Today was my 1st day at FJ... I am reporting to Assistant Sales Manager... He is my boss de Sister's de son... His age is 28... Yesterday was his 28th Birthday... Haha...
The sales team is not around today... So I did some read up today instead...
Tomorrow is F1 trial run... Saturday will be the Qualifying rounds... Sunday will be the Final...
Wow...
I will be there for Saturday and Sunday... See you guys there if you are going...
I still have tickets... PM me if you wanna go...
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Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Today, I make a vow... My first vow to God...
".... I swear in the presence of God that I am telling the truth, all the truth, nothing but the truth. So please help me God...."
After I made this vow, I feel peace... Received a call... Spoke to the person... (I shall keep it to myseld and God... PM me if you wanna know...) Had make an arrangement to meet him at River Vally... But yet to confirm... He will call me again to confirm tomorrow...
*** God I pray that you will cover me with your strength to walk this path... Its not my will but your will be done Lord....
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I wanna shout it out loud~ I have pre-ordered Jay New album... Credits to Danny... He gave me the $30 to pre-order the limited edition that comes in Metal Casing... That's my first birthday gift for this year...
The above is the voucher that I have to kept it safty to collect it on 9 Oct 2008...
Box Design One
Box Design 2
Design One of the Magic Cube
Design Two of the Magic Cube
The Design I like the best
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Tuesday, September 23, 2008
I promise Danny that I will post this up today... Here I am posting it here...
That fellow beside me is Danny... Photo taken 2 years ago at Hwa Ling and Janice Wedding... The friendship was a complicated link... I know Shi (Hwa Ling's Sister) thru CeMTA Dance Club back in Clementi JC... That we lost contact till 2005... Finally meet up again in Dec Xmas in 2005... That when we continue to keep in contact till now... Thru Shi, I got to know her elder sister and brother... (Li Shih and Hwa Ling) I got to know her family as well... Thru her I got to help up Hwa Ling and Janice Wedding in June 2006... That's where I got to know Danny...
*p.s: Danny attached liao hor... We all knew it and their relationship is still on fire...
Today I catch up with him before I start my new job... We meet up at Marine Parade and we had our dinner at Mos Burger... (As requested by me... :P) We went to KOI to buy bubble tea for my sister... (End up four of us shared the big cup, it was fun...) We then headed to Sembawang Music Store... Danny wanted to pre-order the Jay Album for my birthday gift... But the pre-order only start tomorrow... Guess what??? He handed over $30 for me to pre-order it myself tomorrow... I was smiling like WOW...
I just feel so blessed... All my Jay's ablum are gift from others...
Lastly, went to take a look at Danny's new "toycar"... I was amaze by it... He suppose to send me to Eunos to take 966... But in the end, I requested him to send me home as I wanna take a longer ride on his car... Is my dream car too... I will post it pic up after editing... (I promise him that I will remove his car plate number before posting...) Gonna update Shi as well... (Danny commented that he always have problem to meet Shi, but ended up able to meet me instead even we didn't plan or discuss...)
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Monday, September 22, 2008
I had fall sick... Having bad cough, flu, sore throat and feverish... Didnt see the doctor... Enduring now... Will be taking the cough syrup later... Just now almost faint at the toilet... Low blood again...
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I want the whole set of Pooh family bears for my birthday present... So far I only manage to find it at Bangkok... I didnt buy it cos didnt have enough cash... Imagine I went oversea that time with Jas, I was shopping for 2 person stuff... Where can I have enough cash??? To think back... I should have just buy it...
Gina, Gina.... Please buy it for me if you fly there...
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Today marks the 1st month of seperation... How do I feel? I don't know... I have a mixed feelings...
You once asked am I happy to do all these?? My answer to you now is I am happy... My happy is contain with hates... That all I can say...
As I told many, this is my first time doing such a thing... If you can make me hate you by doing all these to gain back my happiness... You are really the best...
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Sunday, September 21, 2008
Rather lazy to post those video... By the way, I have changed my number... Will updates you guys via sms and email soon...
