Thursday, 31 March 2005

Cast your mind back.......

.....if you can, to let's say three years ago, when if you where lucky your, state of the art, pc boasted a Pentium 3, 700mhz processor, 128 SDR, a 32 meg graphics card and a hard drive that at 20 gig you felt you couldn't possibly manage to fill!

Cast your mind back too, are you still with me?, and recall too what accompanied these er.... stunning machines....... the dialup, oh wonderful thing that it was. Those who were lucky connected at something over 45kbps those that were not so lucky envied such a speed, email was restricted to small files, or interminable waiting times, a single music track took 15 minutes to download, assuming of course you could maintain a connection long enough, lag was a pain in th butt and IRC and I.M conversations were cut instantly, always at an inappropriate moment, short by being 'booted' courtesy of the 2 hour obligatory cutting of the connection.

Remember all of those delights do you, cringe at the memory?

Welcome to my world!

Yes, living in our beautifully idyllic field, surrounded by all that nature has to offer, may have it's positive side but it certainly has one big negative to those of us very slightly addicted to the internet...... no broadband! Three years we have waited, three whole, slow years, we have entertained satellite connections, download only connections, various bits of useless software all to no avail, we are still stuck with a dialup, and I might add, one that rarely connects above 42 kbps! It has been a trial, we have even considered moving. Gradually every town an village within the vicinity had acquired the magical connection but no, not us! We in our field have been just out of range each time.

So in the days when the average pc is boasting a Pentium 4, 3000mhz processor, 512 DDR, 128mb graphics and at least an 80 gig hardrive, yours truly is still suffering the archaic 42 kbps, the booting and the half hour waits when some kind soul forgets...... and sends a 4 meg mail.

At last things are set to change, our three year wait is nearly at it's end, ok, so maybe I am a little premature in my celebrations but we have but 10 weeks (er...not that we are counting) left before we finally join the rest of civilisation and can enjoy the high speed connections that most now take for granted. 10 weeks, just 10 weeks! Yayyyyyy.

PG I think, will any day now begin counting the days on a graph, modems will be ordered doubtless well in advance, the laptop will be networked in readiness for the end of the 'who can have the connection' fight discussion and hey, we will even have a viable phone line once more. On second thoughts maybe that's a down side, we hold a 24/7 dialup, we never get hassled with phone calls.....no one can get through! Yes of course there are our cell phones but double glazing sales teams don't call those :o)

So it's ten weeks and counting......and counting........

:o))

Wednesday, 30 March 2005

Meet Jaydon


Jaydon & PG 30.03.05

Meet the new arrival, Jaydon, two days old, nicely un-wrinkled and extremely cuddly!

This afternoon we visited the proud parents and sister for the first time. I am amazed, as one who has never been through all this 'baby business' how cool 'Mum' is. Believe me, only a day after a reasonably difficult birth I would be 'convalescing' and in a state of complete disarray.......not this mum, nope, she is looking good, things are back to normal, the house is tidy, and the baby is contented. Barely a murmer did he utter.

PG was worryingly taken with this "wee man" and barely did I have him in my arms (after a little persuasion....well they are so small and seemingly breakable when one is unused to them) than he had snatched him away and was happily cooing in a corner at him.....and this is the guy who says he doesn't want kids! Hmmmmm.

In memory of Karine

Myself and Karine's good friend Charmaine have decided that we would like to send flowers for Karine's funeral as a small show of our sympathy and we wondered if any other of her 'blog friends' would like to be included. We are for various reasons unable to attend in person but would like to do something to show our support to her family and in her memory.

I am currently making the necessary arrangements. We will send a bouquet, something reasonably bright, Karine would not have wanted anything sombre.

I do not want for anyone to feel pressured and therefore ask that if you would like to make a donation and be included that you email me from the link below rather than leave a comment. You can of course leave a comment if you wish.

Mailto: say-it@gemmak.co.uk

Tuesday, 29 March 2005

"No"

Why is it that in the face of certain situations and certain people I am so pathetically un-assertive?

Work called me earlier today asking me to help them out and work tomorrow, my line manager has been taken into hospital and they are short of bodies. I hate that, I know I have a right to a life, as it happens PG and I have a day off together and have plans for the day, but no, instead of just saying "sorry I can't," what do I do? Turn into a gibbering idiot is what I do! I have a horrible habit of rambling on making my excuses in an attempt to justify something I know I shouldn't feel it necessary to justify in the first place.....and doubtless sounding crap into the bargain! All I am doing is providing an opening for persuasion and argument!

Why can't I just say 'no' and be done with it....I know the rules of assertiveness....Goddamn I have to learn to apply them and subsequently not sit here feeling guilty for having a life!

Must practice "NO", must practice "NO"..........

A happy event

At 17.10 yesterday our close friends D&W became parents again for the second time and provided their daughter, the light of PG's life, with a baby brother!

'Jayden' finally wieghed in at 8lbs 1oz, having taken his time somewhat, in deciding to enter the world.

Mother and child are both doing well........more after we visit the hospital this evening.


~ Congratulations to D&W, the proud new parents ~

Monday, 28 March 2005

A typical bank holiday

Statiticians and those that have the dubious task of providing us with all those odd facts and figures on how we live our lives never tire of telling us that in the UK at least, shopping is the single biggest leisure activity, a situation that I find quite worrying and sad but regardless it is a fact.

Sad it maybe that we have become a nation so obsessed with the great Gods that are money and possession but is it any wonder perhaps when I look out the window on yet another typical bank holiday Monday. It is cold, the rain is coming down like 'stair rods' and at 7.30am it is still relatively dark. I know that is in part due to the shift to British summer time (there's an irony if ever there was one) but it is unusually dark. The birds are twittering their displeasure, huddled and bedraggled on overhead cables and under eaves and everything looks set for a dismal day, meteorologically at least!

PG has hobbled off to work, leg strapped up and looking none too fit for the job to be honest and I'm about to do the same. My day at work should be a reasonable one and pass quickly. The weather will at least ensure that Joe public will not defy the statiticians and find something interesting to do but will run true to form and hit the shops with vigour, making my day a busy one that is over in a flash.

Every cloud has a silver lining as they say :o)

Sunday, 27 March 2005

Where did today go?

What happened to today then? Can anyone tell me where it went?

One minute I was looking forward to it and the next it is almost over! What makes it worse is I have done nothing, absolutely nothing to speak of. I fiddled with a little HTML for someone, made a loaf of bread and that was about it.....and I might add that the bread making exercise is not what it seems, all it involved was tipping a few bits into a machine and pressing the 'on' button.

I was thrown at the first fence, we staggered into bed at about 4 am this morning which resulted in my over-sleeping, I never wake late but today it was 9.30 before I saw daylight and then horror of horrors, my first, yes really, realisation that we had hit BST at some point and I had lost another hour. As if 9.30 was not bad enough 10.30 was most certainly not good! Had I been due to work I would have been woken by someone telling me in no uncertain terms that I was late.

I never quite recovered, I always have a 'thing' about losing that hour, I want it back, it's mine!! Why can't the clocks go forward one hour in the middle of a Monday afternoon I wonder....... that would far more civil.

And so the day passed me by somehow, I admit to returning to my bed for a small siesta but where the remainder of it disappeared too I have no idea!

Happy Easter

To you all.




Easter, like Christmas has a way of making me feel kinda guilty, though I admit only slightly. I am not a religious individual, at least not in the traditional sense. In the past I considered myself to be atheist, as I have got older I would have to say I am an agnostic if I had to categorize myself on the question of my faith or lack of it. I suppose I feel there must be 'something' greater and more powerful than ourselves but whether that is a God in the traditional sense I just don't know.

It is as a consequence of these thoughts that I feel a little guilt for celebrating events in the Christian calendar such as Easter and Christmas but along with most others, celebrate them I do. I detest hypocrisy in any form and I suppose I feel a little hypocritical myself in my enjoyment of festivals that in reality are not about giving presents and over indulgence but about something so much more important to so many people.

Despite all this Christmas and Easter are special though for me in maybe a less profound manner. They are days when I hope we have time to think of those we love and can spend at least one day relaxing and enjoying their company, being with family maybe, with friends or in the community doing something in some small way for those who are less fortunate.

