. And what if DT students loose to the nursing cohort? This would be the question most of us DTs will be pondering about. hO ho hO. The verdict of who's in who's out will be out soon.
Keep your eyes on this page to find out more!

Lethargy almost dragged me to being an absentee. Went sch basically for 2 reasons. 1) Pass Vocaluptous CD to Kel. 2) Return Infection Control notes to Cady. I felt so irresponsible not to pass it back to her! I know the feeling of having notes with someone else though planning not to study today.
Gosh, had Mac again today. Did i mention breakfast and dinner at Mac yesterday? Im.. getting.. sick of the word M-A-C. Mac.
Friday's gonna be horrid with Mock Captain's Ball. U all know what lousy ball sense i have though im physically fit. Boo.
And now the next thing's bugging me. To go or not to go for the conference tonight? I've test on Friday. Thank God im more or less done with my assignment. But the thing is. Im so very tired. Really.
I dont know what it is.. That makes me feel like this.. I dont know who u are.. But u must be some kind of superstar.

Lao-ed Yu Sheng with CG today. CGM was great. From games all the way to good byes. Such a family. Went down Attribute's Office and data entried all the way to 6pm. Successfully made my way to PS. On the way there, familar buildings are all around. But i was clueless to the exact spots i was at. = Was led by 'intuition', or should i say, HS. (= At HAUT, i made another order for a tee. I like their stuff. Its.. simple, yet sophiscated. Urmm.. how should i put it... *_*
And yes, i shopped alone down the lonely streets of Orchard Road. Bebe's fast asleep after a long week.

Bought SINS Choc for a fren. Birthday gift, as i said.

I've known you since 2000. Yet, we've never once had a decent conversation. Well, maybe once. I always stumble on my words when i see you. Why? I dont quite get it either. Till today, as i saw u at town, i jus didnt have the courage to express what i've long wanted to. I feel silly. I feel stupid. I feel dumb. Very.

And God, this week's gonna be really tough to pull through.
Mon : Tuition
Tues - Thurs : Ulf Ekman's Conference (Whiny tune : I wanna go!)
Fri : ComApp assignment to be submitted. Infection Control test.
All the doo da dae, i've not started on my PPT slides. Jus complete the Word part not long ago. Wanted to start on PPT today. But guess wad? The latest version right here is MSWord 97. 97, mind you.
Hope to wake up early and go sch do lahh. (i used lahh cuz im Brain Dead.) U know how irritating big brothers can be. Was starting on PPT, came and insisted that i get lost. I wanna burn his hair, bite him, and grill beef on his face. But its alright. I shall forgive his ignorance.

Tim: this pic looks detailed enough to b professional, yet small enough so that he can't see whats going on. perfect.
I:and thus says the princess of singapore.. it shall be as such.
I:no. make it bigger
I: jus enuff for 2ants to line up on 1 alphabet
I: jus enuff for 2ants to line up on 1 alphabet <<<>

..After few moments.
Tim:entertainin urself.....just finished laughin izzt?

Im cute. Isnt it?

It was all but a dream.
Remnants of the past multiplied but shrunk to a critical level.
Stop contradicting.
What are you up to?

You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say
Well in case you failed to notice, in case you failed to see
This is my heart bleeding before you, this is me down on my knees
These foolish ga.mes are tearing me apart
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart.
Haha. Profound yeah? But negative. Very negative. LoL.

Had 2 and 1/2 hr lunch break. Cabb-ed to and fro with my fellow fuglians to Bishan for Swensen's Executive Lunch. Their service today was better then the last time. (Prob cuz we didnt bring in outside food and drinks. hahahaha.) Alrights, aint too funny.
Bought 3 books at MPH-Bishan. Sudden indulgence in novels. Hope to improve on my language and eloquence.

Tan S.G. seem to be having 'menopausal swings' today, snapping at us at slightest wrong voice outs. On one hand, she wants a reply from us. On the other, she snaps away insisting that we recalled what was taught 3 weeks ago without lecture notes. =

BS today was great. Im willing. Send me. Launch me. Over the few days after 10Characteristics of Big Ppl, i've grew to become a more genourous, forgiving person. Also, the spatiality and manners part has impacted me quite..ALOT.

Made heart shaped brownies for bebe today. Quite a failure as it was Chewy Brownies, hence stuck to the open end mould. But taste quite nice though.
The best part is the rapping with 'tissue' paper. Successfully made a flower out of a ribbon.
All is done and im rather tired. Lazy to meet him up at Yishun. Can bebe pls come down?

Hitched a ride from Dr Ron after school back to Bishan. Chatted quite abit along the way. He is a good man.

