The secret's out and cry it out!

First off, I've been composing several posts but not "posting" them until I was ready to share the news. But now that the word's out (we wanted to share it with friends and family via the every popular "i'm going to be a big brother" t-shirt method which we did over the weekend), I'm going to publicly post those posts.

But yes, Kaua is going to be a big brother! I'm 10 weeks pregnant and due Aug. 5, just one day before my 32 birthday. (I'm hoping this kid doesn't come on my birthday because that'll mean I'll never have a birthday celebration again). While this pregnancy is a blessing it sure is different than my last. With a little one to take care of already, there is definitely a lot less time spent thinking about this pregnancy. Not that my love for this second child will be any less, it's just different now that it's my second. I haven't taken any belly photos, and while I am not quite flat stomached (not sure if I ever was since kaua), I'm not really showing much. I just look pudgy. I dont really feel much nausea, unless I haven't eaten breakfast in the morning (which is almost never, b/c I always eat breakfast). I did feel fatigued more than before these past few weeks, but thankfully, I've gotten my energy back. I also feel what I believe is sciatic nerve pain in my lower left back, almost near my tailbone. I'm not sure if that is sciatic pain, but I think it is. I go back to the docs to confirm all is well with this pregnancy in a couple weeks, so till then, I'm just going on faith that all is well. My first appointment to confirm the pregnancy went well, so the doc had no reason for me to come in for extra appointments.

And on to my next topic of the post. Since there is going to be a number 2 (yup, I've been referring to this child as the ever 'original' "number 2), we've decided that we really need Kaua to sleep on his own in his own crib and in his own room. We are on night number two of sleep training and we're doing a cry it out method with checks. Man-oh-man is it tough! This boy has a scream and he is strong willed. Tonight he didn't go down for about 1 hour of crying, checking, getting him to sleep for a few seconds, then repeating the cycle. Kaua like to stand in his crib to get his point across, so everytime I went back in after letting him cry for a few minutes he was standing. He cried so hard that he pretty much exhausted himself. The last time I went in to lie him back down, he protested halfheartedly and didn't attempt to rise up. He finally fell asleep around 9pm and we started this at about 7:45pm. He also woke up about 3-4 times last night and DH was the champion because he did most of the MOTN waking sessions. He also got up early with kaua to let me sleep since he knows how tired I've been. I'm hoping that tonight will be better, but who knows. DH goes back to work Friday so that'll be my first night alone with the new sleep training pattern. Yikes! But we've resolved to get this habit settled so that we dont have two kids sleeping with us. (our goal is to also not have number 2 sleep with us and we're hoping that since we have our own house, we'll be able to better manage their sleep schedule). I'm definitely not looking forward to the week ahead, but I remember when we weaned him from BFing at night it was a horrible 1 week, then everything went well since. I'm hoping the same happens with this sleep training. I know in the long run, we'll all be much happier.

Well, it's official...we're pregnant - Again!

Yuppers,everything went A-ok at the doctor's today. Little baby #2 (need to come up with a niickname like two-bbers, B2, or something...) is measuring 8 weeks exactly. Doc said b/c baby is measuring so close to my LMP, which is 8 weeks 3 days, that he's going to keep my EDD as 8/5/11, instead of the ultrasound EDD which is 8/8/11. He said the ultra sound is plus or minus 1 week in accuracy and when the US is so close in time to LMP, the LMP is generally the more accurate. This logic sounds good to me since Kaua came 1.5 weeks early when we used the ultrasound EDD.

