Belly Up

Here are some comparisons of my beautiful 6 month belly.
This is the difference a day makes:
Morning Night
Yea, it totally gets bigger by the end of the day. Maybe that is why I only feel fat and tired at night. Lately, I pick up toys in the morning. It is just so much easier!
Baby Rome Baby Girl
I think I am smaller. Those are the same pants and both taken in the afternoon, just btw. It probably helps that she doesn't like when I eat chocolate. I still do though, just in very small doses. I hope she gets over that.

Just a Beautiful Belly pic for you. Really, how many times in your life can you revel in feeling fat? Huh? Okay, its baby fat. But seriously, not many, and I just love it!

Seriously!?!

Why would anyone EVER put this on their child? Seriously?! Why!?

Time for MURDER!

Yes, Murder! We didn't want to have a huge Halloween party like last year, so I decided we should have a Murder Mystery Dinner Party. It turned out great and was so much fun! We had the perfect amount of people, food, games and mystery!

Bloody Goblets, Skull Cupcakes and Creepy Chocolates

The Pirates and The Gangster/ Flapper

Hometown Couple and Soldier, Surgeon, and Colts Fan

Outlaw, Crazy Postal Worker and G.I. Jane

The whole crew and the only good party pic

Moldy Bone Breadsticks, Baked Worms Spaghetti, Mummy Dogs and Eyeball Eggs. Such Yummy Creepy Food! It took a little longer than I expected and we didn't even play the last game. Josh took awful pictures of the party, but I didn't take any so I can't complain. I am so glad everyone could come. It was such a fun night!

Anxiety Dreams

Ever since I found out I was pregnant I have been having trouble sleeping. I am tired and lay down and then my brain says,"Uh, uh. I am awake and now we should think about disasters! Mwahahaha!!" Okay, it doesn't laugh, but you get the picture. I am awake for hours thinking about crazy and completely unrealistic disasters. Like earthquakes and zombie takeovers and murderous lunatics stalking our neighborhood. These are strange enough, but what bothered me was my reaction. I didn't think about what I would DO if these things happened. No, I just thought about what would happen to me, like I could do nothing to stop or change it. Very disturbing. I am an action person. I NEED to DO something. I figured that it was just being pregnant that caused these unusual dreams because you can't do anything about it. You can't make it go any faster or slower. (Let me tell you, the last few weeks just KILL me!) Also, after Rome was born, anxiety was my biggest symptom. I knew things would be okay, but I was so worried about doing anything and everything. All of that worrying made me very tired. So, I figure this might just be early postpartum anxiety keeping me awake.
Then it creeped into my dreams. When I do sleep I have lots of troubling dreams. Dreams about accidents and floods and trips with out shoes. I didn't put them together until today. I was looking up some dream meanings on the internet because my books are all packed up. All of the things I remember from my dreams mean scary and ominous things to come. Ugh, great. So, my entire pregnancy has been telling me that things are going to get worse. I have no idea how, just worse.
Add in the reality of this week. I have been very confident about the whole economy stuff and how things are going to turn around and everything will work out eventually. Then, the reality of Josh taking a pay cut and my doing bills and going CRAP. We really have to cut stuff out. I feel really lucky that I got all my Christmas shopping done, because it certainly would not happen on our new budget. I know we will be okay. We have everything we need. I have great food storage. Rome has clothes and shoes. Yes, I need baby girl clothes. But, if all else fails, I am sure I can find someone that has clothes I can use. I know this all in my brain and in my heart, but having anxious dreams and thoughts every night is sure not helping. I am positive that when we talked about having another baby that it was not supposed to be dripping with troubles, anxiety and worries. I just really hope that all of this won't color my memories of my sweet new baby.

Movie Please

Rome requested his first movie today. We always put them on in the car when we are driving for a couple hours. He doesn't always watch them, but he likes them. Well, today he found a CD case. He was looking through it and then wanted to go somewhere. He led me to the garage and I asked if he wanted to go in the car. He said yes. Then, I figured it out. He wanted to put the CD's into the car (which is where he sees the DVD player) so he could watch a movie. I guess he saw me changing the movies in the car DVD player and put it together that that is what those round shiny things are for. I asked if he wanted to watch a movie and he said yes. So I put one on the TV. It took a minute for him to figure out that he could sit on the couch and watch it. He still wanted to go sit in the car. So, we sat on the couch with his blankie and a snack (of course) to watch Chickens. What a smart kid!
I think it was good he just wanted to watch a movie because it is raining today and it is really hard to explain to him that he can't go play outside because it is wet. What is the big deal? Water is cool so lets go play. Um, no.

