i'm toooo tired to do my work, gosh. *helps*

Nice Song!

First Day That I Saw You, Thought You Were Beautiful.
But I Couldn't Talk To You I Watched You Walk Away.
And It Felt Like I Spent, All Of That Second Day.
Trying To Figure Out What It Was That I Should have said.
Third Day Saw You Again, Introduced By A Friend.
Said All The Words I Wanted To.
On Day Four And Five And Six, I Don't Know What You Did.
But All I Could Think About Was You.

Thought I Couldn't Want You, More Than I Did Before.
But Everyday I Love You A Little Bit More.
Find Myself Asking, What Are You Waiting For.
Coz Everyday I Love You A Little Bit more.

Days They Turn Into Weeks, That's How Good This Has Been.
Still I Can't Believe The Way This First Year Has Flown.
Still You Catch Me By Surprise, When I Look In Your Eyes.
When You Turn And Say That You Love Me.

Thought I Couldn't Want You, More Than I Did Before.
But Everyday I Love You A Little Bit More. (And More)
Find Myself Asking, What Are You Waiting For. (What You Waiting For)
Coz Everyday I Love You A Little Bit more.

(And More)
I Love You More
(And More)
I Love You More
(And More)
I Love You More
Hey Hey Hey Hey

Day One I First Laid My Eyes On You.
Day Two I Can't Help But Think Of You.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/love-you-more-lyrics-jls.html ]

Day Three Was the Same As Day Two.
Day Four I Fell In Love With You.
Day Five You're Spinning With Me.
Sixth Day Knocked Me Off My Feet.
Day Seven That's When I Knew.
I'd Spend The Rest Of My Life With You.


Thought I Couldn't Want You, More Than I Did Before.
But Everyday I Love You A Little Bit More.
Find Myself Asking, (Find Myself Asking)
What Are You Waiting For. (What You Waiting For)
Coz Everyday I Love You A Little Bit more.

Everyday, Knowing I'm Gonna See Your Face
And That's Enough For Me. (That's Enough For Me)
I Want You More And More And More Everyday.

(And More)
I Wanna Spend My Life With You,
(And More)
Everyday Learn Something New,
(And More)
I Love You More And More And More Everyday.

(And More)
I Love You More
(And More)
I Love You More
(And More)
I Love You More

we look back, thinking it could have been better, but there also could be a chance that it would be worst.

so, be thankful and not look back.

i want to catch a movie, soon. oh wells.






I'm angry at you. I am. But, well, thanks i suppose.

Shine a light

The script new song.. Nothing.....

Slippers that broke.

today, my slippers broke. Thankfully, i was back in bishan already, went back home bare foot! that's about it.





i need to learn how to just.. take in whatever faults and stop defending myself.

Hedley-Perfect

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying





No particular part of my life, just super hook on this song!

you have stolen my heart

i think i have fallen for you, strangely.

My friend told me something today.

"Wah, julia. It has been a year since i've went online"

This made me to think, is it possible for me? To just totally forget the idea of being online. Well yes, im going to stay offline as long as i can from onwards.

I know it's a silly determination or goal, but honestly, i think i can do it. Everyday, i'm just clicking the button, "online" on my msn but i don't initiate any conversation. So ya, maybei should just stop going online.

That's my challenge and lets see how far i am able to last!

On 12/11/10, i declare i will stop going online. :)

woots!

I'm not jaded. I'm just disappointed.

oh yes, i guess... planning something u enjoy doing and planning something that u were asked to is pretty much different.

the difference? i am emotionally attached to something that i enjoy doing, so i guess, when it does not turn out the way i wanted it to be,... Disappointment kicks in.



it will be over, soon.

i'm indifferent. gosh!

It's amazing how in a week, one is able to feel..

happy, sad, emo, angry, every emotions u could think of, im sure u have felt it in a week.



But yesh, terrible week. Realised im indifferent.

i know it was too good to be true.

"Are they just things that people say? I'm believing to think so."

Holidays are about to end, one of the best holidays i have ever had. No, the BEST holidays ever for now. (:

I'm just really sad that everything has to come to an end.

Well for starters, to me, holidays started since August 2010, when YOG started. That's the beginning of the best holidays i ever had.

