i hope i survive this month:

Dec
9-12 Colmar, Bukit Tinggi - with parents
13-17 KK, Sabah - diving
18 Xmas practice
19 Xmas event
20-22 Youth camp


Disappearing act begins.

i did not imagine my dec to be like this, but im glad i didnt blow the 1st 9 days i was back, regardless of how full on it was.
i wish i had met up with more people more times :\

time directs?

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.



quite an old song...

coming home 28th Nov! SEE Y'ALL SOON

ps- n im sad i didnt get my JMayer tickets.. sold out within 4 minutes.. if only i knew earlier.. sigh..

Its easy to love people you like... but loving people who you dislike isnt.

it really stirs me up to hear about people who bad mouthing/conjuring lies about me behind my back.

But in light of the forgiveness i have received, i can only respond by forgiving. not easy- but its a struggle thats worth it. as much as i don't want too.





1 more darn course and im home free. cant wait.

Facebook status update which i thought was a keeper

Ivan Chow a false life denies Jesus as much as false doctrine (Titus 1:16)

heartbreak hill

"Heartbreak" manifested as a queasy stomach upset.

and a potent anorexiegnic agent. (not really potent..i was feeling stomach weirdness b4.. and i ate after..haha :p)



For a brief moment i felt a little pinch very similar to the heartaches ive long since forgotten. The zoning out, the lack of thought-control and the loss of ability to concentrate. I tried to brush it off- "this is silly" says me. "i should be happy and excited!"
it was a mixed feeling.. and thoughts kept creeping in.. the "what if's" and the "regrets".. the moody feeling sets in... didnt feel like doing much :|

pseudo-"heartbreak"... something very alike the real one, but less severe.. "how did it get to that?" i wondered.
"what now? oh no.."

And i thought immediately that all i needed was sleep to recover.. its just 1 of those rougher days. Sleep cures all.

But thank God for a person, my sister in Christ, to whom i asked to comment on this internal conflict i had in me. I also asked her about something that was rather personal to her i guess.. and it really amazed me- the answer she gave.. the things the shared.
Such maturity from a new christian, really puts me to shame! after such a long time of me being Christian, how much of my thoughts are Christ'- and others'-centered?

Such profound principles, condensed in 10 minutes- only possible with like-mindedness and prior knowledge- everything i learnt about relationships (in camp especially) seemed to be jolted back to my head. I needed that.

The decisions that she made- i respect her for that. I have never seen such maturity from young Christians in my life, how God has changed the way she thinks, the way she interacts with people, the way she acts- her whole life turned around- to now seek to honor Him.
We may think we're living pretty good lives, but God who is the author of life knows the best way for us to live. What she told me, even I as a christian for such a long time, only learnt recently...

Thinking of relationships when all i think of is myself and what i like/want... reverting to the selfish thoughts. Can i really love someone as Christ love the church? When is the right time? When will I be ready?

The spirit convicts me- in a 10 minute conversation. The brief moment, i learn to see how much i lack. How i feel...the desire i sometimes long for companionship... pales in comparison to how much thought is put into consideration in christian relationships. and above all, how my life, my decisions and actions pleases God.

when thinking of relationships, to think of the other person, to truly put them above urself as the priority, to value their christian growth, to think of the best way they can grow and not be a hindrance- isnt natural.
This is not something a normal person would think, for a normal person thinks (a dulled-down version) "She seems nice, i like her- maybe i should ask her out". This is normal.

to put others above yourself..Not just anybody in particular, but particularly, everybody! This isnt normal.

to ask "Is this pleasing to you God? " for the way you live and saying "if not, i shoudnt do it", isnt something natural. I know in my heart what i think, i know what motives i have and what reasons i give myself for the decisions i make, be it studying, scoring well, talking to people, having meals, anything.
and even if i may not know exactly what motives i have for everything, i know that honoring God isnt my first pathway of thought.

the stomach-upset heartbreak... has reminded me of how shallow, immature and sinful i am..
sure the "what ifs" linger, but i am not worried at all.. (bit envious maybe :p)

We celebrated with food soon after. Its all good nigga! I thank God, for encouraging brothers and sisters in Christ. :)

what a great way to celebrate post exams! with another lesson.