My Easter? Well for me, very selfishly, it is special in that it is the only day in the year that the law forbids my place of work to open and hence the only day I am guaranteed to be able to refuse to work. Many years the store still runs a shift for those that want to work but it has to remain closed to the public. This year my boss has amazingly decided against even that, so the pressure one usually feels from above to *have* to work is not there. ......yayyyy for the boss.

Add to that, every cloud has a silver lining, PG, still suffering with his leg (though it is improving) is still off work so this will be the very first Easter day we have had off together since the beginning of 'gemmak and PG'. I doubt we will do anything special, the weather is it's normal damp, yukky English Easter self and we didn't hit bed until very stupid o'clock this morning but we will at least get to spend it together chilling.

So, whatever today means to you.....have a very happy Easter.

Saturday, 26 March 2005

The bag anti-meme!

In a weak moment I promised to join in this 'anti-meme' on 'Elephants and Dragonflies'. Last time I did this I was only required to list the contents of my bag....this time I have to photograph the bag, it's contents and list them! Eekkkk.

Here goes:

The bag: A tula, boring and black but I love it, it was a 40th birthday present.




It's contents:




Purse.
Locker key for work.
Lighter.
Inhaler.......perhaps I shouldn't have listed that directly after the inhaler :o/
Keys.
Swiss army knife.
Maglight.
PDA.
A blue er....frog? from a cracker I pulled with my mother on new years eve!
An acorn, picked up out walking with my parents last year sometime.
My right arm......no sorry that's my cell phone.
Pen.
Breath fresheners.
'Tums'.
Driving licence.
Misc. underground tickets from days out....I always keep em.
RAC membership card.
Lip gloss.
Body shop lip salve.

There ya go, make what you will of that lot, heh.

Sharp perspective

This week has been one of the most horrible I remember for a long time, I'm not easily reduced to an all pervading feeling of negativity but since Monday, each day seemed to bring yet more difficulties or upset.

It began with PG further injuring his leg, having just the day before seen the doctor and been told it would take a while to heal completely, he fell on it again and rendered it useless. It has since begun to repair itself yet again but he has been in a deal of pain and been unable to go to work. Work was the next problem, on Wednesday it was looking like he would lose his job, thankfully that disaster seems to have been averted though we are not yet 'counting our chickens'. Thursday passed without incident but yesterday felt like the final straw.

I had barely been in work for half an hour when the next un-wonderful incident occurred by way of it now being my turn to injure myself. Please don't laugh, for in retrospect the scenario seems quite funny! Ok.....well laugh then, after the last few days anything funny is better than misery.

There I was, minding my own business in the process of pushing a heavily laden shopping cart to the opposite end of the store to deposit it's contents, when suddenly, quite literally without warning this trolley caught a wheel, upended itself at speed and catapulted me at high velocity into the air, depositing me finally in an ungainly heap on the floor some distance away and with what had been it's contents of something brick-like ontop of me! Feeling utterly stupid I gathered myself up from under the rubble and hobbled inelegantly to find a first aider.

It could have been a lot worse, I was lucky, my injuries are superficial but I too now have a leg that does not wish to be walked on and an array of bumps, bruises and cuts that hurt like hell. I wonder what the mathematical probability is that PG and I should both be hobbling and both have injured the same leg at the same time? What a pair, the two of us together don't amount to one operational individual right now as we limp slowly around wincing when bits hurt!

I limped on at work for a few hours and then was dispatched home to rest my leg. My arrival home bought the terribly sad news of my friend Karine's death. The positive me gave up at that point and I sat like a fool unable to stop snivelling. We knew of course that we would lose Karine but I had not expected it to be quite so soon and I had not expected it to hit me quite so hard.

This morning the positive me is creeping back, it is not my feelings I should be selfishly considering but those of her husband and son whose loss is so infinitely more acute than mine. She taught me to put my life into sharper perspective and to make the most of it, she retained her humour and pleasure in life throughout and to complain and winge at my current troubles is to do her a dis-service....... I am humbled greatly, my problems are nothing!

And so, it's back to work today for me, hobbling maybe but with my positive head back on and a smile on my face. Yes I am of course very sad, I could happily cry all day but that is most certainly not making the most of my life and nor is it a fitting way to remember or honour a lady who showed such massive courage and strength in the face of real adversity.

"Be happy Karine, you made such a difference to so many."

Friday, 25 March 2005

The saddest of days

Back in January you may recall I posted about a lady called Karine, the author of the blog 'Graybar'. I know some of you since then have visited her blog regularly.

This morning I received an email telling me of the tragic news that Karine died today.

I didn't know Karine for long and only via her blog and email, I never got a chance to meet her but I felt I knew her. She was one of the most truly inspirational people I have ever and I suspect, will ever, know. In the face of an illness that most of us would find hard to bear she remained courageous and strong, though she herself would typically, probably deny that. She embraced life and all it had to offer with a passion rarely found and always, even in the dark moments, retained her wonderful sense of humour and spirit.

In a few short months this lady taught me a great deal about life, love and humility and made me rethink how I live and view my own life. I will feel forever privileged and lucky to have known her.

My thoughts and deepest sympathies are with her husband and young son at this sad time.

Wherever you are now Karine may you be happy, you were truly one in a million...... you touched my life.



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'Ping'

Am I the only one having problems 'pinging' blogroll the last few days? It will just not 'ping', instead I get an error message that appears to be written in a language yet to be discovered by man! Help anyone?

Thursday, 24 March 2005

Great balls of fire

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Sunset 24.03.05


Sunset 24.03.05 (1)

A quick update

Yesterdays anticipated difficulties and problems did not materialize in quite the manner we expected, they still exist but things could be a lot worse. A small sigh of relief could be heard in gemmaks-ville at round about 17.00 hrs as news was received that the impending trauma had been averted somewhat. It is, it seems, an ongoing situation that cannot be completely resolved immediately but for now things are looking up.

Today should be a better day. Today is the 'official' opening of the store in which I work. There have been mail shots, a television and press advertising campaign and we are all ragged from preparation but it should, with luck and a prevailing wind be a fun day..........if knackering! I won't bore you with the anticipated rise in takings and customer flow but expect me to be at least an inch shorter by this evening! We have of course the company of the boards hierarchy, how lovely (not)..... best behaviour everyone please...... but we also have one or two good things going on throughout the day. Yes, I think today will be a better day :o)

Wednesday, 23 March 2005

Small world syndrome

Amazing!

A few evenings ago, sat here as I am so frequently, I began surfing in an endeavor to find any other bloggers within the area of Scotland that I live. Believe me when I say that there are not many, in fact to be more specific I found just two. One was a long ago abandoned attempt with only one post but it was the the other that caught my eye.......it's owner was listed as in the very same vicinity as me.

This blog too seemed abandoned..... but me being me, I left a comment regardless and expected to hear no more. I was wrong. The very next day I received a reply, sadly the reply said that the blog was no longer active and it's author now blogged on a private access only url.

We mailed back and forth, and it transpired that we live very close to one another indeed, infact in the same small postal town. What was even more amazing is that we have the same name!! Well he of course has the male version for his first name but we both have exactly the same sir name.....how weird and how wow is that?? ......and what a small world.

Very kindly I have been given access to this guy's blog but as it is closed access, for his family and close friends you will understand why I can't give you an url.

The odd thing about this is that we have become so used now to having instant access to friends all over the world, that to find someone close by is now the more amazing!

I wanna go back to bed!

Today is my first day back to work after our holiday, no more html fiddling all day for me, no more lazing about doing my 'own thing', it's back to reality. Gah!

Add to that I have a feeling it's not going to be a good day, there are one or two problems facing us that have been hanging over our heads for a while causing worry and have to be dealt with today. We have not been practicing avoidance, they are situations that are beyond our control, I can't blog the details right now (if ever) ........ I just wanna go back to bed and hide!

Fat chance, into the melee we go, think positive thoughts, who needs a self fulfilling prophecy! I'll be back later, perhaps I'll have a smile on my face......here's hoping!

Tuesday, 22 March 2005

Back at it!

Well that's it, only the remainder of today left of our holiday and then it's noses to the grind stone for both of us.....it seems but barely a day since I was shouting hurrah as I left work with 10 days of freedom ahead of me.

