its official.im crazy.crazily delusional.

"he made me.i wanna be exactly like him."

its sad how people notice only when u're gone.




she makes people step over ant trails.she shouldnt meet me.

dont u just love award seasons...

now isnt this cute.

award shows like these are great cos there is the neverending flow of Moet,fellow great actors ALL gathered in one big hall!,old castmates to catch up with,the beautiful designer frocks that trigger a mass starvation strike amongst the female (sometimes male) celebrities.
its like a high school reunion.almost.minus the awkward bespectacled math geek who turned into a hunk in an armani tux --not counting america ferrera of ugly betty fame in this-- only because everyone is gorgeous in hollywood per se.
the party doesnt even start until the award show is over.
boy do i love award seasons.
and my part in this party is only the picture googling on ONTD,the laughing at the acceptance speeches and typing out this meaningless post.
someone make me a star!

starbucks bliss

grey pixie ankle boots...

i want.

really long post.just look for your name and read those parts.

like all cliched radio stations have countdowns to the top 100 songs,news channels have recaps on relevant events of the year and music tv channels countdown to the top 10 celebrity breakups,makeups and whatnot; i am also doing a countdown recap (hopefully in chronological order) on the events that happened in 2006.

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thinking back on the beginning of the year,i have to say a lot has happened because everythings so different now and back then.read the recap to find out why...

homeless and lonely (but not for long).
i went back to melbourne in mid-february...
but before that i had a mock birthday celebration with my family in JB before flying.
i spent my first 2 weeks back in melbourne at my cousins' cos i thought that i was giving up the loft and moving out. going over to the QV tower like every other day to hang with my housemates-to-be.
we had a lot to worry about.the unwanted apartment at QV and where to move to if we gave that up.it was a trying period for all of us.
on the other hand i had something else to worry about -- the loft.
that caused me enough trouble and not to mention,money.
feb 18th: went to the melbourne zoo with the housies (officially) and met the church guys for the first time.i went with no expectations but by the end of the day i came to realise that i had an awesome time with the new friends i made.
that night my cousin's friends popped by to surprise his girlfriend because it was her birthday too.i cant remember if it was the 17th night or on the 18th itself.

uni started off with something good.
then uni started not long after.
my timetable was not too bad.had four-day weeks with only morning classes so i was free every afternoon.
the first week of 2nd year,i met this girl in chinese politics lecture that i knew was in trinity and knew her name was melissa but never really got to know personally.
i looked around the the john medley lecture theatre for familiar faces and i spotted her two rows behind me.
after the lecture ended i wanted to walk up to her to introduce myself but she walked off too fast and i couldnt catch up.bummer.
i went home to tell nina and she told melissa.
i dont know how it happened but from second week onwards,i sat with mel every week listening to Pradeep (Taneja,the lecturer) lecture about Mao Zedong.

summer in march.
we ventured into the mornington peninsula with stef,dawn, eric janice etc.
we visited the strawberry farm,chocolate and cheese factories.
it was great. sunny ridge was the most fun because we got to pick strawberries (and eat them on the spot!) from the orchard which i didnt get to do the first time i went in september (end of winter) in 2005.

torquay.
went up to torquay with liz NG,justin,jason and leslie with their trinity friends.
met this cute 18 year old boy (ok i know what u're gonna say...keep it to yourself) and poor nina and liz got BFs thrown at them.
the ripcurl surf pro was going on at that time but we didnt get to watch it.went to all the surf shops possible and ate pasta everyday.
trekked (yes.we trekked.the great aussie spirit yeah?) to this natural waterfall.lucky we all brought sneakers.that would be the only time u would see nina in sneakers/trackshoes.
went to the beach when it was pitch dark with the moon as our only source of light.jus's car got pulled over by a policeman and he had to breathe into one of those breathalizer thingos where they test your alcohol level.
talking about alcohol,we taught the kids and the AAs the spore drinking game 'diudiudiu' (not the KL/canto verbal abuse but like tetris/space invaders game sounds).
drove up to the great ocean road on the last day there but didnt make it to the end.
saw a rainbow on our way down and stopped to take pictures like the camera whores we are.
the night we came back to the city it was extra cold and we had dinner at metro with the 'extra' money we had.pasta again but this time it was better cos we didnt cook it (just kidding.).
liz was super sweet the whole trip.oh and we sangalong to hilary duff and avril in her car.
it was the most fun i had that semester.

