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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Hey pals,

I wont be around later!!! Will be heading down to POD to help Grace... She was down with MC and back to work today... There will be guests coming down at 4pm too~ Got to help her with some cleaning, setting up and preparing...

Do drop by if you are free... The kids here are amazing!!!

Address: Blk 316 Tampines Street 33, #01-186
Bus: 291 East Route from Tampines Interchange, alight at 9th bus stop

I will be there until 5plus~
See you around!!!

Agape,
JoRin

*Learn to forgive and forget. This will make you life more fruitful and happy. Be mature in whatever you do, for you are the salt and light of the world~*

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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Just wanna say that please treasure the people around you!!
You never know when they will be gone forever..
I just felt upset especially when I visit my uncle..
He is getting skinner and skinner..

Now before anything happen, all of us are treasuring the times with him..
We dont want to regret it forever..
He is just simply so dear to us~

Rather emo and hate to see some around dont treasure the people beside you!!

I got to jia you and be uber strong!!

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Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I need to step out of my comfort zone now~
I had stop swimming for age!!
I had stop gym for age!!
I had stop running for age!!

This Friday I got to make it happen for cycling~

I know I got to wake up uber early!!
I will try my best to wake up!!
Cycling~

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Wondering...
Why are all the dramas ending the same...
All about happy ending....

Uber sianz these few days~

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Monday, April 27, 2009

I need these two books before 4th May...

Principles of Economics
Economics for Today

Edition : 5th
Author/s : Irvin B. Tucker
Publisher & Year : Thomson South-Western, 2008
ISBN : 978-0-324-53617-1

Financial Accounting I
Financial Accounting in Singapore and Malaysia

Edition : 1st
Author/s : Walter T. Harrison Jr, Charles T Horngren
Zubaidah Bte Ismail, Chng Chee Kiong,
Fazilah Samad, Mak Yuen Teen
Publisher & Year : Pearson Prentice Hall (Asia), 2005
ISBN : 9780131234505

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The weekend was long~

Friday
I clean up my room...
Clear alot of stuffs away...
Bangz~
Need more room space for my books!!!

Went down to Chinatown to sign a letter for interview...
Went to meet Kel at Buona Vista to go cg...

After cg, receive a sms...
Got activated to help out in COPE...
They need more man power...

Saturday
Got up late...
Head down to Old Airport road to help up COPE...
Is a Mothers' Day Event held on 9th May...

Went door to door for 3blocks...
On one of the unit, almost got bite by two dogs...
*Fainted*

Siona (Andy cg member) is in COPE too...
She is rather cute chatty...
Chat with her...
She snapped me when I sleep on the way to Expo...

Was allocated to guard Door6...
Stand throughout...
Only manage to sit for 15mins...
Legs breaking apart~

Vene gave me alot of make ups...
Surprise cos of the brand and the amount of make up she gave...

Meet Yee after that at CCK...
Was rather tired but fun...
We ate KFC!!
Finally after so long...
Had some jokes around getting to KFC

Got a ride home...
Thanks to Yee Mama...
Thanks to Yee too...

Sunday
Got up late again!!
Went down to Expo...
Manage to reach before the message start~

Meet Jas Tan after that to talk...
Waited for Stephanie...
Headed to Changi Airport for lunch!!
Went to her house to collect my lenses..

Bangz off on my bed when I got home~
So tired!!!

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I want to go for Mission Trip..
Longing to go for Surabaya one..
Anyone wanna sponsor me for that???
Is coming up real soon..

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Friday, April 24, 2009

I can say finally I got a chance to rest...
Rest as in no need to wake up so early...
No more chc office at the moment...
POD was great~

The taiwan drama was great...
Yes!! I do got encourage by it...
Was randonly msn a few saying that 敗犬女王 was like one of my past!!

Man!!! I cant imagine once a guy younger that me by 6yrs old want to be my bf!!!
I was like erm 17yrs old!!!
Like what Nana said, I got to accept the fact that I am no longer Forever 18 or Forever 21...

The drama is not going to affect me and my life...
Yes one thing that I had learn : "Arise and get a life"

When you know that it is gone, it is gone..
What can you do next???
Arise and get a life!!
Move on~

Yes, it maybe hard...
But all things are possible...
I had been thru it and I have overcome it!!!

Life are full of ups and downs...
Trials and tribulations...
Unfair and unequal treatments...
What does we wanna let it bothers us???

If its belong to you, it will come back to you...
If its doesnt belong to you, it doesnt belong to you at all...