Since we returned from London life seems to have been hectic, one long round of laundry, ironing and cleaning, how can just two people get through so many clothes in less than a week I wonder?

Poppy and Ditto, against their better judgment, appeared to have a good holiday in their 'cat hotel'. I am ever wary, the establishment we used to patronise closed recently and the new one was until now 'untested' by 'you know who'. We made all the necessary checks but having had one bad experience previously, I am ever worried that things are not always all they seem.

I need not have concerned myself, they both returned home in good humour, there was little evidence of the usual huffiness and stand-offishness we are normally greeted with. Amazingly Ditto ate during her time away, something she usually refuses to do and Poppy came home having gained a little more weight and with her coat looking all posh and shiny! I must check out what she was fed!

Things declined somewhat yesterday for Ditto. I was woken early by the sound of her throwing up, poor little soul, this is a first for her, she has thus far had a cast iron stomach and the vomiting process seemed to confuse her a little! I checked her over, kept a close eye on her and then left her to sleep. I fear this incident is likely to be related to over zealous hunting in her eagerness to catch up with lost time since our return. By the evening she seemed back to her normal self and was howling to be let back out and check her territory for interlopers. With luck it was a one off.......she seemed decidedly miffed at the whole 'being ill' business!

School boy kills ten in Minnesota

It's happened again, a schoolboy, this time in Minnesota, has gone on the rampage with a firearm, or in this case two, and killed nine of his class mates before turning his weapon on himself.

This kind of incident has happened before and no doubt will tragically happen again at some point. It is an horrific crime in so many ways and one can only but imagine the horror felt by those poor children when face to face with such trauma, in a place they consider themselves to be safe. The lifelong suffering that will haunt their families and loved ones must be catastrophic and the damage done to those who witnessed the incident and saw their classmates slain in front of them, will be immeasurable.

How does one 'legislate' against this to prevent a repeat? Schools in many places now, as a result of this type of crime and other heinous incidents, are often beginning to resemble fortresses. Children are taught from a young age to be aware of their personal security and there are all manner of professional bodies set up to 'catch' individuals with family or psychological problems, before they 'fall through the net,' and become so damaged as to even consider behaving in such a tragic manner.

Sadly, and perhaps negatively I suggest that we just can't hope to prevent these occurrences 100%. 'Justitia', as a professional in this field, will be better able to consider this point than I but is it not impossible to account for every severely disturbed child, ever individual with an undiagnosed psychosis or those who's lives have been so blighted by personal trauma or pain from an early age that their feeling of self loathing and inadequacy give them a propensity for such outrageous behaviour?

As a society perhaps we have some responsibility. I am not normally given to 'blaming the parents' but without doubt there are parents who take no reasonable level of care of their offspring, I hate censorship but where young and forming minds are concerned I worry that we expose then from a young age, to scenes so violent via film and other media that they must surely become desensitized and in cases where there is no other guidance available coupled with an instability of one type or another, can we be completely surprised that occasionally a vulnerable child loses sight of what are normal and acceptable bahaviours?

There is a train of thought that suggests these children (and adults) are just wicked or evil, in some case perhaps, though I doubt in all! In the main I believe we are a product of our life experiences, it may not be a popular belief but it is my opinion that there are reasons for most things if we delve deep enough.

Yesterday's killings in Minnesota seem an act of pure evil, most of us cannot imagine the thoughts or motivations of a child choosing to take these tragic actions. My thoughts and sympathies are with those who suffered, lost their lives or lost a child they love, who's lives will be blighted forever but still, I cannot help but wonder on the history of the perpetrator, of what tormented him to such a degree. Perhaps I am wrong.

~ May they rest in peace ~

Monday, 21 March 2005

Five questions, courtesy of Kate

Sauntering around the blogosphere late last night, as one does, I noticed Kate of Kitty's Scritchings was playing the five questions game. Of course, I couldn't resist offering myself up for the slaughter so here goes:

1. The most memorable day in my life was:
The day I met PG face to face for the first time.

2. My favourite place to shop is:
Anywhere that sells gadgets, PC world or Next.

3. If I could go back in time to give myself one piece of advice, I'd go back to when I was:
getting married for the first time and say DON'T!!!

4. When I was little I wanted to grow up to be a:
Prosecution lawyer, a cop or a television camera (wo)man. I could never decide and in the event I wasn't bright enough for the first, I was too short for the second (yes, I know the height restriction changed later) and somehow never got close to the third!

5. If money were no object, purely for indulgence I would buy myself:
A flawless diamond of at least 2 carats.....or an R1.

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Any one want to play? Drop me a comment or mail if you want to join in.

And finally........

......a cyber cafe, Camden style!



High speed connection?? Hmmmm.

The first sunny Sunday

As I pottered around the flat yesterday, windows flung open in the warm sunlight a frequent sound bought back memories of years gone by and of the 'first sunny Sunday' in every springtime. There are very few things that I miss from my old life, save of course for my family, very few things that can fill me with instant wistful-ness and even fewer sounds that fill me instantly, with a feeling of excitement, good memories and the promise possibility of a long hot summer to come.

So of what am I talking, the sound of swallows returning from their winter vacation, of lambs bleating in the field, of lawnmowers beginning a new season of work or of people walking outside, chatting to one another and greeting neighbor's they have not seen for the duration of the winter, while they hid away indoors against the cold?

No....it is none of these, it is the unmistakable sound of high powered motorcycles chasing madly around the lanes, screaming up and down through gearboxes, 'popping' with power and signaling, for me, the start of spring.

Even here in this quiet backwater this annual pleasure can be heard, for to me it is indeed a pleasure......as I listened to these feats of engineering given their head, for the first time this year I was there with them, I felt the power, went smoothly through the box with them at the corners, felt the machine become part of the person, the wrench on my shoulders as they braked hard and accelerated even harder and felt the power of the air around my body.

Yeah, so some will say it's a dangerous pass-time, that these reckless petrol heads risk their lives for an adrenaline rush and disturb the peace and quiet, but for me nothing ever came close to being so much fun ( Ok...maybe just one thing). After a long winter on four wheels the first sunny Sunday in spring always heralded the beginning of a new season of everything fun one can do in leather. Memories of hastily made phone calls among those like minded friends as we realised that at last summer was on it's way, the roads were dry, the sun was out and we could go play together. Memories of 30 or so bikes, winding, snake-like through the countryside, blowing away the winter cobwebs, the feeling of power, of torque, of speed and of utter freedom.

Yes, the sound of screaming engines, the Ducati dry clutch 'clunk', the Kawasaki 'whistle' and of pegs and sliders hitting tarmac is music to my ears.

Take it easy guys.....but not too easy......

Bugger and damn........I miss it!

Sunday, 20 March 2005

Holiday: Part two

Thursday morning saw us on the underground bright and early, well early at any rate, our destination Chelsea's Kings Road followed by a stroll around Camden.

The Kings Road was a 'must do' destination in my past, a place that we considered in our youth the only place to be and most certainly the only place to buy one's attire. I still love the Kings Road, though my penchant for it's kind of fashion has diminished a little and my ability to pay the price has become somewhat inhibited.....did I really pay so much for a pair of jeans in my hey-day?

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SW3

The journey in was uneventful, the weather again was treating us to temperatures reminiscent of summer and we sat 'people watching' clutching pain au chocolat and good coffee in the sun courtesy of the first pavement cafe we found. There is still no ignoring the fact that this is Chelsea, some things never change and the Kings Road being a favorite with 30 something's blessed with economic wealth is one of them. It would only be a blind man who did not notice the multitudes of Gucci, Louis Vuitton, diamonds and designer this and that adorning a larger than average proportion of the population. Maserati and Ferrari seem to be the transport of choice and coffee and pastries for four will still set you back almost as much as dinner in a less affluent or trendy area....... You just gotta love it!


Kings Road

We wandered aimlessly among the shops and the day to day throng, this may be an expensive place to be but it has a certain laid back ambiance that I think has probably always been one of it's attractions. We marveled at the beautiful tree lined residential streets jutting off the main street at intervals and did the 'what would I give to live here' conversation that always occurs accompanies these places for me. I may love our little patch of Scotland and the countryside but just ask me if I would swap.....absolutely no contest! Unfortunately I am short of a few million GBP.


