super super super busy
so much stuff to do yet so lil time
besides the 5 days a week training,
they actually started giving out homework
and it's not those 1hr can finish one lor
i took like 2.5 hrs yesterday night to finish half of it
all the way till 1 mid-night

anw, went for the bukit timah hill trekking yesterday also
quite alot of ppl went, despite many others who couldn't
thank god for the weather
especially when we saw all the dark clouds there
luckily he listened to our prayers and never rain
really ahppy many ppl took effort to come
despite the long route from home
and also going thru the hardship of climbing

ok, guess that'll be all for this week
it's gonna be a hectic week ahead
field camp in tekong (OMG!)
plus combat survival course beginning this week also
gonna kill some animals this friday i think
yucks, see how it goes.. haha
plus i got so many christmas cards to make..
oh god, pls give me more time.. hahaa

得救见证

一个人从小在基督化家庭长大，是否就自然是“基督徒”？

得救
一直以来常有人问我是什么时候开始相信耶稣。我想应该是在很久以前，当我还在小学时代就已经相信了。那时的我是真的相信这世界上有一位创造的主宰。一位为了爱世人而赐下祂独生子为我们死的神。并且祂三天后复活了，凡相信祂的就可以得永生。我记得第一次做诀志祷告应该是在小学四年级。在主日学主办的儿童营里接受耶稣做我个人的救主。从那天起我可以很有把握地回答别人，我已经相信并接受耶稣为我生命的主。

生活
从小我在教会里长大，也一直在主日学里接受圣经的教导。在家里，我有一对爱主的父母，常常以圣经的话语教导我，鼓励我。我很感谢神有他们在身边提醒我应该做主所喜悦的事而不是我喜欢的事，帮助我不自私自利，懂得去关心别人。当然，相信耶稣后并不代表我有180度的改变。我一向好胜，没有耐心，认为自己有能力应付周遭的事情所以很自负。那时候的我也没以神为生活的中心，读圣经和属灵书籍只不过是希望在年终颁奖礼时可以多得点奖项。我的生活似乎只围绕着朋友与歌唱，有时甚至为了想多陪朋友而不想去团契或出席教会活动，结果常被父母不厌其烦的提醒。更糟的是我把神的恩典与祝福当成理所当然，常把自己的成绩归功于自己。

蜕变
在初级学院的那两年，我的生活开始起了变化。这个时候我开始感觉到功课的压力，时间的短缺，人的有限，终于明白很多事情单靠自己是不能完成的。这两年内我与神的关系也更亲近了。每当我对身边的人感到失望时，我总很欣慰有这一位永远都不改变的真神从旁给我力量，使我勇敢面对每一天。祂也让我对看似越来越灰暗的世界重新有了新希望。

洗礼
其实当我口里承认，心里相信耶稣时，我已重生得救。浸礼只不过是与主同埋葬同复活的一种见证。去年12月31日在提摩太团契的守岁聚会中，我忽然有一股感动，觉得是时候受洗了。我想要在众人面前承认耶稣为我生命的主，一生为主作见证。今年4月被召入伍时，我已作好准备，接受兵营生活的艰辛训练，也喜望这生活上的重大改变不会影响到我与神的关系。为了这件事，我立志天天灵修，也不断地为自己，也叫别人为我祷告。没想到在这段期间，我不止更亲近主，与祂建立了更巩固的关系，我也终于真正经历到神在我生活中的操练与带领。在我最艰难的时候，祂让我看到了祂无比的慈爱，无数的神迹。我从此不再只是表面的相信，更是能深刻的感受到这位不止是为我死，而且还是已为我复活的主已活在我心中。正如约伯所说，我从前风闻有你，现在亲眼看见你。

A Journey

who ever said life was easy
nothing more than a bed of roses
who ever could find
something that makes you successful for life
i know sometimes
even hardwork won't pay off itself
but i'm sure i'm still willing to try

i feel the pain those around me can't bother
i feel disgust doing things that i don't like
sometimes i think maybe i should just follow
and make things much easier for me in life

but somehow i know this isn't right
why should i give in, not put up a fight?
noone can take me down with god by my side
i have no worries with him as my guide

yet i'm going on a journey
not sure where it'll lead
but i know i gotta have strength and courage
to step out from where i use to be
i know i'll be on a journey
not sure when i'll reach
but i'm sure even if i couldn't catch the stars
i'll be happy cos i've touched the sky

someday i'll look back and smile
thinking :"hey boy, at least i've tried"

finally back after 2 long weeks
actually looking back now it didn't seem that long
but it's been 12 days since i've last slept overnight in my hse
haha.. booking out today was a strong motivation all week
just being able to have civilian life for 2 days is a blessing
trainings are getting tough these 2 weeks
did ex long march on tues and wed
den 12km fast march on thurs
i know it's crazy, pushing us to our limits
the ex long walk is actually a topo ex
gotta walk like 30-40 km in 14 hrs finding check pts
horrible man, came back with blisters and abrasions
most of us can't even walk after that but still marched the next day
very lucky cos on thurs it rained halfway thru
so only did 6km instead of 12.. haha..
hopefully dun have to redo ba..very tiring one
very fast 3 weeks are gone, soon everything will be over..

nth much to share besides army stuff leh
stuck in there so long, only booked out on sun last week
cos of the guard duty..
anw, i'm getting baptized this sunday
exciting sia, dunno how the whole thing will go
but really happy so many friends are attending
thanks guys!!

wad a busy day
woke up early to go trekking from macritchie to bukit timah
went wif christopher to get an experience of trekking
it took about 3.5 hours to finish the journey
really enjoyed the time there
walking and talking along the way
since it's been some time since i last met him
he's one of the best friends i have in the army
and talking with him has always been enjoyable
especially walking at some place we've walked b4 when in sispec
deja vu.. so many memories..
yet so much have changed now, 2 mths later
separated to different place, meeting new ppl, doing new stuffs
just hope will always keep in contact and meet up again
most importantly, stay friends for a long long time

after the long walk, went back for a break
b4 going church for fellowship
overslept cos too tired, so went late
missed quite alot of stuff i think
but i think the discussion was good
i'm actually ok with dyeing hair, piercing and tatooing
but i'll probably only dye my hair and not the rest
cos my parents very against it
no point making them angry over these trival matter
guess i still take into consideration wad others think
haha.. it's true it's not a sin or smth
but if it causes trouble or unwanted misunderstanding,
den just dun do it lor, not like die die must do anw