So doc did a vaginal ultrasound. When he put that thing in there, at first we didn't see much, but as he moved it around, you could totally see a little blob, and then soon after you saw a little flickering which was the heartbeat. Doc was pretty cool and turned the screen so that both of us could see exactly what he was seeing at the same time. (I hate when they keep the screen facing away from you and make you wait to see anything, what is up with the secrecy? It is my lady parts afterall!) Anyways, Doc showed me the head and measured from there to the tail to get my EDD. He also showed me the yolk sac which he said was looking normal. He also showed me what appeared to be a slight septate in my uterus, which I remember my old OBGYN (who did the surgery for the septate) said I would still have, but that it wouldn't cause any problems with pregnancies. This new doc, Dr. K (who I LOVE!! very cool down to earth local boy, did his med school and residency in Hawaii and is from my hometown), said it almost looked like it could have been a bicornate uterus. Way too technical for me, but I think that means when the uterus is heart shaped. Anyways, he took one picture (just one??) of bebe 2 and gave it to me. I'll need to upload it later to share. Bebe 2 looks like a little gummy bear so far.

I didn't really ask much questions, bc hello, I'm like a pro now that this is my 2nd kid. duh! When the nurse asked me if I had the WTEWE book, I was like, shah, yeah, I have them all!

I'm such a pro that when doc asked if I had questions, the only thing I asked was about the drugs. There are rumors that the local hospital (did I mention, the ONLY hospital on this island) does NOT do epidurals!!! WTF!? People give birth w/o epidurals nowadays????? You've got to be kidding me. But, Dr. K, tried to reassure me. He said, they do something similar to my beloved epi, but it wears off in 2-3 hours. I was like, hellow, my labor with Kaua was 10 hours and I needed the epidural for the whole time!!!! OMG...we need a back up plan!! But doc said,we could do the "other thing" (I forget what it's called) twice and they've recently been giving epidurals but it all depends on if the anesthesiologist is working or not. Dr. K also said he's had less complications with option #2, then with an epidural. I'm still not satisfied and am going to need to give birth elsewhere somehow.

Anyways, I digress....we'll figure this out later..in 7 months perhaps. Holy smokes a mommy of 2 in 7 months.....what the heck was I thinking?!!! Kaua is a handful on his own. I cant believe I'll have two of 'em in less than 1 year.

Doc said there's no cause for concern for me, so I dont see him again for 4 more weeks...or Jan. 26. The appt was pretty quick and then i went and did my labs,where they withdrew half the blood in my body. Hello do you really need 6 vials of blood??? geeze, what's the poor kid going to live on?

So I've decided I'm going to go the ever "original" route of telling people by making Kaua wear a "I'm going to be a big brother" t-shirt. I just ordered it from cafe.press today...but b/c I live in boonieville, it's not going to arrive here until after the new year. (and I even ordered it on the fast shipping track).

My tummy is already kinda showing, but if you dont know what to look for, you'd think I just kind of went overboard on the holiday eating (which I did). So I'm probably not going to go "live" with these posts until after I get the shirt and have had a chance to have him wear it around friends and family. I wonder how many people will get it right away? I'd probably be one of those people who dont even notice the writing on the shirt. Lol.

Anyways, so yup, operation, grow this baby #2 is underway.

BFP #2!

here begins my series of posts that I wont post until I'm ready to go public with this news.

Today is Wed. Dec. 1, 2010.

We're pregnant, again!!! I just took a HPT, at about 7:30pm tonite, and the second line was there. Slightly lighter than the control line, but there none-the-less. My immediate reaction was surprise then anxiety then excitement. I briefly contemplated not telling DH right away and trying to save it as a X-mas gift/surprise, but I knew I wouldn't be able to hold this news in for 24 days. So I told him, "want the good news?" or the "not so good news?" He asked for the not so good news, and I told him "that we're going to have another baby." He said, and what's the good news and I told him the same thing. lol. to me, having a baby is both. dont get me wrong, I'm ecstatic and realize that I'm very very very very blessed and want nothing more than to have a 2nd healthy child. But at the same time, I'm terrified. Two kids? I feel like I was just pregnant! I just gave birth! I still have a baby! How can I take care of two! Kaua is handful enough! If i weren't already 31, I would have wanted to wait a bit before having our 2nd because I would have loved to have given Kaua more of our sole attention for longer. But since I'm no spring chicken, and we weren't sure how long it would take us to get pregnant again, we started trying soon.