Today's Favorite

What has pregnancy brain done for you today?
I got face wash in my hair.
I was in the shower and I put this stuff in my hair and thought, "that is not very much shampoo. Why did I do that? Wait, didn't I shampoo my hair already? Yea, I think I did. So, what was I just doing? Oh, yea. Washing my face. Uh, Oops."
I guess my hair just need some extra oil-control today.

Sweet Moments

Rome has been kinda sick lately. Not really sick. He had a teeny tiny fever yesterday and he has a little cough. But really, not sick. He does think he is sick however. He needs his binky and his blankie all day long. Oh, and his Mommy. Yesterday I literally spent most of the day laying around with a blankie, a binky and a baby. I was supposed to clean. Yea, that didn't happen. I put Rome down at 6:30 pm and he slept all night. Well, he woke up at 4 am for a cuddle and then went back to sleep until 8 am. Pretty good, I think.
Anyway, I hoped that today would be better. I really need to clean. We have a party on Saturday. Except, Rome woke up like this.

Poor baby! I have no idea what happened to his eye, but it obviously hurts. He still doesn't feel very good, but at least he ate some breakfast and some lunch. He also, took a very good nap. I took him in his room and he pointed to his bed and he leayed down and went to sleep. Oh, thank you little boy! I really needed to get stuff done!
Now, here comes the sweet part. I spent the whole morning and after lunch on the couch. Pillow, blankie, binky, baby, water and snack cup. Little sister was not very happy about this. So, with Rome laying on my shoulder and the sippy cup in my lap, she was kicking with all her might. I wished I could have gotten the video camera because I was giggling watching the cup just bump and wiggle. I couldn't help but think how wonderfully sweet it was. Three cuddled up on the couch to watch Tigger and Pooh and Charlie and Lola. Rome actually watched them too. He kept pointing to the TV. I put his hand on my tummy, but he didn't care. He just wanted to hold my hand. It has been a tough week. I still have no idea why Rome is sick, but I need to remember the sweet parts too.

Update

I have been so busy lately. I have been ignoring my blog. Sad.
I have been stuck on scrapbooking. I am done with 2008 up to July. Every single page. Wow! All those adorable baby pictures. So, I am trying to keep going. Plus, it is getting harder to get close to the table so I have to hurry!
I am super excited for our Halloween party. It is next weekend. I have not heard from anybody if they are coming yet. I hope they do because it is going to be so much fun!
I had the best trip to Wal-mart the other day. I got pajamas for our Christmas pictures, a very needed new bra (nursing even, bonus!), and 3 cute shirts that don't look like tents on me. Ahh, what a great day of shopping. Even though I got home too late and Rome didn't take a nap. Oh well, I will take what I can get.
I went to Goodwill and got stuff for Josh's costume. We are pretty much set. I just need to make sure mine still fits. It fit last week. I hope it fits next week and the week after that. Oye, this baby belly.
My friend keeps telling me that I have a little baby pooch and I don't want to hear it. But, I disagree. I actually don't mind showing. At least I look fairly normal still, just with a belly. With Rome I had already gained 20 lbs. I am starting to see it in my face, yuck. But, my maternity pants fit finally. Ahh, comfortable. And now I have a couple cute shirts to wear too. I am all ready to feel swollen and fat.
My hair is a different story. It is really looking sketchy. It is also starting to get greasy all the time. Ugh, I hate that. I have already talked to my hair stylist about cutting it short to cut out the curl. (so sad!) But, I am worried about how short and what kind of style. I REALLY don't do hair. I have mastered the hair dryer, and I hate it. Me and the curling iron still don't get along. I just really hope I like it and it is easy. Otherwise I am certain to cry for our Christmas pictures. I would like to avoid that.
I have already been crying for crazy reasons. My In-Laws are coming to visit and Josh told me that they are bringing dinner. Sounds good right? They usually do, just to be nice, and so I don't have to worry about cooking. No, this time I cried. I wanted to make dinner. I got over it, but not until after a good shower hide-and-cry. I know it will be fine.
Oh, this month is going to be so busy! We have my In-Laws this weekend. Our Halloween Party next weekend. Utah Football and Crazy Angela Party after that and then Football, Halloween, and Lacey Party after that. Whoo! It is lucky I have Christmas done. I am going to need a break after this!