Pandora

What strike me the most in the film Avatar was the differentness of the 2 main characters. One is a human while the other is an alien. They live in different world, they breathe different air and they could not look more different (one with human skin, the other with bright blue skin). But through Avatar, they seem to all belong in the same world. This reminds me of the virtual world that we live in. With the internet, it seems that distance and physical attributes no longer restrict a person interacting with another. In fact, sometimes it could even hide the flaws of a person and only show what the person wants to show through words.

I was really concerned and puzzled by how there could be a happy ending in the movie between the 2 leads, a question which was made known almost near the end of the show. But then doesn't this seem all too fairy-tale-come-true? The reality is much more cruel. Different people who live in different places and different cultures and have so much differences they probably would never come together. That is if there was no love.

The Last StrawI can’t believe what you said to me
Last night when we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up
I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette stained lies
Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams
I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless
I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up? Could I give it all up for you?
And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up? Could you give it all up?
If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along
I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless
Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

Fragile
Human relationships are really fragile. One mind if confusing enough, and when two minds come together, all hell breaks loose. Love. Hate. Jealousy. All this arises when two person get together. But the fact that one person never knows how the other person really feels (sometimes they themselves don't even know how they feel) makes things complicated and makes relationships extremely fragile. Some people may feel that two person who went through alot together should have a relationship that is not as weak even if their relationship turned sour. But recently i realised that sometimes a clean break is needed to allow both parties to really move on, and allow them to continue their individual lives.

Heartbeat这辈子能有多少次心跳加速，话都快说不出来的时候？我没谈过恋爱，但我知道，一个对爱情有信仰的人，应该珍惜每一次心动的时刻，然后勇敢追寻下一次，再下一次，然后再下一次。

Cherish every time when someone touches your heart cos you'd never know when your heart will ever be touched again. How often does your heart beat so fast when you are talking to someone that you are even at the loss of words? Not often, i guess. It's hard to find this someone, and it is hard to find this feeling again. Though i'd never dated, i know this does not come often, hence you must cherish this moment and pick up your courage to find the next time your heart jumps so fast it misses a heartbeat. And then another time, and then another time.

Waiting for someoneEveryone is waiting for someone some point in life. Lucky ones find theirs early, not so lucky ones find theirs late. Some people find fillers to fill their lives before they meet their special ones, others wait alone, all by themselves, wishing the day they meet their special one would come soon. Sometimes you will feel as though you have finally met the one, only to come to realise later that he/ she was not to be, it's confusing. But what worries me the most is that if there is only one special one for me in this world, what if i've already missed the chance? yikes, i hope not. Would rather keep thinking that i am still waiting, waiting for someone.

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas



my favourite Christmas song of all time, just want to share this with you all.

Sweet Things
Everyone loves it when others do sweet things for them. When was the last time someone did something that touched your heart? Do you still remember the sweet things that your loved ones did for you? Through the sweet things that someone do to you, you'd be able to know how much you mean to them. You'd also be able to feel their love for you so much that they actually go through all these great lengths just to put a smile on your face.

For those who had been doing sweet things for their loved ones, a simple "Awwww..." from the person they love would have been sufficient to make them feel satisfied. All that matters is that you are happy. What more could you ask for in love?

Sometimes i really do miss having someone to do sweet things for me. But you cannot force others to do this kind of things, it defeats the whole purpose and the acts can no longer be considered to come directly from the other party's heart. At least i know of someone who did a sweet thing for me 2000 years ago, with him coming down to earth and dying for me on the Cross, Jesus gave me hope and a promise to a better future. His promised is everlasting and i know that He is whom i can turn to even if everyone else let me down.


上帝早已預備

就算我可得到世間的財寶
但你卻說要我知道是永生的道路
是我在罪人時你賜我中保

就算我可得到今生的自豪
但你卻說要我知道
別為因此而煩惱在絕望裡投訴
只要仰望主哪怕會迷路

上帝早已預備我不相信運氣
即使風光明媚但卻不是你預期
上帝早已預備只少我不被遺棄
難得你為我死

就算我可得到今生的自豪
但你卻說要我知道
別為因而煩惱在絕望裡投訴
只要仰望主哪怕會迷路

上帝早已預備我不相信運氣
即使風光明媚但卻不是你預期
上帝早已預備只少我不被遺棄
難得你為我死

感謝你你會為我打氣
感謝你從谷底將我救起
感謝你縱使失去我的真理
但我沒有忘記

上帝早已預備我不相信運氣
即使風光明媚但卻不是你預期
上帝早已預備只少我不被遺棄
難得你為我死
難得你為我死

Bad
Oh no, my results are so terrible even my previous 2 semesters' lousy results are better than this time round. sigh. can't even see anything B in sight this time round. tsk tsk.