And by trying, I mean, not really "trying" as in we didn't do what we did before -- the temperature taking thing. Instead, I just counted the days between periods (which I must say I only had 3!!!) and estimated when I ovulated and we tried to BD around this date. I guess it worked!! So techiically, we were trying, but by my standards that wasn't. I didn't even know when my EDD would have been until I plugged in the date of my last period into a calculator. According to that, my EDD is Aug. 5. That is my MIL's birthday and the day before mine! Holy smokes. I cannot believe this is happening so fast!

Of course, I cannot jump the gun. I of all people know how precarious the 1st T is, so we will not be sharing the news until the 2T, or as close to it as we can get w/o someone figuring it out. Which I'm sure someone will. I'm a drinker....people will notice when I'm not.

And here we are to the reasons for me wanting to post...to record my journey, my symptoms, my thoughts. My first inclination that I could be preggo was when, after Kaua's party, I wasn't interested in drinking, like the beer just didn't taste good to me. I remember having that feeling when I was in my early pregnancy for Kaua. My next potential inkling was when on mon. I had a huge huge backache and felt queasy. Like I couldn't finish my lunch, which is unusual for me. I also felt so tired and exhausted at the end of the day, I skipped the gym. I almost thought I was coming down with the flu. Today, Wed., I'm still having slight achiness in my ute, which feel very very similar to period cramps, but again, I remember feeling the same with Kaua. I also am having extra discharge, which i remember with Kaua as well. finally, I couldn't stand the wait anymore (I was planning to test at the end of the week, when I think my period is due) and took a HPT. And yup, we're preggo.

We'll see how the upcoming days enfold, but we're excited, albeit differently than the last time. I want to surprise everyone else by having kaua where the timeless traditional "big brother" t-shirt. I guess if all goes well, I'll call to make a doctor's appointment in the next few weeks. First thing though,i'll go get some prenatal vitamins. For now, my daily vitamins with folate should suffice.

thinking postive and thanking God for our second little miracle!

The NAME

So, a few posts back (for all you astute readers -- aka Malia) I said we may have picked our baby's name and was trying to get some stuff together for when I share it with the bloggy world. Well, the "stuff" isn't quite ready (read: I've been lazy but I'll get to it someday soon and show it off), but I still wanna share the name now.

So here's the deal - we've come up with two names - a first and a middle name. Although I love both, I have a special affinity to his middle name, and like his daddy, we'll probably call the firecracker by his middle name (or a shortened version of it) rather than his formal English first name. However, since we've decided that we picked the name, I find myself referring to the firecracker using both of his names interchangeably, so who knows. Long story short, feel free to call him whatever you want, first name or middle name.

So without further adieu his first name will be (as of now, yes, its subject to change up until we put it down on his birth certificate):

WYATT

Why we picked this name? DH came up with it one day simply because he liked the sound of it (dont all names kinda start out like this?). He mentioned it to me and while I wasn't hugely keen on it right away, I admit it did have a certain ring to it, and it eventually grew on me. And it really matches our last name (which also starts with a W). Although we know its not an uncommon name, neither DH nor I know anyone with that name, other than the westerner - Wyatt Earp, and even then, i dont know much about his story other than he got into a gun fight. But that's not why we're naming him that. We also recently looked it up in a baby name book (and I also did some google research) and discovered it has french origins and means "little warrior". We think this meaning is really fitting since my DH's name means "strength" or "strong". We chose this name as his first name because its simple, its sweet, its "cute" but "manly", its got a great meaning, and it's to help our son out because his middle name is going to be a doozie.

His middle name will be:

KAUA'APUAKEA

Pronounced (Ka-ooah-ah-pooah-kay-ah) (yes, we're Hawaiian, and yes its a Hawaiian name.) There is also a line over the third A, (called a kahako), but I dont know how to reprint that on the blog using the fonts available. Hawaiians use ' (a backwards apostrophe called an 'okina) and kahako as part of their alphabet and the addition or subtraction of such "letters" can change the meaning of a word...so it's important that those be included when spelling a word to be accurate.