Bebe surprised me with ANOTHER bouquet of roses. The 1st was 6blue ones preordered from church. Today's a trio. White outer petals, pink on the inner layers. Simply Magnificiant. I prefer the latter. I wouldnt mind waking up one day to be find myself lying on a bed full of blue and purple petals, following which, breakfast on bed is served. Or.. opening my car boot to find it filled with purple and blue roses, with a cute little bear or precious moments figurine in the middle. yeah, i dont mind. i really dont.
And, bebe came with muffins too! (As he promised!) Together with it was a beautifully wrapped Chanel No.5 fragrance. Thank God for $20 CK.Tang voucher from sis wx.

Hadnt a very pleasant day out. Well, today shall not be v.day. It'll be every day other then today.

Headed down to Marina Bay for Marc's farewell cum 21st birthday dinner. Speeches were touching, photos taken were classics. I'll miss eating supper with him!

School started at 10am on the 3rd day of Lunar New Year. Whats more? Its 2 draggy hours of Hema's hours. And the only way to keep myself awake is by entertaining her questions. Be it right or wrong answers.
Soon came Infection Control Prac Test. Gosh. I screwed 2 parts up by not knowing what to say. She gave me undesired prompting. And pls, i need time to THINK. That Bu bU thought i didnt know, and prompted me. I guess i was marked down.
The remainder 2 1/2 hours of lab sessions are unimaginable. Its irritating to have C around. What to say? Why is the school wasting resources? I guess she's here to test my patience, to set me on fire.
The day ended soon when we had an early pack up. The worst happened. While we were snacking, **** dropped the entire container of LoveLetters. The story would be complete with your imagination of what happened next.

Bumped in the boys of 3E3 n 4E3. And guess what? Most of them came from 1E2 and 2E2. Close buddies, indeed.

Reunion dinner with Sailormoon's(Seekfong, Zimei, Lan n Pauline. Plus Eileen? Maybe..) great. 3 dishes were shared by 4 persons(SF, ZM, L & I). Obviously i didnt have my fill. My stomach is jus like a bottomless pit. In order to stall time, we shared a cuppa frappe in pairs. Why? Cuz ZM was draggy bout approaching her eye candy. In e end, SF seemed to badly want to leave. Gradually ZM's face turned black. Haha. Im kinda..rather used to this. Jus let her cool off and she'll be fine in 2 hours. On one hand, im having a whimsical time with the trio. On the other, im rather disappointed at Pauline's 'disappearance'. We had a whacking fun time anyway.
Loitered outside CafeCartel for bout 7mins before we saw MdmTeo & Ms Tan, our sec 1 n 2 si dui tou teachers. 1st time i heard Mdm Teo telling a joke.

Somehow, at that instance, i begin to cherish old friendships. Reunion with e3 boys, Sailormoons, teachers and Leonard seemed so ....... . No words would describe the state of joy im in. However, despite all this, its sad that reunion with Fuglies is cancelled. I just cant sacrifice my Wed and Fridays to be with them. Some commitments i have to see to. Truly, there is no one day that all of us can make it without having to cab around. But this time, i really cant. Im sorry gurls. *Lurve u all still. Muacks.*

Feasting over at Ah Ma's place today from 5 to 7pm. I feel the calories haunting my tummy now. bOo. But yeah, cant be bothered just yet. Its festive season man!
Bus-ed to City Hall MRT via 51. Gosh. I'll never understand why some ppl love taking buses. Its jerky and what not. And wOOt! Li Zimei was the 1st to reach. First time. Congratulations on her break through man.. Nonetheless, she is 20mins late. And i? 30.
Sweaty bodies brushed through us as we strolled the woody paths of River Ang Bao. Zimei and Lan did Henna-ing. Rather a waste as the 'ink' didnt really stain their skin.
Ah Da (Lan's Bro) was ok, not as dao as i expected.
Memories of days when i was back in Genting flowed back.. How i managed to clique with 12 other strangers.

I Need Enligthenment. Nike Dunk, Puma Or Vans Off The Wall ?

Shit. Im pissed right now. Very pissed.
Got turned upside down by Jordan Goh when i merely woked him up for a bath.
And excuse me, i bought him Got2Be gel yesterday in preparation of CNY. No words or expression of thanks, jus shit.
If only i can burn all his hair right now.
Find me a place where can i vent my frustrations.
This place is filled with much unwanted sorrows.

Lunar New Year is one occassion i dread. Especially 2005.
One side bugging me bout the other party.
E other side out at work, leaving us to rot at home till evening.
I dont quite like the idea of bai-ing nian. Ok, i dont mind. But, its not the ang pao's im running after. After all, i pay for my own needs and wants without the help of ang baos these months, maybe 2years plus minus.
Made worse is realising that many others are out with laughters and smiles, some others at home waiting and entertaining.
And yes, i have to go out for another boring 'ritual' soon. Real soon.

