does a convenient "im okay" just slip out when someone asks if u are although u are clearly not?
how many times do u actually say "im not okay"?
bet u can count the number of times if any.

we put up a front just so people wont dig into the depths of your heart and think they know u when they actually dont.its also partly because u are innately defensive and prefers to have a shield guarding the innest U so noone can know your flaws well enough to manipulate u to their own advantage.
therefore my chemical romance did sing it out.okay that the girl he loved was with another guy but deep inside he dreaded to tell her that he's not o-fucking-kay.(its in the lyrics im not being vulgar here)
so did peyton when she told nathan they were ok.although she clearly wasnt and that uncertainty was channeled through her sketches where she drew "im not okay" in bold.

ok,before anyone thinks im like troubled or anything,(im not gonna say im ok just in case people think otherwise).but right now im just writing it down because i felt the song and i felt for peyton when i watched that episode.im okay for now thats all i can say.

haha.2 concerned souls msged me at the same time on msn yesterday to ask the same thing.sorry if i was like random or wierd.its just the song and the show.thanks though.:)appreciate the concern.

do people relate to sad depressing music more than happy songs?
i thought of something yesterday that i thought i'd share.
if we listen to sad angst ridden songs and feel for it,does it mean we only relate to depressing music and therefore we lead a sad life?
no.
if u think about it,
it just goes to show that there are more things to feel happy about in this world.so everyone gets cheered up by different things.
therefore we might not relate to the things that make a lyricist or a character in a tv show happy.only because we all have our own ways or things to feel happy about.
on the other hand,only a number of common things can make us feel sad.
THAT is why we relate to sad songs more and naturally think we only go through rough patches and those songs help us get through it.
thats not true.because u dont listen to happy songs and relate to them when u're happy.
when u feel happy u just feel happy!
so its a comforting thought for me that there are more happy things in this world than the sad ones.

am i making any sense here?
ummmm.its ok if u dont get it.
sometimes i dont get myelf too.

my next must have.actually has been one of my fave perfumes of all time.just always dont get to buy it.now the EDT is not on sale anymore!it has swarsvoski crystals on the bottle!


lolita lempicka EDP


lolita lempicka EDT

i just re-watched the episode where rory and dean "did it".
man,i love gilmore girls.
and i found this site where they have episodebyepisode allusions like this one,
Rory: Well, who died and made you Hayley Mills?
Hayley Mills starred as identical twins in the 1961 version of the "Parent Trap", the movie in which her characters plot to reunite their divorced parents, much like Lorelai is attempting to do with Emily and Richard.

why dont they show gilmore girls on tv anymore??!!
i love the chemistry between rory and lorelai.not to mention the fast talking,lane lover dave which is played by none other than adam brody aka seth cohen.

and i personally think that lisa cant and alexis bledel look alike.


lisa cant


alexis bledel

dont they?


u know the form that we have to fill in to facilitate custom checks?
only before my bag went into the sensor did i remember that burt's bees hand repair kit.
ummm,if u havent noticed because u always just tick "no" down the column,there is one which says bee's products.
and the hand cream thing is totally made from beeswax.
but i still got through without them rummaging through my luggage.

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

How've you been
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you


yeah.at least some people have something to count the days to.
im counting down....to god knows what.

aching!

im dying for sin city to be shown in theatres.
so many stars will be in it.
bruce willis(yay!),jessica alba,clive owen,brittany murphy,devon aoki(she's cool),alexis bledel(LOVE her),josh hartnett(*melts),rosario dawson,benicio del toro,jaime king.
just to name a few.
cool eh?
betcha cant wait to see it too.

AND it'll be in black and white throughout.
a totally new world created by Frank Miller.a comic about a corrupt underworld.
i anticipate violence,pulp fiction style.
director,Robert Rodriguez promises a groundbreaking,never been seen before film that is a seat glueing experience all the way till the end when u leave the theatre.

i CANNOT wait.

from my long hours of being a couch potato,here's some personal observations(haha.):

-evan rachel wood (from everwood) looks a lot like avril lavigne.i realised when the
videos "wake me up when september ends"(greenday) and "he wasn't"(avril lavigne,of
cos) were played back to back.
-boston public is quite nice.

AND trivia:

-evan rachel wood is in green day's "wake me up when september ends" video.jaime king
(one of the blonde bitchy sisters at the hamptons in "white chicks") in
gavin degraw's video "chariot".samaire armstrong(of the o.c. fame) in daniel
powter's "had a bad day" video
-travis (drummer from blink and star of reality tv show "meet the barkers") is
married to an ex-miss USA.how wierd is that his wife is like a glam diva.and
he, a tattoo-ed drummer from a punk rock band.he's quite a sweet dad.another side to
him seen in this show other than the head banging moments with the band.


oh ya.
if u havent heard (like my sis),joel madden from good charlotte is dating/used to date hilary duff.
she knew only after i told her.
if u didnt know too,haha.im laughing at u right now like i did when she went "HUHHHH??".
yeah,overall the concert was good.
my first rock concert!
sound so sua ku,but yeah.

u know how i like to daydream,i'd thought ten years down the road if i'd become like a musical celeb.
like u know when artists get asked which is the first cd they bought and who was the first concert they went?
like supposedly those questions are supposed to prompt u to reveal ur musical inspirations and influences.
the first cd i bought on my own was a craig david one(i think) and first concert,good charlotte.
both are not my favourite music!
craig david was because it was on sale at HMV and good charlotte was well,because
1)i didnt wanna remain a sua ku who's never been to a single concert
2)my sister was quite keen when we first heard about it
3)its quite cheap compared to the melbourne prices
4)yes yes.for the experience.

told ya im like a bit delusional.
dont mind my mindless fantasies that are like never coming true in a million years.haha.dont laugh.


u know this entry is actually to distract me from a really bad tummyache,while watching CSI on AXN.
AXN is over and so is this entry, but the darn stomachache is still there.
cannot,gotta go lie down or something.
bye!