finally rushed down to marina square to meet cat highians
it's good to see us still meeting up every now and den
even thou we've changed, we still feel like the same
actually wanted to bowl one lor,
but they went on to play b4 i reached
bitchy.. haha.. never tell me till i reach also
i wanted to bowl also one lor..
anw, ended up shopping there and eating
but ok la, thou never do much,
at least meeting up and catching up also very shiok
cherish the time with ur friends and family
dunno when u'll lose them one day

wad a busy day
woke up early to go trekking from macritchie to bukit timah
went wif christopher to get an experience of trekking
it took about 3.5 hours to finish the journey
really enjoyed the time there
walking and talking along the way
since it's been some time since i last met him
he's one of the best friends i have in the army
and talking with him has always been enjoyable
especially walking at some place we've walked b4 when in sispec
deja vu.. so many memories..
yet so much have changed now, 2 mths later
separated to different place, meeting new ppl, doing new stuffs
just hope will always keep in contact and meet up again
most importantly, stay friends for a long long time

after the long walk, went back for a break
b4 going church for fellowship
overslept cos too tired, so went late
missed quite alot of stuff i think
but i think the discussion was good
i'm actually ok with dyeing hair, piercing and tatooing
but i'll probably only dye my hair and not the rest
cos my parents very against it
no point making them angry over these trival matter
guess i still take into consideration wad others think
haha.. it's true it's not a sin or smth
but if it causes trouble or unwanted misunderstanding,
den just dun do it lor, not like die die must do anw

finally rushed down to marina square to meet cat highians
it's good to see us still meeting up every now and den
even thou we've changed, we still feel like the same
actually wanted to bowl one lor,
but they went on to play b4 i reached
bitchy.. haha.. never tell me till i reach also
i wanted to bowl also one lor..
anw, ended up shopping there and eating
but ok la, thou never do much,
at least meeting up and catching up also very shiok
cherish the time with ur friends and family
dunno when u'll lose them one day

back from camp again..
cos celebrating battalion 37th anniversary
had a wonderful time at safra yishun today
did the rock climbing, bouldering and canopy challenge
found bouldering the toughest
canopy challenge the scariest
and rock climbing the easiest
i did very slow for the climb actually
but luckily i was busy looking for place to rest my hands and legs
that i never see how high i'm actually at.. haha
bouldering is just climbing horizontally instead of vertically
and it's challenging cos there's a specific points u gotta touch
and only can touch a total of 3 points that's not included in it
only managed like 4 points b4 dropping.. lousy
the canopy challenge is 4 challenge 18m high
so gotta balance and walk on rope and planks
i'm a lil afraid of heights so took some time.. haha

went out to eat at northpoint after that
probably the last time seeing wei yu, wei bin and yew wei this yr
no choice, ns always like that one
courses here and there and shift here and there
gotta book in again tonight
going for my delayed rcc tmr
feels like dooms day.. haha..
but i'd pray that god'll make me strong
to protect and look after me
and bless me in the things i'm doing for him
i'm sure he'll guide me thru my army life just like my sch days..
till den..

two days of leave passed so quickly
didn't do much yesterday, just slack at home
and watched a movie, death note..
not a bad movie, but a lil boring
made me quite sick watching it half way
feel like pressing pause and do smth else b4 watch again

haha.. den today went to beach road
last minute shopping for rcc with plt mates
after which i played my first game of DOTA
hohoho, really sucked at it
but i found it quite fun and makes time pass quickly
but there's so much to learn
like a totally different world
with words and descriptions i can't understand
guess i'll have to play a few more times to get the hold of it

went guofeng hse to play tennis and swim
my first attempt at tennis also
this time i did much better than expected
at least i was like the best player among them
thou all of us are newbies
and i love his swimming pool
with sand and stuff, just like a sea
relaxing and beautiful.........

one last day to go, wonder wad i'll do tmr
no plans yet, just see how it goes

hohoho.. my computer is finally revived!!
it's been so long since i've posted alr
anw, so much have taken place since i last posted
i finished my motorcycle driving course
and am back to my unit for abt one mth alr
been thru alot for the bike course
especially since it's smth i tot i'd never learn all my life
haha.. believe me, it was a hell lot worse than i expected
but of course at the end of the day
i still manage to pass all the test and stuff
on the last day itself actually.. haha
so still gotta return back to finish the rest of e course someday
driving is quite scary i think
especially on a bike where almost all vehicle are larger on e road

besides e bike course, there's e commission of the bionix 2
dun ask me wad's that, i also not very sure..
just some tanks.. can read abt it from last tues papers
clearing all the stage and tentages fron outfield
making me so muddy and dusty so many times
build the stage and tear it down again many times
but at leats now that it's over, can enjoy some break
clearing my offs and leaves these 2 weeks

which brings me to my lastest outing to m'sia
cool to take a break from unit and s'pore
go to some places else to shop and eat the play
to sleep at some place new at night
and eat good food that i seldom eat everytime
it just feels good to spend time wif ur family
too bad i gotta miss my yearly family trip this yr
they're going to taiwan leh, i've never been there b4
and that's makes it worse

one more week b4 rcc starts
gosh, i hope i'm not dreading it but i am
haha.. it's like the toughest trn i'll be going thru in ns
still not very sure wad it'll be like
but i'm sure it's challenging and dangerous
definitely make me do more stuff i think i'll never do
good in a way it help improve myself in ways i'll never try
but challenging cos it'll be out of my comfort zone

till then, this is quite a long post i'm making
take care and god bless.. to whoever is reading this..

