I wish I could explain to my dear, dear, married friends the paralyzing fear I face when I consider rocking my fragile social boat and attempting to reach for more. I love my guy friends. Their friendship, support, and just being there means the world to me. I am not interested in dating anyone else, but I also am scared to death to lose these friendships, or even seeing them change for the worse. I dread the thought of not having the easygoing interactions we have. Not having these friendships would leave me wide open and alone again. Not acting changes nothing. I'm in a rut, paralyzed with fear and unable to move...any direction.