An Important Lesson

I've recently learned that there are two types of people. People who are truly intelligent. People who fake intelligence in order to feel secure and unique while their life has no control or direction. The second group being the most dangerous. Always trying so hard to prove themselves as intelligent. Trying to rationalize why they can't go to school. But if you prove them wrong, you have a battle. You've damaged a piece of their personality that helps them sleep at night. You've damaged their delusional self-image that keeps them from falling apart.

Most of the time, you know who those people are and you just tend to roll your eyes and ignore them. Perhaps even patronize their attempts at sounding intelligent But every now and then, you don't realize when you have hurt this type of person. You start to notice they treat you like crap or constantly try to outsmart you at the subject you excel in. And at first your reaction might be to tell them off; you can't. You can't blurt how stupid they really are. You can't point out their insecurities. You can't tell them that this terrible charade of pretending to be intelligent to make themselves feel better about not having any direction is ridiculous. You can't. These people don't change. They don't want to. It's one of the few things in their life that actually works.

It's truly their only escape from the life they are leading to no where.

I'm Gettin' There

I think this is the longest I've been able to work out this long, this hard in a long time. Probably since high school. I feel a lot better now that I'm getting into shape. I feel my health has improved. i feel better about myself and the way I look. I owe a great deal of thanks to my friend Brennon for doing this with me. Hopefully I can keep this up. I would like to be in the best possibly shape I can be in. I'm 21. There's no reason not to be. I've seen vast improvement already.

In short, woot for exercise.

I Suck at Updating Lately

I'm terrible at this whole updating thing. I was doing so well till the end of April! Curses! Oh, well. Life goes on I suppose. There isn't a whole lot to say really. The warmer weather makes me happy and the prospect of summer being here shortly makes me even more happy. The only thing I may be bummed about in the future is that I may not get to go camping next weekend for Memorial. Every year we do this camping trip, same place, same date. I'll be so furious if I don't get to go. It's the one thing I look forward to all year. It's the only certain thing I can look forward to. Aside from that, I find promise in this upcoming summer. The promise of renewed hope. The promise of finding out more about myself. So many promises. So much hope.

Yes indeed, the sun is shining and I'm ready to embrace it. :)

It's Finally May

I always look forward to the months of April/May during the Winter months (Mostly May). It represents the beginning of warmth. The beginning of fun. Seeing the sun for more than 2 hours. The cold starts to fade and the heat starts to advance. I love warm weather so much more than I love the cold weather.

The first day of May felt more like winter. I was disappointed. It was the month I had waited for so much. The snow and rain to drift away while May brought in the sun and flowers. Luckily, it was only for a day and I was able to enjoy the beautiful weather. If there is anything that I love about Utah, its the warm weather. The sun is out and I feel happy. That's all I care about. I don't care how hot it is.

Even though it's raining now, it's not freezing. I'm happy May is here.