1) Had a wonderful experience at SingFest
2) Went to Genting with best friends
3) Study for exams
4) Work for two weeks which is something, i really Thank God for. I would have never imagine how important it is to me right now.
5) played at Singapore Ultimate Open 2010 with Sui Dai :D
6) went Sentosa twice with babes and church friends.
7) hang out with clique at least 3 times? (:
8) Baked with michelle and natalie and another time by myself
9) Spend time trying to think of our business concept with Jasmine
10) youtube in total more than 72 in total for this whole holidays! HAHA! There was this day i spent 5 hours on youtube. Haha
11) watch one of the best shows ever, Lie to Me.
12) Had a awesome time with comm at Keppel Bay
13) traveled down to NTU for friendJly. *amazing* haha
14) Met some friends for breakfast
15) Watch a lot of movie :D
16) met some friends for dinner
17) Had amazing time trying out some experiments for the kids camp! haha
18) Played GHS with DISC IS IT!
19) had inter bp captain's ball challenge?
20)

i realise the list could go on.. anyone who was with me throughout this period, thank you! :)

things on my mind:

1) i miss you.

I wouldn't mind watching step up 3D again, but this time in 3D.

confession:

I love to watch dancing shows. I have been watching dancing videos for the past 2 hours on youtube. HA! I would like to learn how to, that's a dream. haha, anyway!

i can't seem to forget about this!

"Joy isn't just a feeling, it's a lifestyle that includes sorror, pain, poverty and death that celebrates the forward progress of Jesus Christ the Gospel." quote from Mark Driscoll

Jeremiah 29: 11
one of the most out of context bible verse? Hoho.

Well Do you know, Jesus suffered way more than we'll ever imagine, and he wasn't Rich. btw!

5 days

WANTS TO SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM

Okay,

had the an awesome week at genting and now im going to study for my exams. :) I really need discipline now, because im really behind time. :'(

if u could, help me anyway, let me know!

nights.

my plan, to wake up at 8 everyday, start studying at 9am. study till 12pm for lunch and back to studying in the afternoon. evening rest and dinner. the night to study and have QT and sleep at 11pm everyday.

Hopefully it works out :)

i know i might seem a little strange now, just know that im fine.

I don't feel like talking as much as I do,
I don't seem like laughing as much I do,
I don't know why.

I'm still the same, with a little adjustments. :)

Anyway, thank you friends all those whom asked me whether i was ok, never felt so cared before :) Thank God for providing me friends like you.

same side of the moon- Corrinne May

I'm looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There's a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I picture you across the ocean
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

same side of the moon- Corrine May

I'm looking out the window
Where we sat to watch the stars
There's a chill within the air
It makes my heart long for your touch
You may be miles away
But as I kneel to pray

I see the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

I picture you across the ocean
In your corner of the world
I pray the wind will blow my voice
And gently whisper in your ear
Your night may be my day
And though the seasons change

It's still the same side of the moon
That we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
And know that time and space can't come between me and you
We share the same side of the moon
And though you'll never see all the tears shine through
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon
I know I can't be that far from you
If we're both looking on the same side of the moon

Ah, im like a fan for katy perry now.

her songs just has been playing in my mind ever since i seen her concert! Gosh, thumbs up to her! :) Haaaa.
the two songs...
California Girls of course and Teenage dream. Hoho

thank you for everything, you. :)

Matthew 7: 3

"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?"

I'm a hypocrite.

I seriously understand why God said this in the bible now. :( I remembered the times where i used to judge a friend, so much until i really felt that i was way better than that friend of mine. I was proud that i was better in every way, through this, i made fun, gossip and many more stuff.

Dear Lord,
please forgive me, all i need right now is your forgiveness. I'm sorry, from bottom of my heart. Amen

i'm speechless. I am. because after all, i realized i did the same thing, the exact same thing as what i judge on my friend. I have not seen the plank on my own eye but others. sigh. i haven felt this guilty UNTIL today.

made my day by making me happppy :)

haha screen shot! :) <3 you babe!

sometimes all we want is to put our emo thoughts somewhere

Well, today is my turn.

sometimes when we are so happy, a slightest thing may just change our feelings 180 degrees. living in the dark, might be the best thing for now.

oh wells, i was just reminded that where we live now on earth isn't forever. There is a higher throne. On a positive note to this emo thought, every pain and suffering that we are going thr, it is only temporary. God has something way better then we will ever be blessed for us.

bye.

Hi.

Three projects left, can't be any happier :) First two weeks of my august is pack with events, i guess the other two weeks are to study!



oh wells, i was quite upset today, but somehow i feel much better now. hehe ^ ^

anyway, all i want to do now?

Go to sentosa, soak under the sun! Rest, sleeep and play there. :)

if it doesn't break your heart, just so u know, it breaks mine.