Welcome

Welcome to the greatest show
Greatest show on earth
You've never seen before
Let the fairy tale unfold
What's behind the smoke and glass
Painted faces, everybody wears a mask
Are you selling them your soul
Will you be left out in the cold

Is it all blue skies
Fun and games until you fall
Then you're left without anyone at all
You're ridin' on a shooting star
With a smile upon your face
But soon the shine fades

And you're left out all alone
Wonderin’
Where did they all go

Been jaded, hated
Who'll be around when the limelight's faded
Been shot down
Pushed out
Made to smile when I wanted to frown
Always takin' a bow
Always workin' the crowd
Always makin' the rounds
Always playin' the clown
Who'll be stickin' it out
Who'll be stayin' around
When the lights go down

i'm finally over with BSLC
but not very in the mood also

and guess where i'm posted to??

yea, 41 SAR.. armour recce

heard it's one of the toughest course

gotta learn quite alot of cool stuff and equipments

cos i'm leaving behind these friends that i've made here
like chris and jeremy and all my section mates
they are really my closest friends in the army and now
but still gotta separate and go different paths
sad la, it's like i've lost my wall of support, source of support
i even wonder now how am i going to take up this new challenges
when the ones who've pulled me thru my past challenges are gone
how can i face all these tasks coming my way??
my life there was really quite bad, many unlucky stuff happening
and many many obstacles and challenges and problems..
but i've all managed to overcome them with help from these ppl
giving me the strength to continue when i can't go on
giving me the power to hold on when i'm collapsing
giving me the hope and happiness when i'm totally drained


i was thinking abt it along the way to my interview for armour
and a sad fact slammed my right in the face
"i gotta do it on my own,i can't always depend on someone"
"i gotta grow, be a man, take my own reponsibility"
just like everyone else in the army that take cares of themselves
i can't possible wait for someone to look after me
or expect someone to push me on my way
so here i am along the road of my new journey
with all the memories and pain and sweat and tears
that i've gone thru the past 10 weeks..
hopefully and maybe i'll find friends like these again...
all the best to u all G/P2/S2...

are wad we see everyday just wad we wanna see??
is it the truth or just an illusion??

dun really feel much of national day this yr
i didn't even get to watch it on tv yesterday night
was at jasmine's hse for her bdae bbq/class gathering
nice to see those jc pals
hard to believe it's alr been like 9 mths since we left sch
it seems so near.. yet sooooo far..
probably cos time really flies w/o u knowing
before we know it, we'll finish ns, uni..
we'll get jobs, get married, have kids..
den grandkids... den we'll have our funeral
time will just cruelly pull us forward till e end
really hope that my life will be lived with purpose
i wanna make a difference in others life
just like the youth ministry conference i went yesterday
talk to the pastor, and he say how little time we have..
and how impt it is to choose carefully how we wanna live
i wanna make a difference in the lives of youth
hopefully share the love of god wif ppl ard me
and make sure i love them with all i have
and want the best for them..

emotionally still quite unhappy till now
haha.. but also dunno how to explain here..
but thank god for i know of at least one friend i can count on
i may not have found the person giving e reason to live on
but at least i have my friend and family,
giving me the reason not to give up..

i've finally pulled thru to my super long weekend..
waiting for this for like 7 weeks alr..
but now that this has finally arrived
i also not as happy as i wld have tot
just like last week after field camp,
tot i wld be very happy and wanna eat all sorts of food
but in the end also just like that lor
like i lost most of my emotions alr
cannot remember the last time i was happy
or the last time i was sad, angry, shocked, excited
could it be that when u go thru and emotion too many times,
u kinda get used to it that u dun feel it as easier liao??
i dunno, probably..
that's why i had alot of thots,
when i saw the total jaw-dropping look on my 3 yr old cousin's face
(due to me "eating" a whole plastic bag)
as in his jaw really dropped open like those in the movie
and he really did believe i ate the whole plastic bag
i suddenly miss those innocent and naive days
where simple and stupid things make u smile,
make u feel surprise and shocked..
how simple stuff can draw ur curiosity and interest

i almost watched finish the tv drama, bump off lover
ai sha 17 (taiwan idol drama yet to be shown in s'pore)
like the show alot, besides the captivating plot
and the whole mystery
and angela's performance is great also
she portray all 3 roles very individually
it's hard to even tell they are all acted by her
and i am drawn to how her character could have so diff sides
most ppl only see her kind, quiet side..
but actually deep inside her, noone can see the devil
that comes out so unexpectedly and caught everyone off guard
i am also drawn to how ppl can cover themselves so well
to keep all their vulnerabilities and secrets
and put on a mask everyday for yrs, even in a family
i wonder one day if i'll let the devil inside take control
i know the me i'm living now is not the real me
sometimes i just hope i can live without restrictions
without having to cover myself behind a mask
without having to think abt wad i say and do
is that laziness?? or the devil inside me speaking..
haha..
YOUR WORSE/MOST FRIGHTENING ENEMY IS YOURSELF

ANW, on a lighter note..
BACK TO BASICS out 7 days later..
remember to buy the original cd.. haha..

have u ever wish u could just sit down??
and relax at one corner, eating, or sleeping..
not having to worry about wad will happen tmr..
not having to check the time every now and then..
well, i am just wishing for this day again..

the tough week is finally over..
or so they say the fifth week is the toughest..
everyday fall in in long 4 and go outfield
really tires u out almost totally
luckily we still got time to rest
nights out and lectures on wed and thurs
the rest of the days were very very tough
mentally and physically
it's almost like torturing ur body and brain
the navigation was a knockout
after a whole day of bashing thru the forest
u just feel like ur legs are going to cramp soon
den the section training on fri was a disaster
i was made the sect com and i screw up everything
every single drill out of 4
my instructor was very disappointed
even i am super disappointed wif myself
anw, the sun was so hot that day i tot i was burning
my whole head was like being cooked in the helmet
haha.. just hope i'll do better for e evaluation next week

the good thing abt this week is early bk out
first time ever since report to sispec
i finally get to see a sat afternoon outside
even a simple thing like this can make my day
it didn't come w/o a price though
i gotta pass my soc, something i nv did b4
haha.. guess my determination was strong
i ran non-stop, ran my lungs out just to go home
and amazingly i finally did it..
it's really a miracle, a god's blessing..

week 4 ended alr..
i think BSLC pass by even quicker than BMTC
sort of getting used to the life there alr..
the ppl are actually very nice..
haha.. always sponsoring food and stuff..
it's very diff to describe the whole life there
many ups and down..
and i dun have enuff time to really sit down and share..
anw, i think noone is probably reading this blog..
haha.. blogs quite out alr right??
my mind is always spinning.. thinking..
so many things so little time..
chris was asking why i'm always laughing when i'm sleeping
cos that's where i'm living somewhere i wanna live
where i live my dreams
but i am getting more pratical..
"thinking w/o doing is daydreaming,
doing w/o thinking is a disaster"
so i think i'm going to work hard
and take the initiative to make things happen

well, abt wad i want to achieve..
hmm.. haha.. dun want to say first la..
wait till i really start making it happen den say..