Actions-Feelings-WordsAs the saying goes, “action speaks louder than words”. Many times our actions are interlinked with our feelings, while our words are linked to our thinking. Hence, through our actions, we are able to know how we feel deep down and it reflects this feeling much better than our words. In fact, sometimes by analysing what we do, we are able to know what we really feel. Of course, words may also reflect our feelings but only those who are well aware of their feelings and are able to articulate them would be able to keep their actions, feelings and words coherent and consistent.

There are times where I went through great lengths for a person. It is only upon retrospective that I realise that person meant a lot to me. If someone matters, one would do the necessary wouldn’t he? Some would buy gifts and dinners. Some would spend time and put up with all the nonsense. Some would fly from one place to another.
Me? I’ll wait for you.

I’m Not OKAlfred has been spending the past few nights with me. I like his goofy grin, haha, always able to put a smile on my face when I see it. I got him from Korea’s teddy museum and mostly kept him in the cupboard because I was afraid he would get dirty. But the past few nights have been terrible and I’d have considered myself lucky if I could even get to sleep.

I hate competitions and it sucks to lose. Worse of it all is knowing that no matter what effort you put in, you’d never be able to win, it’s just too unfair because the other person has got this unfair advantage. I sometimes even wonder if I would win had the opponent not had his advantage. It freaks me out to think that he would have won regardless. It freaks me out even more thinking that I was never even in competition in the first place.

xxxxxxxxxxxx

It’s gonna be a busy week ahead, but all I want is to laze along the beach and get a good tan, preferably with someone special.

Too Much Love Will Kill You


I'm just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are rainin' down on me
I'm far away from home
And I've been facing this alone
For much too long, ohoo
I feel like no-one ever told the truth to me
About growin' up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I've been lookin' back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you can't make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You're headed for disaster
'cos you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I'm just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there's no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down, ooohh
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Can't you see that it's impossible to choose
Oh there's no making sense of it
Every way I go I'm about to lose
Oho oh!

Yeah, too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It'll drain the power that's in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You're the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Yeah, too much love will kill you
It'll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you won't understand why
You'd give your life, you'd sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end...
In the end...

New Beginnings

The NotebookMom: you need to stop being such a romantic and be more realistic. This kind of things only happen in movies.

It may be too late to catch this film, but i still did anyways on DVD while we went into M'sia yesterday. Yes it is romantic, and yes it is not really realistic, but it is touching nontheless. I especially like the initial part where the guy was still wooing the girl and he was facing all sorts of rejections. But then i think all these wouldn't have been possible unless both parties love each other. True love brings about all possibilities. But if either party did not love the other party, nothing comes out of it at the end of the day. I may be too romantic for my own good, but i'm still looking for the special one who would love me and make the unrealistic realistic one day. When that day comes, i'd never leave that person even if we were to quarrel, fight or be separated, just like in the movie :) time doesn't change anything, distance doesn't change anything. Love is the one that changes everything.

Crazy Romantic,
Rafaelo.

I am seeing someone
After all the effort, time and money, all you can say is - i am seeing someone.



I hate the blowing winds,
which made me so cold that it hurts
Only you can make my feel better by driving away the loneliness
Yesturday's kite is still lying at a corner
Who threw it by the roadside?
I really don't want you to find a reason to leave

Every night as i closed my eyes
I saw my worse nightmare
You were smiling happily but the person beside you was not me
My sky was torn apart,
torn right through my heart
I don't want to act weak,
nor do i want to love cowardly

Actually i do love you alot and i don't want to lose you
Can't i have a say as well that i don't want you to leave
The kiss you gave him,
although may not have much warmth left
But all i thrist for is to capture you heart
I know he loves you alot too, you're afraid he's hurt
But i'm only acting happy everyday, afraid one day's you'd leave
Can i be stubborn for once?
And beg you not to leave?
Cos deep in my heart, i have one last thing to say
Actually i still do love you.

Before He Leaves (Part 1)
Since i will be leaving tomorrow, i thought i will let you guys know a day of me. The day before i leave. Also decided to take G10 out for the first time to test use his functions, see below for the results.

9am- Leave Home
Started the day early as i have a tennis session with law friends. Early morning already waiting for bus at the busstop

10am- KH's house
Yay, finally got to play tennis again after the long break. Had an intensive session until my legs kept throbbing the rest of the day. Tennis is still my number one lurve :)

12pm- Jalan Kayu
Wow, luckily we reached this place before the rain starts pouring. Had delicious pratas and 2 cups of teh-c. I'm a tea addict, lol.