Anyway! I'M SO GONNA WEAR RED TO SCHOOL TMR (:

WOOOOHOOO!

It's friday!

We have our ups and downs this week, but what is good?

THREE PROJECTS DOWN!
Business Finance, Family and Youth, and lastly, Business Law.

Thank you all who have helped me :)

simply a test of faith which i failed in

This week has truly been a test of faith for me, which i know i didn't act in a right way, sigh, i know.

well to let you know,

firstly, clearly, this week has open my eyes to know that i have been living for this world. I dont know why, i wanted to gain so much from this world where there is no point in it. :(

eg, studies. Bluntly, i failed and have done very badly for certain modules.

and im crushed.

secondly, i was showed that im not loving in anyway :( When i could help my family, i wanted to find my way out. sigh


After saying all these..
well, for the first time, i really prayed a lot about all these. Been comforted by Him, having the peace in my heart when i woke up the next day. :) Thank you, God! Anyway, yes, i gave it up, and decided to help my family. Life is gonna change for a while, but i know He will provide :)

You are more than enough.

I know you know how much i can take, but isn't this too much? i'm crying, and begging on my knees, dear Lord.

Thank you for your word, that reminded me :

James chapter 1: 2-3
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

Everything is ur hands. Everything.

before the morning

no matter what u are struggling with, our sufferings are not worthly to be compared with the Glory that is to be revealed to us

*thanks, i know who u are :P*

things on my mind

praying: yf camp committee, to serve in it because i love God soo much and not because of anything else. To rely on God's strength and wisdom. :)Trusting Him in everything. For those, who do not know, yes i have agreed to serve in it after praying about it. During that time, i would either be having full day shift work from 9am-6pm, half day shift, or holidays! God willingly, im praying for that my 5 weeks of holiday is on December.

Praying: for courage to ask my friends about CE by this week! Letting God be in control of the results of it. :)

helps*

after the two weeks of "holidays" i have...

to:
1) complete my sports project (28 June)
2) complete Business Finance project (5 July)
3) complete Youth and Family blogger and reflect on it (8 July)
4) complete business law project (9 July)
5) complete marketing management project (13 July)
6) study for effective financial management test (13 July)

i dont know, even with proper time management is this even possible? :( And worst of all,its so difficult to start. Sigh.

i can't wait for a break, please come 31 July 2010. Come soon, please!

the creation of movies are the best invention

I strongly think that movies or television shows are the best invention. :)

Days where u feel lonely, days where u feel sad, days where u are just too tired to think of anything else, or even days where u feel happy, watching movies has never made my day worst.

Well, i wasn't feeling happy on a monday, not because of monday blues, but i've heard somethings that made me think a lot, and i decided to just stay home and catch a movie on my laptop. Yup i did, i watch Dear John. The movie was alright, and hehehe, the couple love the moon as much as i did, i cried a little towards the end...

After watching, decided to rest and take a nap where after 30mins, jasmine called and said she wanted to come over, when she came over... dinner wasn't prepared, and i just wanted to watch another movie, so i asked her whether she had watch prince of persia and she said no. hahah, u know where u were after that, at the cinema. Thats the best thing about Junction 8 :)

Alrights, enjoyed my day. thanks :)



btw, this is my own battle.

toughest week ever,
it's even harder to get thr with it being sick.

But perspective is all i need, im just going to my best, and thats all. :)


THREE WEEKS OF A FOUR DAY WEEK! Weeehheeee!

Kiss the Girl- Ashley Tisdale- Music Video

I DIDN'T KNOW SHE SINGS... LOL. i'm not saying she's good, just that im surprise that she sings...

say bye to sleep :(

taken in changi.
there is a reason to live! :)



i'm left with four weeks of school, before my holidays, time is passing way too fast, i can't believe it. this four weeks are not going to be a breeze, loads of project, and test to study, sigh. Well, thank you God for the break/short holiday i had at bintan. My brother paid some for me, which im really thankful for :) It was good to get away from everything, just enjoying life!

Thank You!

Friends Foreva! < 3 Hahahah

THE TWO HARDEST WORDS

"Letting Go"

the extend of this goes way beyond our knowledge of the words. i've read, talk and heard what people have to say about it and the only conclusion i have is this is hard really.