and to start off, i'm taking a step in my religion
gonna get baptised this yr end..
abt time alr, so long at church liao..
and these 2 yrs, especially the past few mths
really let me see wad miracles god has done in my life
i dun think i'll even be where i am if not for god
do believe me in that (i can explain to u in detail also)
and so to ppl that i do spread gospel to,
it's not that i am an agressive christian or anything
but really that it is smth that helped me
and saved me
and if i do spread gospel to u,
it means u mean alot to me and i hope u to get this special gift too

week 2 has passed..
days seem much longer now than ever..
they say the real shiong start only week5..
a real roller-coaster ride this week's been
the first few days i was very motivated..
probably by the talk on last friday..
abt how the stuffs we're supposed to do are for our own good
it's true we'll have to lead 6 men soon..
and it'll be real bad if u can't keep up with them..
so even for the speed trainings and strength trainings
i gave my best and still felt good..
never tot i cld survive so many runs back to back..
but things start getting down on thurs and fri..
cos i really tot there'll be a nights out
but there wasn't one even though we were free from 1430..
for both days just did nth in the bunk..
very demoralised and disappointed..
really very little time out of camp lor
like slightly more than 24hrs only.. sianz..
i just want sometime outside army life.. but..

anw, finally did my first SOC full rundown
and i think i did better than my expectations with 11.33
i know it's porbably a sucky timing..
but alot alot better than i tot i wld do..
i really run as if i dun care if i'll faint e next sec..
so much that i have so much difficulty jogging back to company line..
i was like breathing so hard, almost like crying alr..
stupid.. really really miss the outside world
even up till now i still have this "NSF syndrome"
when will it ever be over??

just before i book in agin..
better post about my first week in sispec..
cos dunno if i'll get a confinement soon or not..

well, sispec is actually a training ground to train leaders..
they just train u the basic military skills..
like how to navigate and use different weapons..
den let u know how to take care of procedures for ur men..
and they train u up physically also..
so that when u go to war with ur men..
u at least can keep up with them..

well, as for my training..
all is well except my runs.. very bad..
my stamina is terrible in fact
they really make u run like siao..
and i have a hard time catching up
furthermore, i know very little ppl there..
not made much friends yet..
but luckily ogt christopher and jeremy in my section
at least some ppl i know to be with

haiz, when will i ever overcome my"NSF syndrome"?
and get used to this military lifestyle..
that deprive me of freedom, tv, mp3, newspaper..
and also family and friends..
but i can't think that way, otherwise i'd just dwell deeper..
gotta pull myself out..

read a few post from khai and jerry's blog..
it seems as if everyone is missing the good old days..
the people who passed thru our life and left..
the same problems i'm troubled with last yr..
i've alr accepted the fact that ppl do leave..
but i still feel quite sad when this happens..
sometimes u forget abt the ppl after time..
u forget how they look, wad their names is..
sometimes u even forget the things u did together..
memories do get lost too due to time..
no wonder ppl say time will heal everything..
but sometimes i feel sad too that i can't remember..
really very helpless and regretful..
cos u forget the happy times together with the sad ones..
oh well, to everyone whose been into my life,
even though it's sad to separate,
i'm still gald that i've met u soneday in my life.

yeah, i completed the grueling 24km march..
it was the most tiring march of all those i did..
first time my legs ache so much after a march..
infact, my legs start aching after abt 18km..
i almost wanted to give up and fall out..
but after all the mental trainigs, i still hanged on..
amazing how the mind can control the body..
no wonder ppl always say:"it's all in the head"

anw, really quite blessed thru the walk..
gotta thank god for giving me miracles after miracles..
cos we were marching ard the sch 12 rounds..
and though the route is all pavement,
the cover is very scarce.. almost no cover..
so i was praying for the walk to be easier..
guess wad, it rained the whole day..
we were literally walking in the rain for 10 rounds..
no sun to heat us up at all..
yet not rain heavy enuff to get cat 1..
see, yet another miracle..
i'm really a very blessed guy..

oh, i'm missing my platoon mates alr..
especially my section ppl..
so sad couldn't go for the excursion..
hope that can still keep in touch with some of them..
really like being ard some of them..
and talking with them, very different ppl..
talk abt things my usual friends dun talk abt..
and they share really very unusual experience..
hiaz.. better not talk too much alr..
later miss them even more..

finally, pop le..
now i'm a private, no longer a recruit..
not that it changes much, or that i care.. haha
it was quite an emotional parade..
though not as emotional as i tot it wld..
cos during the rehersals i was really sad..
or shld it be happy? i dunno, just feel like crying..
well, just thinking of the two mths,
and all the stuff i've been thru..
all the stress, the rushing, the ppl, the place..
i'm a very sentimental person mah..
changing of environment,
losing/missing ppl is smth very sad to me..
especially since these are the guys ard me almost everyday..
infact, we are together the whole day..
doing almost every stuff together..
also, i am definitely proud of myself..
to complete the whole course needs alot..
it's a test of mental and physical strength..
for those who've been thru will know wad i mean..

actually, i'll be booking in again this evening..
re-24km march.. luckily only one day..
nvm la, most ppl are busying during weekdays anw..
after that i can finally have my big break..

some things are too good to be true..
1. me getting into medicine
2. martina hingis winning the french open this yr
3. christina getting a no. 1 with ain't no other man
4. me getting into command sch
well, some of these things are comfired not happening,
as much as i really hope they wld..
for example, the first 2 pts..
they will not come true anymore..
the next 2 pts have very low chance of happening..
just see how much disappointment one has to go thru,
in a matter of weeks..
oh well, not everything goes as u wish anw..