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Today basically nuai at home... Wake up rather late... Wash up, prepare breakfast and eat... Watch 王子变青蛙... Cook lunch to eat... Then slack again... Chat with Yong Kai and then went to look for him... Watch him wash his car... Then headed back home.... Reach home, slack and then wash up... Now prepare myself for tomorrow... Need to wake up early... Then head to Outram... After that need to go to Lavendar to settle my passport issue... Then will head home ba...
1）Engage Ring 2) Wedding Ring 3) Suffer Ring (Suffering)
把大家给闹翻了笑声。
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Saturday, September 20, 2008
That's Jingle Bell... She is so blessed to have Clarence and Michelle... Is her birthday on 15th September... They celebrate for her on 14th September... The cake was from Pet's Cafe...
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I didnt go to Puggol with them... Just feel uneasy and I told them why... Ended up we all didnt go... I went to City Plaza to settle my hair... Rush down to Pasir Ris for cg... I was on time... Yeah~
After cg, all of us went to Bedok 85... Guess what we all ordered??? As usual I will order Pork Minced Noodles with Soup... Additional order of Chicken Wings, Otah, Stingray, Carrot Cake... And of cos non other then my favourite Sugar Cane with Lemon...
Cabby home with Shing and Peiling... Reach home at 1245am.... Wash up and I got doze off after that... Too tried man...
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
I received a call.... A call that friends jio me to Puggol for rides.... Puggol rides you know~ That was donkey years ago I have been there for rides.... I remember I close my eyes and for a slight sec, I was at the traffic light... Should I go or not.... Is Friday and I got cg to attend man...
ARGH~ Why~
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我的鸭鸭。 我好想念它。 不知它现在还好吗？ 不知他有好好照顾鸭鸭吗？ 我好想见一见鸭鸭。
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Was tidying my photo albums and I came across this picture..... A picture that I and the rest captured when we went out... The girls was at Double Index and here Jon and Rainft was sitting down outside acting.....
All of us are laughing like mad and if I'm not wrong, some of us took out some coins and handed over to both of them.... I cant find the picture where Rainft mouth full of cakes at my chalet last year...
** Please send me if you guys happent to capture the scence...
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Felicia is getting ROM on 16 November... Married to a Korean SPR guy... He look alike as someone.... Both have a unique taste... Whenever I saw him, it reminds me of that someone...
I was watching 命中注定我爱你 with my sister.. I only watch the last 3 episodes.. I was rather touch by it.. I wonder in real world does this happen??
Especially for the last episode, when the couple got married... They are so lovely and cute and funny.... I was laughing like mad...
I am cleaning my wounds.. Its still hurts... My right arm will leave a scar.... I saw a very light scar while cleaning....
Today I was reading thru some of my friends blog and I came across a post that was posted by Ah Ma last year.. This make me recall a camp that I had attended very long time ago...
What is trust?? - Trust consist of different level - Trusting someone can be like a Trust Fall
Why I say so??
Cause in one of the activity or so call games that I had at the camp was, I was blindfold by my partner and I got to fall backwards into my partner arms. As I have myself participated in this I remember feeling completely over-confident when I first tipped from my heals and began to tumble backwards, but how quickly my confidence was shattered when my body began to shift from just being at an angle to almost parallel and I still did not feel hands bracing my back! I got that twisting knot feeling in the pit of my stomach and throat and fear griped my chest and it was at that very moment when my partner caught me inches from the ground.
This is trust... I trust my partner will grab me and hold me when I am falling...
No words can explain how I feel now... Will I still be able to see my ducky again?? Is there still "Trust" there??? No words can explain now...
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The above picture was capture at Taipei just outside 天麻. A thank you and a farewell dinner to the both 帅哥, Paul and Finny. Both of them really help me and Jas alot at Taiwan, Paul and Finny help us to carry our stuffs that we bought at supermarket and etc and even carry it to our hotel at 西门丁. So sweet of them right?
Paul is one of the cgl in 新店 church. When for the 道告会 on the last day stay, didn't manage to go for their 崇拜. Nevertheless, Jas and I plan to go back again, this time we must go for the service at 新店 and Newlife.