Now for the explanation of the name and its meaning. First "ua" means rain in Hawaiian. "Ka" is a ka'i or directional word and is very similar to the word "the" in English...so "ka ua" = "the rain". "'Apuakea" is the name of the type of rain where we live on our island. (yes, yes, so much info about me on an anonymous blog!). So our son's name means "the 'Apuakea rain". The literal translation of "'apuakea" is "white fish basket". 'Apua = fish basket used for catching fish. and "kea" means white. I'm not exactly sure why the name of the rain in the town where we live is called the white fish basket rain, but I think it has to do with the multitude of rain we get and the type of activity (fishing) that was prevelant in pre-modern days. Or it could be that the way the rain clouds wrap around our side of the island resembles that of a white fish basket. Hawaiians commonly named the different rains and winds in different areas of Hawaii based on the type of rain or wind and its characteristics. So there are many different names for the different rains and winds in the different parts of the state.



We chose Kaua'apuakea for our son's name so that he would know and be able to share where he was from. It's a common practice for Hawaiians and basically anyone in Hawaii to introduce themselves with not only their name, but where they are from. For example, in modern times, we'd say our name, and say what island we're originally from (or what town), or what high school we went to. It's just a way to know that person better. We also chose this name for our son because he was conceived and will be born in the rainy season here in Hawaii (conceived in March, born in December). Also, our town is known to be on the rainier side of the island, so we see a lot of the ua here. I mean, a lot! Also, in many cultures, including Hawaii, rain signifies a blessing or is good luck, and of course, this little guy is our blessing. There is many great associations with rain/water and good fortune, love, etc. and I hope that it will translate into our son.



We also live in a gorgeous valley where the rainfall makes everything green and there are beautiful waterfalls coming down the mountain side. Since moving to this area (where my DH is from) I've fallen in love with the mountains and have always wanted to name our child with something having to do with the mountains. I have big plans of taking a picture of our valley when it rains and using it as a nursery decoration. Something similar to this photo (though its not of our valley, its of the same mountain range):





Getting the photo that we'll use in the nursery is the "stuff" i wanted to get done before I shared his name with you all, but it's not done and I have a feeling it may be a work in progress, so I wanted to share now.

So there you have it. As of now, our son will be called: Wyatt Kaua'apuakea

or just simply - Kaua.

30 is the new 20

30 is the new 20 or so I keep telling myself. =)

Yup, I'm celebrating the end of a decade and the start of a new one today. At first, I wasn't so affected by this birthday because I think I'm at a point in my life where I want to be at 30. I'm married to the love of my life (yippeee!), we own a home (though we may owe more than what the home is worth right now), we have a dog, we are both working in our chosen career fields and now we have our first child on the way. So, no, no real feeling of crises or panic today as I turn a new decade. However, there is something a little nostalgic about saying good bye to my 20s. That decade sure was a rollercoaster full of super highs and super lows, especially those crazy college years. I had the time of my life and wouldn't trade it for the world. But now, I'm ready to start my "adult life./" Though I have been an "adult" for quite some time, I'm ready to start my life which will be spent the majority of time taking care of someone else other than myself or my hubby. It'll be an adventure that I'm sure will come with its own complete set of highs and lows, but I think I'm ready for this rollacoaster.

And important update, DH and I may have settled on our son's name!!!!!!!!!! I'm not ready to post it to the bloggy world (I have a cool idea for when I do tell and its not ready yet), but I'm kind of excited. I'm also holding back a little because what if I change my mind about the name? But so far these names (first and middle) have stuck with us for kind of a while amongst the many options we've been considering, so I think this may be it. Can't wait to share it with you all.

12 week belly picture

Ok gang, here's my 12 week belly picture.
In my mind, I want to say I'm done with the first trimester, but apparently, most books I have count the end of the first trimester at the end of this pregnancy week, when you're 13 weeks pregnant. Whatever. I'm just so happy I'm here. It's awesome!! Now, on to the next milestone: Having a great u/s on June 16 and a perfectly healthy baby on July 7.