2pm- Orchard Road
Finally shopping time!!!! After months of deprivation, i finally roam the Orchard streets again, haha. First stop is of course the Orchard Ion, the 'IT' shopping centre at the moment. Love Uniqlo there!
They are selling christmas trees at Isetan Shaw House. So expensive though.
The now famous Orchard Ion under the lense of G10.


This is my favourite shot, had to kneel down to get it done, but came out nice :)
Stop 2: Takashimaya
Having their decorations indoor instead of outdoor has always been the practice of Takashimaya. Lovely 4 storey tree this year.

Before He Leaves (Part 2)

3pm- Paragon
While i was walking, i came to see something very familiar, lol.. missing school already? no way man!
Paragon is also full of festive shoppers, all shopping to buy Christmas decoration and presents, nice.
Am intrigued by the neon lights and also... butterflies.. reminds me of Jolin doesn't it? missing her already since she went for her 100 days break :)
4pm- Next Stop: Suntec City.
Was suppose to get a haircut at 5 but i reached early, so went to their koi pond to see kois since my kois always don't let me see them
See. Big big koi. don't understand why my kois cannot just be like this big guy here, let me see clearly and take photos mah.
Drinking my 100% pure soya bean with pearls while looking at the pond, yum yum..
5pm- Salon
I decided to cut my hair again, i want to look my best while overseas. all the photo taking must be of the highest quality, lol.

7pm- California Fitness (Novena)
It's been so long since i got the chance to gym. Must work it out hard. But due to the morning tennis session, my legs are as weak as jelly, only can do upper body work.

8pm- Toa Payoh Bus Interchange
Taking bus home, so decided to play around with my camera once more. The flash light alerted the uncle in front, lol. He turned back and stared at me like i was trying to take pictures of him.
9pm- Home
Yay, finally got to watch one episode of Together. Jeanette rox and the show was really nice as well. I've always been very interested in these historical shows that brings us back to another generation :)
My G10 is super good la, just look at the clarity of this shot, i like G10 :)
My purchases of the day, Uniqlo and Takashimaya. Haha, shirts and jacket can show, but underwear better keep it in the nice taka bag, looks really nice eh, should go taka and buy more gifts.

One day i will be betterIt was suppose to be a happy day today, but some things happened. Today was the last day of my second year first semester examinations. But there wasn't much relief even after the examinations. Maybe cos there was no expectations, no interest, no nothing. The examinations this time round felt more like an obligation, something that i have to do as a student. I seem to be have lost passion in what i am doing (don't even know if there was any to begin with, lol).

We went to celebrate Angie and Max's birthday after the examinations at District 10, where all the aliens are. Ended up getting almost drunk in the evening cos it was happy hour and due to a mistake, i had to drink 2 pints intead of 1. There food there were so-so, but the company was great as usual. I'm really bad with alcohol, getting almost crazy with just 1 and three-quarter pint of beer, lol.

Things only turned for the worse after i got home. Sigh. Maybe i shouldn't have came home, but that would be running away for the inevitable wouldn't it. Somethings that were meant to happen would happen anyway, no matter how you try to avoid it. Guess i have to look forward, even though even i am also unsure what the future holds ahead.

Gaga Funny
Alright since Lady Gaga is thrashing Britney on the poll, i guess, it's more Lady Gaga that you all would want, lol. Ok, just one last post on this Britney-Gaga things since i really don't have much of a mood to write something deep today because my Company Law exams is up tomorrow and i still have yet to finish the protection of minority, shares and debentures and financial assistance. I really love this 2 video of Lady Gaga on Ellen over the weekend. She had an amazingly interesting interview with Ellen that just made me love her so much more. The second video is my favourite song from her new EP, The Fame Monster. It's called Speechless. Really speechless now, sigh..

Give Britney some loveLooks like Britney is lagging behind in the poll terribly. Where are all the Britney fans? lol.. I'll dedicate a post today to Britney to help you guys remember she pop-princess that has ruled the charts for the past 10 years. Releasing her greatest hits album, it reminds me of the numerous mega-hits Britney has over the years. I guess this is one of the winning formula of Britney- super good songs. Everyone will know at least one song from Britney, but most people know so many Britney songs that they can form paragraghs just using her song names. Below are the top 3 Britney songs that i like.

this is a super good dance track that makes me wanna dance everytime i hear the song, lol.. and i love the video cos of the dance moves..
never afraid to make a joke of herself, this is one track that i really enjoy and laugh at "i'm miss lifestyle of the rich and famous.."
who doesn't love toxic?? quite impossible..