NOISE TO THE WORLD

"the chronicles of life and death and everything between..."

firstly,wanna shout out to my sister for the live concert experience!

the concert was rather good.
the sound system was quite impressive.my ears kept ringing the rest of the night after the concert.
but overall it was just an incredible experience of live music and being so close to a real life rockstar.
i was like a metre away from joel when he came near the edge of the stage!
like two rows away from the crazy people in front how got to touch him.
read that "TOUCH" him!!!
can u believe that?
but because digi cameras were not allowed so i left mine in my bag outside.(!!!)
to make it worse,people were busy snapping away in front of me!!
with their credit card sized cams that they sneaked in.
*&%^$%#&(*)&$%#@!%&(*#&$)(@*&#*@$*&@!#@$@$

okay,at this point im like a bit angry all over again so ya,tell u more next time.

oh and ya,thanks for reading my blog.
i'd thought my constant blabbering was left unnoticed!
so thanks for the tags people!

The past few months this blog has been filled mindless blabbering and guess what,this entry is no exception.

i just got back from a weekend cruise.
it was just ok.wasnt great cos i was not in the best of moods to enjoy it.
three letters.read my lips: PMS.

just had dinner with my parents,bro and his gf at a jap restaurant.

holidays make me feel aimless and a good for nothing.i just eat sleep and watch tv.
school helps occupy time and at least makes me feel productive.
during the hols i also think about what and how im doing in school.
like teo said,do what u love.i've always believed in that and if im not wrong we've discussed that before i left for trinity.

sometimes i wonder what im doing in school.
i dont know what the heck im doing and where its gonna bring me!
okay,i think that means im destined to just be a small fry earning a meagre paycheck.
all the great things that i dream of being,are they coming true?
i've talked to a selected few regarding the future that i daydream about.some im even ashamed of saying out loud cos they are like near impossible.hee.
see!im not cut out to be anything great cos i dream too big.dream big but dont act on it and most important of all,dont have the brain or talent for it.
aiya,bull shit la.talk big.

but i know right now all i can do is to just try my best in school and do well.
im trying.
noone can claim that i dont.
u can assume i am a bore and dont know how to have a good time.
but who's to define what is a good life?
what makes me tick might not be your type of fun.

jack of all trades,master of none.
i've always been keen and eager to learn everything i can get my hands on.
but come to think of it,i've always done mediocre in most things.
maybe thats why.thats why i've never had like an ultimate goal or major achievement.
but to me thats good enough.
im not going to deny that it'd be great if i could do exceptionally well in something so i can do that for a career and retire early.haha.
but i guess it has gotten me to where i am (not anything great) but at least im still in school and have not dropped out right?
so i think its good enough la.

im always complaining how i could have done something better,chosen something else.
yt is always telling me to not have any regrets.

my sis bought us tickets to the good charlotte concert next tuesday.
my first ever live rock concert!!!
kinda exciting i must say.

and i wanna watch sin city and the remade kingkong.
relive the the intro to hollywood and art cinema since im like 70% sure im not taking it the next semester.

meet the barkers on mtv now.gotta go!

all hail the couch potato-moi.

been watching teevee the whole day and munching on junk.
the live 8 concert is live on cable now.
was annie lennox from a band from the 70s or 80s?


watched bits of Saturday Night Live on CNBC just now.jude law played tony blair and guess who...nicky hilton (!!!)
omg.i so totally change how i feel about him man.it was like a total turn off.
but haha.all he said were the only lines that paris and nicole had in the simple life--"thats hot".
regretted switching channels because when the credits came up and the show ended,ashlee simpson came out!
which means it was the lip syncing booboo episode!
oh gosh,i totally missed it.darn!

kate moss and druggie pete doherty tied the knot?
thats what i heard.

my dad is sooooo ambiguous and asks the wierdest questions that i cant even find an answer to.

dad:(on the live 8 concert)so,whats so great about this show on astro?why is it live?

dad:(referring to lindsay davenport)is she the 17 yr old girl?
me:does she look 17 to u?
for all who havent seen lindsay davenport.she's in her late 20s and she looks 40.

dad:(referring to this taiwanese chat show)why are u watching this show today?how
come u're watching such a dumb show?

im entering all the channelv contests for freebies.
i always win them.haha.like my outkast tee and the neptunes cd.
cos noone is as bo liao as me.

can someone tell me why caucasians do not balloon in the face when they put on weight whereas asians do?

rob thomas does not look like eminem adel!!they're playing "lonely no more" now on mtv.hence the randomness.
oh ya.and the show where they threw a piano and got chased out of a town is "viva la bam"!!yes yes??and yes,johnny knoxville from jackass is in it.im quite sure.
the new season doesnt feature him though.

roddick is now sponsered by lacoste!its so much classier than like his previous sponser reebok.reebok is like the single most yucky of all sports brands.
hmm,none of them seem to be sponsered by fred perry.
and actually roddick might have been the inspiration for the coloured bands (livestrong etc).he always has the rubber thingy that u put on the racket string to reduce the impact of the ball against the racket when returning a hit.really!next time u watch him play,take notice of the band on his left wrist.

avril lavigne is engaged to derek from sum41!what a sweet lil couple right?think they're both from the same town in canada.ontario or something.picture lavigne in a wedding gown and derek in a tux.

the new white stripes music video for "blue orchid" features jack white's current wife, british supermodel karen elson.
the drummer's his ex wife.how awkward!

results will be out next friday!*crosses fingers.
please let me enjoy the rest of my hols without feeling any guilt for not doing better.