concerning some post below

Just realised posting all these "emo" n frus stuff is damn gay. lol. the new colour is easy on the eyes too. that is all....easy on the eyes...

it sucks

when things go wrong..... n it sucks even more if its ur fault.. (be it partially or completely) basket! today was as sucky as yesterday!! my handphone's messed up... cant receive messages properly.. Combined with "superior" line in my area... msges that were sent in the morning throughout till evening all came in one shot at bout 9pm... hmm... IDP called up to apologize profusely.. i acted calm n considerate (by not scolding or blaming anyone.. to a point of saying "sometimes unforseen things happen" BUT ITS SHIT WHEN IT HAPPENS TO ME) in anycase.. she kept saying "sorry.. we're doing everything we can but the chances are very slim.. so so sorry.. i really dunno what to do" arghh.. i also dunno what to do la! in anycase i did nothing the whole evening.. just watch tv, play computer, sleep.. at night i talked to her.. she was complaining bout not having money.. n pms=bad mood.. then somehow i FELT it was as if she wanted me to say "come ill treat u after ur trials"....the me then wouldve said that- as i always do.. but i didnt.. 'o'!! heh.. coz i really AM broke.. n to make matters worse... at bout 12am i went to my brothers appartment to feed his rabbit "poppi" n a cute unnamed baby rabbit. and also feed a bird called pipi.. -_-.. n collect the dead flowerhorn to be burried... but i took my time.. played with rabbits.. while all this was happening, my car was being clamped! i parked behind my brothers car (which was in his parking lot, obviously). how the heck would i know apartments do that? i mean i thought as long as i dont block anybody wanting to come out... when i saw the clamp, 1st thought "wthell...not again".. i hate when shit like this happens..
had to explain to the guard i didnt have enough money to pay the fine,reassure him ill come back tmrw by paying him deposit RM20 which was all i had with me, and listening to him telling me he was just doing his job... at least all of the guards, 3 of them, were all friendly and not arrogant or rude. then i went to my moms kindergarten at bout 1am to feed the hungry rabbits.. i felt so damn sucky because i did nothing productive, lost RM50 bucks for being ignorant n stupid, confirm that i probably lost my place (or chance at a place) in adelaide, again, because of laziness, ignorance, basically just not caring enough. also some freaking bad luck in the email department.(common! let me blame something) and idp for not calling me? wthhhhhh... ok, put it in the past n get over it. tonight i must finish my application for UNSW and maybe start on tasmania. if i dont, damn ill prob just go study in monash. they ask me to send in my results yesterday. i said "yes".. but didnt.. lol.. they called me again today. >.<
im sick n tired of my laziness! TIME TO CHANGE!...but now is sleeping time.. go sleep 1st luu~
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depression

havent felt so depressed in a long long time.. its the type of sadness and frustration that makes me just want to bury myself n... sigh... keep wondering what if i did this or i should've done that... bloody hell! WHY DIDNT THE DAMN ADELAIDE EMAILS GET TO ME!! no calls nothing. i missed PQA test which only happens once a year.. i wanted to go adelaide so bad..had to pray to calm myself down.. O Lord please open a way.. sighh.. its a good lesson to me. time to rest... before i bash something.. what kept n still is running thru my head " WHY U SO BLOODY STUPID!!?!?" sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. 2uq8008we8qwuny5q287nu jcf908qf 24wq8r9vf 9WEUSJAKF [
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sometimes i wish i could play like..

yes... im now trying to learn 1 of his song.. the EASIER one! and my skills are no where even near his.. my theory is shit so im basically just trying to reproduce it without knowing actually the basic behind it.. its called "tin kosong".. "looking cool but empty inside(brain)"

btw, smacking my new guitar hurts.. my heart.. aches.. lol. my wrist is aching n semi-injured due to probably wrong technique? or just not use to it.. the epidermis of the fingers on my right hand is starting to harden. slowly i will be able to master one song.After 1-2 years of not playing anything new, at last i feel the excitement again. ahh.. =)

this weekend going orang asli kampung to hang wif them.... why must it be this weekend..sighh..
my bahasa sucks shit.. need to brush up soon. perlu memberus atas bahasa saya. (fail)
Going on friday n back on sunday.