Now, dont let the picture fool you. I'm getting very big. Yesterday, I went maternity clothes shopping for the first time (the last time I bought maternity clothes on vacation, I wasn't intending to buy them, I just stumbled upon a great deal and had to buy them...I'm glad I did b/c I wore one of the shorts yesterday). I wasn't very satisfied with what I saw though, because I'm generally too small for most maternity clothes, but too big for much of my regular clothes. I settled with buying a couple tops from a regular favorite clothing store that are more loose fitting, but which can be worn even when I'm not pregnant. Of course this method of shopping wont last me throughout the whole pregnancy, but I'm glad that it should last for a couple more months and I can wear the clothes after I'm done being pregnant. Another "new thing" for me that happened this weekend was that when I was shopping in the maternity store, the sales lady called me "mom" when she asked how I was doing. I almost didn't turn around b/c I had no idea she was talking to me. lol. I guess I better get used to that name.

Ok, here's the frontal belly view -- and let me warn you...it's not pretty (I'm huge!) (Yeah, I know, wait till I'm 8 months, then I'll be huge......).
These pictures have been added to my side bar flickr.

Also, I'm finally at a place where I'm comfortable telling friends I'm pregnant. A friend of mine called me for professional advice this weekend, and I told her I was pregnant. DH announced my pregnancy to his group of friends and a couple of our neighbors while they were watching the UFC fights this past weekend. Their reaction was great. My neighbors were surprised b/c we hadn't mentioned it to them. However, they were very happy because they all have children and have been bugging us to no end about when we were going to have kids. (They had no idea of our prior two MCs). The rest of the gang was really congratulatory.

I'm really liking this pregnancy thing...though I admit, its a little daunting to think of raising and caring for another human being in a few months. That's a big responsibility. I also need some getting used to having a bigger belly. I admit, I'm one of those people who frets constantly about my weight, so it's a little uncomfortable (psychologically) for me to be gaining so much weight. But as the pregnancy books say, I should be gaining weight and I need to embrace my new pregnant body...so I'm trying. I just hope that I'm gaining more baby weight than fat weight and that I'm able to lose this weight easily after the pregnancy.

NP Wonderful's email and her response

Just had to share the following email exchange.

My email to her:

[NP Wonderful], I just wanted to express my gratitude for your wonderful presence and assistance at my 2nd prental appointment with you yesterday. You did and said a lot of things (including finding that baby's heartbeat at the beginning of the appointment) that really put my mind at ease and made this appt. very enjoyable for myself and my husband. I could not stop raving about your wonderful bedside manners to my friends and family. Please know that the little things that you did for me really made a difference and did not go unnoticed. [Thank you]!

Her response back:

[B MoM], Thank you for your kind words! I cannot imagine the stress and anxiety you both had prior to the appointment and let's face it, until we heard the heart beat we were all worrierd about another miscarriage.So glad things are going well this pregnancy!Take care, it is my pleasure to be a part of your health care team! [Sincerely], [NP Wonderful].

In other news, I've got my next two PNA's lined up. My 3rd PNA is on June 16 with Dr. M and I should be getting another extra u/s. woohooo! My 4th PNA is A BIGGIE and will be on July 7 where we'll find out the gender of the baby. I'm thinking of having a gender reveal party to both learn and reveal the baby's gender with friends and family...but when I mentioned it to DH he thought it may be too much work and wasn't sure if any of his friends would be into something like that. I thought we could just call it a BBQ to his friends. We'll talk more because he had to rush off to work. We'll see, I've always wanted to do a gender reveal party and I think it'll be fun for our first baby...

And I've finally decided to share the existence of this blog with some IRL friends, my close group of friends, called the pho 5. If you're reading, welcome!! You guys are the first group of friends IRL (in real life...there's a lot of abbreviation lingo used in this blog, if you get confused, email me and I'll tell you what the letters mean) that are reading this blog.
This blog's a little "bare-ing" (where I bare my soul), but I think it'll be nice to share with you all.