Christina Aguilera 2006 comeback single,
Ain't No Other Man finally leaked...
this means that her comeback plans are finally in place..
her new dance track is really cool..
just as she said it was, a throwback to the 20s, 30s, 40s..
it's definitely got that element in it..
but it still sounded very edgy and fresh..
it's not a safe pop song, but one that sounds experimental..
that's wad i like abt christina, taking risk..
and always having this vision that she wants..
and in the end she goes and complete the vision she set out..
another get try by christina..
the song grows on you and dun take the song too seriously,
i'm sure u'll fall in love with it after a few listen..

oh, i'm going to pop alr...
dunno if i'm happy or sad, both i think..
it's been really tough being in the army for me..
i'm not suited for this kind of life..
but now that everything is finished,
(besides 24km that i have to re-take during my leave)
i think i'm going to miss that place...
and the ppl, the sergents are so much better now..
they probably know we will be separating soon..
and all my platoon mates that went thru thick and thin..
all kinds of ppl, it's really wonderful to meet them..
now is just marching and marching..
very soon everyone will be separated after 2 mths..
thinking of all the happy times,
those sad times and difficult times..
i just get quite emotional everything is finally thru..
the road ahead will be even tougher,
but if there's a thing i learnt this 2 mths..
everything will be over one day..
and at the end of the day, u'll still be fine..
okay.. time to take another step now..

many things happened this week also..
family is facing some major problems..
and i'm worried abt so many things..
firstly, my aunt met a serious accident last monday..
knocked down by a van on her head..
she's still in critical condition,
and she's alr gone thru 2 brain operations..
my whole family is so worried abt her..
my mom goes to the hospital everyday..
and after that will go visit her son..
and she's really very upset..
cos it's her sister mah, and they're close..
and my aunt has this one son, not even 3 yet..
haiz.. it's really very sad and troubling..
i still have to worry abt my mom and grandma..
my mother can't even work the past 2 weeks..
it's really bad, noone knows if she'll ever wake up..
but really really pray that she will..
her son is still so young, he needs a mother..
but one thing is for sure..
our lifes have changed forever,
unless she wakes up and nth happen to her..
quite impossible, cos doc say her brain damage is serious
she may need assistance e rest of her life..

den on the other hand i have to plan my future..
i got into nus law faculty..
but i dunno wad i want to achieve in life..
even if i got into medicine,
i also dunno if i really want to be a doctor..
this is my life, it's not a dream..
not everything will go as i like it to..
i dunno wad i wanna do..

a singer?? i do like performing,
but the irregular time, lost of privacy,
and most importantly the fact that not everyone makes it big..
i dun want my parents to still be supporting me when i'm 30..
and furthermore, i am not even given an opportunity..
where am i to start??

a doctor?? i do like helping people,
but just to help people and do smth i may not really like?
the long hrs, the stressful workload,
the blood, the gore and the inevitable deaths..
can i really take it and continue this the next 30 yrs?

a lawyer?? i do enjoy arguing,
but having to defend guilty people?
to find loop-holes in law when writting contracts?
to see the many evil sides of man..
can i still stand my grounds and faith in this career?

there's just so so so many things going thru my head..
and it doesn't help that i'm sick and can't think clearly..
just pray that everything will work out somehow..
no idea how anyway...

I'm currently on att c..
finally my body couldn't take it anymore..
actually quite good alr leh..
i was always on the verge of falling sick..
but only till now 8 weeks later den sick..
actually was hoping not tobe on status..
but my temperature keep rising..
all the way till 39.6 on sunday..
it's really very crazy alr.. head throbing..
anw, the doctor said it was throat infalmmation..
and gave me 3 days mc..
good la, in a way i've got more rest..
but not that good also cos this is the last full week..
got soc, 24 click and and my re-ippt..
might have to miss 24 and soc..
and i think might affect my performance for ippt..
hope dun have to go back during block leave to redo..

actually now also have more rest in camps..
everyday will only have 3-4 trainings..
now that i've also cleared bcct and bac..
the trainings really abt to end le..
just left the marching rehersals, soc and runs..
talking abt the bac..
i really gotta share this with everyone..
the day b4 i did 16km march..
so my pants are totally soaked..
that's why i wore a new pair of pants for bac..
den everyone was saying bac have to crawl in mud..
so i was really praying to god not to dirty my pants..
and in the end u know wad happened??
the sergent major say that since the day b4 we did 16,
he take away 2 of the crawling stations..
that's the 2 stations that will have to crawl in mud..
and this is the first time in cougar history they did this..
my gosh, god does answer my prayers..
really thru the whole army experience..
i can really see the miracles and power of god..
and i'm more sure than ever that he's with me..
there's actually alot more miracles that i've seen..
i even write down all these miracles..
maybe i'll post them here after i pop..
and let everyone see just how blessed i am..

long long time no blog le..
finally settling down in the army,
actually it does build me up mentally..
i think now i am more prepared to take up challenges
and push my body to the limits
most of the important stuffs are done..
only left those physical things
like soc, ippt, bcct and strength trainings..
and lotsa drills to prepare for the big day
it's on 7 june, my graduating parade..
so fast 6 weeks have gone by alr..
sit test and field camp and bic, grenade and live firing all done
maybe i'll miss this place after i come out
they say it's worse after posting..
not as protected anymore..
oh well, everything comes to and end..
and we gotta move forward..

as for if i'm going to command sch...
not high chance la, ppl like me..
so un-military and not very active..
i just do my best and try to help out..
didn't really show any leadership quality also..
but i'm fine with getting posted elsewhere..
not like very very die die must go there..
dun understand why got ppl want to go there so much
having fun with my section mates..
the least political amoung the platoon..
just plain pure having fun and encouraging each other..
lucky right me.. haha..
my platoon also one of the least trouble makers..
all good people, and smart too..
at least we dun make camp fires during field camps..
or bring handphones to grenade live throwing..
who would even think of doing those things..
but really there are ppl who did it..

okay.. so wish me luck..
and may god give me the strength to make it thru..
last 3 weeks le.. i can do it..

p.s. joe, we meet up after june 7 la
maybe a class gathering or smth..
but i'm going m'sia on 12..
meet up b4 that..


Christina Aguilera Goes Back To Basics, New Album Due August 15th

Christina Aguilera will release her third studio album, Back To Basics, August 15th on RCA Records.

The sexy first single, "Ain't No Other Man", produced by DJ Premier and Charles Roane, is set for release on June 12th.

this is like my longest break ever..
2 days and a half..
for the first time dun need to feel so rush..
everytime book in day also very rush one..
but i'm alr considered very lucky cos never stay in camp long..
longest also only 6 days..
not even double digit yet..
everytime still keep booking out for uni stuff..
haha..
anw, it's very tiring to live this kind of life..
always on ur toes.. and not enuff sleep..
considering the amount of activity..
very tired and falling sick alr..
everybody falls sick there..
maybe it's the place or atmosphere..
but slowly getting used to it alr..
not liking it, but just accepting it..
cos it's smth that has to be gone thru..
might as well make the best of it..
after this BMT it will be even tougher..
the poor guys of singapore..
haha.. really leh..
everytime i see the flag i feel like crying..
"it's all for u" i'll say in my head..
"all because of you"...

because of you
i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
because of you
i try my hardest to forget everything
beacuse of you, i am afraid..

