Wednesday, February 28, 2007
here i am again on a nice wednesday morning. this time i wanna share something. it touched my heart and it really do. it is a story about someone name CDL.
one fine day he woke up with something in mind. it struck him all of a sudden. he wondered and thought why must it be this way for him. of all the things and of all the wonderful things in this world, he started to question one thing he never does before- Friendship. yes, he thought of it in a weird way.
he have always thought friendship means everything to him. he'd prefer friends over anything else, much to say relationship. well to him, it means everything. it's the most wonderful gift. yes that's friendship to him. he cried and thought why must he start to question it now. it's disappointing on his part but it's even more disappointing to hear what he have to say. it's a question of whether friends do disappoint each other. it's tough though.
somehow this is what he said: "even if i have 1000 friends, if i can't keep all, what's the point of having 1000? i'd rather have just one, someone who can always be there. but the problem is i ain't have that one person, that's why. so much so i tried to treasure every single one of my friend. yes i just did. but somehow when i woke up, i started to really ask myself, what's the meaning of friends? i don't understand at all. somehow the meaning of that have lost in me. it dawns on me how hypocrites friends can be. what a jerk someone can be beside you. what a backstabber some people can be. and last to say how a bastard a friend can be at times. i tried but i lost grip of it while trying too hard. i remembered having a friend. he's a nice person. but somehow one day when we go to our different path in my life, he seemed to not remember his routes, where he came from, that's so to say, maybe he forgotten me. i'm fine with it though it hurt a little. that's the problem with some friends, when they find new friends, they forget the old one. do u still remember the route where you came from? no you never did. i can give up anything, just anything, as long as you are happy my dear friend. love- i gave that up coz i think if i have to really choose, i'd rather have friends instead. some people may think it's stupid but if i can't have the best of both world then i'll choose the best one. it's still a choice right. yes it did happened. an incident where i love her so much, got close to her, and whatever to get close. somehow one day another guy came. hatred filled my heart. i hate that that guy for appearing out of nowhere. and so things have to happen, not my way but other people's way. i gave my way to them. people told me i'm so nice to do that, no one would. i'd rather see the girl happy. at least she won't see the pain in me. the pinched, though gentle but it's painful. i don't understand at times. friends expect alot from me. and so i do it the same way. sometimes it's just a favor that i asked for. but it seemed no one would help. i changed my shift for work just so i can accompany a friend who's bored at home. i changed my plan for the day so i can make everyone happy. when i asked someone for company, they can give 1001 reasons so that i will feel good. but who knows i did all that? no one. even if someone knows, would they feel what i feel? it's in the appreciation, that's all. it seems too little but too much to take. whatever friends is. i don't know, it's like too late to even try to understand, i'd rather have none. yes i mean it. get as far as possible, i'm finding my path. somewhere i can be happy. even if there's no one, i still know the meaning of happiness. i don't need anyone, i just need myself. don't try to keep me coz you've never tried to treasure me. it doesn't matter where i have gone to. but it's about time you learn what friends are for."
and so he decided, after saying all this, to get away from everyone. may god bless him. may he find somewhere in life that he can be happy with. god, help him will you? he needs a path. a path that only you can bring him. please show him the way. maybe giving him friends was a challenge. he needs a change. guide him my, god. he needs you.
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2/28/2007 09:33:00 AM
ok here i am. 1am in the morning, blogging. bah! feeling irritated. really. buzz off! i'm feeling so confused now. so what's the decision? yes! i'm not going to work at rendezvous even though i got the job. ok fine. so here it is, CK told me that the manager is not good. hell yeah! so that's for the decision's made. hell no!
so tuesday was a fine day. wasn't really doing anything. went out at 3 plus and meet up with nick and shaun. went for movies, those two haven't watch Norbit so me, being the nice guy, agreed to accompany them to watch it. i fell asleep like most of the scenes. haha! met someone today. u two shall have my blessings! congrats! and thanks for the ride home. :)
i'm lost for direction. someone help me! i don't want to rot till june or whatever. i want a job i can really fall in love with. i'm serious. like how i fell in love with AC. but love depreciate with time. no no. correct that. my feelings towards something depreciates with time that is. yeap yep!
haven't been talking to my squirtle for quite sometime. i miss my squirtle -.- squirtle cheers me up. i love u squirtle darling! bleakz! ZZzzzzzz.....
quote of the day: don't question satisfaction coz it lives in the heart.