Rumors~
Gossips~
This are what will make you weak!!!
Why bothers about it???

Recently, I've heard of friends around me got upset...
People around them discourage them...
Gossip about them...
Spread untruth rumors about them...
I just pray and hope that those people can stop all the rumors and gossips of my friends...
All of us will not get affect by the words...

Went for bs lesson 8 on Wednesday...
Meet Jasjasjas before lesson for dinner...
After class we went to Bugis to chat and catch up!!!
On my way back, meet a uber strong wind that I almost cant make it home...
So strong that I can even open my eyes to walk...
It started to rain...
Sound like Taiwan...
So I decided to run home...

I am uber happy!!!
Send Serena the list...
Cant wait for her to be back with the bags!!!
OMG!!!
I cant imagine the list is so long!!!

Gotta catch my sleep!!
Will update soon!!!

"It is easy to take liberty for granted, when you have never had it taken from you."
Dick Cheney

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I was intoduce to watch 愛就宅一起..
My sister send me a link and ended up I am watching 敗犬女王...
It was a nice show indeed...
I will blog more about it...
Finish watching it soon~

Jia you!!!

Starting my part time job soon!!!
Monday!!!!
It's getting so so near~

I hadn't had enough of slacking!!!

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I came across this verse yesterday when I was on my way home from Tampines.

"God did not create everything in one day, so what makes me think that I can?"

I took this picture at one of the island at Sabah. I remember looking through smses and replying it. It was regarding my work, never had a good break even going on a holiday.

Sy Roger says "Life can only be understood by looking backward but it must be live forward."

I am living forward. I had the break through for 1 week not reading some blogs. I know its gonna be negatives so I chose not to read. Remember the times we used to enjoy each other company and had funs around. Now is time to let go and really ignore it.

I dont need to have alot of close friends, one or two will be enough. I am a very "I" person, can make friends with anyone and very friendly towards everyone, hence times I tends to be confuse with the friendship around..

Looking back on what had happen, it bring lessons learn and to move on from that.. Times we wonder, how good it will be if there is a time machine to turn back the time so that it will be perfect.. Friends, that will not be great, you wont get to enjoy the greatness of God creation.. You wont enjoy the process of trials and tribulation, you wont know what is mistake and to learn from it...

I am thankful for all the incidents that had happen.. To tell me on how to learn from mistake and also to treasure people around me...

Thank God for the friends that trust me, Thank God for everything that you had created, Thank God for setting me free with the truth.

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稻香sang by Wing.

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Monday, April 20, 2009

It has been a long long weekend...
Here is the update goes...

Friday
Wake up real early, went to wet market to buy chicken. Today the theme for cell group refreshment is "Best Asia Food". So I am preparing 纸包鸡. Alot of people dont know what dish is this. This is actually a cantonese food and is famous in Hong Kong and China. Came back home, wash the chicken and marinade it. Head down to run alot of errands, finally got a chance to settle down for food and rest. Headed down to Dorcas place to cook the 纸包鸡.

Many said that this is a difficult dish but I dont know why it just seems simple to me. Maybe because I've been cooking this dish so it seems easy to me. Thank God the cell group love it. MJ and YR want to try that. So will be cooking it again next time and bring it to Expo.

Head down to AMK, journey there was rather messed up. Had some personal talks and mixed feelings going on.

Saturday
Head down to Expo rather early. Meet Vene up to talk about some stuffs. Had prayer meeting before service. That was a wonderful one. Service was great. Zone had some activity after service, Wing was invited to sing.

Had requested him to sing 稻香 by 周杰倫 and that was so amazing. I love that song alot. He sang 我有多久沒有對你說我愛你. A song that he wrote for his mum, his dad passed away 10 years ago due to sudden death, and he regretted not spending enough time with his dad. Recalling the times that he used to call home and hardly speak with his dad. The day before his dad passed away, his dad actually travel to watch his 1st performance at a cafe, that was the 1st and the last performance his dad get to see and support.

稻香 was written and sang by 周杰倫, a song that is also very touching. Have 2 meaning behind it, one is on the MV and the other one is on the lyrics. I cried when I 1st saw the MV when I was back from US last year. I just simply love this song alot. Wing had his version of singing and I love it too.

After the session, grab him to take a photo together. He and his forever "good" sign. He was actually rushing off but still stay for a few seconds to tak the picture.

Head down to Bugis with Vene, Peiling and Lijun for our super late dinner. My portion was rather unusual from the normal days.