yay.. booki out..
it's really quite horrible in there..
the training and stuff..
very tiring.. nad now i feel sick alr..
probbaly due to insufficient rest..
everthing is done so quickly there..
eating also less than 20 mins..
very sian at times..
but at least the ppl there are good ppl..
haha.. jc batch la at least..
sick le sick le..
luckily got today to rest.. haha..

in less than 4 hrs i'll be in tekong le..
yesterday was a busy day..
last day in work, den go presents and my stuff..
den still go eat Shangri-la buffet with mom..
and go wei ming's hse for a short celebration..

last day of work was very touching..
the ppl there were very nice to me..
make me have a very nice first working experience
will miss them so much..
i think they were touched too..
haha

den there was the "surprise" party at weiming's hse..
made me and weiming so stressed to get gifts..
in the end got dom a very very nice xbox game..
and alaric an very exquisite leather belt..
i choose the belt one leh..

i also went to the shangri-la buffet first time..
the food there got so many kinds..
chinese, western.. bbq.. etc..
and the desserts got so much u can't finish all..
eat till i'm so full.. i'll vomit just thinking of food..
eat so much prawns that i'm quite scared of it liao..
and there was all sorts of seafood..
lobster, oyster, salmon(bbq and raw)..
and this large chocolate fountain..

at abt 11, went to weiming's hse for bdae celebration..
ala and dom and liying came for a while..
and they talk a while b4 leaving..
leaving me there till my mom came..
oh well, nothing much la..
just talking and exchange presents..
alaric also going in today le..

okay.. i'm leaving alr..
take care..

it's the day b4 i get enlisted..
it's starting to get to me.. slowly..
i start to think.. shit, i'm gone in 2 days..
haha.. no really la..
but i'm really gonna miss my work place..
the underground tunnel.. the lifts.. the mrt station..
my work station.. my supervisors.. my boss..
gosh.. 3 mths quite a long time actually also..
it's natural to miss these things..

anw, i still haven't packed my stuff..
nothing at all.. i dun even have a bag yet..
gonna do last minute shopping tmr...
got quite alot to buy leh, actually..
much more then wad they state there..
but no choice la, 2 mths mah..
pls pray that i'll enjoy the place..

ate at ding tai feng for lunch..
and sakae sushi for dinner..
it's abt 62 dollars altogether..
quite alot spent hor..
there's still more to spend tmr..
haha.. let u know again tmr..

i just thought i might as well post more b4 i enlist..
haha..
anw, been busy these days..
besides work.. still got lots of meals..
there's weiming's treat on monday,
followed by a movie "District 13"
and tuesday got russian dinner,
a treat by my mom's colleague..
very nice food.. both meals..
today suppose to treat mom to shangri-la buffet..
but cos of time constrain, decided to go on friday
but later treating my sis to movie.."Ice Age 2"
alr treated them on sunday to Cafe Cartel..

anw, still dun really feel much for saturday..
at least till now la..
and the movie i watched was very nice..
and italian thriller.. abt a cop and stuff..
anw, it's nice so if want to watch a movie can catch that..
let's see how many movies did i watch b4 i enlist this yr

1. Perhaps Love
2. Memoirs Of A Geisha
3. I Not Stupid 2
4. Munich
5. Capote
6. Distinct 13
7. Fearless
can't really remember le..
shld be more than this...haha..

very soon i'll be going to the army le..
one week.. hahaah...
i haven't even prepared anything yet..
still working all the way till 7th april..
and got quite some dates b4 that..
dinner, movies.. hope to meet ppl b4 i go..
b4 i can't watch cheap movies anymore..

anw, today got movie screening at my fellowship..
The Chronicles of Narnia..
and as usual, i did ask ppl but noone go..
my mom was saying how easy she cld get friends to go..
that they al very jiang yi qi and will turn up..
asking me why my friends all like that one..
cannot even ask them a simple request..
wad can i say.. probably i really can't..
maybe i dun have that good kind of friends like hers..
or smth..

yesterday was last day of march..
there's this feeling of lost the whole day..
colleage leaving the company...
my dear pet caterpillar taken away by pest control..
quite sad.. just looking at the company..
many new faces appearing..
old, familiar faces disappearing forever..
looks so different from like one mth ago..
like it's not my company anymore..
i'll be the next to go..
huimin lucky lor..
got many friends made at her company..
i got friends, but not really very good one..
not even as good as eat together..
and she still got receive presents from these ppl..
i know i wun get anything..
but i'll still miss the place much..
3 mths working there alr..
quite a long time.. yet passes so quickly..

had my birthday just over the weekends..
the bbq turned out to be real fun..
i mean celebrations are suppose to be fun..
even though i didn't really expect it to be..
lotsa trouble this yr..
many ppl couldn't make it.. didn't make it..
infact most of my close friends were absent..
well, but i'm really thankful to those who came
especially since the place is so far
i really enjoyed talking to ppl who i've not met in mths
to catch up and bring back the good old times
only sam and ttk caqme from 4-4 batch..
very kelian hor, S21 got more ppl this time..
exactly oppsite from last yr..
but quite touched that they came
though they knew not much 4-4 ppl coming..
some ppl didn't after they know that..

anw, wow i received alot of gifts this yr..
got almost everything from cap to beanie to t-shirt..
cds, cd voucher, mp3 player, books..
braclets, hong baos.. haha... etc..
that's of course not as good a present as those who turn up..
all i want is some time to spend with friends..
presents are secondary.. but thank guys anw..

ohh... A*mei new cd is really nice..
probably 8 of 10 songs are good..
it's like the album i liked most since A perfect day by stef
the slow songs are heart-wrenching..
and the fast songs just make u groove..
recommended songs:1-7 and 10..

last 2 weeks of free life le..
got to pend it wisely with those close ones..
hope can meet up somemore close friends b4 going in..
see how la..

it's lesser than 3 weeks now..
start getting the nerves alr.. just thinking..
probably cos i still dunno how i will do inside..
a lil excited.. a bit scared..
haha.. going to end job in 3 weeks time..
do all the way till the eve of enlistment..
even the manager also say i very pia
most ppl rest at least one week b4 enlisting
not like me.. haha..
but i dun like to sit and think too much abt it..
rather do smth useful and earn some $$
later go in e pay so low,
but not like i know how to spend e money anw

this friday is my bdae celebration..
i'm quite lucky to have it every year..
cos i've not been to anyone else's party in decades
haha.. it's true..
it's a good time to catch up with friends
relax and have an enjoyable time
this yr quite special cos it's a 3-in-1 celebration..
thanksgiving-bdae-farewell..
going into a new phase of life so wanna share the joy
who knows if i'll ever get to celebrate again
or maybe i wun be celebraing with this grp of ppl..
noone knows wad'll happen in the future..
so those who read this,
do remember to inform me if u coming..