I wanna live here!

Lunch time-ish and we headed for Camden. I hate buses but London buses are different, they of course have an upstairs, the child in me still has to attempt to procure the upper front seat and it is never boring with so much to see,unlike the tube which affords one a view of almost nothing in many parts. So a bus it was, first to Tottenham Court Road and a bite to eat, nothing exciting here, we were too hungry and fell into a McDonald's opposite the Dominion Theatre and then back onto another bus and to Camden.



Camden Lock.


Camden Market.

Camden is very a very different place to Chelsea, it boasts four markets all selling antique or 'alternative clothing' and of late has become a must for those preferring a slightly unusual lifestyle. The shops, boutiques and markets are something else and are inhabited by fascinating individuals living life their way. One can buy here almost anything from a bottle of milk to magic mushrooms and piercing and tattooing are available in abundance. The atmosphere is good, laid back and at the same time upbeat, anything goes and the place has a kind of freedom not found elsewhere easily.


Retail therapy ~ Camden style.


Mushrooms anyone?

As the sun went down we headed home again, another bus trip to Baker Street and the tube from there. London they say is a stressful place, busy, loud, fast..... but for me it is a magical place, a place like no other, it's atmospheres are many, it's attraction and beauty unending......sometimes, just sometimes, I miss it like hell.

And that's it, Friday we packed, went for one last cappuccino at a local place, we sat outside in the sun of course and then hit the motorway homeward. We stopped for a few hours in the Midlands to visit my sister and her family. My nieces required that I spend two hours on scooters and roller blades with them......don't ask if my legs still hurt.......and then it was truly home bound. A journey of stamina, the temptation to stay 'just a little bit longer' won, well we see little enough of them, one has to make the most of the opportunity but the downside of course was the 300 miles ahead of us, already tired and at the dead of night. We made it, we stopped often, drank copious amounts of coffee and fell into bed, with cat's happy to be home, in tow!

Saturday, 19 March 2005

Holiday: Part one

So we are back and it barely seems a few hours since we left, I hate that time with my parents goes so quickly but like they say, who ever 'they' may be, "time flies when you're having fun"

Having arrived late afternoon on the Monday, been fed and watered to the usual excellent and somewhat decadent standard, we hit the sack in readiness for a day of retail therapy on Tuesday. Please don't ask, what can I say? One has to make the most of the opportunity and what is plastic for if not that?! Besides, shops have places to sit and PG was still nursing his fat leg, we could hardly drag him the tourist route now could we, without at least one more day for him to recover a little!

Wednesday we woke to something in the region of 20 degrees, clear blue skies and bright sunshine, the weather remained as such for the duration of our stay and having left Scotland at minus 2 degrees the change made our small holiday seem positively like summer. We seemed to spend much time peeling off layers of fleece and winter clothing having been wary of trusting the weather Gods.....well this is the UK, sun cannot be guaranteed!

We decided to hit Windsor and do the 'tourist thang', as locals, of course we endeavor not too but PG is new to all this and provides the rest of us with a suitable excuse to enjoy some of the attractions we haven't visited for years. Windsor was as ever, royal and busy, a selection of well clad tourists, upmarket shops and eateries and of course the residence of HRH and her gang. Perhaps not surprisingly the furore of previous royal weddings is not in much evidence. There are of course the tacky souvenir teacloths bearing images of the 'happy couple' but whilst Charlie appears somewhat odd in his image, as is the way of these hastily and cheaply manufactured delights, Camilla seems to have had bestowed upon her some improvement! ;o)

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Windsor Castle from The Guildhall.


From the main street.

Aside from these items being on sale there seems to be little activity save for a larger than usual police presence and a plethora of armed officers hastily checking all man-hole covers and re-sealing them with regular monotony......a sad indictment of the times in which we live. Even the letter boxes were sealed, though as luck would have it just as I was standing looking hopeless, post card in hand, infront of a sealed specimen, a guy from the post office appeared and kindly took my offering personally!


Enter here.


The obligatory tourist shot with Victoria!

We meandered about until lunchtime, when we partook of excellent fare at a very trendy and laid back establishment offering such delights as 'a posh fish finger sandwiches' and the most superb cappuccino known to man (or woman for that matter).....despite the wind the sun was warm and on my insistence we ate outside at tables on the pavement, I just love pavement eating, though there was some chasing of serviettes in the wind, involved!

Stuffed with lunch we pottered back castle-ward and to The Guildhall, the soon to be venue of a certain wedding. Two things struck me, this is by no means a 'common' building, as HRH seems to believe, or at least her lackeys would have us believe, but with a little more warning it could perhaps have been treated to a coat of new paint before the worlds media descend upon it. Secondly my feelings that the excuse given for the Queen not attending the forthcoming nuptials is somewhat weak.....it is not 5 minutes walk from the castle entrance and I feel sure there could have been a suitable mode of transport arranged, should she not wish to use the foot method of propulsion!


The Guildhall.....venue of an imminent marriage.

Having completed the tourist bit we made our way, via 'Ben and Jerry's' of course, to the Thames and to my favourite part of Windsor...... the Mute swans that reside there owned by HRH. They are the most beautiful creatures and despite their regal appearance behave in a very un-regal fashion, shouting and hollering, begging for food (which of course can be purchased from a water front vendor, no opportunity at economic gain missed in a place like Windsor) and upending themselves inelegantly at every opportunity.


Royal swans on the Thames.


Feeding frenzy!

Swans, I know, can break one's arm if they have a mind too but these are more than used to 'visitors' and providing they are treated with reasonable respect are a delight in that they will interact to a point. We of course made haste to the aforementioned vendor to purchase the appropriate food and fed swans, ducks and assorted 'hangers on' to our hearts content, until we had almost to be dragged away by my parents like kids, in an endeavor to miss the London and Heathrow rush hour..... not something one would choose to be involved in!


Stretch.


The less glamorous get hungry too.

And then it was home, foot weary but happy for a small respite before dinner out in one of my favorite places locally, 'Cafe Uno'. Here of course further stuffing of faces occurred on all manner of things including red snapper, pasta, anti pasto, lamb shank (not me of course) Parmesan, salmon, olives by the bucket load and the most enormous piece of a bitter chocolate torte concoction I have ever been presented with. I of course finished it, well it would be rude not to! The only tricky part of the day was my father's dessert, a thing of gluttony that was, in theory, to be flambe'd at the table. The waitress seemed to have forgotten this small point so ever helpful I attempted to assist, cigarette lighter ever handy. Perhaps the less said about this little incident the better.....let's just say we eventually managed to extinguish the er....'flambe', without resorting to calling 999! Heh.

~Part two to follow~

Home

We are home! It's 01.00 hrs, it was a long drive and I need to sleep.......more soon :o)

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............

Friday, 18 March 2005

London calling

Just a quick line or two. I couldn't resist the opportunity to sneak on here and have a little look! Lisa has I see, run true to form and posted some good stuff while I have been here in London having fun. The photo of Piccadilly Circus was taken from inside a bus and only on my phone, then mailed to her from the phone....I am amazed it ever arrived, let alone the fact that it bears some resemblance to the place. See, I told you Nokia are good!

We have had a hectic but much fun-filled time down here in the South, we have barely stopped to take a breath, have filled every moment and have had a great time with my parents. Sadly all that remains of our holiday now is one sleep, breakfast and then it's back on the road for the 400 miles home. We will stop en-route at my sisters to spend a few hours with her and my nieces in the midlands and then it's a late night drive up the A1 and over the border back into Scotland. The upside to the end of our visit is that the cats will be waiting for us, having been collected earlier in the day by a friend and deposited at home.

I hate the goodbye bit and I hate that the time here always goes by so fast but it's been a lovely few days.....I'll post more of the specifics when I get home but for now I have a massive cappuccino, with a very decadent a layer of Belgian chocolate flakes adorning the top, that requires my attention. My father having just slaved over the machine to produce it, I'm off to give it the deserved attention!