Finally got home, upload the videos and burn those video into a cd for Wing. It was such a huge file that it take an hour to transfer via msn. So good choice for burning it into csd for him.

Sunday
Overslept and change the meet up time with Shi. After lunch and head down to Joo Chiat CC to help out in blood donation. The crowd was low compare to previous year. Again, I fail the doctor test and cannot donate. Low blood and irregular heartbeats. Knock out once I reach home as too tired with programs after programs.

Wing will be flying back on morning flight on Monday. He wont be coming for the celebraties show in the upcoming events.

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Sunday, April 19, 2009

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羅文裕愛情漫遊 LYRICS
作詞：Wing羅文裕作曲：Wing羅文裕

就怕時間不夠讓你好好愛我
偶而我犯的錯你連寬容也溫柔

沈默也是溝通哭泣也為感動
不管黑夜白晝我會讓你無淚無憂

時間慢慢走像一個沙漏愛細水長流
不管天多冷有你抱著我也就覺得暖和

我和你一前一後一左一右在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收比不過你一個笑容
最初的感動還留在心中從來沒變過
哪怕有一天我們都老了還要牽你的手

沈默也是溝通哭泣也為感動
不管黑夜白晝我會讓你無淚無憂

時間慢慢走像一個沙漏愛細水長流
不管天多冷有你抱著我也就覺得暖和

我和你一前一後一左一右在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收比不過你一個笑容

最初的感動還留在心中從來沒變過
哪怕有一天我們都老了還要牽你的手

故事的最後結局會有許多種
而我們的愛是唱不完的歌

我和你一前一後一左一右在愛情漫遊
眼前的風光雖美不勝收比不過你一個笑容

最初的感動還留在心中從來沒變過
哪怕有一天我們都老了還要牽你的手
哪怕有一天我們都老了還要牽你的手

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我有多久没有对你说我爱你

记得小时候在家乡自后
爸爸教我骑单车
发烧的时候妈妈抱着我
烧退了冰块却冻伤她的手
长大后努力追求向往天空
沉默却比话说得还多
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心

长大后努力追求向往天空
沉默却比话说得还多
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心
旧旧的收音机泛黄的老歌曲
刻画着我亏欠的过去
抬头看天上星水中的倒影
回家的路有我陪着你
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心

我有多久没有对你说我爱你歌词
记得小时候在家乡自后
爸爸教我骑单车
发烧的时候妈妈抱着我
烧退了冰块却冻伤她的手
长大后努力追求向往天空
沉默却比话说得还多
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心

长大后努力追求向往天空
沉默却比话说得还多
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心
旧旧的收音机泛黄的老歌曲
刻画着我亏欠的过去
抬头看天上星水中的倒影
回家的路有我陪着你
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
你却爱我更胜你自己
你的白发和眼角多了几条鱼
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心
我有多久没有对你说我爱你
让你孤孤单单怎么忍心

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Saturday, April 18, 2009

To: Jasmine Loo

My Best Friend Speech

Dear Jasmine,

Thank you for being my best friend all these while. Do you still remember the first day we met? I still remember the jokes we crap, the laughter we had, the joy that come by. But that is not enough to make us so close.

Remember the trips that we had? Is our first trip together. Remember how hard we pray not to have conflicts and disagreements that one whole week? Praise the Lord that we make it a wonderful trips that so many people envy both of us. Remember the issue of missing money during transaction and overweight luggages issue? To think back all these incident, I smile. It really bring both of us so close that I never though it could happen.

Remember the times when I face a big issue that I broke down totally? I am so bless to have you by my side even it is just a phone call away. Remember the period that I was away from US? We only can communicate through facebook? Remember I msn you that I cried at LA cause I just miss you???

And the list goes on and on.

There is only a song that can represent all that I wanna say. I do sang it to you twice at KTV.

范瑋琪 - 一個像夏天一個像秋天

第一次見面看妳不太順眼誰知道後來關係那麼密切
我們一個像夏天一個像秋天卻總能把冬天變成了春天

妳拖我離開一場愛的風雪我揹妳逃出一次夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後生命全改變原來不是戀愛才有的情節

如果不是妳我不會相信朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛把妳冷凍結冰妳也不會恨我只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳我不會確定朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音我的有口無心我離不開Darling 更離不開妳

妳拖我離開一場愛的風雪我揹妳逃出一次夢的斷裂
遇見一個人然後生命全改變原來不是戀愛才有的情節

如果不是妳我不會相信朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛把妳冷凍結冰妳也不會恨我只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳我不會確定朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音我的有口無心我離不開Darling 更離不開妳

妳了解我所有得意的東西才常潑我冷水怕我忘形
妳知道我所有丟臉的事情卻為我的美好形象保密

如果不是妳我不會相信朋友比情人還死心塌地
就算我忙戀愛把妳冷凍結冰妳也不會恨我只是罵我幾句

如果不是妳我不會確定朋友比情人更懂得傾聽
我的絃外之音我的有口無心我離不開Darling 更離不開妳

PS: 我離不開Darling 更離不開妳.