had a holiday to m'sia last week..
took whole week off leh, longest break in mths..
went to peneng first..
took abt 9 hrs car drive..
but luckily got movie to watch on car..
the food there is superb.. very delicious..
and most of the stall sell yummy food..
bought quite alot of stuff..
clothes, tennis racket and bags of fish stuff..
all for my darling fishes,
so that when i'm gone they'll stay healthy..
went to sunway lagoon to stay the last night
super high-class hotel
at least 5.5 stars the pyramid hotel
though sunway lagoon was quite disappointing
not as much fun as i thought
almost half of the attractions closed for rennovation
oh well.. but as long as i get to relax,
and to shop den i'm happy enough..

here i'm back with another post..
results is out.. did better than i expected..
got 3As and a B and a B3 for gp..
but my feeling has been up- and-down..
i tot the result was good.. though not the best..
but apparently many ppl didn't think so..
guess they thought i could have done better..
hmmm... was really feeling happy when i got results..
cos i've never gotten an A these 2 yrs..
and now i got 3.. but oh well..
but seriously many ppl ard me got 4A lah..
like wad my teacher say..
can see his disappointment in the tone..
maybe not disappointment..
but just that he thought i would have done better too..
oh wells.. nothing can be changed now anw..

another serious problem is having to choose..
to choose which school, which course.. etc..
affect wad i'll be doing in the future..
i've come to a point where i've finally gotta decide..
i know wad person i'm like..
i know wad's my dream.. i know wanna i can do..
i dunno if i can achieve it..
i dunno if my dream will come true...
i dunno if i dare to chase my dream even..
haiz.. but i hope god will show his way..
and hope he'll use me well in wadever he want me to..

work has become a repeatitive part of life..
doing the same things again and again..
no purpose.. no meaning..
at least i know i'm no good for office jobs..
actually i knew it long before.. haha..
gonna go in ns real soon..
it's been 4 mths.. 3 mths.. 2 mths..
and now finally 1 month...
just 4 plus weeks left.. anticipating for the day..
things are gonna change..
wonder how it is gonna change..
maybe lesser time to think abt things..
abt things i wanna do..
like learning tennis, driving and singing..
and writting songs.. and writting scripts..
there's so much so much i've yet to do..
looking forward to everyday..

oh no... the results are coming in this wed..
actually also know will be either this or next week le..
but den still quite scared...
but i trust god will have his plan for me la..
just hope that i'd be willing to accept wad i get..

got kelly's album..
not say the best la, not those v nice albums..
but got some songs that are long-listenable..
must support local artists mah..
haiz.. if everyone burn songs..
no more good music in future le..

my leg has been improving fast..
like normal alr.. when walking..
but still the joint feel very unstable..
like can twist the joint anytime..
hopefully can start running again soon..
from wad i hear, the trainings are quite tough..
but been thru tough trainings in track and field also..
so shouldn't be tooooo diff..
haha

Jacqueline got booted out from Star Idol..
quite wasted la, cos she good actress..
actually this is first week i like her performance best..
but i very suay one..
like who den who will get kicked out..
like last week for the case of Leann..
or the previous week for Bryan.. haha..
only person that i like that is always safe is Alicia..
but i just think she shld have acted better..

feel very lucky still can enjoy all these stuff..
not like the others all in camp..
to think that i was quite disappointed initially..
tot going in with all those ppl in jan is better..
haha.. now then feel more relived..

i sprained my leg yesterday..
went jogging at MacRitchie again...
second time this week with weiming..
dun really like running there..
very scared cos also sprained my leg there..
that was 2 years ago...
now my whole leg is wrapped up..
difficult to walk also..

but a good thing abt it is that i can finally rest..
took my first mc/leave today..
can get a chance to spend the day as i like..
miss those days.. having afternoon naps..
where time seem meaningless..
so much time to do anything i want to..
re-charge myself for the next day..

the bad thing is definitely the disruption of training..
just tot that i can be on track to train myself..
now back to square one..
guess it's only fair that everyone starts together..
with my leg in this state..
dun think can run in 2 weeks time..
oh well..

bought Lin Jun Jie's album just now..
so surprising right.. haha..
guess it's cos quite valuable..
give so many things compared to kelly..
but i think will still buy kelly's album also..
samuel will be so envious.. haha..
but the songs should be quite good la..
let u all know again after i listen..

yo yo yo.. it's almost the whole of new year gone..
been back to work again..
this time meeting more familiar faces..
more ppl i know started work in feb..
doesn't really make much a difference..
my work load is still increasing..
and gotta do tougher stuff..

watched 2 movies over the past few weeks..
there's Memoirs of A Geisha.. and I Not Stupid Too..
personally i like i not stupid more..
it's not as bad as the critics say..
or maybe cos the critics have very high standard..
alot of parts where it is touching..
almost became the first movie that made me cry..
like Goal! last yr.. just so touching..
can just feel for those teenagers..
who actually have a good side in them..
but they were just really given the chance to show it..
i always believed that there's kindness in everyone..
and it's just sad that these ppl go the wrong path..
they can't understand that ppl do love them..

really hope that someday i can help them..
it's always been one of my wishes..
if there were no problematic kids..
there'll be so much less violence in the world..
no terrorist.. no suicides.. no murder..
wad world would that be???

at macs.. thinking wad to buy.. 

with my sistas.. 

at cemetary with sis.. 

with church pals.. 

more pics in church 

it's the chinese new year....
didn't really visit alot of houses this year..
but still quite fun cos can rest more..
my contacts are giving me so much problems..
make my eyes so painful the whole day..
wonder how's everyone in the new year??..
haha... really hope to meet up soon..
and also wanna know more abt the army life...
maybe it's not much better than working life..

now finally gotta know more abt the adult world..
those ppl at work so fake..
they talk to boss and talk to you so differently..
and my colleage always say stupids things...
and when my supervisor comes,
he'll tell and same things and say that i said it..
every single bloody time...
he'll make fun of me when supervisor come also..
but when supervisor left,
he'll be like some kind of friend to me..
i dun even know wad he is actually..