i became housemates with the girls.
nina would sleep on my double bed and we would talk like there's no tomorrow.
the 3 of us would talk into the wee hours every other night.(school nights are the worst.we have to wake up at 9am).
pigging out on peanut butter and toast (MUST be Helga's wholemeal bread) with nina after 2pm classes.normally the end of the day for us.
jogging to to crown and back.and going for boost after a jog which is a waste of the workout.
singing with sarah like the neighbours cant hear us.
dvd marathons with sarahs collection (sorry i watched the astronaut's wife without u!).

exams still make my hands clammy.
nina flew back early june after her exams.by then,i've been studying for about a week or so and there was about 3 more to go.plus this semester i had 3 economics subjects to handle.
it was 'lost' at dinnertime everyday with saree.we were like zombies.waking up everyday to study till lunchtime and we would go to dondon or chilli cafe in our jammies to buy lunch (and dinner so we didnt have to go out again at night).
the exam period broke the ice and i built a connection with her that few weeks in the house.there was one night we were so creeped out by 'lost' and the dharma initiative (plus all the exam stress got to our heads), we couldnt sleep and chatted late into the night in my room.

coldplay and my family in melbourne.it doesnt get any better than that?
notice how i put coldplay first?oops.
my sister came over first.i had a lot of fun showing her my life in melbourne (im not sure if she enjoyed it as much as i do though).
then i went into a coldplay fanatic period after the concert on the 29th of june.the 7 month wait (i got the tix in november 2005) was definitely worth it.
then my parents came.my dad cooked the first few days.it was GREAT.had homecooked food.then they grew sick of cooking because it was too much trouble and it stinks up the apartment so we started eating at crown.JUST AS GREAT if not better (cos i love my dad's cooking more).
i talked to nina on msn almost every morning...
but within close proximity, tension grew and i got quite easily annoyed.or maybe i just missed my housies too much.

that marked the end of semester 1 of 2nd year.

winter was hard to bear.macro was harder.
winter was hard to bear.we spent almost every weekend at home having dvd marathons.
uni was mundane.intermediate macroeconomics is the WORST SUBJECT EVER.don harding cant lecture for nuts and he puts me to sleep 10-15 minutes into the lecture, EVERY SINGLE TIME.the lecture slides are all unclear and he boasts about his achievements on the front page of the lecture notes. the lecture SLIDES are explained vaguely during lectures and lecture NOTES are supplementary,like a textbook. (note on the side: slides and notes dont really coincide).
so i decided to skip lectures altogether.i didnt go to half the lectures the whole semester.
the tutes were just as bad.my tutor is a genious but just cant tutor.u know how some people are really mathematicians but cant teach math?that is him dongjie chen aka DJ, my tutor.
its ironic because during the first tute,he came into the class claiming he is a substitute because our tutor was not free.i felt relieved because it was hard to make out what he was trying to say most of the time (because he makes this funny 'tsk' sound every 5 seconds and pauses for 2 seconds).
the following tute,he walked in and we were all like,the tutor's not free again?but DJ announced that he would take over this tute because our original tutor had to do a weekly pitstop tutorial at that hour when our tute was supposed to be.
i thought oh great,im gonna fail this subject.i really had half a mind thinking im going to fail.no kidding.
however,i met this girl anita that i saw last semester in intermediate micro and mel han,who coincidentally knows nina and sarah.we did this group assignment together.we got full marks and i didnt fail macro in the end.

the story of square and smelly.
(im not sure but i think it started off with one very late msn chat that broke the ice like the exam period with sarah).

(via sms)
me: ok lets meet at cactus jam at Xpm tmr.be there or be square.
mel: square.im here [at cactus jam] already.

i was 5 minutes late and was labelled square from then on.