You are just amazing.
Thanks for being there for me when I need you.
Thanks for lending a listening ear when I just want to nag.
Thanks for the concern you had shown to me all these while.
Thanks for encourage me all the times.
Thanks for helping me to buy so many things and I know is really heavy.
Thanks for telling me that I am not alone.
Thanks for telling me that I still have you and you are just a call away.
Thanks for praying for me.
Thanks for the jokes that you crap with me.
Thanks for flowing with me.
Thanks for sharing with me.
Thanks for opening the doors for me to do more things.
Thanks for giving me a chance to rise up.
Thanks for telling me that no one is perfect.
Thanks for allowing me to park my small piece of heart at your heart.
Thanks for ..... the list just goes on and on.

Jasmine Loo, this post is delicate to you.
No one else.
I know you will cry buckets after reading.
So do I when I type it out.

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I have been thinking about my DREAMS lately...
Do you know yours???
Someone do share with me the purpose of having a dream..

1) Dream : Just dream and nothing had been done.
2) Dream : A goal that you had set to work towards it with passion and motivation.

So what is your dream??
The 1st or the 2nd one??

I have both...
I believe everyone does have the two of it...

My greatest dream is to be able to impact as many life as I can in whatever that I am doing. Just a couple hours ago, a friend and someone that I respect share and encourage me with this, "Whatever you do, do it with a positive mindset that this is and will be impacting someone life that you are not known of." I pause for quite sometimes, day-dream abit and poundering on the message that was spoke to me.

Friends that know me will know how much I am going through. Families, work, school, ministry had been killing me lately. So much so that I am breaking off.

I had forgotten about my DREAM.
I had lost my passion on it.
I had misplaced myself somewhere.
I had stuck at halfway.
I had thrown away my thoughts.

Ps6:8b - 10
"For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication; The Lord will receive my prayer. Let all my enemies be ashamed and greatly troubled; Let them turn back and be ashamed suddenly."

I am physically and spiritually weak. But the Lord had given me His strength. He show me the way that He had plan and bring people to speak the words of affirmation to me.

Dear Lord,

Thanks for telling me my DREAM that I want to impact peoples' life.
Thanks for telling me not to be a shooting star.
Thanks for telling me that my best friends are church people.
Thanks for allowing me to go through all this.
Thanks for bringing people to me to impact them. (I've learn to stay strong)
Thanks for telling me that you never give up on me.
Thanks for allowing me to be your best friend.
Thanks for washing my sins away.

Lord, you are so precious that I can't do without getting into your presence. You make me smiles and laugh like never before. You are really amazing.

You allow me to cry like a baby. To weep and weep just to let out all my words from heart to you. You are so close to me that I just fall into your arm and presence.

Thank you Lord.

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Friday, April 17, 2009

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停，也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心。只是心有飘到了哪里，就连自己看也看不清。我想我不仅仅是失去你。。。

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死不认错的男人没药救。。没真心知错悔改= 零。。

I hate guys who did something wrong and yet dont want to admit..
Still go around and seek others sympathy..
Please stop all the nonsense...

I have chosen the wrong person to dote on..
Thank God you show me your true colour..
Thank God that the ipod is in hand of someone better..
Thank God that I am no longer doting you..
Thank God that you are younger than me..

Lord, I pray for this person, pray that this person will change for the better. Even if this person does not change, Lord I pray that I will have bigger heart to accept this person for who this person is...

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Thursday, April 16, 2009

Dear Everyone,

To: Whom It May Concern

I, Jorin aka Jolin Ann Tan Yen Leng, is an official volunteer under CHCSA with effect from 15 April 2009. I am happily serving as one faithful volunteer to help everyone in COPE, POD and any form of events that need her talents and willingness to serve.

Anyone have any feedback, please feel free to drop me a message.

From this day on, I am an official volunteer. No longer an adhoc one.

"I promise to do my best. To do my duty to God. To serve my country and help other people and to keep the CHCSA Rules."

