Lyndi is a Month!

My big little baby is already a month old! Holy cow! I guess in this daze of being permanently exhausted I have lost a LOT of time. She is quite the cute chubba and is developing really quickly. I guess she is taking after her big sister.

Lyndi rolled from her belly to back on her three week birthday. She has even rolled from her back to her tummy- but only once.

She smile a real smile at three weeks as well.

She pretty much held her head from the moment she came out with her chubby monster cheeks!

She sports a natural grown mohawk. It's pretty freaking awesome if you ask me. ;)

She's 11 lbs. and 4 oz. and 22.75 inches long. 95th percentile! Her head however is only in the 50th. My babies all have such tiny heads for babies! It's cute though.

And some pictures of her- of course!

Sad Round Little Circle...

I went to my OB yesterday and talked to him a little about what has been going on. He said that what I am feeling can be postpartum depression or even still just regular baby blues. And then I told him how I REALLY have been feeling. I don't know why people hold back the truth, especially from a professional that is there to help. Maybe it's the stigma associated with feeling depressed but I felt ashamed of the hard truth- I'm angry all the time.

Do you remember that commercial YEARS ago about the sad, round, white little circle that would roll around feeling sorry for itself. It was such a sad commercial but my sister and I would make fun of it. WHAT THE HECK IS THIS COMMERCIAL ABOUT? I thought it was such a bogus advertisement because everything they asked the viewer was so broad that it included everyone in the realm of what it was trying to "sell."

Or so I thought.

Well... I have been prescribed a low dose of this sad little circle, otherwise known as Zoloft. My doctor said that I could be on it from 3 months to 9. I was actually quite surprised. I guess along with the stereotype of antidepressants comes the falsehood that you will be stuck on them for a long time.

Well... today is the first day. Here goes nothing!

PPD

After I have had every child I have gotten a pretty bad case of postpartum depression. I know this about myself and so am going to take control of it now before it consumes me. I just got off the phone with my OB and will probably be put on temporary meds. This scares me... the idea of taking medicine to help make me happy is a little worrisome. Especially when the side effects are so horrible. But the way I see it this time is that it just is not fair to Aiden and Shaylee if I go down that pit of hell again. They are both at an age that they are understanding when mommy isn't feeling well or is sad all day and it is affecting them.

So this is me taking control.

I love my children and want to feel happy when I wake up in the morning. This is for them.

Adjusting to Life...

Life with a third little baby has been quite the adjustment. Not so much because we've added another little person to the family, but mostly because the older two are always fighting for our attention. They both adore their baby sister so much. It is a constant battle between who gets to hold the baby.

Shaylee is quite the little mommy. It is amazing to see how much love this little girl fosters for her sister. She is always making sure her "baby doll" has her "baba" and is happy. And by baba, she mean's binky because Lyndi is only breastfed.

Aiden is a little warm/ cold with the baby. He adores her. He protects her and is always looking out for her... but he also shy's away when he is feeling excluded or neglected. At least we can read him like a book and know when it is time to have some one on one time with him (and with the baby too). When Lyndi cries he will run and get me. He tells me she is scared, or that she is sad. It really is quite sweet. Or when we are getting ready to leave and she is all bundled up in her car seat he yells for me to not "forget the baby Lyndi!" haha! He also tries to pick her up. This part scares me, but he's so gentle with her. He makes sure to support her head but I still stay on him 24/7!

Aiden and Shaylee have had fun seeing their cousin Emma more often as of late. Having two little babies enter the Hansen family has been exciting and a great excuse to get together!

Baby Grace got blessed this weekend! She was so pretty!

Recently both of my parents have undergone some serious medical procedures. It has almost been a year since I have seen them, but they were able to fly up for Grace's baby blessing and to meet Lyndi! They adored her! The first thing my mom said was "Who's little Eskimo baby do you got in your arms?" :) She is a little ethnic looking, isn't she?! haha!

Aiden and Shaylee both remembered and LOVED having their Meema and Peepa stay with us.

Yesterday I got some crazy itch to take pictures of the kids. Lyndi is now 3 and a half weeks old and is developing very quickly. She started rolling from her tummy to her back at 3 weeks and began smiling on Saturday. Where on earth has the time gone? Why do my babies develop so quickly??? :( I think the thought of her potentially being our last baby is making more nostalgic about all the little things that Lyndi does. She is such a sweet baby and I am so grateful to have her in our lives.

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Aiden and Shaylee are both hams in front of the camera!

Lyndi was quite angry the entire time. This picture makes me laugh. It looks like they're on a roller coaster... haha!

So other then feeling a little lonely and still healing from her delivery I think everything is adjusting smoothly. Doesn't Lyndi look like she just walked off of the set of an 80's aerobics movie?

Go baby go!