and i can't do my work there very fast..
cos boss will suspect why others cannot do as fast..
so the supervisor always ask me do other extra things..
so weird, they get me there cos they can't finish their job..
den now they say dun do too fast..
how to finish the job?? haha..
it's getting quite irritating these days le..
hope i can preservere...

i've finally started to work out..
whole body feels so stiff and tired..
ran... did pull ups and sit ups..
didn't really do alot actually.
but den i still got like 2-3 mths..
so start easy and increase pace..
i aim to be the fittest cadet.. haha..

this is also my first full 5-day working week..
i did my stuffs quite fast..
until evryone thinks i'm like an alien..
haha.. but it's boring if i do it slowly..
so i just try to keep to the pace set lor..
very tiring cos only got little hrs left for myself..
still gotta exercise and lead my life..
but at home still quite slack la..
just watch tv, read books, read magazines, sing...
quite relaxing at home but lack sleep..
if only can sleep more..

watched In Her Shoes this week..
didn't want to but was talked into it anw..
next time really gotta learn to stand my ground..
it's just that some ppl can always tok me into doing stuff..
i'm a really weak guy when it comes to these ppl..
ppl that just have to give me a disappointed face..
or a sigh or a gentle request/beg..
anw, still quite a nice movie... like this genre..
entertaining, yet not a no-brainer..
touching at times and funny at others...

still got so many movies to catch..
like Memoirs of a Geisha, Brokeback Mountain..
Match point, Munich, Jarhead... etc..
and i not stupid 2...

heehee.. quite long never blog le..
but probably cos life's the same these days..
work on weekdays from morning till 5 plus..
go home and go out for dinner..

work is still the same..
everyone is treting me well..
but might get boring at times..
and the facilities there are mostly for permanent staffs..
so feel quite under-privilieged..
all the vcds cannot borrow..
gym cannot use..
that's quite bad actually..
cos i really wanna train up b4 i go in april..
and the consecutive rain makes me unable to run..
hmm.. hopefully i wun be too lazy to run next week..

actually i found out more changes in me again..
i'm more lazy, tired..
used to like using escalators to get upstairs..
but now will try to find lifts when i can..
i'm also less impatient..
can really take time to do things and enjoy..
and i keep forgetting things..
super blur.. dunno wad i'm doing at times..
haha.. dazing around..
i also enjoy more quietness...
dun wanna move and make noise..

haha.. really hope i can take the time to do smth useful..
maybe do some writting or composing..
or just practice up my vocal skills..
or take up a new skill..
make my life more colourful..

now i know wad it feels like to be alone..
at home.. with most of my pals in army..
sometimes i'll still be thinking of them..
these few days most of the guys are going in..
first batch of intake..
only be out earliest in 2 weeks..
that's quite long i think..

actually i thought i'll wun feel anything..
den these ppl la just evoke my feelings all over again..
haiz.. haha..
but at least got to have tok with some close friends..
got gathering on monday..
went dinner with xuanwei on wednesday..
dom messaged on thursday morning..
all these unexpected things was a pleasant surprise..

had a great long chat with xuanwei..
though no solution but got to see another side of him..
and dom never even sent me msg for so long liao..
like almost after he got a gf.. haha..
but suddenly sent something so touching..
it's quite nice to know that gd friends will always be there..
even if they're not physically there..
it's heartwarming to see these farewell msgs..
at least u still meant smth to them after all..
like the tag yy posted in this blog.. haha..

sometimes wish time could just stop..
not wanting to move forward cos everything's fine now..
once we move, things changes..
it may be for the better or worse..
meet new ppl, being in new environment..
all these changes ppl also..
but time couldn't and wouldn't stop anw..
so gotta face each brand new day with courage..
always will lose some.. and gain some..
gotta learn that sad memories are often the most beautiful ones..
because it's the most beautiful memories that hurts most..
it's just like u won't hate if u've never loved b4..
i'm getting more philosophical..
haha..
okay la.. all the best to those enlisted!!

LOVE...
makes the most lucky person on earth..
and also makes the saddest person on earth..
so ironic yet no explaination to it..
even a person in love can feel both extremes..
how i miss this feeling.. can be addictive at times..
it's been some time since i last loved..
insecurities, uncertainties and sense of powerless..
yet u're willing to go thru everything..
and put down everything just to love..

love is abt sacrifice.. two different ppl meet..
two different lives.. two different dreams..
two different routes and two different views..
there's always gotta be some give and take..
but u know that wadever u gain outweighs wad u lose..
cos it's for the special someone that u give to..
many times, u learn to love others more than urself..
it's only when u learn to put urself down that u're in love..

just enjoy the journey.. learn things along the way..
and be happy for all the memories..
be it the bad times or good times..
cos those are the times u'll probably remeber ur whole life..

happy new year peepz..
it's finally a brand new year..
a brand new start for many of u friends..
ppl going to the army and those going to work..

anw, there was the class gathering yesterday..
abt 13 went.. at weiming's bt timah home..
we played ps2, majong, ate pizza, watch tv...etc
it was actually one of the most enjoyable class outings..
it's nice to finally see these ppl again..
since the last time i saw them was 1 mth ago..

bought lee hom's new album Heros Of Earth yesterday..
there are quite a lot of very nice songs..
and as equally much fillers..
but i like his latest style.. especially fashion-wise..
but very difficult to copy also.. need lots of $..
haha..

also finally got to watch the movie, Perhaps Love..
thought it was quite good..
but not really as good as i expected..
probably because i missed the front part..
just couldn't really get into the mood for this movie..
hmm.. maybe cos of those ppl who kept toking behind me..
so inconsiderate..

my job's still going fine..
i'm happy there and ppl treat me well..
but sometimes i just miss all my friends..
guess it's quite normal la.. who don't..
real lucky to have friends like daniel, xuanwei and hui min..
always initiating meeting-ups and catching-ups..
at least make me feel like got friends that are close to..
it's always this heart-warming feeling..
inside my almost completely faithless heart..
and teck kuan too.. always reading this blog..
and sending me msg to encourage me..

wow, long post.. so here's some plans for 2006..
also can consider new year resolutions..

1. make my own music
2. love those ppl who care abt me
3. have quiet time with god everyday
4. learn a new instrument, drop piano
5. learn driving
6. do all my duties with 102% effort
7. learn singing
8. look more and more handsome!!!

haha.. okay..