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What is the meaning of Shooting Star??
It means "the common name for the visible path of a meteoroid as it enters the atmosphere. A shooting star is also broken pieces of meteors that have become broken off in space".

Someone do share with me this sentence.
"Don't be a shooting star in whatever you desire, dream, decide or have passion in."

I asked the person why?
He said: You can shoot high up like a shooting star and you can fall down like a shooting star too. Why not do it at a right timing when God is calling you to do it.

Today, during bs, Darren shared with the class a verse:

John 15:15
"No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you."

God treat us as a friend.
A friend that we can share our things with Him.
A friend that we can have fun with.
A friend that we can laugh together with.
A friend that will not let go of you.
A friend that will be with you all the time.
A frined that never give up on you.

Lastly, Darren shared that our best friends are to be someone from church.
Not that we cannot have best friends outside the church but advise to have in church.

Someone can be strong physically, but deep in the person soul, he or she may not be doing well. Yet he or she can rise up so high up in the ministry.
Many times, we may think that why this is so unfair.
No one is perfect.

A person may be strong physically but not doing well in he or her spiritually life and rise so high up, but remember, he or she may fall like wise.
I was shock.
Yes really shock.

I start to pray: God will you forgive me of my wrong mindset, wrong thinking. For you have authority over all things.

I don't have the urge to rise up anymore.
I don't want to be like the shooting star.
Cause I know I won't be able to take the big fall after that.

Lord, I will follow whatever you had called me to be.

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Wednesday, April 15, 2009

One of my dear friend is flying off today...
This person is so bad...
Say want to meet up yet forgot to sms me...
Promise me that he/she will buy alot of fun stuffs back for me...
I will see you real soon ok???
Buddy, I promise you this post before you go~
You will be missed these while...
Check out the facebook for the fun we had....

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Today, I went to CHC Office...
To help out with CHCSA...
Some admin stuffs need to be done...
Photocopy, sort, print, stack...
All these are what I did at the office...

Just wonder around when I work...
I didnt get distract...
I can concentrate well...
The environment are great...
Saw some Pastors around...
Get to chat with some staffs that hadn't get to catch up for long...

One of the conversation that stirred me up today..
When I enter to my desk...
(The conversation goes like this...)

xx: Hey Jolin, you look really different each time we met...
Jolin: Waa, that's good... I am so happy to hear that!!!
xx: Yeah, you getting prettier do you release that??? What makes you wanna change your look??
Jolin: All thanks to my cgl who had change me...
xx: Waa, who is your cgl?? I also want to know her... I also want to change...
Jolin: Haha~ Not everyone can change you know??? Its takes effort to do it...

I release that I do take some effor to dress up... But times I can be super dress down... It depends on my mood too... Like for this incident, I am going to CHC Office, how can I effort to dress super down??? I think I dont even dare to walk into the office, if i dress t-shirt and short....

At lunch~
(The conversation goes like this)

xx: Jolin, remember the time we serve in UM??
Jolin: That's was so long ago, my god!!!
xx: Yes yes... Many cgl said that I was fierce.. Do I??
Jolin: NO!!! You are NOT!!! Tell them that the person sitting in front of you now is more fierce... She can fight and scream and yell like nobody business... Who is more fierce???
xx: Haha~ Are you kidding??? I dont remember you are like that last time...
Jolin: Ya~ Last time I wasn't like that... BUT, now I am... I dont know why..
xx: I think the culture had changed... Everyone changed too...
Jolin: Yes I agreed... Is not like the past anymore, where we are still small and our relationship with one another was so close that we can afford to travel.. Now??? You hardly can find one..
xx: Ya lor... True... Culture changed and everyone changed too...

Continue our lunch and headed off to Carrefore to buy some snacks...

Indeed everyone had changed... My dreams and vision and my desire had changed day by day... My passions is no longer there anymore... I told xx about it... I am still holding on, holding on to it...

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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Just an update on my leg...
Just went back to the chinese physician...
Got scolded again...
He really advise me to stop standing for long hours and walk too much...
I need healing....
I need miracles healing...

Went to visit my big uncle last week before the Easter weekend...
I saw him, I almost cried...
I endure...
Talk to my aunt and found out what exactly happen...
He left about a month life time...
Everyone is praying for miracles healing to happen...
My big uncle hardly eat...
He just ate not more then 10 mouthful of food...
He is really very thin...
He is very tired...
He slept all the time...
Spoke to Darren about my uncles situations and he really encourage me alot...