I'm a free bit baby?I was rather shocked when i heard this on the new Lady Gaga album. Apparently there was some censorship done on the song that made it so ridiculous i get kind of turn off at my favourite part of the song. "I'm a free bitch baby" sounds so much better and makes more sense than "I'm a free bit baby". It makes it worse that this line came up repeatedly on the bridge of the song, which happens to be my favourite part of the song, sigh. Why do they have to do this? Worried that 3 year olds will start using the word "bitch"? Anyone who is not frightened off by her album cover (above) and could afford her album would have already known what is a "bitch" and seriously everyone takes "bitch" as a joke these days. If Britney can say "It's Britney, bitch", why can't Gaga proclaim "I'm a free bitch baby"? LoL...

That aside, you would have noticed a new poll is out- Are you a Britney, bitch fan? Or a free bitch Gaga fan? I guess the results of this poll is going to be interesting, haha..

We belong TOGETHER


Channel 8's anniversary drama 2009- TOGETHER will make its debut next week. It stars the super red-hot Jeanette Awwwwww. Thank god for the excellent timing, the show starts on the night of my last paper, wooo.. saw the preview and heard the theme song, i have to say that Jeanette is very different this time round, 2010 may just be the year she nabs the Best Actress crown :) i'm sure if you watched the preview, you'll feel the same way too.. ok off to study

Britney on the left, Gaga on the right
I am so happy today not because i did very well for my property paper but because i bought 2 of my most anticipated albums. Britney's The Singles Collection and Lady Gaga's The Fame Monster. Both are 2 disc deluxe editions, Britney's came with 16 of her famous music videos while Gaga's came with her debut album, The Fame.

For those who do not know, buying CDs are my guilty pleasure, they give a happy feeling just like a Gucci bag is to a girl, lol. Especially so if they are albums that i have been looking forward to for months. These 2 albums are the ones i am most looking forward to, followed by Rihanna's Rated R and Jam Hsiao's LOVE moments (*hint hint* christmas is near, lol)

Pictures from the past
Was browsing through the old photos and saw some interesting ones to post. The first 2 pictures were taken this Chinese New Year. Looking at he colourful potted plants outside my house at that time, now is a pathetic patch of green everywhere. There are no flowers but lots of green leaves. It's my fault not looking after them properly, only watering them once in a few days, no wonder all seems like dying now.


Even the fishes also very different from now. There were 5 of them during the Chinese New Year and now there left only 2 which you have seen in the previous post. There were so pretty red last time but now even their colour have changed. Probably because i never change the water regularly, haiz.
My dad and mom's anniversary in august this year. We like to drink alcohol (a small cup only) to celebrate happy occasions :)
Well this is my mom's 50th birthday celebration at home. As you can see, the bottle of alcohol stand just besides the cake, lol.

Paper done
I've have finally completed my Comparative Legal Studies paper. This is unbelievable since i only started writing a week ago. When i first knew there was a chance to do a paper this semester, i was excited and worried at the same time. I have never written a papaer and the 6,000 word limit seem like the skies since i have never written anything beyond the 3,000 mark. I finally decided to write on capital punishment in China as i was intriged with life and death and China was purely due to my professor's interest. I want to know what makes one person or a group of person decide to put another person to death and China has one of the longest and more gruesome history behind this.

Anyways, i have a problem now. I can't seem to think of a good title for my work :(
it is currently named Heads will Roll On to signify that the death penalty is here to stay in China and would not be abolish in the near future. Do you have any better ideas? please poll at the side bar or if you have better options, just comment below this post, thanks :)

The Results are OUT..
After a week of polling, the results of what you guys wanna see from my blog are finally out. It seems like the majority would like to know about my life and thoughts, more than movie/ music reviews, lol. Thanks to the 7 people who voted, now i know roughly how many people follows my blog too, haha..

There really isn't much to say about my life currently as it is purely just studies, especially these few weeks. The only time i took out was probably when i played around with G10. Here are a few shots using G10, nothing i magnificient, but i think that is because i have yet to study the manual of my baby, i only know focus and shooting now, lol. Hopefully i would get a chance to read the manual after my exams and before i go overseas :)

My super messy table with just enough space to place my laptop and a book or an A4 size note.

My messy notice board clippings with photos of friends and time table and the very very important notification of overseas trip reminder (one more time i forget to notify i'll probably get sued).

My lovely pond, where i can barely see the kois, much less take their pictures.

a closer view hoping to get a shot at the kois but still none could be sighted.

at least my goldfishes are more co-operative ;)