Cor 6:19b-20: "You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore, honor God..."


now i wonder who else besides u regular readers read my blog. no one else i hope. and if u are reading, remember, dont link me on ur blogpage, and keep it a secret from every soul u know. coz the less people who reads my blog, the more i can actually blog about. unless my name is K C KOK. haha! jk case.


ps- the background to this story is quite retarded- may tell u when i see yall in awhile!

back to back

"Residents, on the other hand, had filed a police report to say that the parade of the cow’s head was meant to be a symbol of the “stupidity of the government”, and was not meant as a religious insult to the Hindus.

The fear of stoking religious sentiments led to the Malaysian Communication and Multimedia Commission (MCMC) directing news portal, Malaysiakini, to remove footage and videos on the cow’s head protest from its website immediately following numerous public complaints.

Last week, Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak said that he left it to the AG to determine if there were any violations of law when the residents staged the protest."

3 stupids back to back

1. So their saying that a cow's head symbolizes the government? or stupidity? surely, thats why the COW's head was chosen.

2. Because the public HATES evidence of offense. the public HATES justice.

3. What a p4nsy. As if something so simple cant be determined if it was against the law. Please, even if u dont wanna touch sensitive issues, gathering illegally is considered breaking the law. So is protesting and threatening and challenging and disrupting meetings etc. what a p4n5y

taken from thestar:

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/9/7/nation/20090907191126&sec=nation

when a kungfu character finally "unlocks his full power" but still suck, thats how i feel.

my thumb is crap. :(

lately ive been seeing allot of catchy "witty" 1 liners on msn personal msg and facebook like. coincidence seems to be the root behind this flurry of "wise" sayings.

"there is always a gain in every sacrifice made"

"God is too wise to be mistaken, God is too good to be unkind"



i wonder if people really believe what they put up... not being cynical, and i am not, but do consider if these theories even hold.

always a gain... (? hah.)
to what extent is this gain compared to the sacrifice? is this not the half full-half empty cup stretched further even? the cup is both half full and half empty- inability to see it both, or maybe the refusal to see both views, results in a then distorted view of the entire situation.. right?
both views, after all, are true- are they not?
can u imagine a person who has a perpetual half-full mentality- from birth?
and i dont prefer a persistant pessimist either.


"there is always a gain in every sacrifice made". i really scoffed when i saw this. i was annoyed even.
if hypothetically, i had a sister.. and we were walking by the roadside. and a car stops nearby and some guys drags her into the car. Without thinking thoroughly,only with flashing thoughts of pkidnap and rape, purely reflex action, I jump into the car to try to stop them. One of them pushes me out of the car and i get hit by oncoming traffic and die. and she?

i remind you, hypothetical:
I sacrificed. where is the gain?

Now another scenario:
A suicide bomber sacrifices himself for the cause, there is gain for his side. Victorious and glorious gain. His side celebrates.

gain isnt always good.

are these examples too extreme?

A guy dumps a girl who he's been dating for 6 years. Sacrifices were definately made in the duration of the relationship, on both sides, commonly, one more than the other. The girls now 31.
Where then is the gain?
"they both learnt something"
yeah..learnt the existance of selfishness and an emotion called sorrow.
and of courses other things too.
Gain: "Growing through the pain" they say- but do the gains justify the sacrifices?

Still too extreme?


I throw a superball (those small bouncy balls) from the 10th floor as an experiment. I am willing to sacrifice it to test the bouncability (:p) of the ball. It hits a darn small rock which changes its trajectory and it flies to some strange unknown location.
Gain : Dont do stupid experiments, dont waste kickass toys like superballs. but no experimental results.
loss : funz toiyz


"God is too wise to be mistaken, God is too good to be unkind"

too good to be unkind? is that possible?
wonder what do u guys think...




i think.. ive been abit disappointed lately with so many things.. including myself.




Rom 8:28
"²⁸And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

"all things..works for the good.."

If your parents hit you to discipline you, would you say "oh so thats so kind of you. hit somemore, show me your kindness"?

but u know its out of love and concern that they do that. It is for. your. good.
Because parents who dont discipline their child (however the methods) dont love their child. Indifferent parents.

