Pop Quiz

Try to answer the following questions, keeping in mind that my son had the stomach flu yesterday and last night I was up every hour on the hour cleaning up vomit and such and am now totally sleep deprived and a raging bitch.

1. My husband volunteers to do the laundry because

a. he is a clean freak.
b. his life-long dream is to own a coin-operated laundry mat.
c. he loves the smell of Arm and Hammer Free.
d. he would rather fold every article of clothing in the house than entertain a cranky baby.


2. A child, when angry and fussing, always "wants his mommy" because

a. his mother has super powers that immdiately calm said baby.
b. he loves his mother more than anything in the world, even sugary cereal.
c. no one wants to hold a crying baby. The child's mother doesn't have a choice. When someone says, "oh, he just wants his mommy," mommy has to act like this is true and that she wants nothing more than to hold her fussing baby, when in all honesty everyone should say the truth: "mommy is the only one who loves her baby enough to deal with this hysteria and she deserves a gold medal."
d. she's just so darn pretty without a shower and covered in baby vomit.


3. I have decided it's vitally important to decorate NOW for Carson's birthday party that is one week away because I

a. am a total loser.
b. will actually need an entire week to complete the amount of birthday ridiculocity I have planned.
c. have nothing better to do.
d. both a and b.


4. I went on a walk this evening with my husband and son because I

a. love nature.
b. love exercise.
c. will do anything to not hear a fussing baby with football commentary in the background.
d. enjoy seeing all the gorgreous winter landscaping in my neighborhood.


5. My child is about to turn one year old. What else have I not done in about a year?

a. had a pedicure.
b. slept in past 7 am.
c. fit in my pre-pregnancy jeans.
d. all of the above.


6. I should stop this post immediately because

a. I would rather be cleaning my bathrooms.
b. I can't wait to put away all the folded clothes laid all over my living room couches.
c. I'm about to be wisked away by Prince-f-ing-Charming.
d. my complaints are so pathetic that I should be slapped and there are people out there with problems that make me look like a pretty-pretty princess on her big, fat, annoying throne.


Answers:
1. Obviously, d.
2. Ummm, hello, c.
3. D, duh.
4. You don't know me well enough if you said anything other than c.
5. Yes. D; all of the above. And now I'm going to cry.
6. Prince Charming is waiting, y'all.

Motherhood Surprises

Carson's first birthday is coming up so quickly; it's turning me into a teary-eyed mess. I cried three times yesterday- and that was during a 30 minute car ride. I am so, so thrilled that we've all actually survived his first year, and I'm so sad that it's passed by so quickly.

Coming home from the hospital. Sigh!

My BIG guy at the park.

I can't believe how different he is now! And how much FUN he's become!

I'm sure the next couple of weeks will be filled with sappy posts like this one. I just can't help myself! My baybee is getting sooooo biiiiig!!! I loooooove him!!!!

So, here are a few things that have surprised me about motherhood during the past 11 months, 1 week, 3 days, and 2 hours (sob, sob!)...


1. Motherhood is All-Consuming

My thought process about everything is completely different. Every single minute of every day I am thinking about Carson, where he is, what he's doing, when he needs to eat/nap/bathe/play... and how am I going to fit in the things I need to do around all these baby activities? Do I hear him on the baby monitor? How long has he been sleeping? Is that another tooth? Was that just a sneeze or is he getting sick? Do I smell poop?

I am always in mommy-mode. Even when we are away from him. It's exhausting. I guess I thought that when I wasn't around him, or during naptime, I would be able to shut it off and really relax- but nope. I'm always thinking about him.

I also thought that I would be able to have an adult conversation without talking about him. HA! I'm that boring mom who only wants to talk about her kid. The proof- this blog. I gush about him and that's about it ever since he was born. This mommy-thing is totally all I do now.


2. My New Bathroom Visitor

I didn't realize that as soon as Carson could crawl, I would have a friend every time I need to use the restroom. Seriously... I would love to just have like, 2 minutes to pee and be by myself. But the problem is- if he's not in the restroom with me, I have no idea what he's getting into. So, I have a bathroom visitor each time I go. He follows me in and proceeds to unroll the toilet paper, pull everything out of the cabinets, and my personal favorite, pull up on my lap and smile at me. I guess when you pee your pants it's not that gross to be so close to your mommy while she's peeing. It's such a special part of motherhood that I didn't anticipate.


3. The LONG Transition to SAHM

Before I even got pregnant I so wanted to be a SAHM (I'm sure you know, but will say anyway- that's Stay At Home Mom). And honestly, it's taken much longer than I thought it would to actually adjust to it.

When I taught, I had a school-family that I got to see everyday. I was a part of something outside of my home that gave me a sense of self-worth. I was important to those 22 kids and my teammates. It meant the world to me.

Staying at home, my world is completely different. So, so different. I am surrounded by a different set of people (a much smaller set). My only teammate is my husband. My day doesn't have a start and an end, and I don't have a "weekend." All my days kind of run into each other; one big long pattern of feed the baby, play with the baby, put the baby to sleep, sneak in some "me time", run errands, clean up, feed the baby, play with the baby, put the baby to sleep...

I have to find things to focus on and look forward to so that I don't feel like I'm in a rut. Play dates are vital. I LOVE PLAY DATES!!!! I need that mommy-mommy conversation so I don't feel like I'm alone. Obviously, I'm not alone. I mean, that's stupid. But when your old world seems to move on without you, it does feel a little lonely at first.

