Monday, August 25, 2008
So many things had happen...
My hearts still long for you...
The special feelings is still there...
Cant see your smile, how can I sleep well at night???
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1XpnUTtxTLc
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Friday, August 22, 2008
What a day today~
I guess I lack of sensitiveness in me... Someone trying to terminate my mobile number using the IVR system for four times.. And guess what the fifth time bu calling the operator to terminate it... I know who did it...
HEY U OUT THERE, U JUST WAIT~ I GUESS U NEED TO BE SEND TO IMH REAL SOON!!!!
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
I can say that today I am rather emo.. Reason are stated below..
1) Just before going to work today, was talking to someone dearest to me.. Have some heart to heart talk... Guess I really dont wanna let go of it... Sometimes I seriously feel that why I wanna chose this path... Its all becos I trust you... I trust those promise that you have made... Wondering how much have I changes this 3mths, I really felt that I have changed alot... From an Angel that you used to know me to a Devil now... How can I express how I feel to you? You have your point of view and I have mine... All I need is to have a heart to heart talk with you only... But I find that everytime, either one of us will get very emo...
2) I got a sales of 6.8k came in. Finally hit my quota. Guess what? I am ask to leave cos I didnt hit my quota. Have a good talk with DS, really shared with him how I feel this 1.5mths at JC. But afterall, I feel... Leaving is still the best choice..
3) Reached home, Jason from Venture Era told me that they have decided to take up the db mining packages. Guess what??? 8k sales ok?? No kidding.... But DS say cannot approve.. Shared with DS when having the talk to him how much effort I had put in to prospect... Harvest doesnt rip so fast to me, perhaps I am used to the IT Sales style ba~
4) Called WK and had some funny chat with him, dont know how to share with him as what I planned... Ended up I sms him instead... I already knew what he will reply, and kinda expected it... I know it hurts, as I said what can I do?? Based on my position at that period of time I cant do anything... Vene knows abt it... I chose not to hurt the other party, and not trying to be selfish.... I have to make a choice... And seriously, the choice I made really hurts deeply... WK, you know what I mean? I really dont mean it..
5) Someone dearest to me called me and tell me that he is down with fever... Guess I have spread the virus to him... I knida worried... Tried to call him back a few times but no respond... Smsed him and no reply too... Endure~ Its painful to endure~
Just merely today only so many things had happen... ARGH~~
DEVIL CAN YOU JUST LEAVE ME??? I PROCLAIM IT RIGHT NOW~~
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I was on MC today... Was having fever and flu.... Went to the doctor... Guess what??? No money to pay off the bill.... Thank God that you are there..... Or else I wont know how can I get the MC to submit to my mentor tml....
Was reading thru WK's blog.... He blogged abt his mum.... I remembered that 5yrs ago when his mum left the world, it was totally darkness for him..... The gang went down to the wake everyday to encourage him, to be with him.... I still remember the day when my mum left me.... I was like him crying and tearing.... It was barely 19years ago when she left me.... The moment is still in my mind.... How can I forget so easily... No one know the feeling....
I remembered Jas was sharing with me on our BKK+TW trips on the period where her dad was in and out of SGH.... I remembered I almost teared... Cos the memories of my uncle in ICU is still in my mind... Remember the period of time where the whole families members are there with him to fight the battle... I still remember that day I cried very badly, cant get to sleep, praying badly that he will make it thru the operations... I can see the blood stain on his nose, ears and head... Remembering how my aunt cried badly during the period... All of us cried in fact....
He is someone dear to me... He took care of me for barely 2 - 3 years when my mum is not with me together with my aunt.... Time flies very fast.... Its been 8mths after the incident.... How I wish he is able to stand up and scold me and joke with me.... All our lives started to changed when my uncle admitted and now lying on bed... I used to go to him and tell him alot of things that happen and he will teach me what to do or how to handle it situations but now that he hardly can talk, I only left with my small uncle....
I realize that we got to treasure the things around us... Never wait till we lose it then regret.... I have regretted twice this year... 1st is my uncle incident, 2nd is also someone very dear to me.... I lost him twice, and now still struggling to hold on to it.... I keep asking myself should I let go or should I not let go.... Who will understand how I feel and how much pain it had impacted me??? It links to alot of things....
If those who are close to me will know what happen to me last year during same period of time.... Its not easy..... Esp my birthday draws closer..... Its always like a birthday gift to me........ Every year the same....... How can I get up of this???????
I proclaim right now....... You idiotic DEVIL, leave me right now....... I HATE U~ I want peace to be with me.....
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Saturday, August 16, 2008
Here are the updates on what happen in 2008 as I havent been blogging...
Jan 08
- Got my confirmation at Cxrus. Went for medical check up and counting down for Feb operation.
- 3rd Uncle admitted to SGH. Got hit by something from high level while working. Doctor said that he cant make it but Thank God he make it.
- I missed Jay Chou concert.
Feb 08
- Watched 8 movies in month of Feb.
- Went for my operation on 5th day of CNY.
March 08
- Back to work after my MCs.
- Went for interview at MediaRing.
April 08
- Left Cxrus on April Fool Day.
- Joined MediaRing.
- Meet Alvin, Diana and Allan at MediaRing.
May 08
- My gastric start to come back after irregular meals.
- 150508 is a special number to me.
- Went to Batam to nuai over one of the weekend.
June 08
- Admitted to SGH due to gastric pain. Was there for 4days.
- Submitted my resignation letter at MediaRing.
July 08
- Joined JobsCentral as Sales COnsultant.
- Went for my Taiwan n BKK trips.
- Admitted to SGH again.
Aug 08
- JobsCentral fair at Suntec Hall 404 from 16 - 17th Aug.
So far these are what happen to me...
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Its been 3months le...... Been thru a lot of ups and downs..... Things that I thought it wont happen to me happened.... I cant stop it....
The 1st month, I thought I was in heaven, everything was so perfect...Nevertheless, things started to change from heaven to hell on the 2nd month, a lot of dark clouds started to form and is never ending.... I gave up many times, but after giving up, I thought back and decided not to... Things are never be the same again like the 1st month....
What I long for to be back to me will never be back.....
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Thursday, August 07, 2008
Hi guys, I am back to blog with so many of you pestering me... Haha... Just came back from Taiwan and Bangkok trips with Jasmine Loo. It was rather adventure for us. We went thru alot... I shall blog it next time ya...
Paul (Black Pig), for your sake, I come back to blog. Cos you say this is the only way we can communicate. Jasmine will post the photos to you soon.
Working at JobsCentral now. Doing sales, trying my best to hit my targets to get confirmations. I need sales to come in man...
Vene bday is this Saturday. The group are going to celebrate for her on Friday. Update you guys soon...
Last week FOP was great..... Love it....
Many things had happen..... Words cannot descript what had happen... I miss my racer prince... I am sorry if I have hurt you in anyways... I really dont mean it...
I shall end here... Got to rest to fight the battle later on...
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