Catch you in Scotland soon..... and thank you Lisa, very much, for doing such a wonderful babysitting job! :o)

Thursday, 17 March 2005

Gem sent this to me today. It is a photo of Picadilly square, where I'm sure she's working out her retail therapy issues. :)

St. Patrick's Day

In the US, as I'm sure in other parts of the world, St. Patrick's Day is a day for partaking in tradition. The tradition includes eating corned beef and cabbage and drinking it up a the local pub.

My mom used to make a big deal of St. Patrick's Day.. maybe she still does. She turned dinner green with food coloring, she made green jello, etc.

The funny thing is that my dad can't stand green food. When he was a child, he contracted food poisoning due to some green food he ate. Rather than develop an aversion to the particular food he ate, he developed one toward the color of the food.

That's an Engineer for ya. They're a wierd bunch.

Do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day?

Wednesday, 16 March 2005

Burns Night, a day late and a dollar short

In attempting to come up with an appropriate post for the day, I accidentally landed on a website regarding “Burns Night”. As I read through the “traditional festivities” for Burns Night, I thought in the back of my head, “We would never do anything like this in the US.” That is not a bad thing. It is something that a long history gives you a chance to do, develop transitions that go far beyond the modern era, long before the first President of the United States was born.

From what I can tell from the website, this is the time to roll out the traditional Haggis. Just how popular is Haggis? And how many people eat it with neeps and tatties? (or, in other words “turnips and potatoes”) I am thinking Haggis is a thing they would have on Fear Factor, but you tell me:

Traditional Haggis (from Evelyn Hlabse, esh2@po.CWRU.Edu)
1 sheep's pluck (stomach bag)
2 lb.. dry oatmeal
1 lb. suet
1 lb. lamb's liver
2 1/2 cups stock
1 large chopped onion
1/2 tsp. cayenne pepper,
Jamaica pepper and salt

Scotland is somehow becoming a frightening place for me now. :) However, Gem, I do want you to know that there IS vegetarian Haggis for those a little put off by lamb’s liver and a sheep stomach.

Back to my story, though. Haggis "is typically served on Burns Night, January 25, when Scotland celebrates the birth of its greatest poet, Robert Burns, who was born in Ayrshire on that date in 1759. During the celebration, Burns poems are read, and the haggis is addressed by a member of the party, ceremonially, in the form of verses from Burns' poem, 'Address to a Haggis.' A typical meal for Burns Night would include Cock-a-Leekie, Haggis with Tatties-an'-Neeps, Roastit Beef, Tipsy Laird, and Dunlop Cheese."

I am not really sorry that I somehow missed Burns Night, taking the Haggis into consideration, however, I do admire the tradition.

Have a nice day people.

Lisa

Tuesday, 15 March 2005

We got here at last!

We finally made it. Things carried on in the same vein, planning was shot to hell! En-route to deliver two noisy and rather annoyed cats to their holiday home my car ran true to recent form and developed a fault! Grrrr. I can't believe this car is still substantially less than four years old!

A suitable detour was hastily made to a dealership in search of a friendly mechanic who informed us that it was an alternator problem, he couldn't fix it there and then as was quite obvious but with luck, it was his considered opinion we would make the journey without incident. At any rate it was not a danger, the worse scenario would be we would come to a grinding halt at the side of the road and have to call on the services of a rescue company. We took the chance.

Cats where duly deposited in their temporary abode, looking none to impressed and hissing and grumbling intermittently to register their lack of pleasure.

We hit the road and thankfully the journey was incident free. Our luck seemed to have changed, not one accident or traffic jam did we encounter and we arrive in 6 hours flat.....a record for a journey that has on occasion taken up to nine hours.

And that's it for now, we chatted, ate and drank into the small hours, fell into bed at stupid o'clock and there I remained until gone nine this morning....I never do that, I am always up by six.....what a treat.

Retail therapy beckons, it cannot be resisted, real shops and lots them, in close proximity, not to be missed by those such as we who normally have to travel 80 miles for such modern convenience!

I have plastic in hand, things are looking good..........

Monday, 14 March 2005

The best laid plans......

....what is it they say about those?

Yesterday, another 13th, a fact that crept up on me slowly, ran true to form. This time it was PG who suffered, he damaged his knee, would you believe it, his foot slipped off the clutch changing gear! No injury was apparent, in fact the incident was all but forgotten until later when he began sporting a rapidly expanding limb that now appears akin to a grapefruit in dimensions. Many cold compresses, an elevated leg and all manner of other cures have been to no avail.

Proceedings for the impending journey have not been helped by this event, he cannot walk with any efficiency let alone drive, so it would appear the honour of the 400 miles will be mine alone...... while he reads the paper, plays on the laptop and snoozes for the duration! I am not unsympathetic, it is hurting him like hell, just why now?? Gah!

Finally, the packing is done, the myriad last minute 'things to remember' have been crossed off the 'don't forget' list and the cats are about to be pushed forcibly into their carriers for their journey to the, er.... holiday home, they do not enter these 'cages' voluntarily, unless of course it is for a homeward journey from the vets. There is a distinct possibility that this task could be a feat in itself as we race around the premises after them and attempt to extricate one or other from tight spaces under various pieces of furniture!

And that's it, we are on our way.....point me at London and tell me when we are there!

I will of course do my best to get a post here every day, as my resolution dictates, whilst I am away. I have almost mastered posting via email from my phone but the technology seems to be lacking a little in reliability. No matter, I leave you in the more than capable hands of my friend, the HTML wizard(ess), Lisa, who has kindly agreed to 'babysit' this patch for the duration....one or other of us should make it here most days.

Have a good week....I'm gone!

Sunday, 13 March 2005

Ouch!

All teeth and claws.....a game of 'catch the foot', a regular favourite. What a gentle and demure creature Ditto is....not. Heh!


PG and Ditto!

Saturday, 12 March 2005

Pear shaped?

From now until Sunday night I give you prior warning that things in gemmaks-ville may well go a little pear shaped!

Between now and then I have to wash and pack for our trip South, I have to work all day today and Sunday and attend a meeting after the close of business on Sunday evening.....how convenient! I did attempt to extricate myself from said meeting to give myself a little more time but my request, whilst being met with almost the right words by my employer, was accompanied by a 'not amused' look on the face!

PG of course, as is the way of the male of the species, is unlikely likely to be a great aide in this endeavor, assuming as men do, that to shift two cats and two adults for five days takes precisely no organisation or fore-thought!

And so, as I rush about, stress mounting, if you mail me or comment and I appear to ignore you it is not my intent, rather that I am short of a few hours in the next few days to squash everything in! My apologies in advance.

Yayyy.....only two more sleeps to go.......

Friday, 11 March 2005

Friday's feast (39)

Appetizer - Where do you go when you want to relax?
Home, nowhere relaxes me like just being in my own patch.

Soup - Tell about something that made you laugh this week.
The picture Yorkshire snowman posted today (see link on previous post)

Salad - What is your favorite texture?
To the touch - a cats coat, aesthetically-wood.

Main Course - If you were to publish your autobiography, what would the first sentence be?
"At ages 5 I thought I had my life mapped out, at age thirty five the compass point was spinning wildly"

Dessert - Do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day? If so, how?
I don't.

Do you have red nose?

For those of you not in the UK or who have slept for the last month today is 'Red Nose Day' or to give it it's correct name, Comic Relief. Over the years I have done all the daft stuff, joined in, dressed up, raised money, etc. etc. but these days it kinda passes me by, aside from a donation here and there.

Not so 'Snowbabies', one half of who, the Yorkshire Snowman, has done his own bit in the blogosphere for the day and provided us with what has to be one of the bravest and most amusing pictures of a blogger of all time.....go here to see. It has to be worth a bob or two! :o)

The annual prescription debate

Again in April of this year UK prescription charges are set to rise by the princely sum of 10p, without doubt this will again cause the annual round of complaints from those who consider the rise either too steep, the overall cost too high or that pharmaceuticals should be a free for all situation.

This has long been a bug-bear of mine and a situation who's opponents arguments have always left me somewhat confused. Yes, I agree that this is yet another area where the same section of the population seem to be the ones bearing the brunt of the cost. Those of us who work for a living and struggle to keep our heads above the financial waterline without resorting to claiming benefits of one kind or another, seem always to have to pay up and look happy in this life. The majority of those receiving benefits are entirely entitled to them of course but there is a section of that number who play the system, take little or no responsibility for their own lives and live off the backs of the rest of us.