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Thats the instrument that both me and my sister used to play in the school band...
I missed that alot...
I have changed a couple of instruments... From Tuba to Trombone to Clarinet and lastly to Saxophone...
I missed playing with the band...
Every year we got Gold for SYF...
I wish to have one Saxophone as my birthday gift one year...

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Monday, April 13, 2009

I was reading Group 16 blog and I found this.
It was so interesting.

Usher Tags - a Guide
An usher tag is an indication of God's ordinance for you to serve Him in His ministry and His house. It bestows upon the person who wears it authority to make decisions and take actions within the jurisdictions of the usher ministry.

So the usher tag is important! Ask your ICs for one if you don't have one!

For usher trainees: you will be loaned a trainee usher tag during the training lessons. Please remember to return them at the end of each lesson.
For new ushers (who have been in ministry for 3 months or less): you will be issued a paper usher tag during these 3 months. Please purchase a plastic tag holder for the usher tag.

For ushers (more than 3 months in ministry): you will be issued a plastic usher tag. The issuance may take a bit of time because of administrative and manufacturing issues, but do remember to keep asking your ICs if you do not get yours. [note: please furnish your ICs with your NRIC and NAME desired to be printed on the tag]
For team leaders and above: you will be re-issued another plastic tag with your photos printed on it.

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Friday, April 10, 2009

Yes, I am injured.
Is a real one, not fake.
Maybe is the trademark in my family.
We always endure the pain.
I had a bad fall on Sunday night.
Endure the pain till Tuesday.
When to see a chinese physician.
Cannot walk too much.
Cannot stand too long.
He is not the first and not the last who told me this.

My injury are old injuries.
From playing basketball to dance to heels.

I was being advise to stop play basketball.
But I ignore.
I went on taking up dance class.
Had a bad sprain on my ankle.
And I endure.
Now all the injuries are back.
I felt so handicap.

I wanna serve.
But need to stand and walk.
I am wondering and poundering.
I cant walk too much.
I cant stand too long.
How to serve??

I wanna fulfill God's calling.
Even if I cant, at least I have done my best.

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Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Remembering the blog that I had posted on the uncle on the left from the picture.
My heart sank, tears running down from my eyes non-stop.
I am the last to know that he is in the last stage of cancer.

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强.
The moment my small aunt break the news to me, I endure.
Endure till I cant control.
I teared on the way home.
I can see that my small uncle is hanging on.

I am breaking off.
Will miracle happen one more time?
God, if you can do it for my third uncle last year, can you do it again this year?

My big uncle is getting thinner.
Hairs all gone.
Face as pale as a sheet.
He hardly can eat.

He is close to me.
Someone so dear to me.
He set great example to everyone in the family.

He deserve even better.
He fight through all these while.
His heart is run by battery for many years.
His eyesight is partially gone.
But he still stand strong.
He still encourage all of us when my third uncle is in ICU last year.
He never fails to hold our hands to tell us that everything will be alright my third uncle was found having virus infection.

He still put on the smile to take that picture when I request to have one picture of him.
I regretted not to have one picture taken with him.
Seeing him enduring the pain to sit up and smile, my heart sank.

I am lost.
I am holding on to the courage.
I am hanging on to Your strength.

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我不是你想像的那麽勇敢

有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH...
你不要追问我还缺了些什麽

Chorus #
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最後一站 OH...
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案

Chorus *
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

Back to chorus #, *

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢...

I am not your imagination so brave

Sometimes too strong dissatisfaction smile has filled eyes
The more you want to hide on the singing voice more loudly
Until deep into the bottom of my heart the most OH ...
Do not ask what I am lacking

Chorus #
Everyone has a dream of happiness in the most remote terminal
The hearts of the more eager to embrace the more afraid to reach out
Whose heart is my last stop OH ...
I ask myself strong there is no answer

Chorus *
I am not you think so brave
Want you to be able to protect more than a shed tears
Let me put down like a child, like the armed
Pure hearts to love on you

Back to chorus #, *

I do not imagine that you always play a strong
More want you to know that I would also like to months with
To lay down their arm like a child, like hate
Pure hearts to love on you
I am not your imagination so brave ...

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Dear God,

Thank you for allowing me to have such a great uncles and aunts around me. Thank you for sending great blessing to me through them. I know that we have went through thick and thin as a family together. God, I pray for miracles to be upon my two uncles. One is in the last stage of cancer and left not much days, one is in the wheelchair fighting the battle to get miracle healing.

God, thank you for seeing them to through all these while. God, I pray that you will watch over them in heaven, angels will be with them at all times.