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2/28/2007 01:09:00 AM
Monday, February 26, 2007
what's the one thing in life u hate the most? u can asked 10 or 100 or maybe 1000 people and each answer differs with reasons. well i don't care. who cares anyway. i don't really hate people, i just dislike them. shh. there's a motive behind everything. i have my reasons, do u have urs?
ok fine. it seems that sometimes i do grade friends. it's just my part, i don't want to get hurt coz of friends. like today, i was supposed to go out with a close friend. but he sms me and said that he couldn't make it. so i said fine, it's okay. i mean he did that a few times already. so it's like nothing. but it's just that, i'd already plan everything. so cool it.
and so this poor me still hadn't got a job. i've just decided to go for interview today. right now still waiting for that CK to get ready and stuff. hurry!
----pause----ok back! CK called and so decided to go to Rendezvous Hotel for interview. meeting him in like an hours time. i don't know what to wear. grrrr. get ready! cya!
quote of the day: friendship hurts too
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2/26/2007 01:45:00 PM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
wondering at times people can be so into themselves that they forget about others, so to say those who's close to them, their friends. gosh! so here it is, a "friend", called me so early in the morning, like 7am on saturday i think and he asked me he's desperate for money. huh?! now when he needs help he came crawling to me? and he acted like i'm invisible when he sees me. wow! what a *toot* person he is. but well, maybe he used to have an impact in life but not anymore. i repeat NOT ANYMORE. forget it.
saturday was much of boring day for me. was working and for the 4th time i went to SAS Fair. it's a yearly event though. oh, for u people's info, i've been working in american club for 3 years now *wink*. it's long, yes! some people wonder how the hell i was able to stay there for so long. haha. anyway, later in the night was normal chilling out with bitchmates. no no. it was to celebrate nita's birthday. well, we went to Villa Bali. gotta tell all of u this. the place is so nice! the ambience and everything, oh i so love the place! anyway, i walked home after that coz it's so near my place! bleakz.
i'm suppose to work? oh.. lazy lah! forget it. i'm getting sick of working on sunday. same thing same routine same old shit! bored!
quote of the day: no matter how high up u go, don't ever forget your route.
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2/25/2007 10:59:00 AM
Friday, February 23, 2007
update update update!
wow! like finally i have come to blog. was pretty lazy to blog. nah! im not lazy lah.
anyway, now it's like slacking for me. exams over. schools over. trust me- I MISS SCHOOL!
i'll try to recall what happened the past few weeks...
exam- last paper was on 8th feb.
blur king chalet on 9th feb.
went out with nick on 10th feb.
so far so good...
oh ya. BCSS- i think i screwed that up. 20 bucks gone!
accompanied squirtle for shopping and went out with nick and shaun on 15th feb.
mazee's bestie birthday bbq on 16th feb. it was fun!
chinese new year. went for house visit for the first time. i look retarded!
that's all i can remember. pardon my memory.
by the way, i did went for some job interviews. hopefully at least one will call me back or else i can bang myself on the wall coz that means it's back to AC! oh my god!
watched movies recently..
-norbit
-epic movie
-just follow law
-dream girls
i wanna watch ghost rider!!
i think that's all for now. getting clueless of myself. haha.
quote of the day: friends are your pillar of strength, hold on to it and never let go. treasure it.
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2/23/2007 02:54:00 PM
Friday, February 02, 2007
| Your Love Life Secrets Are |
Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.
Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.
You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.
In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.
You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over. |
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2/02/2007 10:32:00 PM