Taken with Paul's cg member.
The 小帅哥 that Jas and I admire of his act. He was so calm and waited for us when both of us are 30mins late in meeting him. And he carried our shopping bags for us as well. It was so heavy and he never complaint.
** Guys out there~ This is what 康熙牧师 had taught then in Manhood Ministry during the Taiwan Youth Camp.
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Many people around me had been asking me about the check up on Monday... Here it goes...
After a wait for 3hrs, finally is my turn... The doctor insert a tube into me, extract out the fluids for some test... Taken a tube of blood for another test... Taken urine test as well...
The answer to the above is in my heart.... (PM me if you want to know)
Did an ulterscan as well... The unexpected results....
Doctor arrange another appointment for me to go down again in Dec... Meanwhile is an open date, if I got any issue I can just call and walk in....
I have finally receive my "Pooky" after waiting for 1 month plus...
Pooky was delivered to me with the zip lock bag...
Pooky with the zip lock bag removed...
** I know is a wasted of money to buy Pooky... Bought it and all things had happen and have to end.... Pooky will be the new toy that I will hug from now on when I sleep...
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
I have finished packing my bag and ready to go... To go to a place out of my comfort, no longer having the privacy that I use to have and leisure... Abandon what I have right now and start all over again at the brand new place.....
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Everyone is excited about F1 so do I... Just when I got VIPs tickets to F1 and everyone is asking me about it... I have tickets to go for all the days... And who I wanna go with on which day is another factor that I am facing....
Another factor that I face was, I am starting my new job soon... And I am kinda on standby everyday to pack my bag and just fly to US or any countries.... So how to go to the F1 race??
Just let me know if you wanna go and I will keep you in the list.... PS: I also must see I wanna go with you anot... hehehe...
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Saturday, September 13, 2008
Thanks for everyone for your concern.... The statement record is over... Thanks to those that willing to stand up to be my witness these 2days... Thanks to the strangers as well for helping me to verify where am I... Without your help and verifications, I dont think I can have peace now... That jerk think that he can anyhow accuse or suspect me for everything... Just to tell you, I have prove and witness and somemore they are strangers that dont know me at all.. All those that are with me are willing to be my withness....
The 1st interview for today was really very long... Lasted from 2pm - 4pm... I almost faint in the room...
Next I rush down to another interview.... I dont really enjoy the interview session, guess what?? They are so interested in me... Almosted faint...
The above two position will get back to me on Monday on the pay that they are willing to offer me...
Nevertheless, I have decided on which job to take out of the 4jobs offer...
Went to meet the Cgs for the celebrations... We had a mini pinic.... It was fun.... Really enjoy the moments chatting and catch up with them... We had an inter-cg games... My Cg won the 1st and Bernard says that our prize are 1set of MP3 (Mahjong Paper 3pcs) each... Lame right... Now you all know how come I am so lame??? Haha~
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Friday, September 12, 2008
My schedule is gonna be super pack today....
Now to 9am : Jot down all the information for interview later 9am to 930am : Pack up, prepare to go out 930am to 1030am : Heading to Cantonment Police Station to take statement
Hopefully it can be done by 1130am.
1130am to 1230pm : Travel to Chai Chee meet Alvin and the rest for lunch 145pm : Must reach 750D for interview
Hopefully it can be done by 3pm.
3pm to 4pm : Head down to Raffles Place 430pm : Interview
Hope it can be done by 530pm.
530pm to 630pm : Head down to PS and meet the Cg for mooncake celebrations..
Tonight need to burn midnight oil.. Need to write a report and submit to Raj... When I am back tonight then I shall update what happen since yesterday...
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
One more month to my birthday...
I have said bye bye to the cake that you promised to buy for me... I have said bye bye to the flowers that you promised to buy for me... I have said bye bye to the BBQ that you promised to help me with... I have said bye bye to the special surprise that you promised to give... I have said bye bye to the presents that you promised...