Likewise, God disciplines us. But that doesnt mean you are not held responsible for the wrong doing and in angering them. U are deserving of it, or more even.



God IS good. and above that, He loves us, thats why he sent Jesus in the first place. Else, why bother?


God is omniscient. mistaken? never.
God is love. through Christ, the preserver.
underserving- the hopeless receiver,
of mercy, grace, from the woodcarver
forever.
woodcarver- lol.
skydiver
pendriveR..

its 4am. incoherrant.

guys- correct my thinking.

sorry peeps

for not posting in awhile.. and more so for not wishing u happy birthdays properly on my blog.
sigh. catch up with u guys some time soon..


21

procrastination post

this is a mandatory part of exam preparation.
unnecessary blog post with no proper content.

I have a 500ml can of "Mother"
U might ask:
"What is "Mother"?"
"Why is this boy so rude to the person who carried him in her womb for 9 months? Is it the effect of studying Australia?"
"Has he forgotten his roots? Sei Fan Kuat Chai!"


Mother, is "the mother of all energy kicks"
On the can, it notes "WARNING, Heaps of energy"

and

"A Mother of A Taurine, Caffeine & Guarana Hit"

And also:
So now when a mate turns up with a wussy-sized can, you can raise your MOTHER up and proudly say "did yours come with a man bag".

plus:
"BEST DRUNK FREEZE YOUR NUTS OFF COLD"

lastly:
"WARNING! High caffeine content... OK, we know that's why you're drinking it but our lame legal guys made us warn you not to feed this to kids, up the duff women or the weak who just can't tolerate it"


Ok, on the can.. those notes are all IN CAPS.. but i DIDNT WANT TO HURT YOUR EYES.

With all that talk about Mothers, manhood, gay man bags and "A Mother of ...hits", there should be NO DOUBT whatsoever in your mind the reason i bought this gigantic can of energy:

Yes!

Because it was the cheapest.

in terms of caffeine & taurine content as well as volume, compared to redbull and V.

way way cheaper.
like 1/2 the price.

Mothers always knows best. *hugs*


but this is an old can. Mine says HEAPS OF ENERGY in place of "Taste nothing like the old one"

do not be surprised.. if its in your own home.

inadequacy. failure.
compounded by horrific news from home.
this is messed up. I cant imagine how it feels. I am angry, yet i know that any decisions made based on such emotions might not have the best of outcome, even for him.
its rare that i feel like just shouting. Is this some kind of dream? or a movie? what the hell man.. these things only happen to other people..
the world's harsh reality slowly unravels its ugly dark side.. the more it reveals itself, the more i should hide in the light.
but not everyone has the privilege to hide in the light, especially if they dont know Him who is its source.

what can be said at this point in time? what can be done?
time. grace. forgiveness. only a miracle can solve this- the undoing of a miracle.
what is the word to describe the opposite of a miracle anyway?

the world is dark place. even in your own home.
It even more clearly shows why Jesus HAD to come and die for our sins. We humans are HOPELESS.. H O P E - F R E A K I N G - L E S S.
uncommon for people to think that... until it hits them.

How can i put this. If i did not know God, my life would be meaningless.. It couldve been "fun" if i were to indulge in worldly things.. but I know of a better life. In fact i can guarantee its a better life. If ure my bros n sis in Christ, u know this is true.
I can think of any other way to live but following Christ according to His word.


current mood: angry, worries, moodless and disappointed. yet somewhat thankful.

OAISH:FOI YP#@R(* !@(* YERQIW &RWYIUADSKJ RAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

COMMMONNNNNN U WIMP!

step 1 of self motivation : insult yourself (but dont really mean it)

step 2- coming soon

i should sit in a corner..

.... to reflect and repent.. i ate 4 meals out... IN A ROW!
friday dinner, sat lunch (woke up about 11ish), sat dinner, sunday breakfast (at 10am)...
That has never happened in my entire life.. also i went to 3 new food places... although i didnt eat icecream at "Sugarplum".. the place sounds queer right? lol.. felt abit segan coz i tried 1 flavour but didnt buy anything in the end.. other friends bought tho... taking the hit for the group..
i ended up buying a tub of icecream and going back 2 eat... its cheaper that way.. and more to eat..