I've gotten way more into hobbies than I was when I was working- and I think that's how I'm replacing that need for feeling fulfilled. When I finish a sewing project- it's done. It stays done. And I can look at it and feel good about it. Carson is a total work in progress and being a mommy is never done. Also- as babies are- he's totally ungrateful. When I make a gift for someone- they tend to thank me. Even if they don't like it, they still thank me. It's nice to feel appreciated.

Sorry for the rambling... It's just really surprising to me how long it's taken me to adjust, especially when I wanted it so badly. Now, almost a year later, I feel OK that my world is different. I don't feel like I'm scrambling to hold on to what I had anymore. I'm a SAHM and it's OK. It's good. Actually, it's great! I've gotten to spend the majority of Carson's first year with him, and I'll never be able to replace that. And, I don't miss grading papers. Or parent conferences. Or Meet the Teacher Night. Or Open House... OK. I'll stop. Although I could go on.

Fun with Fire

A few weeks ago, Sean and I bought a fire-pit for the back yard and have since been obsessed with it. We light up a fire at least once a week, usually a couple times... or more. We almost always smell of Mesquite smoke. S'more ingredients are now staples in our pantry. When we wake up in the morning after a fire the night before, we just throw a couple of logs on the still-hot coals and have another fire.

That's what we did this past Saturday, and then we got a little creative. We had done the whole steaks-on-the-pit thing the night before (it was delish) and thought we needed more of a challenge. So, I whipped up some pizza dough and sauce and we brought the pizza stone out to the pit.

With a little crafty engineering on Sean's part (he was really into it), we ended up with some really tasty pizza!

Grandma helped put the pizzas together. I was too busy cracking up and taking pictures to be any help.

So proud of himself. That's my husband. He has a very healthy self-esteem.



I must admit, it was really good. Carson agreed.

Carson and Jet played in the yard after eating some pizza (don't worry, Jet got some too. Carson feeds him all. the. time.).

My sweetie. So lovable.

Jet hates this.

I love the look on his face when he's crawling for something he wants. In this case: Grandma.

Jet LOVES sticks, and won't let Carson hold onto one for long.

Oh, yep, there he goes. Stick stealer.

Grandma getting lots of snuggles with "her baby."

If it seems too good to be true...

then it is. Right? I'm afraid all hell is about to break loose because I've had the most heavenly day.

Carson slept until 8:00 am. Yes. He's my little up-at-6:15-everyday guy but this morning I was up at 6:15 and had a couple cups of coffee and relaxed while he slept. He's taking his second over-an-hour-long nap of the day right now... and while awake he was a total angel while playing at home and while running three errands. He made a couple friends at HEB and ate all his meals and snacks without getting a single stain on his clothes. He only pinched his fingers in the kitchen cabinets once- and he didn't even cry when I pulled him out of the dishwasher. I have also been able to clean out a closet, his room, and the playroom, do three loads of laundry, and run the dishwasher. Oh- and I took a shower and put on real clothes and make-up. I blow-dried my hair. And, it's not in a ponytail. Oh, and I am blogging.

Am I living in some sort of alternate universe? What is going on?!?

Maybe this is God's way of feeding my second-baby fever with a little "see how easy it is to be a mother?!? It can't be that hard to have two! Go on... have another sweet, precious, adorable baby!!" Well, I just might take the bait. My current goal is to lose ten pounds and then we'll start trying. I just haven't told Sean about that goal yet. (ha!)

Here's a couple cute pics of my men eating popcorn (thanks Aunt Stephanie!)...




"BA!" (translation: Popcorn!! YUM!)



"BA!" (translation: MORE POPCORN!!)

Christmas

My sweet sister-in-law took some pictures on Christmas Day, thank goodness, because I'm the awesome parent who didn't take out her camera one single time over her first born's first Christmas. Geez. What was I thinking?!?

Actually, I wasn't really thinking at all... I was soaking up every single second of that wonderful day. Christmas with my son and family was just amazing.

As all babies seem to be, Carson was more interested in the packaging than the gifts. He really loved Christmas cookies and had more than his fair share. He didn't really get the whole stocking thing... maybe I should have stuffed it with tissue paper and ribbons, he probably would have loved it! His teething seemed to take a break for the holiday and he was able to enjoy all the fun- and so were we! Looking at the pictures makes me laugh because for such a happy baby, he sure doesn't smile for his picture! What a stinker!

Over the past few weeks, Carson has become almost an entirely different baby. It really amazes me! He is now super, super busy all. the. time. If he's awake- he's moving. He LOVES climbing things, which is getting a little scary. I swear, I just turn my head for a second and he's in the dishwasher or on the fireplace mantle or is attempting to climb the kitchen chairs and coffee table.

He's such a fast little crawler too- and he loves to be chased around! He'll just giggle and giggle if you act like you're going to "get him!" He's not walking, but is taking a few little steps when holding on to something.

He's not saying any real words yet- but his "word" for everything is "BA." He points to whatever it is he wants and says "BA!"

Popcorn? "BA!"

Deer heads mounted in the office? "BA!"

Mommy? "BA!"

He LOVES his daddy and just about everything except green beans, eggs, and getting dressed! If it wasn't January, I'd just let him be naked all day long because he's much happier that way! Just like his daddy, he loves all things carbohydrate- bread, crackers, pasta, popcorn... they're two of a kind. I sneak in as many fruits and veggies as I can- for them both!

If you'd have asked me about 11 months ago (yes- he's almost a year old!) if I liked being a parent, um... not so sure. But ask me now... It's AWESOME! Sean and I are having SO! MUCH! FUN! I guess Carson may have a brother or sister after all (all grandparents let out a sigh of relief). I think I may have caught a second baby fever...