Are you Game? Are you Ready?

i miss everything it used to be, sigh. New change, New directions = New focus i guess

played a frisbee competition, on saturday and sunday! i really enjoyed myself. :) my back wasn't painful most of the time, though my toe really hurt! haha

We won 4 games, lost 2.

one of the few things i love about frisbee..

the company, the team! <3

"let pain be a indicator"

i hope everything turns out well tmr, or maybe i should say today. To be honest, knowing myself, i would just push myself till i can't take it, i hope that wouldn't be too late. :(

i'm worried, that's the truth. But yes, made a promise that i will stop, if i have to.

Dear Lord,
I can't do this without you.

God is Good!

Hi, i'm truly amazed with how God plans for everything. Indeed, He has taught me a lot about how we should place our trust in Him.

I've been praying that my mum would be able to find a job, one that she would be able to enjoy herself and would have a good environment to work in. After all, who wants to see their parents suffer at work? Well, not me. It has been in my prayers for the longest time, and to be honest, i started to doubt God. I wanted my mum to get a job so that we could live happily. ( i had the concept that money brings happiness, which is not true)

I read up and realised that God only provides for our needs, as it states in the bible, needs, not wants. I understand the reality of life and money. I knew it is all about sacrificing lots of things that i could see all my peers have.

So then, instead of praying for a job for my mum, after awhile, i started to pray about how my mum would use her free time wisely. She started going for some bible study, and serve more at church. It was a joy to see my mum happy at what she was doing. That was true happiness.

The most amazing thing, happen recently, i had a injury on my back, a muscle sprain. I went to the doctor with my mum, and got painkillers for it and everything because it really hurt. I couldn't sleep properly without the painkillers. The following day, the doctor called my mum, he asked her whether she would like to work at the clinic. ZOMMG, answered prayer. :)

Now, looking at the big picture, im glad that i was injured, if i wasn't, the doctor wouldn't know my mum was free and then my mum would still be without a job.

I really thank God for everything that has happen! :)Indeed it is all about trusting in God in every difficult situations that you face.

PS: i never wanted to share this with everyone, because im embarrassed about it. But i thought about it, and i decided to use this to encourage my friends who is as dishearten as me, don't give up on your faith. Continue to trust in God!

People makes mistakes. It shouldn't define who they are.

muscle strain of the lumbar spine. sigh

things i cannot do now:

-bend down to touch my toes
-can't sit down
-tie shoe lace
-wear my pants faster


so.. takecare of urself. dont be like me.

i can't be dealing with these now.

ZOMMG, I'M IN LOVE WITH THE NEW LIFEHOUSE ALBUM. :)

someday i'll know

here:

i must admit, i used to not tell the truth, bend the truth which leads to a lie. then i came across this quote that i saw online, which made me think a lot.

" isn't he/she worth the truth? "

come to think about, everyone is worth the truth, yes, i know truth might hurt sometimes or even get your friends angry, but if he or she is your friend, u know that they will forget about it after a while. Friends forgive each other.

Anyway, school is starting in two days time, well my timetable is reasonable to a certain extend, i guess i just got to get use to it! At least i can watch movies after school. :)

Well, many many many things happen to me from march 2010 to today, april 2010.

I've literally work till i almost fainted/die. At the very last day of work, when im on the way home, i couldn't even walk straight, closing my eyes to walk, wishing to reach home as soon as possible. I prayed to God so many times, as i could recall, i really thought i couldn't reach home safely. too tired plus weak. Was sick too! BUT, work has been amazing, really amazing. I really Thank God with my whole heart that he has given me this chance to meet all of my colleagues and this working experience. Going for meetings, talking to big shots-super big boss *scary i tell you* and seeing how a event is run, wow, it's great. I made new friends, wonderful friends :)




I went to ice skate! it was really fun and interesting. You should try really! :)

I went to sing and had a wonderful time at sentosa! Haha Had many many great laughs with the babes.





Let me see, what else i did...

I went for Tuesdays with Tabby too when i'm able to!

Shop with Joey and Shermaine for the very first time, finally we are all free! haha and able to go out together.

Watch a lot of movies, crazy, but ya. Mostly spending my time with my best friends! It was awesome! I had fun :)

The last week of holidays, spent most of my time with jasmine three days infact! We can't get enough of each other :O kiddings.

Had a bbq with the clique to end off the holidays.






Last of all, to you:

I'm sorry for everything. I never had the intention to hurt you, watching you walk away, asking me to go off was the hardest thing i have ever experience, while walking back, you made me cry way more than i ever did. Everything that we go through, is an experience to grow closer to Christ or for me was to point me back to Christ. I'm glad it did. I'm no better than you, i suck too. Please remember that.

i'm coming back here (:

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