My birthday this year shall be a simple one... I will meet up with the girls to celebrate.... Cg should be celebrating for me on Saturday since my birthday is on service day... My team should be celebrating for me before duty....
Hope that Serene and Ah Neo will be back that week... So that can go for steamboat buffet celebration....
Thinking about my birthday~ How should I celebrate it as it all so last min changes...
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I got the job that I went for interview yesterday... The whole sales team is in Hong Kong now... So if I accept the job I can start work on 25th Sept.... Another job offer to me as Sales Position...
Now I am in a situation that I have to chose.... One is Sales Support Co-ordinator that allow and need me to travel 50% of my times... The other one is Sales Executives which is just based in Singapore.... One earn a fixed salary.... The other earn a basic and comms salary....
Mama Josie said to me that I must know what I want.... I am not very strong in Sales but I can work extra hard for it.... I am very strong in Sales Support but in a long term run, this is not what I want.... No doubt I can move up from Sales Support to Sales Executives in the company that I went for interview yesterday... But.... Which means, I got to give up my comfort, (my family, my friends, my loves one..... I will have even lesser time with my sisters.....) Chances will be given to me to fly to parts of US, Hong Kong, China, Dubai and etc.... Is equal to working in SIA....
Am I closer to my dreams to fly around??
I really need to think hard about it and seek advise.....
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Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I wanted to post this since Sunday, but didnt till now.. I was thinking how am I gonna phrase it... Was chatting with Qiang on Sunday.. Told him abt the rooms and problems I faced... He shared with me what he heard over at FCBC service when he was doing a service for Rev. Ed Silvoso..
Rev. Ed Silvoso was preaching about relationships and one thing he mention was, "Even when you know the person you chose is wrong, just treat them like the right one.. with Love.. One day, they'll become the right person"... Qiang said that maybe he can't understand like I do, but I find it quite true... Everything is in our hands and mind.. God can turn the wrong person into the right one.. Only when we choose to believe...
I was touch that Qiang shared this with me... God bring the right people to me to share and encourage me...
Saturday message that Pst Tan shared touched me as well... He shared changing the way we think... We will lose the way we are if we are having negatives thoughts all the time... Never have defeated thoughts... Get rid of critical thoughts that we have in our minds...
Pst Tan shared about one story that I had heared before.. Basically is a refresh to me to remind me of what happen and what should I do... A story of a boy who he pick up the seashells along the beach when he dad bring him for a walk... When they come to a point and they saw a starfish... The dad asked the boy to go grab it and the boy himself also wanna go grab it... They boy tried to many times by walking towards the starfish but that many times he bend down and refuse to pick up... He run to his dad and his dad asked him why, what wrong?? He ran back again and wanna pick up.. This happen for abt 4times and finally he told his dad, he cant pick up the starfish cause his hands are full of seashells...
This story reminds and tell me that many times we had many things on our hands that we need to grab and we refuse to let go... Sometimes it is worth to just drop the stuff and let it go to receive the new and more worth stuffs that are coming toward us... We have to put away all our self-doubts that we had in us...
Pst Derek was sharing on last week of July that no matter what happen, we had to press on and finish the race... Dont give up half way.... A good runner is not based on how he or she starts the race but is how he or she finished the race... We have to keep our life balance as well...
Why do people fail to finish the race??? 1) Fatigue 2) Frustration 3) Failure (We lose our heart to it) 4) Fear (We encounter opposition)
Our life is compare like a marathon... We bounce to meet obtructions half way... Is how we gonna handle the situation not just by giving up... We have to focus on the games and not the pain...
Now is the time for me to decide what should I do next... Base on what I shared above my answer are stated clearly....
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I have put away muffy, spooky, duck duck, pooh and the precious doll away... I have put away the pooh piggy bank that you have bought for me... I have put away the puma jacket that you buy for me as well... I have place the watch back to the box... I have took down the curtain that you have set up for me... I have deleted all the photos we had taken...
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I had spent around $22 on the necessary stuff for my wounds... It still hurt.... I had the wound exposed to air for half of the day... No choice... I dont have the proper dressing materials at home.... Those basic one cant help much... This wound shall be with me for a few days or even weeks...