And I pray.

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Monday, April 06, 2009

Just came back from VivoCity~
Went for the meet up with UFGs...
It was so so fun...
Especially those in JW and also Wei Cheng...

After most of us are there at Habourfront MRT...
We stroll to Super Dogs Cafe at VivoCity...

Cass: Hey guys, you all go to check out at the menu what you wanna eat and tell me, I can get 10% discount for the orders...

Longdi: (Walks towared the counter and placed his order)

JoRin: Longdi, why are you ordering?? Cass got discount lehz!!!

Longdi: Nevermind la, I am hungry le...

JoRin: Orh ok lor..

Everyone: (Walk back to the table with Longdi carry a tray with his drink)

Cass: LONGDI!!! I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU I GOT 10% DISCOUNT?? WHY YOU BUY FIRST??

Longdi: HUH??? You got say mehz?? I never heard that...

Cass: I SAY 3 TIMES ALREADY LOR!!!

Longdi: Okok, nevermind la, I buy liao...

Everyone: HORHOR!!! Nevermind la, Longdi is rich...

Everyone start to place our order and start to eat...
Camwhore start again...
After dinner, we head to Giant to buy cards...
Then head to rooftop to have our usual games...
Many forefeit was done..
Laugh till mad...
I didnt kena it...
So PTL~

I shall post more about it later...
Too tired le...
Wanna fellowship with my bed now...

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Sunday, April 05, 2009

Am I Ready???

Jer 33:3
‘Call to Me and I will answer you,
and I will tell you great and mighty things,
which you do not know.’

God remember everyone of us.
He remember the plan He had even before we are in this world.
Many a times, when we face trials and tribulations, we wonder around.
We starts to have many negatives thoughts.

A week of prayer meeting was great.

Day1 : Soaked into His presence. Asking God where am I? What had you called me to do. Prayed for everyone in the cg, UM, and the new friends. Is a great step to take to wake up so early and head down to JW. I was full of energy to do my handover. Everything was smooth and figures are cleared. Pay got delayed but is ok~

Matt 16:19
"And I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven, and whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth, you will loosed in heaven."

Day2 : Went for the evening prayer meeting at Riverwalk. Helpout to direct the flow and bangz. I cried out in my heart why I have to go through all this shit in my life especially I am doing what I am called to do. No reply at all. I walked into the BS room for my BS lesson 6. Then I got the answers through it all.

He is before all things.
In all things He may have the preeminence.
He need to be glorify as well.
I have being raise through FAITH by water baptism.
Grace & power of God come through our life.

Rom 6:1
"....... Shall we continue to sin that grace may abound?"

Answer to it is:

Rom 6:2
"Certainly not!........."

REBELLION!! REBELLION!! REBELLION!! That the key to all my sins.

I lifted up all my sins to Him and seek for forgiveness.

Day3: Things doesn't go smooth in life. Conflicts after conflicts. When can it end? I am tired of it and I want to move on.

Col 2:1-3
"For I want you to know what a great conflict I have for you and those in Laodicea, and for as many as have not seen my face in flesh, that their hearts may be encouraged, being knit together in love, and attaining to all riches of the full assurance of understanding, to the knowleadge of mystery of God, both of the Father and of Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge."

I just lift up my hands to you, whatever you had called me to be, I will be. Whatever you called me to do, I will do. I trust you with all I have.

It is so hard to go through all these gossips and eye starring around. But I know and know the truth shall set you free.

Day4: The power of reaching out. Like what Jimmy shared, we can reach out to anyone, the cab drivers, the food seller at the hawker center if you really dont have friends to reach out to. I am praying and praying for protection and heart opening for the 3 friends that I had asked and said that they will come. We are to be so sensitive to meet the needs of them.

After a great 1hr, headed down to JQ's place for cgm. Another 2hrs of prayer meeting. Not bad! Prayers changes things around us. Dwell in the house of God.

After such a week of prayer meeting, I asked myself. Am I really ready??? Sort of the misunderstanding, the conflicts, the miscommunications. But whats next? Move on iss a must. Are we able to be friends like before? To continue to serve Him with our hearts? Am I Ready to breaks the walls that was build in between us? Are we able to build the bridge back again to link us up?

I have no answer to it yet. I know both of us are hurt by it.

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Saturday, April 04, 2009

There was once a professor who wanted to go down a river, so he approached a lock boatman who agreed to row him downstream for a small sum of money.

As they wound their way down the river, the professor decides to show off his intelligence and high education so he started to test the simple boatman.