Oh and also Praise the Lord for great results for Alevels~ yeahh~!! i was prepared for a B or 2 even. my parents were fine with it too. But now whats worrying me is that no uni in Aus has gotten back to me because i havent sent in my results n i lost my provisional results sheet. yes im a dumbass.. sighh..

Tomorrow, run many errands in the morning, and send my friends- the twins off by treating them to a nice dinner and play mahjong n cards till we die. i use to be so close to them... Havent talk to them in like 1 year.. sighh... sucks la..
gosh im lazy 2 blog. c u all- enjoy the video. although he's fat n all- he's skillZ :p

Temerloh and all its wonder

When i first heard of the place Temerloh, it sounded like a very kampung/forest place.. Im sure many people have that same first impression- i mean, if someone told u he came from cybertron, u'd think otherwise.. then just few days ago- i saw it. sometimes when u make assumptions based nothing but instincts, they often are wrong. but in this case.... :p placing 2nd,behind kuantan, for being the capital of Pahang, Temerloh is a very peaceful n tranquil place.. perfect for chilling out, lazing around, sleeping obscenely lots n just doing nothing but bum around. fear not! if u want excitement, drive to Temerloh at night- Karak highway will certainly keep ur focus sharp n ur adrenaline rushing. (for extra fun: drive unstable vehicles-eg. kenari,juara,lorry-attached-with-ginourmous-container or even a kembara) most parts of karak highway is not lighted to when u see the bend, make sure u slow down- else be prepared to enjoy flipping fun much like a dying fish, or just topple over to the side- like the 2-3 lorrys i saw on the travel there n back.
it was a long drive- i woke up late n packed in the morning.
Ben, ur direction taking is... ok la.. not terrible but not the best. "double left" and allot of "straight" on the map.. hahaha.. but we got really close... until we drove into the kampung area.. "is that nirmal's house?" no no.. it must be bunglow.. or something not made of wood...
found the house n was in such a relief. at last i can rest my legs n arms from the long drive.
we ate allot of food. n the food-t'was good. darn freakin good.house food. (no not the dragon tea house one.)
"ive seen this dragon tea house in the newspaper" <-- wow! "coz it was chased by ah long (loanshark) n kena spray red paint"<-- hmm... but i was so hungry it tasted pretty good. Ben please dont suck it dry next time.. lol.. if i had a camera id show u my "scratch parking ticket".. wahh so cool.. we went to the "teh store". it is teh roxx.. it has airconditioning and escalator only on 1 side.. after going all the way up have 2 use stairs to come down.. sighh.. what a scam. we also went to Bukit tinggi. i was soooo looking forward to seeing cute rabbits.

but what i saw were some super traumatized rabbits- first i thought it was the kids there which were causing it since they were kicking sand on them n chasing them around.. but we soon saw how those people there handle the rabbits.. omg- inhumane bastards! fking ass la.. sigh.. we did see a really cute puppy tho. =)
after bukit tinggi we went to bentong, where we also ate allot of food. We had some trouble deciding where to eat but in the end i think we made the right choice. food was good and darned cheap. Tom yam was 12 bucks.. DAMN ALLOT... hmm.. i ate 2 bowls of rice despite saying "i dont htink i can finish".. we also saw a karaoke- which turned out to be a brothel.. hmmmmm...
we reached back to civilization kl safely thanks to the safest driver in the world.
i had fun- tho was really tired many times n i was actually quite cranky n upset at a certain point in the whole trip due to... something. ah well, being with friends drowned my sorrows..
also, ive been trying to scrap the "hana" off of my hand..- gonna buy some thinner soon..
oh n happy birthday Nirms!
n happy birthday Liang!
n happy birthday Cassie!

may u guys grow old peacefully..