Ya know, this year ive been pretty liberal wiht my spending.. too liberal infact.. Last year was living quite like a pauper.. considering i wasnt like broke or anything.. then this year started off well too! i was saving up n all... aiming to save up enough to sorta fund my car-buying..
but then it slowly went down hill starting last weekend.. and this weekend with all the food.

kept "playing" and not studying.. o mann... but it was fun la.. enjoyed it..
and i ate like the most amazing breakfast crumpets... supermega awesome!! expensive.. BUT AWESOMe nonetheless.

ok between now and the sentence above, a gap of 3 hours filled with washing of toilets, retrival of guitar and other misc stuff occured. i have no idea what i wanted to blog about. and i did better than i expected for exams! thank God =) strange isnt it... i worked much less than i did for the prev course too... but this course, must. work. harder!

peace out, A town.

the truth & hypocrites

Does anyone care about the truth? or is everyone happy as long as its widely agreed?

Anything against the widely agreed view is wrong, until proven right. Then comes a epiphany of some sort.Suddenly everything changes. what was once right, the "fact", the "truth", is now the ultimate wrong and the once wrong is now the resounding "truth",


until proven wrong.


im gonna use a old ass used-to-death illustration:
Galileo was laughed at when he said the world was a sphere, that it wasnt flat, that i was indeed circling the sun and not the middle of the solar system.
This seems funny now but back in those days, those were hold as TRUE FACTS. the truth.

Do u see any african american slaves in the US now? U say its despicable NOW. but that wasnt the case in the 17th century.

Relativity.

Now, does anyone still care about the truth?

If you believe there are no absolutes, and everything is changing, morality, life, standards, then by default, u dont care about the truth, because the truth does not matter.
Of the flipside, u dont believe or care about the truth, because deep down, u dont believe in absolutes, u dont believe in a higher creator being, God.

If u care about the truth, and u disagree with relativity, u believe that an evolving standard of morality will come back to bite us (as it already have, checkout the divorce rates). thats great.
What do u believe in? Why do u disagree with what the world is agreeing? Are u a Christian?**Or are you a hypocrite?

Im too sleepy to continue, but i promise you this- everyone is a hypocrite one way or another. Its comes from so many angles, whether ure christian or not, if you search for it, and reflect- u will find that hint of hypocrisy in your life. i was one, still am, but im working on it..


to be cont..



Nobody believes in nothing. Dont be arrogant.



** Christians are to accept and strive for nothing less than God's standards- which is absolute.
1 John 2
Do Not Love the World
¹⁵Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. ¹⁶For everything in the world—the cravings of sinful man, the lust of his eyes and the boasting of what he has and does—comes not from the Father but from the world. ¹⁷The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever.

bi polar bear polar

I need to grow up. I need to grow up fast.
I need to grow up. I need to grow up strong.
I need to grow up. I need maturity.
I need to grow in Christ.

I feel like an infant, a child at most. I ask if i could play with the up there with the big boys.
the answer was no.

I need to focus. FOCUS. how? i need discipline. initiative. FoCUs!
I need resolutions, contemplations?, determination.
reflection. but those require time! i need time! but time is limit. So i need discipline and focus.
I need priorities. no. i need to prioritize. and then discipline and focus.

I need to wrap my mind around what is worth hoping for and then act accordingly. That hope is in Christ Jesus, and the last day. For what greater hope is there than that? Medicine? Family? Happy "fulfilling" life? Surely not. But how.. grasping and action is intertwined with fear and rebellion.

And so, I need to get it together. GET IT TOGETHER MATE! Get yourself together!

Jesus Christ, I think about Your sacrifice, You became nothing, poured out to death. Many times I´ve wondered at your gift of life, and I´m in that place once again.