Told my bosses at work...

Technically, I have 12 bosses...but I told the two of them that I work for the most this morning of my pregnancy. Whew! What a relief. Their responses were very supportive. I was worried about telling them because my co-worker (who is the only other person who has the same job responsibilities as me at this firm) is also pregnant and due late October or early November. She's planning to take 5 months off from work (like she did for her first baby) so she'll be out while I'm due and when I'll be on maternity leave. With both of us gone, we sort of leave our bosses in a crunch, so needless to say, I was worried about the bosses reaction to my news. Especially since before they knew about my pregnancy they had commented on more than one occassion that they were thankful to have me around while my co-worker would be out on maternity leave.

But, when I shared the news, they were very happy and congratulatory. I did present my news with the accompanying explaination that I knew the timing wasn't the most convenient, but unlike my coworker, I only planned to take approximately three months off from work (we dont get paid while on maternity leave other then receiving TDI benefits which are not very much and last for only 6 weeks and I do not have the financial cushion that my co-worker apparantly has). I also stated that I hoped that even before I came back full time from maternity leave, I hoped that we could work out some type of routine where I would work partime from home or come into the office for very brief periods when my husband is off from work (which is every other day for him). The bosses were very pleased with my suggestion but we both decided to think more on the idea and to "see how it goes" because they understood that the partime situation may not work out for one or both of us. And one of the bosses agreed to let the other 10 bosses know about my news in their monthly meeting, so I wouldn't have to go around knocking on each of their doors to share the news.

I'm so happy to be "out" with the news. I really feel like I can start celebrating this pregnancy. I know, we're not out of the woods yet, but I'm just really feeling like things are going to be ok. =)

Secret's out!

Well, my secret is out at work!!! Ack! Way before I intended it to be.

It all started because the regular gang I have lunch with (several members of our staff) asked me about my co-worker/colleague (she and I are the only two in our company of the same position) (whom I've described before as finding out she was pregnant with #2 just before I found out about my own pregnancy). I had been given blessings from my co-worker friend to tell the lunch gang people if ever asked, so I admitted with excitement that yes, she was pregnant and due in late October or early November. The conversation stayed on her and how they had had their notions of her pregnancy and were glad to confirm it.

However, the conversation then veered to questions of when I was going to start having kids, but I dodged the question like I normally do. But they must have sensed my dodgy-ness because they pressured me on and continued talking about it. Then they started joking around saying that it would be funny if I was pregnant too and both my co-worker and I were out at the same time, and the whole time I was laughing along and trying to be non-chalant about it (while dying inside because they were so right). Finally, one of them called me on my lack of concrete answers and direclty asked me straight out if I was pregnant too. And of course, my smile couldn't be contained and I couldn't straight out lie....and so the secret was out!!!

They were all so excited for me and hugged me and wished me well. (I'm one of the youngest in the enitre office and they were there for my engagement and marriage.) They asked when I was due and how far along I was and blah, blah, blah. I told them I hadn't told my bosses yet (yup, I have bosses....) and that they needed to keep this under wraps until I get back from my trip where I will tell the bossdes after my first trimester. (Man oh man are the bosses going to love it that both me and my co-worker will be out around the same time, but that's a whole other story). Just then, our office manager walked in to the lunchroom, and so we changed the subject.

I'm terrified that the secret is out! They dont know about my two prior losses. It'll be devastating if I have to retract my pregnancy to my working lunch gang.....but I'm going to think positive. I will NOT have to retract my pregnancy news. I will give birth to a healthy perfect child this December! I believe I receive!

Feeling normal.

