my first visit to an internet cafe.not a very pleasant experience cos i just got a confirmation that if i die of lung cancer its because i being fed huge amts of passive smoke.

today's chow yenleng's bday.HAPPY BIRTHDAY!she wont see this anyways.

i love long chats.especially when good company's present.having fun and feeling contented doesnt always have to cost anything.like walking to crown for boost juice,taking in the crisp clean air,walking along the yarra river,feeling the light breeze sweep you ankles while in the company of dear friends.

seeing everyone in town also made me think about the ol' days.great memories i hold near to my heart.

from the tags i know who are my loyal fans who frequent my humble,not-updated-on-a-daily-basis blog.miss u guys too!

thurs: went for an early christmas party at my coz's.met all my lil nieces.all four lovely princesses.received a gift from my cozzie too.a uno stacko.i guess elders do always treat u like a kid no matter how old u've grown.then went over to adel's for a sleepover.my long lost darling!its been wat?a week since i last saw her in kl.

fri: met up with teo and sally in town.they havent changed a bit.still the same old them.huge sigh of relieve.saw loads of pple in town.susan,julia,audrey,jenn(finally),gab(twice) and most surprisingly ANNABEL!!but was in a rush so didnt talk to her at all.she was on the down escalator while i was going up.cant wait to meet up with her.heh.supposed to go club with sis and friends but me,her and yuji decided to stay home instead.no countdown watsoever.not that im complaining thou.christmas is not a big deal for me and family.much too commercialised i think.

sat: went shopping with mom,sis and yuji.then off to hyatt for a buffet dinner joined by dad,bro,his gf and uncle who's back from adelaide.nice gathering with the whole family.then went to eden for drinks.headed home after an after dinner chat with great company and mebbe not-so-fab music(we werent even paying attention to the scantily clad skanky philippino gals ala wedding singers gone wrong.oops.)

sun:here i am on yt's bed typing this at four in the morning.going to bed soon.happy hols everyone...

back home.

first entry in like a month.sorry everyone.msia's internet connection sucks and this is my only chance to update it making use of someone's wireless connection.hehe.thanks adel.
how's everyone????tag me so i know u're alive.sorry havent been online or been tagging anyone's blog.
hols been not too bad.cant complain eh.loads of travelling.went kl.went on star cruise.now in spore at adel's place.
spore's so far awayyy!!!if only i stayed in spore.haha.
anyway more update soon.hopefully.
happy holidays everyone!!!!!!!!miss all the trinity pple.

for a few months,i've been dying to go back.to feel the warmth from family and my home.but now that i AM finally going back,i feel apprehensive.there's just people and certain things pulling me back.this whole year has been a hell of a crazy toontown ride.sometimes u go up but gravity just pulls u down after a while.i guess thats just life.we cant have all the goods in the world while the bads just cease to exist.there's no such life.without the downs, the ups just wouldnt feel as appealing and enjoyable would they?not another one of those philosophical shit about life.or mebbe it is.cos thats the only way to decipher the meaning of life and what it holds for us.



i keep asking myself why do we put ourselves up for such a challenging emotional ride?its really driving everyone crazy this sense of loss.i was watching survivor just now and even the part where the family members came to visit the survivors made me cry.how much they appreciated and missed their families.unbelievable.just goes to show how emotions conquer human beings,especially in times of need and loneliness.just like us coming to melbourne to study,away from family and friends.the new friends made are our family in this foreign land.in desperate or lonely times,we turn to them.confide in them.just in a few months such strong bonds can be formed.amazing isnt it?



cant help but feel emotional really.wanted to try pack just now but just didnt feel like it.part of me is just not prepared to go back just as yet.and i predict a very emotional day tomorrow at valedictory.dont even get me started.dont come up to me and say goodbye or wish me luck in the future.there will be serious flood if i cant stop wailing.besides that i dont know how im gonna face everyone.i wont know what to say!i am still in a phase of extreme denial.just now i mentioned that i dont want trinity to end.ann said that it has alrdy ended.-_-".



im in denial and i refuse to acknowledge and face reality!!!