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I just came back from one interview... Hopefully can start work on 16 Sept... My first destination of this job will be going to Paris... I will be in charge of US team and will need to fly to US most of my time... I will be given chances to fly to Hong Kong, Dubai, US and China (argh~)...
Singapore will be the HQ for this company... If I am selected for this position, I will be part of the Staff Recreation team as well... Meaning I will be planning activties for the company...
It was amazed that I can go thru 1st and 2nd interview at one short... Dont have to go back again for 2nd interview another day... The company and team will be expanding.... So is a great chance given as well...
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I was on the line with WK yesterday. Found out that he was actually somewhere near the incident on Monday and he was actually been sent to that incident place but he was stuck somewhere somehow so another petrol car came... When he reached I was already been arrested... WK, as I told you, how to call you?? Its really took me alot of courage to call you yesterday and tell you what happen... As I said, there are so many things happening, I just need your trust so that I can open up to you... If you said that I am trying to go one big round that day, seriously, I am not... The way you gave me was, you no longer have the trust in me... That why I cant continue...
Mama Jo is meeting me tonight to meet the lawyer... Told daddy about it, now daddy want me to report to him where I go and what I do... I cant let him money go to waste man.... 5K ok?? Suppose to Meet Bernard today but guess I have to postpone to tomorrow cause of the injuries on my body... Its still hurt, I cant even grab a pen to write... That why here I am typing it out...
After that either today or tomorrow I need to go to Singtel... Daddy instruct me to change my number... I have 2 choices now... Guess I will stick to my choice ba... Since I have a spare number.... These 2 days will be super busy and need to email, sms, msn and inform people on my new number...
I have received a mail today... Name was carrot inky, subject title was memories... I know is from you... I didnt open it up and view it... I still can remember that day when I got arrested, you dare not look at me... You only turn and tell me that you have asked me to moved on but I dont want so this had happen... If you still love me you will come and help me... You wore back your old ring... I know... I still remember that day my dad wanna call the police to arrest you, how much I have fight for you till the extend of being chase out by the lady... If I know that this will happen on Monday, I will not stop my dad from calling the police that day... Thanks for getting them to arrest me.. Allow me to have chance to meet so many people inside the holding area and allow me to meet my police friends there and also allow me to make so many new friends...
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
I feel so blessed to have you guys by my side this few weeks... Thanks Zhu, Mimi, Serene, Ah Neo, Nana, Jas, Yee, Ting, Paul, Kel, Vene, Pst AN, Princess D and Mama Jo to be with me.. You guys know how I feel the best... Really thanks for all the encouragements, scolding, times and effort on me...
You guys really never stop flooding my sms with the encouragements...
Lastly, thanks to my dad for willing to accept me back as who I am....
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I was arrested... Surprised?? Nope I am not surprise... I have prepare for it... If you ask me how was it feel like staying at the holdong area, I tell you it was great... I almosted fainted due to gastric, the doctor wrote a letter to get the police to give me a jacket, the doctor asked them to give me some food, water and my medication... Thank God I have my painkiller with me, else I will be admitted to SGH again... The polices are kind, we chatted... Meet some of my friends there, you guys might be thinking why my friends right?? Yes my friends, primary school, secondary school and ITE friends, they signed on with SPF... They treated me very well... The jerk might think that I will be suffering inside, you are wrong wrong wrong...
I met an SIA air stewardess, we chatted and encourage her as well... She was bailed by her friend... Before she left, I told her not to worry so much, everything will be ok...
This morning I met a girl 19 years old... She was arrested cause her bf got caught for stealing.... And ended up she is inside as well... She stayed near my place.... Exchange conversation and I promise her I will help her to pass the msg when I reached home... Help her call her friends Ah Loui and Steven... I can guess how she feel... Before I left, I told herto think twice is it worth it to help her bf to bear the price not... I told her, if she doesnt and this repeat how... If she doesnt, her bf might just left her right away... I told her to think before making the statement...