Exams. What eternal purpose have thee? None.
fail lor.

but fail exam-->lose scholarship-->deported back to msia-->away from faithful biblical teaching-->no degree --> sweep floor in msia--> depression--> cry

fail exam = cry.


cry---> eat laksa ---> temporary fulfillment --> poor --> cry


me a river

Church Camp

Hey guys, its easter break for a week over here in sydney. I just came back from my church camp of 4 days. It was a good camp. The topic "Sexuality". I went without much expectations, thinking id prob be hearing all the same BGR stuff ive been listening to for the past 1 year-ish. True; that many things were similar. Some jokes were identical, illustrations were repeated. but it doesnt hurt to get reminded of things. In fact, its good. Reinforcement never makes something weaker right? Ive heard that Christ died on the cross, taking my sins upon him and paying the punishment for it, that is death- therefore, reconciling me to God. And this Jesus ressurected on the 3rd Day to rule over the world and will one day return to judge. The Easter message. Not the easter bunny chocolate egg one. The real easter message. Ive heard it so so so so so so so many times. At 1st, there came a point in life that it was just a phrase to me... something to be thankful for, but did not hold so much weight nor implication. But the more knowledge i have of it, the larger its implications for my life were. So much so that now, even hearing it for the 1890239012th time, it is still able to convict me, and blow me away. Why? I dont think it is because i am naive, nor is it because i am brought up this way,(as i said in the past, it was just but a phrase to me). I believe that its because its true. and I am thankful that God-willing, I have been able to understand and accept it as the truth. for without God, i would not be able to know that it is truth. How can i be absolutely sure it is true? i cannot convince you but I wish for you to find out for yourself-if it is indeed any of ur curiosity. In a sense, u get your chance to prove me wrong, but at the risk of proving your ownself wrong.

1 Cor 1:18-25
¹⁸For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. ¹⁹For it is written:
"I will destroy the wisdom of the wise;
the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate."^c]">[c]

²⁰Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world? ²¹For since, in the wisdom of God, the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe. ²²Jews demand miraculous signs and Greeks look for wisdom, ²³but we preach Christ crucified: a stumbling block to Jews and foolishness to Gentiles, ²⁴but to those whom God has called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God and the wisdom of God. ²⁵For the foolishness of God is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of God is stronger than man's strength.

well this is hardly what i meant by challenging camp topic. It discussed what the bible had to say about dating, marraige and singlehood. why certain things work in marraige and some dont. what is recommended. what is important. Will write it later. as of now, im sick. i wanna rest

Its easter week. and so shall my blog be fitting for such a week.

Happy Easter! even if it means nothing but yummy choc eggs and bunny to you...blwekkk :p

my throat's on fire, and i have a chewed up raw garlic clove in my mouth.
this is a strange new situation for me.

life's challenges.

rant. sorry.

Assignments are done. Now left with group project and a LOT of lectures to cover. sigh.
btw my laptop is still screwed up. I cant stress it or else id overheat and switch off. Im getting pretty tired of this bull, technician didnt come, they dropped my call after waiting so long, and they even said they'd call me back if it did drop. and they didnt.
i was already indifferent.. yet they still manage to annoy me. ergh... so sleepy.


i thought of changing the background of my blog because it looked childish.
but.
its fitting- for such a blog. At least its consistent.

i just got transfered twice to 2 different departments... why cant they JUST GET ME TO THE RIGHT ONE...
guess what, THEY TRANSFERED ME AGAIN.
4th department now.
total person talked to 6.
duration spent 50 mins.
Productivity : 0

i hope if anybody googles DELL SUCKS, DELL MADE ME WAIT FOREVER, DELL is shit, dell customer care, dell customer care cares nothing for their customer, dell customer care sucks, dell technician multiple transfers, outsource call, incompetent teleoperator, dell technician wrong parts, damaged laptop, dell technician, dell customer support wrong model.

duration 57 minutes, yerp- u guessed it, another transfer.
OMG LA.

