★ Monday, March 25, 2013
Mood Swing
I think my menses are coming.
Maybe that can explain why I am having such a mood swing?
I cannot deny that one of the reason for the mood swing
is because Devil is away for competition for 8days.
But, that don't really explain the swing?
I don't know.
Just don't really feel like talking that much recently,
I mean less talkative maybe,
not really literally silence all the while. Haa.
To make it even worse,
I am very sensitive. Like very.
Just small little things that Devil do, will spike me up easily.
I don't know.
Just because I became more sensitive,
I am easily upset by words.
Because you can never get the tone right from messages,
you tend to interpret it wrongly as judgement just went very extreme.
To make it simple, I just feel empty easily, that's why i am that quiet.
Kill me for that please.
I really hate this feeling.
It's like you should be sensible, less sensitive and supportive,
but there is always one thing to annoy you when you are going to do that.
Like a bucket of water splashed right in your face,
making you feel so annoying that what you wanna do initially just all went off.
Buffffff.
I am blogging to make myself think more clearly,
because I think is unfair for Devil to gain so much negative power from me.
I wish i could give her positive energy like I usually did,
but rarrrrr,
please stay clear Josephine.
Don't vent on someone that you cherished so much.
I just need to rant it out.
I know my best friend will be reading it when she is free,
and I am contented with it.
I don't really want someone to listen cause I know this is something about myself,
it's just like a screw in a robot just went loose,
and all you need is to tighten it.
But you just need some "own" time to tighten it.
No one will really understand the feeling, except dear friend i know. Heee.
Okayyy,
enough for the negative side.
To think of the positive side, Devil is great and cute enough to do things like updating me.
Although most of the time, the updating sounds.....casual,
so casual that it irritates me. Haaa.
I hope my mind gets normal soon,
I had enough of this weird negative mindset.
Enough of the mood swing.
at 11:04 PM★ Saturday, March 23, 2013
A New Start
I deleted all the old posts in this blog,
because all those were bad memories that i cannot even remember any of it now.
I'm very grateful that life is good to me,
as things got a lot better after that asshole get of my life.
I may sound harsh naming her as asshole,
but I feel so great that I can name her that way now.
I didn't read those old posts before I deleted them,
the word "廈門" alone can sore my eyes,
don't mention about the whole post.
I'm really happy and contented that I survived the gloomy period of my life.
Everything were so depressing and grey before,
but gratefully the Sun came out at the right time.
To burn off all those weary and tear parts.
I'm really lucky to be honest.
I experienced a different life after enrolling into Shih Hsin University,
and mainly because i am in Taiwan now,
fulfilling something that I had start dreaming since primary school.
I smiled even when i sleep now.
I couldn't believe all those imaginary scenes are really happening.
I'm happy that I am blogging again to record my memories.
Beautiful Memories.
Hee.
at 4:14 AM