You guys might be wondering, how come I can advise others yet I ended up inside myself... Everything that you does pay a price... For all the things that I have done, I am paying my price....
My dad came and bailed me out... Shared with him the whole story from the start till end... He never blame me for what I have done... He even willing to support me... It took a big big courage to tell my dad what had happen althou some advise to tell half half.... As I said, there is nothing to hide from my dad, he is my dad, he can feel it... He shared with me since when when when, he started to feel uneasy and etc... I wasnt surprised... Cause he is my dad... He allow me to stay at hime peacefully... Can you imagine my dad passed me $50 today for me to eat... I had told him heart to heart that I have no money... I teared... The feeling is uneasy to get money from my dad....
My dad saw my injuries, he cried... Of cause he scolded me, but I never blame him for that... So long as I know what I am doing and I am willing to pay the price, he is ok...
My dad still loves me... How I know?? I read up the forums on Sunday and I saw many posted online that no matter what happen, family is still your closet kin... And thru this incident, I have seen it with my very own eyes... A wife is willing to accept a husband back after so many things had happen... A dad willing to accept her daughter back and fight for her even she is naived and disobendiant most of the time...
If you asked me how I feel after this incident... I tell you, I feel heartless... Why I say that cause, someone used to say that he will take care of me and he still loves me... If he does and still do so, he wont do that to me and allow me to hurt myself... For me personally, I feel that I am a heartless girl when come to this... What can I say?? If I had done so much things, I am willing to bear the price.... Who will??? Who will admit what they had done??? Truth hurts.... Yes it is....
Do I feel hurt now??? Yes I am... Do I hate you??? Yes I am... Why??? Cause I remember how you beg me not to blow up matters and asked my dad not to call the police when he wanted to... Now who is doing it to me??? You know yourself if you are reading this...
That what I can and will say... Where your treasure is your heart will be... I used to thought my treasure is I have found you, and gave my hearts and soul to you... Guess I am foolish a real foolish that will do this...
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Sunday, September 07, 2008
My Valentine
If there were no words No way to speak I would still hear you
If there were no tears No way to feel inside I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refuse to shine Even if romance ran out of rhyme You would still have my heart Until the end of time You're all I need My love, my Valentine
All of my life I have been waiting for All you give to me You've opened my eyes And shown me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before In my dreams I couldn't love you more I will give you my heart Until the end of time You're all I need My love, my Valentine
La da da Da da da da
And even if the sun refuse to shine Even if romance ran out of rhyme You would still have my heart Until the end of time Cuz all I need Is you, my Valentine
You're all I need My love, my Valentine
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Yesterday was late for 15mins for service... After service went to meet Shally and Bernard, have a chat with them then went to meet cell group... We went to T1 for Popeye...
Is like finally I have a proper meal after so long... You might be wondering why I say after so long... Reason being, I have been eating biscuit, plain bread and instant noodles this 2 weeks... Sometimes just drink a cup of ceral for the whole day... That my life even before I met you...
Many of them said that I've lost weight... Yes indeed I had lost, and is alot... From 68kg to my last weighting was 60kg... I just weight myself today again... I am 58kg now.... Can I lose to 50kg?? I am wondering.. I have to try the dress that I need to wear on Yuen Wedding... I cant do any alteration yet till the date draw close... I cant wear my jeans without my belt... There goes those pants that I have bought at BKK... Have to alter it so that I can wear them...
Saw Ting at Popeye... Suan her about her dress.... Saw Desmond at Popeye too... He and Zengming are still the same... Saw a couple of familiar faces that I have lost touch and communicate with them...
I missed the time the UFGs always gather togather after duty and headed to Bedok interchange, Bedok 85, Bedok Sempang, T1, T2, T3 and etc... We are splited into 2 locations... Constantly still meeting up with Yee who stay behind my blk and Jas for coffee... These 2 are my pals.... I missed Biondi, the lameness guy.... I missed the old G1S1B....
I am used to "reporting" to you where I go, who I am going out with, what I eat, what I buy and etc... Used to sms you in the morning when I got up, call you during lunch time, meet up after work... Now all these had come to past... Is only History and Memories...