Aus->phil->phil->Aus and back to a Phil-->philipines
6
SIXX!!!
but anyway, i didnt scold him or anything. infact i was nice and said please please send the right parts.
see, blogging is therapeutic.



the day i buy another dell is the day i get shot in the toe of my left foot with a hotdog launcher.


rant

people

People are a lot more reflective than we give them credit for.
why is it natural to think we ourselves are the only people who go through tough times?
strange.
I learn to recognize- that everyone thinks.
just as much as I do.

today i saw a case of mind-induced laziness, exemplified in the being named michael.
he slept. over, n over. In the bus, at home, while reading. and now is yawning.
it could be 1 of 2 things:
1. Assignments is not due tomorrow but the day after.
2. Waking up at 7.30 to play badminton. man, havent played badminton in ages, since sekolah menengah. and.. my raqeut at home is deformed already. but i still love it.

Chak! we shud play at kriba's place again 1 day. lol.

If i were a panda, i would eat some bamboo shoots and care not of this world.

but i am not. realities of life.

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Btw i also heard about the new PM announcement. lets just say im not too comfortable with it but hey, all authority- submit right? *nods* sigh..

laptop dead = me dead. and me dead = blog dead.

frust

yes no. maybe.. i dont know. let ask Commander Spockness.

I have to do this. The ultimate form of procrastination - Blogging.
nothing waste time as effectively as upkeeping a blog. Under the pretext of updating friends, one can rid the guilt of wasting time doing something useless. And you guys should know this,that when work comes to michael-currentlythristyandAwaitingDeathifhedoesntwashthedishes-woo, michael goes to the library and procrastinates.

Ive done that today, and still.. because of the immense guilt of watching simpsons and a movie... i cant help but to wallow in my unmotivated selfpitying state- and this i do by drowning myself with more guilt-causing activities such as blogging and facebooking.
It is similar to a symptom of addiction; alcoholics drink more to drown their sorrows caused by alcohol. druggies do more drugs coz.. the white powder keeps changing colours the more they sniff it... smokers smoke more because they cant help it.
see.the power of the knowledge of a 1st year medical student is a force to be reckoned with.

Some of you have been wondering where ive been. Some..2 or 3 ppl.. Ive been having probs with my laptop for a week. I tell u these operators from ind....... indiana.. (random unrelated fact: do u know 1/2 my readers are/have roots from india? or around that vicinity..) anyway, i had crap loads of frustrating discussions with douchers... Until the last guy from philipines i got abit annoyed and sorta held him on the phone for 1 hour. If Roberta Flack can be killed softly with his words, then he was scolded softly with mine. (obviously i googled it, u think i wouldve known an artist from 1973? dude..)

I apologize at the end for taking his time and sounding frustrated and constantly reminded him that it isnt his fault.
But i also said at that i dont want apologies, i want something to be done- followed by saying "if i slap you and said sorry, i still slapped you- drawing a parallel of DELL australia using my 1x only Dell's Rapid Dispatch service,without my permission and knowledge, to send a person over...to destroy my laptop)
Other things include "i dont care if u send me the part with a helicopter, u still gave me the wrong part"... yes, prior to that they send the wrong part over, and i suddenly its my fault.

its a long tiring frustrating episode of something i dont want to go thru again. Dell Australia is a joke. The day i buy another dell laptop is if they took that damn helicopter with that wrong part... and gave it to me... man, my own helicopter. Id sell it and buy a car. Prob some sushi. ahhh..
so much happend la act. i mean vietnam and all alos didnt bother 2 blog.
Those i didnt get to meet b4 i left, and those being only the few ppl, keep on complaining and saying im annoying la.. this and that.. blah3... YET, and i repeat, YET, it wasnt i who started dating and forgetting friends. i just did the latter. mwahahahah.

On the 10-13 ill be going to Church Camp. Assignments due on the 6th, project due on the 20th and exams prob a week after. This current 2 month Society and Health block is pretty mundane- but only coz im slacking.. and next year, ive applied for something called the ILP, which means I LIKE to PARTAYYY. However, most of my singaporean friends will be doing Coursework. Being the nonconformist that i am, i had no choice. i had to do otherwise. WHen everybody said, playstation kicks ass, i said NO! when everybody said, u have to stay in PJ,dont move to shah alam, i said NO! When everybody said u shoud date a ch... nvrm. nu. lol

anyway, great stuff.30 mins down. i gotta go. that'll be my monthly post i think. Unless i have something thats worth sharing, i prob wouldnt. See how i manage to keep u up to date without exposing any holes in my emotional barrier? maybe thats why i have lower viewership than themachine and thepirate. or i just have less friends. because i dont updatethem.