Taking up a stone he had picked up from the riverbank, the professor arrogantly ask the boatman, 'Have u ever studied Geology?' The boatman looks at him blankly and replies, 'Eh....no', hardly even understanding what the word meant.

'Then im afraid 25% of your life is gone!' the professor loftily says. The boatman feels really bad about his ignorance but continues to row on.

As they move further downstream, the river currents begin to get stronger and stronger. The professor picks up a left floating on the river and asks condescendingly, 'Boatman, have u every sutdied Botany?' Confused the poor boatman again say, 'NO'.

The professor shakes his head and says, 'Tsk tsk, then 50% of your life is gone.' He then signals him to carry on rowing. As they move further downstream, the currents get even stronger, the water is moving faster and the boat begins to sway violently.

Suddenly the professor see a mountain range, points to it and asks, 'do u know anything about Geography?' Feeling very inferior and humiliated, the boatman again says 'NO.'

The professor snaps back. 'I thought so. Then 75% of your life is gone!'

At this point, the river has become a raging torrent. The water is moving so swiftly that the boatman loses control of the small boat. Suddenly, the fragile craft smashes against a huge boulder, springs a leak and being to sink.

This time the boatman turn to the professor and asks , 'Professor! Do u know how to swim?' The professor fearfully replies, 'NO!'.

'Then, I am afraid 100% of your life is gone!' says the boatman as he leaps off the boat and powers his way to safety on the shore.

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Friday, April 03, 2009

We are aware that life are full of conflict, struggle, warfare, contention and strife. We have to accepted them as normal occurrences of life.

God is a Man of War.
He always reveals Himself as a Military Commander.

God appeared to man in 3 forms in the Old Testament:
1) He appeared as a human being
2) He appeared as a angelic being
3) He appeared as a non-human being

AND

The root cause of all conflict and war are REBELLION!!!

Sometime, we didnt even know that we are rebellion towards some areas in our life. We know that we need to change to be someone better but many times we just refuse or simply ignore or we chose to wait for the other party to change then we change. We had learnt that we need to deal with the trunk and its roots if not we have really never change much. So why not take the first step to change the trunk and its roots?

Being rebellion is equal to setting the will in opposition of God, and definately pride does take the strength of sin. In real essence of pride is the seeking of independence from God. Many of us may not be overtlly arrogant but they are nonetheless full of pride.

Qns: Do you have pride?
Ans: Everyone has pride.

Matt 23:12
"Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted."

The lower down we go, the higher up God will lift us up. The lesser we have in ourself, the more we will receive from God. It is when we are weak in our flesh that we become strong in the spirit.

The moment I heard these, I begin to search myself. Search for the new-self in me that God have for me. Being able to humble myself down and submit to my leader, is not easy for me in the past. Now that I find is so easy, is always just a phone call and sms away to update my leader how am I doing.

"As a young man, I used to think that God's best gift is placed on the highest shelf and what I need to do is to reach up! But not so now. God's best gift is on the lowest shelf. To get it, I have to stoop down." - D.L. Moody

Sometimes, we find it hard to humble ourself, espcially to either someone older in age or younger in age, higher post or lower post then you, or someone that have the ability to do more things then you.

If we can carry the same attitude of humility as Jesus, there will be 3 results when we humble ourselves:

1) There will be obedience.
2) God starts working in us.
3) We will start to shine like the stars in the universe.

I didnt know that the promotion of membership will come so fast. Till I saw the sms from my leader. When times we dont get things done, we always say that we are busy, busy and busy. Being busy is just an excuse. Everyone are busy, if we do not want to make an effort to arrange or have proper time management, we are forever giving the excuse of being busy. If I dont chose to disicipline myself to wake up early or make an effort to go for prayer meeting, I will not be able to step out in faith.

Be thoughtful and think in other people position. Wow, when a dear friend of mine spoke this word to me, I stepped back and think for a moment. "Do we really think in the position of others at times?", "Do we ever stand in the gap for someone in need?"

Rising up in usher ministry is no longer that passionate in me anymore. Then where is my calling?? Everyone is asking me. My answer to it had shock everyone, usher ministry.

God touch me and ask me to run the race, He hold my right hand and is running beside me. Showing me that thats the path that He had always shown me. If He want to rise me up, He will rise me up. The day will come to past.

Heb 11:1-2
"Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the ecidence of things not seen. For by it the elders obtianed a good testimony."

Have faith and start humble ourself now!

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You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You

And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

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