Today Is A Glum Day ...

So what IS a glum day? Well, it's my way of saying it's a depressing day. Yesterday while I was at work, my boss felt it necessary to nit-pick at me the entire shift. The day before I had confronted her about my wage and I feel as if she maybe was mad at me. Needless to say it was a bad bad day for me. To make matters worse- or better, depends on your position- Aiden had his very first steps... and I missed them. While I was getting told what to do time and time again, my son was walking for the first time.

I guess I feel as if I'm in kind of a pickle. I really like getting the time away to feel like a productive human being again, but am I missing too much? Is it worth it to just be a bee-bopping mall employee? I don't know. Of course my husband supports any decision I make, and I have a great support system with in all the members of my family, but sometimes finding someone who has all the answers is just priceless. I guess for now I'm going to wait until I find out more about the status of my Bachelors degree before I seek employment with an advertising agency or something.

Another reason today is a glum day is because I read an amazing blog about my friend's miscarriage and it brought up very pent up emotions. I guess you can say I have tried to bury these feelings with making my life busy. My due date is coming up in November. November 23rd to be politically correct. My 25th birthday. My sister-in-law is due November 17th which is exciting, but reminds me of the little baby I won't be able to hold on my birthday. As Josh says, I still have Aiden, but unfortunatley that reasoning just doesn't quite do it for me. Yes I have Aiden and he's simply AMAZING, but what about the other baby? We could have had that baby too. We could have had a double stroller with two babies so close together they're both in diapers. Yes it would have been a challenge. Yes it would have been chaotic, but I was up for it. I was prepared. I know the lord has his reasons, and I know everything happens for a reason, I just felt that I should let it be known that I, as a mother, am still in mourning.

God bless all you mothers and mother-to-be's for all you are worth. Life is hard, and today is just another "glum" day for this mother. Tomorrow will be better- and who knows, maybe my son will walk for me too!

Love Nichole

Hello World- We've Been Busy!

Hey everyone... long time no "write", eh?! Haha! Sorry about that, Josh and I have been using the public library for our internet resource and remembering to bring pictures on my thumb drive has been a bugger!

So Aiden got his first hair cut right before we moved. His hair was getting a little out of control. Everyone thought that Aiden was just the most adorable little GIRL?! What... he would be wearing BLUE: dark or light, and everyone would still call him a girl. PUH-LEAZE! Must I stamp the poor kids head? HAHA! Instead of spending ten-dollars, I opted for cutting it myself.

Isn't he just soo handsome? I love it! So, his first haircut was about a month ago now... and he is in dire need of a second one. This time all over, so I think I'll pay someone this time. No need in making the kid look like he's a street kid!

Okay, so here's an update about where we are living!

I think I have mentioned this before, but Josh and I live like a block away from this little lake that is absolutely beautiful. The park there is amazing too. Here Aiden is getting the feel of the lake for the very first time. It's a little cold, so he looks a bit worried, but his Auntie Erica is holding on tight! He was being such a good little guy that day!

The picture on the right is Aiden's little footers feeling the cold water for the first time. It's so cute to see how small his little toes are compared to his Aunts. I love this picture. It makes me gooey inside! HAHA!

So this picture is of the other side of the little park. It's just beautiful where the water plants are all located. If you look closely there are some blooms sitting on top of the lilly pads. I have never seen a wild lilly pad before, so of course I had to take a picture! My sister-in-law thought I was the biggest dork ever... but what can I say, I was sheltered...lol!

On our walk back to the car from the swimming area, daddy thought it would be fun to have Aiden sit on his shoulders. I think it was more fun for Erica and I because our view was just priceless. How many mama's can actually say that their baby has plummer butt while wearing a clean diaper? Well, my son had the worst case of plummer butt I have seen in awhile! Go baby go! I just can't get enough of baby bottom, it's so smooth and chubby! It's amazing how some little body parts can make adults all mushy, huh?!

On top of exploring, watching movies and reading books I have been trying to teach Aiden new things. One day I thought it was about time for Aiden to learn how to clap. I clapped and clapped and tried to make him clap through out the day. I was dissappointed when he didn't catch on.

The next morning I was saying "yay!" to something as I was getting ready to hand him his baba, and then he smiled and giggled and started clapping! I was so amazed I had to run and grab the camera. My son is just so stinking stubborn, of course he isn't going to clap when mama wants him too! haha!

On top of that I've been job hunting to keep myself busy and get out of the house a little bit. I got hired as a cashier at Helly Hansen in the Alderwood Mall. Yes, it's a mall job... but it's an upper scale winter wear clothing store, so it'll be fun. Plus, one of my best friends is the asst. manager there. Go Karena! haha! I also have an interview on Monday with the local school district. I'm pretty stoked. I guess it isn't so bad living over here as I thought it would be! I have tons of friends that I've known through out my life that have moved over to this side, and plus I've met some new ones. I'm a part of a book club and today is my first meeting. Although I'm nervous about these changes... it's been good for me and my family!