i gtg, see yall.
as a end note: Sydneys been great so far. being back- but i do miss home. My parents arent in the best of health and thats kinda bummering me out sometimes. Ive been sleeping earlier cept today. and 30 ROck is very funny.

oh and found i that if the sentence in red is true,
then the power of knowledge = force. the smarter you are, the more force u have.
On one hand u have professor-X, who is smart- and can use his smartness to apply force on things and make it flop around to his favourite classical music. (i know his main power is telepathy, but i think he has telekenisis too.. i think.. the more i think,the more i doubt.)
On the other, u have Sylar, who can move stuff around and force ur epidermis,muscles fibres, and skull to part- yet quite not the smartest man.
tell me that isnt suggestive that he is as confused about his sexual orientation as he is about being the goodguy or badguy in Heroes. ok im kidding bout the gay part, the trailer shows him with a girl... strange as it is, i think in the future that kinda hair is the IN thing. And also the name SPOCK.
man thats an ugly word.

Im also kinding bout the whole indiana thing. ive never met anyone from indiana.

i learned to never try to clarify things, because it would only get worse. Best course of action, deflect tension by change of subject.
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Recalled pendrives. The flash drive cap may pose a potential choking hazard to small children (corresponding to the panda's pants). Kids who eat pants knows pain. lol. It was in Low Yatt Plaza.
This is in 1 utama. I dont know if they're just so lazy, dont have enough letters, or cacated.
Its suppose to be Love MatTers and PantHer. Love Maters- 18pl . hmm.

Vandalism poetry.
In the UNSW toilet wall, damn funny.
Here i sit, broken hearted,
tried to shit, but only farted.
And what do golfers do when they retire?
"get castrated?"
Some come here to sit N think,
Others come here to shit and stink,
But I come here to scratch my b*lls,
N read the writin on the walls.

In malaysia, ull never find toilet vandalism like this. man...

and that is my laptop screen from the eyes of predator.
it was its last breath.

that took awhile to retrieve from my phone..

hope u guys r doing well. (altho i heard it aint the case for sum)

bday gal, alive and kicking.

just got back. and looks like ill be away for 17 days. havent packed, exchange currency, or anything! currently smelling like a cigarette and feeling icky. shall bathe now. havent finished mom's appointed task... feeling really guilty.
Wanna thank dimi for the awesome bday she organized (for herself :p) =) she worries too much..even when wasted.. good food.. (tho im hungry now).. so much booze tho..o.O (u can have my bottle)... n yea.. hope u had fun.
Happy Birthday Dims! sorry couldnt stay too long.. sorrahhh :\

cyall. i hope to come back alive and kicking.

simple. simply

disappointed.. disappointing.. again.. sigh

1 night stay

Friends from singapore came over for 1 night. 1 night.. haiyo.. what can u do in 2 days? malaysia's huge! anyway, ming fei, rahul and jordan (n bro) came over... didnt get to spend much time with them also... it was so fast... i think we just eat, bought stuff n thats all.. i realised u didnt even get to meet my parents.. lol... but thanks guys for coming! it was my pleasure hosting yall. hope u all regen well.

oh...if i scared u, im sorry. i didnt mean to take 1 sec naps whilst driving home :D


Jordan,god of pool.. hahaha..


i just thought this blog needed 1 post.. since i didnt do any new years 2009 post or anything..
sigh.. signs of laziness..
well... 2008's been a.. year of ups and downs... rough 1st half.. a better 2nd... all in all, life changing..
all u encouraging med ppl/FOCUSers n others.. mmmm.. uve taught and showed me so much.. thru word and example. ah im so lucky...

anyway, a new year is ahead. i think still many changes are at hand.
i have so so much i wanna do in Malaysia, yet i dont have time.. im going off to vietnam on the 1st.. and then comingback 17th.. prior to that is CNY. and after that im nearly setting off. sigh..
howw? will miss home..
hope 2 meet up with ppl b4 i wont see yall for 1 year again.

happy 2009.