Why should all prescriptions be free? We pay national insurance contributions certainly but that does not mean that everything should be given to us completely gratis. The NHS struggles as we know only too well, we might have feelings as to how and why that is but in the main it is a matter of underfunding. A large section of the population already receive all drugs free, children, pregnant women, those on benefits or low pay, the elderly and individuals with life threatening illness who rely on their drugs to survive. I appreciate that the list of 'life threatening' conditions could perhaps be revised, I am one of those affected by that particular question but none of the arguments address what I see as the two most fundamental aspects of this situation.

Firstly the NHS does no have a bottomless pit of money whether we like it or not, with modern medical practices and technology becoming so advanced the cost of treatment has risen phenomenally and we all want access to those treatments, somehow the money has to be raised. If we financed the NHS sufficiently to give everyone absolutely everything something else would suffer, in the real world the money has to be sourced somewhere. Secondly, are those who moan so vocally about paying £6.50 per item aware of the true cost of those drugs in most instances? Our doctors and pharmacists have become much improved at prescribing or recommending generic or cheaper alternatives but for in the vast majority of cases the prescription charge is only a fraction of the true cost.

I do not speak without some experience of this situation. I require every month at least four items, one of which could arguably be considered suitable for the list of life saving drugs that should maybe be exempt from charge. My monthly bill for these items is £26 and that assumes I don't need anything extra such as antibiotics for a one off illness. The £26 is not a cost to be sniffed at perhaps but if I were asked to pay the true cost of these items my bill would be over £200 every month! I for one know which option I prefer.

Whilst some may think the NHS charge is too high, if my having to pay what amounts to a small percentage of the true cost helps enable someone else to have for instance life saving surgery, or a child to have the drugs it needs and genuinely can't afford then I'm happy to pay.

We in the UK are luckier than many, we have access to what in the main are excellent medical facilities and yet we do nothing but complain, try telling a family in the third world how hard done by we are! The NHS system does have many inherent problems but would we want the alternative? This is reality and ultimately nothing is free. Go take a look at private medical insurance costs, check out the exclusion clauses or the shortfalls in that system and then tell me that the NHS is a complete failure!

Thursday, 10 March 2005

Be careful what you wish for.......

......was the advice uttered recently in my direction by I think Jenny, of Demob happy teacher, in reference to my constant wishing for a heavy snowfall over recent weeks.

Well it seems her advice was some I should have perhaps heeded, for here I am in temperatures well above freezing, my thoughts of snow diminishing and actually looking forward to spring, the first narcissus of the year has poked it's little head out of the frozen soil in a pot by our front door when what happens? The weather forecast is predicting heavy snowfall for Monday. This would normally be a cause for me to celebrate but as sods law would have it Monday is the designated day for our 400 mile drive South and prior to that we have to navigate the tiny local roads to the cattery and deliver the cats to their holiday destination.

One of two things is going to happen, I just know it. We will either get the journey complete without incident but I will miss possibly the heaviest snowfall this year ......... or we will be unable to travel.

Neither is good.

Be careful what you wish for indeed!

Wednesday, 9 March 2005

Tales of Tupperware and otherware


© Anne Summers.

Most of us of a certain age will recall without delight the heady days of the late 1970's and '80's when all one needed to do to become the perfect wife and domestic host was hold a successful Tupperware party! Oh the joy and utter domestic pride in having one's friends attend such a function at your home. The complete satisfaction at earning your free plastic item of uselessness as a result of your little soiree making a small fortune for the Tupperware Gods. For a small fortune it was, considering we are only talking here of plastic receptacles for the left over items of food no one wants to eat! Tupperware did the job on us, we were a generation of Tupperware snobs, there was no Ikea (can you imagine) and any house wife worth her salt would not stoop lower than the 'original and best'.

How did we ever survive all those evenings of 'plastic pottery' and the unending blether from the representative, clad of course in the obligatory twin set and pearls? I ran the gamut of such exciting evenings, I was once even persuaded to host my own, though mine was slightly different to what was prescribed as the acceptable format. My Tupperware party was a 'cream cakes and wine only' affair, where those in attendance, stuffed their faces with massive portions of fresh cream and quickly got drunk on half decent wine. All other fare was disallowed! Twenty or so women, faces over-full with cake, inebriated and giggling uncontrollably, did not make for a happy Tupperware lady', we purchased little and talked a lot, I was never asked again, I fear I found my way onto the Tupperware blacklist, or some such. Oh despair!

Things have come on a pace since those days, still I seem to be invited to a steady round of sales 'gatherings' only now, in the 21st century they all appear to be for 'Anne Summers'. This corner of Scotland appears to be undergoing an Anne Summers revolution just now. I lived through similar in London a few years back and now be damned, I have to go through it all again. The very slightly risque party games, the silly prizes and dressing up in 'items for sale' over one's outerwear. Just how ridiculous do we look with a basque over our 501's.......and what on earth is the 'vibrator on the nose' thing all about? Yes, I know, our noses are reported to have a similar number of nerve endings as the 'other departments' but hell......somehow it just doesn't give a close rendition of what to expect!

I have to admit, an Anne Summers bash of today is preferable to the good old Tupperware 'do's' of yesteryear, if such events have to be attended at all but in all good will and in every effort at an, er.... 'exciting life', there are only so many sets of useless lingerie and adult toys one can have time for.......at least Tupperware could be used by the whole family on a daily basis and didn't carry a 'careful hand wash only' label, or require batteries!

One other thought, whilst we are expected to happily (not) parade around dressed as nurses, french maids and the like, have you ever manged to get your guy into the fireman's uniform.....because I know what response I would get and the second word would likely be 'off'.

To commemorate.......

Belive me, I did try to resist......not!


To commemorate.....

Tuesday, 8 March 2005

Gah!....I've had one of 'those' days

It began with my only getting two hours sleep last night. You know the drill, tossing and turning for no good reason, fighting PG and Ditto for bed space, one eye on the clock repeatedly counting down how much longer I have left until the alarm sounds and forces me up and out to work.

Last time I looked it was 04.15 hrs, the alarm was set for 06.00, it duly shrieked at me at the aforementioned hour and I fell..... puffy eyed and bad tempered, into the shower. Poppy accompanied me to the bathroom and sat the entire time at the end of the bath doing her best alarm clock impersonation, in an attempt to attract my attention and a cuddle. Like I could miss the racket! She has never understood that cuddling in the shower is not advisable....well at least not if you are a cat! She wrapped herself around my wet legs as I attempted to extricate myself from the shower whilst remaining upright, depositing fur all over and ran around under my feet, tripping me up, as I attempted the near impossible task of making my self 'presentable'. So I gave in, I sat down and gave her the wished for cuddle and stood up five minutes later with black trousers covered in white Poppy fluff! I love that cat dearly but incessant caterwuling after no sleep is not her most endearing quality.

I drove to work in a daze, thinking stuff I don't usually think and made myself thoroughly miserable by the time I was at my journeys end. I got out of the car to discover that at some point yesterday some inconsiderate git had dented my car door....no doubt a customer in the car park, opening his or her door with little thought for the fact that they were in actual fact not the only person utilising the facility! Why in God's name to people do that? Would they want me to heave a damn great dent in their car door ? Methinks not!

I was greeted at work by one of the shopfitters merrily shouting out 'allo darlin'......'harumph' was my terse and uncalled for reply. Bad move, this guy is not easily off put and teased me and wound me up, without mercy, all day, for my grumpiness.

Lunch time.....ah,a moment to close my sore eyes....nope....I stood in a queue for most of it at Kwik Save........oh how I hate that store!

Work finally over I made my way to my (dented) car, to discover it was absolutely covered in sawdust, courtesy of a shopfitter using that particular part of the car park to saw what must have been an entire forest into planks. No matter I think, it will blow off as I drive. I got in, started the engine and the remainder of the forest blew in through the vents at high velocity, all over me. Harumph!