I hope that ducky is doing fine....
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Saturday, September 06, 2008
Finally I have a good sleep last night... Recently, I have been having 2 - 3hrs of sleep per night only... I cant sleep well... Keep waking up to hug muffy, spooky, pooh and duck duck...
Yesterday I slept at 11pm... That was surprise to me... I woke up at 9am this morning.... I must be very tired... I do wake up in the middle of the night but after hugging muffy I went back to sleep immediatly... I was surprise~
Did I tell you the reason why I wanna start to have my blog back? I guess I didnt... This is a place where I can put out my emotions, my feelings, my joy and etc... It's for you to understand me even more... Guess I started it too late... Nevertheless, I still do hope you can drop by one in awhile to find out...
If time can turn back, I wont do all those hurting stuffs that will hurt all of us... If time can turn back, I would still want to be an angel that you used to know me... If time can turn back, I wont want to be a devil that will scare you off... If time can turn back, I wish I can still go JB as usual with you... If time can turn back, I wish I can hold your hands like never before... If time can turn back, I wish I can hug you as tight as I can... If time can turn back, I wish I can enjoy every single moments we had... If time can turn back, I wish I can work extra hard with you to work things out... If time can turn back, I wish and I really wish I can be there for you most of the time instead of you being there for me... If time can turn back, I wish I can be your princess again... If time can turn back, I wish I can never part away in your life... If time can turn back, I wish I can give you the time as I promised to you...
It was the unusual me today... Suddenly so motived and send a couple of resumes... I dont know why.... Have I gotten over it?? I guess not yet... Abit ba.... Maybe it was the hair extension that changed me? Perhaps ba... I dont have to go for additonal ear hole piercing.... No place and dont have the courage to go anymore...
I just cant stop smiling when recalling those wonderful memories... Esp on 150508... The story ended on 220808... When can I offically let it go??? I wonder~
Thanks for setting up the curtains in my room for me... Thanks for the food that you have bought to store at my house for me to eat when I am hungry... Thanks for coming all the way to bring me to go for dinner... Thanks for sending and fetching me from work those period of times when you are not working... Thanks for cancelling your appointment and be there for me when you are suppose to go for interview... Thanks for taking care of me when I am admitted to hospital in June... Thanks for cooking nice food to cheer me up... (I still miss the ketchup prawn, herbal chicken and spegatite that you have cooked) Thanks for being there for me when I insisted you to be there, where you are very tired... Thanks for the bubble tea that you have bought to help me destress at MediaRing... Thanks for the surprises that you gave... (I remember I cried once when you came to fetch me from work...) Thanks for the rose that you gave even though I dont like red rose... (I still keep it for 2 weeks) Thanks for puma jacket that you bought for me... Really touch my heart and remember we argue on the payment at cashier?? (It make me smile) Thanks for bringing me to eat so many nice food... Thanks for feeding me so many nice food... Indeed I grown fat but I never regret it... Thanks for being my Racer Prince...
I missed the moment you gave me the red rose... I missed the moment at Mt Faber... I missed the moment at Batam... I missed the moment staying overnight at your place... I missed the moment we bring Andre out... I missed the moment you came and fetch me from work when you missed me and gave me a surprise... (I dont know do you know I cried?) I missed the moment you hug me very tight... I missed the moment you cook for me to eat... I missed the time when I was in hospital and you came to take care of me... I missed the time when we go JB... I missed alot of things we did together... I missed the moment we had at MediaRing... I missed the movie session we had... I missed the time we used to meet at staircase to talk... I missed the moment when you race with other cars... I missed the moment we had exploring Upper Thomson road... I missed the days we went Ikea to window shop and eating hotdog bun, ice cream and chicken wings... I missed the days being your Princess...
090508 was the day you gave me the red rose at East Coast Park... I still remember that day was Eugene Wedding eve, you came all the way from Furama Hotel to fetch me home...
100508 was the day you drove me to JB with the Wedding car... We had our 1st arguement... You are upset, you apologised, I just refused to talk... I chose to forgive you even the next hours...