(on msn)
mel: im going to shower [at like 3am] now.brb.
me: what?u havent showered? eee...smelly.

she showered at an unearthly hour and was labelled smelly from then on.

like u said, its more than just the bag whoring.
i think its the name-calling;
or maybe Pradeep.
;P

kids,im bringing home the bread.
after 3 long months,i got the job at myer.
the pay is woah.
plus i used my spare time being pretty productive.
the money came as a bonus really.

winter is finally over...
but the one-week september break was spent doing nothing...
we had grand plans to go to sydney and everything but nothing came through.
i think we watched dvd every other day and i worked more than 20 hours a week at myer...
anything else we did girls?anything to add?i cant really remember.

september 24th.was it?
one sunday,i was home waiting for the girls to come back from lunch after church.then nina called to say that they were bringing some friends over to our place.i was like heh? i TRIED to clean up the mess in the house.its not nice to let people see what sloths we are.
these two guys and a girl (no, not ryan reynolds and gang) popped by.they introduced themselves as devon,neuman and jen.i saw a bag of grocery they carried in and thought,oh hey they brought food,they cant be THAT bad?
i sat at the dinner table, still in my PJs, elusive and distant, quietly observing everyone.
then someone started talking about music and i dont know how it began but dev picked up nina's guitar,neuman started singing (we sang along to some parts) and we all started sharing about music.i still didnt warm up to them quite immediately though.
someone said KT Tunstall sang this song called black horse and a cherry tree and its a feat to perform because like a million instruments were involved.so we searched for the vid on youtube.then someone (sorry i keep using 'someone' because i cant remember who said what because there were so many of us around) said something about a concert (which i later found out was JumpStart) they were playing at and they needed some songs to play.
sarah came up with some teddy geiger songs.
then we started singing michelle branch,the fray.
then someone said they were cooking carbonara and i was like yay!so THAT's what the food was for.BUT THEN someone (nina maybe?) broke the news to me: they were cooking for themselves. dev,neuman and jen were eating carbonara and we (nina,sarah,siew and i) were eating chicken stew.chey.

the following sundays,i would wait for them to call me out for lunch after church.
then the rest was history.
we just started hanging out a lot.
basically we bonded over at the jacuzzi.:P not just music.neuman and jen came over to use the jacuzzi; nina,neuman and i went to shereena's jacuzzi...
we also bonded over booze at Hyde.those were the days.
last but not least,'lost' got sarah,neuman and i HOOKED like crack.cant wait till january.

when swot vac came,nina and i went over everyday 'to study'.
didnt get a whole lot of studying done but someone mentioned something about a cafe.
the exam stress and having these over-achieving new friends didnt do my self-esteem any good.someone mentioned something about jobs and interests got me thinking about my course and career options, which were both way too vague and that got me panicking.i fell hard and fast.it didnt help that the exams were just a week away.
then one day we went to crema to look for neuman,we started talking about the cafe again.
then neuman joined us.
everyone knew what they were supposed to do after graduating and before the cafe business but i didnt.
i remembered him saying,i am 23,nina is doing law (of course she will be a lawyer duh) and dev is just dev,he just has everything planned out in advance.
i dont know how he did it but basically he just has a knack for psycho-ing people like a true WINNER.
i felt like this huge worry was lifted off my shoulders.

well,its not really just about the music is it?

crema gig.
after JumpStart (which was the thing that someone was talking about at our place.the gig that they had to choose songs for), the next gig for them was at crema.
every friday they were set for a gig at crema.
they needed a femal vocalist for Kt tunstall's black horse and cherry tree and of course sarah was the perfect choice.she could now show us what the vocal lessons at Jaanz did to her voice.mind u,those lessons cost a bomb.there'd better be some outofthisworld voice coming out of her mouth.which was of course the case.
the last friday before i flew back,there was another addition to the gig -- moi and nina.
sarah and i sang leave the pieces by the wreckers and breathe by anna nalick.
my first ever public gig other than karaoke and everyday when i sing but people are forced to listen.
nina sang chasing cars with neuman on guitar and backup vocals.that was the night that THAT song really meant something.
now everytime i hear the importance of being idle i think of neuman (and so does mel.haha i can speak for her cos i know) or when i hear the fray or teddy geiger on the radio i think of the vongs (oh thats their surname;devon and neuman vong.so we call them the vongs collectively) and chasing cars just reminded me of the JOAV (i'll tell u nina what that means) and the k.

note: the maroon parts i missed out in my first draft!
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i had flashbacks the whole time i was typing that whole recap.

that sums up my year.
its been a blast.
i thank everyone mentioned.
good or bad u made 2006,2006.
so many things happened.
i told u its long.

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now.
in front of the laptop with a glass of cheap red wine.counting down to 2007 myself.
lucky i had sarah and randy online to countdown with me,virtually.
then they went to sleep while i typed out this whole stupid recap in like 5 hours.
i had smelly online to talk about full house,fragile friendships and sephora at DFS.even she the owl has gone to bed.im going to now.night.
happy new year everyone.