Sorry to have dampen your moods. It still is a Happy Lunar New Year.
You crown the year with Your goodness, And Your paths drip with abundance.

Whats up with skinny girls who insist they are fat?
Why ah? I really dont understand.
Do they seriously see a fat body when they look into the mirrors or do they just derive pleasure from people who go "oh.. you are so slim! Where are the fats?"
please lor. 1.7m and 48kg... or 1.68m and 45kg.

HOW TO BE FAT WITH FIGURES LIKE THAT! TELL ME, WHERE CAN THE FATS BE???

Worse when they enjoy insisting that they are fat in front of people who are obviously bigger than them.
WHAT FOR ALL THESE???
maybe some will say "aiya you so thin, of course you can say that lah."
I admit that im far from being big. I can go on a binge and still feel empty. I dont even know what it's like to be on a diet.

I feel that many of those skinny girls who whine about being fat are just like me, forever in the 40-something-kg range.

So skinny but want to complain bout being fat! Wanna get slapped is it??
Slim then just say slim lah. Why act so irritatingly modest?
And if you dont want to admit you are skinny then can just shut up right.. dont have to reply people with a "im so fat =(" .. When you are obviously toothpick's cousin.

And,yes,
Gaining 1kg doesnt make you fat.

I will grill beef on the face of the next person who complains she is fat when i feel she isnt.
And then you have people saying "i love beef. i might end up eating it all up."
goooooooooooooooood. Eat all and get fatter, complain some more. Fun right?

Let me summarise. im talking about skinny people who claim they are fat and not fat people who claim they are fat.
this entire post is about skinny ppl.

More fat people are nice and funny, compared skinny ones who cant even hold a decent conversation. Anyway, it's irrelevant la..

Finally did a nice manicure myself!!
Reunion at AhGong's place. Didnt eat to my fill. But soon came the Muah Chee. Nice. Very Nice.
Watch Kung Fu (DVD) again. And shucks. Laughed till my teeth almost fall off.
Yeah. Thats about today.

turned in at 4.30am. Was chatting online. And yes, i've lab session at 8am! Gosh. Jumped up at 7.40am. But somehow.. :) Im glad.
Reunion dinner tonite at Ah Gong's place. No more of Ah Ma's yummy food. Sadded.

Zimei and I were doing some last minute shopping at Far East. Chanced upon my long lost darling! Mixed emotions filled me.

Turned in at 6.30 after blogging and a singing session with korkor n frens at home.
Woke up with a shock to realise its 1230! Supposed to meet bebe at 1pm, Queensway after playing for bro alvin's CG.
He bought a high.

Headed back home to put down the stuff. Nua for 2hours. Read Drawing Near and chatted with Aunty.

Trained down to Orchard Far East for a quick browse.

Flew down to ChinaTown soon after. Tolled the streets and landed up sinning. I ate Pork Congee at 1130!! Oh no. When will i ever loose those rims of fats of..

Woa. Poor me had lunch(Ban Mian with my beloved SeekFong who's still lost) at 1pm and dinner(Egg Mayo sandwich bebe bought for me!) at 1.05am. :(
Basically had a slacky Sat afternoon.
John Bevere's meeting was fantastic, hilarious yet purifying. He's good looking too.
Attributes was buzzling with people grabbing books and CDs.
Closing was tough. Not as tough as days of refunds though.
Was joking with CWS bout purchasing Drawing Near. Silli bebe really bought e book at my pest-ilience. I mean, after my playful pesters. First it was the bouquet, now its e book. I think i better stop talking to him at Attributes.
Screamed at darling upon knowing that he's on his way home in a cab of 5.
Me: Dear, let me know if u'l be taking cab with them, so i can plan my member's cab sharing ok.
Be: Ok
Me: *Ring Ring* Dear, pls come to the taxi area now. WHAT? U are on ur way home?!
(At this instant, 1 has left with Gloria Jeans ppl, 1 has decided to cab back alone, leaving on Cherry and I to cab back to our homes) :( God shall bless me with abundance. Cuz i need to cab home every week. No. God shall empower us to count quickly and mould us such that the accounts tally! Amen.
Ok. Resolution for 2005 : Tally accounts by 1110.
And yes, this entry is for Saturday.

Fashion disaster today. Wore sports shoes, mini and white lycra top to sch. Had 2nd sessions with Kel today and i felt so worn out for the entire day. So very tired. Haven been exercising for quite some time.. Its time to loose those fats off my tummy and legs.

Baked Blueberry muffins. The 1st lot got burnt in the oven. Saddened. Scrapped off the top layer and savoured the bottom. Gave Bebe the 2nd lot. His family members thought it was rather professionally made muffins! Cool.
Craving for chocolate cookies. Yummy.

Crumpler

Wonder Weenie (Green n Yellow) was added into my collection today! Cool, simply loving its style and function!