140508 was the day I gave you my 1st hug, the hug that I gave you willingly with a bite that make you smiles...
150508 was the day that marks the beginning... I will never forget the moments at Istana Park, Fish & Co and PS...
I know I wont be able to have it back anymore...
Do I feel hurts? Yes I do... Am I willing to let you go? Yes I do... Can I forgive you? Yes I do... Will I miss you? Yes I do... Will I give you my time again? Yes I do... Will I pester you again? No I wont...
A video that I will always view when I am sad during the period of time we had...
The decision indeed is hard... I have promise you I will take care of myself... I promise you I will let you have a cool down period of 3mths... I promise you I will help you take care of muffy, spooky, pooh, duck duck and the precious doll... If you miss them you still can come and visit them... Please help me take good care of ducky... I really miss ducky alot...
The precious doll says that you will come and visit muffy, spooky, pooh and duck duck.. She say that she dont want to see you, she dont want to see you cry... Muffy, spooky, duck duck and pooh will be at the window daily to wait for you. If you miss them you can come over and see them... Dont have to come up to visit them... They will be by the window daily awaits for you.. Take care and I will miss you..
*ps: I will still give you my time... If you need me I will be there avail myself and my ears are open for you...
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Friday, September 05, 2008
I am back after 2 weeks of MIA.
Alot of things happened. Lost a friendship, lost trust from the people around me.. Who can I open this problem to? Shared with Eugene, guess he knows the best... I know I am naived sometimes but it cant help... I need times to change...
I miss ducky, hope you are taking good care of him...
I was admitted to SGH last week for 5days... I was overdoze with painkillers.. I thought you will sms me to ask how am I, but instead you just ask for your hotmail password... What can I say?? Of cos ignore your request... It feel hurts...
You changed your number, thinking that I will not be able to find you... I just hold back... I wont do anything for the moment... As what Mama Jo told me, I am someone with a good heart, so let go... Dont let my emotion drag me off...
I can say, I still miss him... I was talking to Jas and pointed out a bag to her... Then she reminded me of this... "Why do you tell me that?? I suppose you shouldn't be thinking of getting it for him.." I draw back.. Wondering why am I still thinking about that jerk..
I am trying hard to forget him... Nana always remind me to be strong... I shall be one....
Went singing with Nana, Jas and Jos.... Sing from 7pm to 12pm... I got suan by Nana and Jos... I sang 3 hokkien songs... They are like.... "Jolin you so hokkien...." Hey, I am hokkien type one ok... Jas also lor... You are never find out nia... That why I ask her to sing with me...
Yes, I have done the hair extension... Look abit weird cos so long never see myself in such a long hair... Yuen will be happy cos she wanted me to have that for her wedding... I shall post the pic up soon ya~
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.:: Little Note ::.
Its all about my life and emotions throughout my daily walk...
All the ups & downs...
If you want to comment anything by all means...
After all, I'm still a human...
No one is perfect...
.:: profile ::.
JoRin Tan
Slacking
Diploma in Business Admin
Loves Winnie the Pooh / Ducky / Spooky / Muffy
.:: About Me ::.
I AM:
- A someone who can be very silents at all times.
- A someone who dont like to anyhow share my things to others, only those who know me well.
- A someone who loves to help one another even though I don't have the abilities to do so.
- A someone who is no longer like who you used to know before.
I WILL:
- Try my best.
- Laugh until I cry.
- Be the best that I can be.
- Never give up.
- always late if I lost interest in you
.:: My Wishes ::.
Mission Trip to Taiwan Emerge
Mission Trip to KL Emerge
Mission Trip to Surabaya
iTouch or new iPod New handphone A Bigger Room
A Guitar
A Tenor Saxophone
Flute More Make up colours
Hong Kong trip on my Birthday You will be there
.:: To Do List ::.
Meals with:
Wenting
Jasmine Loo
Sing Yee
Ping Qi
Nana
Mei Jing
Things to Buy:
Contact Lenses
New Spec
New Bed with Frame Book Shelves
New Notice Board