Ok...I'll vacuum it when I get home I thought and then thought better of it. We need a 50m lead from the flat to perform that task and persuading PG to set it up is no mean feat. Thus I went out of my way to the services and used their's....and put it through an extortionate wash for good measure. It looked barely cleaner! I drove home to find PG vacuuming his car....he NEVER cleans his car....why today? Pfftttt.

We had 'words', don't ask me what about, probably because he mentioned PMT, I do not have PMT. I pointed out quite vocally quietly that I can, on occasion, be miffed for reasons other than those that are hormonal and set about throwing dinner together. Stir fry....made, eaten and washed up within minutes.

Yayyyy....computer time....nope, PG was ensconced infront of the pc and was not for moving, so I watched some crap on Sky and grumbled quietly to myself. At last, the seat vacated, my turn.....and here I am! I bet you wish PG had stayed put!

Rant over, I need to sleep, this bad tempered bitch is out of here..... g'night :o)

Wrinkled sky

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07.03.05

Monday, 7 March 2005

South-bound

So.....this time next week PG and I should have just about completed our journey south on our forthcoming visit to my parents, just outside of London and I can't wait. I'm like a child going on holiday each time and this time it seems so long since I saw them.

It's something in the region of six months since we last made it down there, two people working different shifts, both with employers who aren't overly accommodating about when leave can be taken makes it sometimes seem a nigh on an impossible task to get organised.

They of course came here for new year but it still seems an age and we have so much catching up to do. My fathers birthday is a day or two before we arrive so it will be nice to be able to celebrate that with them, albeit a few days late. Aside from that I have no idea what is planned for this visit though doubtless with my fathers 'military style' organisation and planning there will be much in store.

My one reservation is Poppy, she and Ditto of course have to go on their own less anticipated 'holiday' to the cattery. Poppy is in no way phased by this process but I am slightly concerned now that at her age she will become ill again or worse with us 400 miles away. Hey ho, there is no viable alternative so all we can do is keep our fingers crossed and hope. We are only away for 5 days so things should be ok.

Lord knows what will happen with my new years 'resolution' to post something here every day this year. Those of you familiar with these forays south will also be familiar with the er....'parental restrictions' on internet time whilst we are visiting. Suffice to say it is limited! I have a cunning plan to circumnavigate this problem, more on that another time.

So....the countdown begins again, only 7 more sleeps to go..........

Well, who'da thought it!

Mr dentist man, 'George', the guy who by leaving a comment a few days back on a very old post prompted probably the longest set of comments here thus far, has very kindly offered to take a look at my molars!

The logistics and timing have yet to be arranged, the fact that we are 400 miles apart is not a big issue, his practice is but 10 miles from my parents. Finding a mutually convenient time among all the things I have to do whilst there maybe slightly more tricky but it's a start...... and a damn sight closer than I have been to seeing a dental professional for years.

It'll be kinda odd to meet face to face, if I ever make it, with a guy who's profession I was essentially slating but it just goes to show how nice people in the blogosphere can be and how surprising life is.

Sunday, 6 March 2005

Sunday~sundown

On the assumption that you have had enough of snow and dentistry for a while........ tonight's sunset.

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Sundown 06.03.05


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Saturday, 5 March 2005

Catching the winter sun

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Catching the winter sun.

Over the last few weeks poppy has been giving me cause for concern again. Her medical history in old age, she is getting on for 18, has been well documented here, so I won't regale you with the details again for fear of sending you into a rapid state of narcosis! Suffice to say she is very old and her kidneys are failing, I dread the day she goes but over time I have (I think) come to accept it. My greatest wish for her is that she just 'falls off' one day at home with us beside her. My greatest fear is that she will die someday when there is no one home with her.

We are due to visit my parents in a week or two and her apparently worsening health has been causing me a deal of worry. I do not want to subject her to the cattery if she is not strong enough but equally I feel she is now too old to do an 800 mile round trip, as used as she is to traveling.

And thus it has been over the last few days I noticed she has lost weigh, seemed not to be eating much and was generally 'out of sorts'.

Again my 'cat worry' happily seems to be premature. This afternoon I decided on taking the fail safe test. I have recently changed her diet slightly in an endeavor to take a little pressure of her old kidneys, so today I opened a tin of tuna......the theory being that if she showed litle interest, as she has in her food of late, then I had cause to be truly concerned.

Whooshhhh...like a bat out of hell, as the can popped open she appeared at my feet looking pleadingly up at me. Tuna was duly deposited in dish as she made a vallaint attempt to clamber up my leg and was in the process of being hungrily devoured before dish even hit floor!

Phew! Damn all it seems is wrong with her appetite, she, as ever cats are, was just being picky and staunchly not eating enough of something that did not appeal........ tuna of course is the food of the Gods and so was treated with appropriate vigor. She sat and ate her way through the entire dish full without a pause!

I am not kidding myself here, I know she could be here for perhaps, if we are lucky, another year but equally I know it is likely to be much sooner. I'm just thankful that for now, one more Poppy worry is over and it looks like she is going to be a happy cat for a little while longer at least.

Friday, 4 March 2005

Friday's feast (38)

Appetizer - Who is the one person you email more often than anyone else?
Lisa

Soup - So far, which year of your life has been the most enjoyable?
2002.....for all it had it's problems and difficulties it was the year I met PG, moved to Scotland and finally began to understand what I am about.

Salad - Name someone with whom you have lost touch but would like to reunite.
An Austrian woman named Gabrielle who I met on holiday in Cornwall perhaps 15 years ago. We became close friends and remained in contact for a number of years but eventually lost contact. I would love to know what she is up to now and catch up.

Main Course - What was the tastiest meal you had this past week?
Chinese take-away, last night!

Dessert - Using the letters in your favorite color, write three words that describe your personality.
Boisterous, belligerent, befuddled!

The eBay idiot

It appeared that despite my sending a plethora of very, er....carefully worded emails to the guy who took my money and then decided he wasn't going to sell the goods, he was just not going to respond. I had all but written him off and decided the best course of action was to claim the cost from my credit card insurance when this morning, within the time frame I had set, a cheque landed through the letter box from this fool! I might add, that whilst he seems unable to perform the common courtesy of replying to emails, he is capable of penning a pathetically worded letter, that accompanied the cheque, begging us not to leave him negative feedback on eBay.

Ok, so I'm not counting chickens here, the cheque has yet to clear and in my usual state of scepticism, I am not entirely convinced it will.

The most disturbing aspect of all this is that PG and I seem to be going soft in our dotage, having discussed and almost agree that should said cheque clear, we will do as he asks and not leave poor feedback.....we kinda almost feel sorry for him now!

Maybe, just maybe his original lame excuses for his behaviour were true, if that's so then to damage his 'eBay reputation' would be unkind. I suppose I/we have to give him the benefit of the doubt.......always assuming the cheque clears. Should it not, then watch this space!

Thursday, 3 March 2005

Dentistry again.....or lack of

Many months ago, in June of 2004 I posted on a situation that I found very frustrating. The inability in the UK over the last few years get a dentist. You can read the original post HERE.

Nothing has changed, months later I still can't get dental treatment and the situation still frustrates me.

The reason I bring it up again is that today, all these months later that post received a comment from a dentist. I am hoping that he or she does not object to my publishing that comment as a post given that the original was already in the public domain when the comment was made.

My intention is not to turn this into a slanging match, rather to re-open a discussion I feel strongly about now I have the opinion of an individual from within the dental profession.

What do you think?

This is the text of that comment:

Anonymous said...
I will attempt to set some things straight because I believe the government has misled the public with lies about "greedy dentists" for decades now. The only reason dentists are abandoning the NHS is that the fees they are paid are downright ridiculous for the highly skilled job they are supposed to do.

Let me give you an example of exactly how much the government values your health:
A filling on a child is less than a donner kebab.
An extraction is less than a music CD.
A root canal treatment on a front tooth, on which outcome the future of your tooth depends, is less than a playstation game.

So dentists were forced to see a huge number of patients each day (sometimes 30-40, that's the largest in the western world) and use only the cheaper materials. Ask any dentist in the US or the better parts of Europe and they will tell you about the appallingly low quality of NHS dentistry.

Many of us decided that they're not going to play the government's game anymore and stopped compromising our patient's health just because the government is used to buying dentistry on the cheap. Who can blame those who took that step?