It's amazing what a difference one day can make. I woke up this morning and I feel completely normal. I must have definitely been feeling morning sickness yesterday, because now that I feel back to normal, I can tell the difference. Am I worried that I dont feel any symptoms today? Not one bit (ok, well maybe just a teeny, tiny, tad bit, but really, I'm not going to give in to fear at all). I've read that symptoms can come and go, and today must be a "go" day. That's fine by me. =)

Things with DH are back to normal as I suspected. You know how marriages go, you have mostly good days, but once in a while you have an argument that turns into a bad day (or for us, a bad evening). We're getting really excited with upcoming plans for a two week vacation we're taking from April 30 through May 14 (27 days from now!!). We're heading to NYC, Washington DC and Virginia. The excuse is to see DH's mom and sister who recently moved to Virginia, but the real reason is to go to NYC and DC. We both have never been (well I went to DC when I was little, but dont really remember much), so we're super excited! This will be our first trip since our honeymoon last fall. To get us in the mood, we're having a movie night tonight, where we'll watch our home video footage from our honeymoon. We've never really watched our video footage from the honeymoon so it'll be good to get into the excitement of traveling and get some pointers on how to take a better home video.

We'll be staying in two very nice hotels while in NYC and DC and we're really excited because we dont normally splurge. (Actually, we didn't splurge this time either, we're using a family rate from my Uncle who works in a hotel in the Waldorf-Astoria hotel line!). We've also got tickets to see the New York Yankess v. the Boston Red Sox (a rivalry which I hear is the game to see!). We have plans to watch a Broadway play too, not sure which one, but I've heard great things about Wicked. I've also written to my local congressperson to try and get us a tour in the White House. There's so much to do and so much to see, I'm sure we'll be jam packed with stuff.

And on the telling people front... Last night I had dinner with a very close group of girlfriends. We call ourselves the pho-5 because the 5 of us always go out to eat pho about once a month and have been doing so for a few years now. I did not tell them about the prior pregnancies and losses until a few weeks after the events (except for one of them who is a very close friend who knew about them as they were ongoing). However, when I told them about my history, they were soooo supportive. Hence, this time around I made the decision to keep them in the loop because ultimately they'll be my support group if anything should go wrong (which NOTHING WILL so I dont even want to type that) or my cheering squad when everything goes right (WHICH IT WILL). When I told them my news, it was soo cute. I waited all through dinner to get the courage, then finally told them. They were sooooo excited for me and one even yelled out loud in the restaraunt. They now know how much I want to become a mommy and have seen the difficulties I've faced. It was nice to hear someone else's excitement about my pregnancy. I guess I haven't really let myself get excited yet, so it was fun to hear others be excited for me.

But in the excitement department, I have big plans to be excited. In about 11 days, I will be one excited little momma, equipped with a perfect ultrasound photo of our little miracle.

New Heineken Commercial

It's unusual when I post about non-baby related stuff. But today is the first time that I saw this new Heineken commercial and I thought it was hilarious. DH and I could totally relate to it. lol!

On the baby front - I dont really have any symptoms which makes me a litte nervous. Ok, I think I may vaguely have the following symptoms: I tend to get up in the early AM to pee (but only once), I've been having weird vivid dreams (some of them sexual --woohoo!) which is very unusual for me, and I think my nipples are just starting to get slightly sensitive, but it's so slight it's almost unnoticeable and doesn't seem to last throughout the day, and I sometimes feel slight nausea once in a while. However, over all, my body feels pretty regular considering I'm pregnant. Part of me just wants to wear an "I'm pregnant" sign, just so you know, people will know that I'm a part of the "cool" club....but then again, I'm in the stage of..."we're not telling anyone until after the appointment". I dunno, I'm weird I guess. I did, however, tell my mother today because it was her birthday, and because we're super close, and two of my super duper close friends know...one because I wanted to tell her and the other because she figured it out yesterday when I tried to order a virgin bloody mary when we met for after work drinks...she was like, "Howcome you ordered a virgin?" (all smiley sounding) and I was like....."Huh?" But she guessed b/c she knows about my history and about trying and stuff. So yeah....anyways.....enough of the boring stuff...k-bye.