Final Hoorah

Ok. So for those that are available we are having a final hoorah at our house from 4-8pm on Saturday, Sept 19th (dinner served at 5p). We'll have volleyball setup for anyone who wants to play. I'm looking for 5 people to each bring 1 pizza (I was thinking Little Cesar's $5 pizza), a couple of people to bring drinks, and everyone else bring something to share. I have cups, plates and napkins and will finish supplying the pizza. Let me know if you have questions or need directions. We hope to see you there!

P.S. Josser will NOT be attending as he'll be spending the night at the vet's. Just in case you were worried my dog might eat your kids. Thanks!

Thank you and Good-bye (to Utah)

First, thank you everyone for your support. I felt so peaceful and calm as I took the stand yesterday. I was confident in my answers and only got flustered once. I know it wouldn't have been as easy (for lack of a better word) without your thoughts and prayers on my behalf. I don't have any updates from the trial at this time. I know I did my best and feel that I am ready to accept whatever happens. I have my fingers crossed for a plea but am willing to move forward with a full on trial. Worst case he walks and gets arrested again for some other stupid crime. I think it helps knowing I won't be around to see it.

Which brings me to my really good news... we are moving to Maryland! Joe just accepted a job offer and we leave in one week to find a place to live. I'll leave him there for work and head back to Utah to finish packing and moving our stuff. I also have to prepare the house to rent. If I can git-r-done without having a nervous breakdown it will be a miracle! But, in the end, I truly believe it will be worth it.

Calling All Pray-ers

So tomorrow I have to testify against the man who robbed me last year. And as strong as I like to pretend to be, I am scared spitless (if I even knew how to spit, lol). But really, tomorrow brings with it a lot of fear and anxiety. Will I be a good witness? Will my testimony be sufficient? Will I say everything the right way and give just enough but not too much information? Will the defense attorney rip me apart on the stand? Will it be enough to push this into a real trial or will I walk away wondering why I said this but didn’t say that? Too many variables. Too many for peace of mind.

So the point? I could really use your prayers and your love. So if you remember, please send a prayer my way tomorrow. I need peace in my heart (and some calming presence to keep my food in my stomach instead of on the stand).

Thank you!

Screw You Fear (any WoW peeps will get that...)

So today I decided to wage a little battle against FEAR. Let's say it's part of my own personal "12-Step" program. I am really working toward building a stronger self-concept and through the journey of self discovery I realized (not to the surprise of any one else) that I am a perfectionist. I am so strongly a perfectionist that I am afraid of trying or doing anything new for fear I'll get it wrong or that the result will be less than perfect. For any normal human being out there that wouldn't be a big deal. Try/fail. It's the process of life. For me it is the end of the world. Except today. I'm still on a pretty good high from hypnotherapy and so I thought it would be a great time to say "screw you fear!" and so I tackled a couple of crafty projects that I've seen other's do but which I have always been afraid to try.

Project 1: Paint the Lamps

I have HATED these brass lamps since we got them for our wedding. Sorry to any out there who love brass, but I think the are so ugly they are FUGLY! But they were FREE.99 so I've kept them for the last 8 years. I always thought I would paint them (or buy new ones) but I never made time for either option. The former because I was afraid to fail and the latter because I have better ways to spend my money. Today I dove right in, took the lamp by the shades, and transformed them into something presentable. To tell the truth... I kinda like my new little chess pieces!

I figure I'll buy some more modern lamp shades after we move. Until then, I like the result... imperfections and all! Best part was that I realized that any huge mistake could be fixed. Not enough paint? Spray on another coat. Don't like black with ivory? Spray the ivory black too! Don't like the gloss finish? Use matte next time. So simple. Why have I never done this before?

Project 2: Paint the Board

This was a gift to me from Joe's mom years ago. All the hard work had been done. All I had to do was paint the darn thing and hang it anywhere I wanted. Oh, and buy some magnets for it. But, worried I wouldn't get it "just right," I've put it off for years. I almost gave it away, too. And I am SO glad I didn't. With some quick taping and spray paint, I went from au-natural to beautiful black!

And then, on a roll from these quick wins, I decided to spruce up the board a little bit more. I had some Stampin Up rub-ons that were perfect. Snip, rub and few moments for placement and voila!

I'm still looking for a word or phrase to run across the top. Any suggestions? I haven't decided whether this will be a board for photos, lists, or misc. But I definitely want to hang it somewhere visible!!!

I am SO excited everything turned out and that I was able to git-r-done all by myself (with LOTS of inspiration from my dear do-it-yourself friends). I've even gonna try my hand at making my own magnets to match the board. Thanks for inspiring me, ladies! I had SO much fun today!

Uhg!

So I just found out I didn't get that job. It was rejected at the highest level. We tried to backdoor it by hiring me as a temp, but HR rejected me. Honestly... am I even employable anymore? Frustrated and unsure.