As a last point, I'm a dentist and proud to be member of the profession with the highest suicide rate (so life isn't exactly rosy for us, as people tend to think), and I currently work in the NHS, but I will leave on the first chance I get. A few weeks ago the government announced that the new computer network for the NHS will cost 20-30 billion pounds. That's enough to pay for 30 years of dentistry at the current level, or 10 years of dentistry at a high quality level. But they're going to spend it on computers. Politicians have got their priorities seriously wrong.


And this is my reply:

Anonymous: Firstly thank you for taking the time to comment, it's good to get the opinion of the 'other side'.

Ok, now onto the points you raised.

I can accept without too much difficulty that the government has attempted to mislead us, the general public' with regard to the dental profession's greed, it would not be the first time and I am sure it will not be the last but were many of you not trained as I stated in my original post, at a time when most of the current situation was already in place and was the training not at the expense of this country? I know there are many dentists in the UK from overseas but presumably though not trained here there was something in our system that attracted them to practice here?

I doubt there are many employees of our NHS system who are happy with their lot, I myself worked within the system for a short time and found the entire experience very negative but the one big difference between dentists and the other employees from where I am sitting, is that the others carry on their duty of care regardless. Yes many doctors practice privately along with carrying out NHS work and yes I can jump a queue for surgery with cash but ultimately if I cannot afford that surgery, I will get it in time via the NHS. That is very much not so where my teeth are concerned!!

I appreciate that your profession is highly skilled and should be appropriately remunerated but it is a fact of life that most of us are not in reality salaried as we feel our work deserves. Dentists are not alone in that. We mere mortals just don't have the power to hold the government, or those we serve in our occupation to ransom!

Believe me I would like to have more respect for the dental profession but the bottom line for me is that I had a set of teeth that had been well looked after all my life and are now not as they should be. I am completely unable to get a dentist via the NHS and in fact where I live have been unable thus far to get one even privately......though how I would pay him or her if I could remains a mystery.

I do not apologise for my belief that dentists were in my mind akin to doctors, nurses, medical professionals of other specialities, the police, paramedics and the fire brigade. These are ALL highly skilled individuals who choose to go into a profession of caring. They differ from dentists in so much as despite their sometimes appalling conditions of service and salary they continue to care for those that require their skill. Their frustrations with the system within which they are employed do not affect the service user to anything like the magnitude that the dental professions behaviour has!

I cannot dispute the suicide rate, I have no evidential statistics to support or deny your claim but I do know various professions claim to hold the 'highest rate' accolade. I'm not sure what causes the pressure in dentistry, I am assuming workload. Sorry, but have any of you tried struggling with the day to day stressors and a heavy workload with your teeth causing you pain for years??

Bottom line: I can't see a dentist because dentistry is unavailable to me, both actually and financially and I don't understand how a caring profession can justify hurting the very people they claim to care for in pursuit of economic gain. One thing is for sure, those in government who your battle is with are not suffering, it is us, your patients that are doing that.

I am not going to argue the point that you as a profession are not 'well off' for that is relative. I only know that I don't see too many dentists living in the poor part of town or with holes in their shoes.

The situation continues to anger me. Strangely I am scared of dental treatment and it took me many years to become comfortable (ish) with it, now on top of rotting teeth I have to overcome that fear again should I be fortunate enough to ever receive the attentions of a dentist.


Addendum: Anonymous, I wonder.......before you leave the NHS, you wouldn't by chance have room on your books for one more would you?

Wednesday, 2 March 2005

I barely dare admit this!

From the woman who backs everything up in three places this comes as some admission.

I have been up since 7am (it's 3.30pm now) building a brand new template, completely different, everything changed......and what did I do, hit the wrong b%*~$&*d button and lost 80% of it.....gone, defunct,no more,fin! Arghhhh.

Sorry, this one stays.......... and giggle quietly please!

What is it they say about pride coming before a fall?

Just when you......

...take your eye off the ball, stop checking charts obsessively (who me?) and give up in the belief that you have had your fair share, what happens? It snows again!!

PG called me around midnight last night as he left work with the words " get your head out of the pc and look outside". Of course, being a dutiful wife-ette and rarely always doing as my man instructs I did just that....to find over an inch had fallen in perhaps only half an hour..... my 'happy blogger' status of the early evening was bolstered further! This morning it is still snowing intermittently but with high winds again it is blowing around too much to accumulate impressively, no matter, it feels like a bonus and it looks beautiful falling.

On the subject of snow (yet again I hear you groan) and happy incidents, I was treated a day or so ago to the pictures below, sent kindly to me by their photographer, a fellow blogger Bryan Torre of Moments of Adequacy. What struck me most was just how nice the blogging fraternity is. I'm sure Bryn won't mind me saying this but we barely know each other and yet, in his busy day he thought to take and send me these beautiful pictures. What a star.

(Click to enlarge)

Washington DC ~ snow


Washington DC

Tuesday, 1 March 2005

A narcissistic moment

Allow me please a moments narcissism, for here in gemmaks-ville an email has just been received from WSH who as ever seems to have her eye on the ball (unlike myself) and noticed that I made the Weblog Review's top 5 again. Yayyy. It probably means very little but it has bought an upturn in my hits today and on my current average I might even pass the 20000 hit mark sometime tomorrow, or perhaps Thursday.

It amazes me still that anyone should want to read this at all but I'm damn glad that you do and again thank you all for making me a happy little blogger this evening.

:o)

Apologies.....

....for the condition of this blog today!

The server hosting all my bits and pieces died a sudden death earlier today. Consequently, if you have stuff hosted on my webspace, your blog will also be in a state of some disrepair and littered with those nasty little red crosses.

Sorry ........there is nothing I can do but wait for some techie to get moving and get it sorted at their end. Hopefully normal service will be resumed by the end of the day.

Ever been conned?

No?....... Well I strongly suspect I just have, or rather PG and I.

On Sunday PG purchased an item through Ebay, a cell phone costing a little over £100, on my account and using my credit card I might add but of course with my full agreement. Nothing too startling there, he uses Ebay often and thus far without incident, though he takes the usual precautions. He checks out the sellers history, only purchases from those with 100% positive feedback, rarely orders from overseas and never sends cash or a cheque.

It would appear that for all this on this occasion we have been conned.... Gah!

Within an hour of the auction closing and the vendor receiving payment via Paypal we received an email from said vendor stating that the item belonged to his son who had wanted to sell it to finance the purchase of a Playstation and had now 'changed his mind'.....he would therefore be removing the item from sale and refunding our money. 'Too late sunshine' was the cry from this end, once the item is offered for sale and payment received one is theoretically at least bound by legal contract to complete the transaction. We mailed him back explaining this politely but stating that if he was determined to renege on the deal how we would prefer to receive the refund.

Immediately we received the original email my, hackles rose and my 'security issues' antenna started to buzz. I am ever sceptical in situations where money changes hands and having worked for a while in a security related area and alongside the police my awareness of the possibility of becoming the subject of one scam or another is ever present.

So what happened next? Damn all is what happened, despite repeated emails there has been no response from the vendor thus far. He managed to email us within an hour to tell us he was no longer selling but now seems unable to reply to mail within 48 hours....no surprise there then, I doubt we will hear any more from him at all!

So now the aggravation of trying to recover the monies begins, we have contacted Ebay and reported the issue and the same with Paypal, I have this morning to contact my credit card company and enquire if such a transaction is covered by their purchasers insurance. One way or another I think I will recover a large percentage of the cost though not all but I am steaming.

I can ill afford to throw £100 away but worse still is my anger and frustration at the situation. Once crossed I can be like a terrier with a bone, this guy may think he has scammed us and got away scot free, believe me he hasn't. I will of course operate well within the bounds of the law, it is not my style to do otherwise but we have this individuals name, we know the area he lives, where he works......it's not too far from here, I have access to the electoral roll and one or two other 'helpful' tracing systems and if all else fails I will make sure he at least no longer trades on Ebay.

One thing is for sure, I have the bit between my teeth on this one and he hasn't heard the last of me by a long chalk, he is going to become sick and tired of the sound of my voice and my name in his inbox. He has until Friday to get a cheque to us and if as I expect he continues to do nothing I am set to become a very serious and aggravating thorn in his side!!