Intoxicated

"If I could stay intoxicated forever, I'll be the happiest person on earth"

Have you ever wonder what will happen if you were intoxicated forever? And I mean, alcohol intoxication. Its the easiest most common way to get intoxicated. Well, it depends on what your reaction towards alcohol, yeh? I become care-free haha. Emo ones are the worst. Been with an emo drunk once, never wanna come across with one ever again in the future. So, yes I'd like to be intoxicated. Because all I care is the present, like the past didn't exist and tomorrow never comes. How fun is that!

Signing out
I'm living in denial, yes. I know.

Live by Day

"I would never thought life could be harder when life is already hard. So now it freaks me out because there's no measure of hardness in life."

Life is always easy when I was a kid. Yes it is true, i'll get anything i want. Then I grew up.. High school was fun every year was a learning step. Plenty of time to procrastinate. And then, I got into uni, that's when I had 2 semesters in a year. Back then life was tough coping with studies every semester ie 6 months. After uni, yes graduated! Now in the real world every single month I receive "wonderful" bills piling up under my name *not my parents i wish! I've got to pay my monthly rent, insurance, phone bill, utilities etc. I've lived 1 year of independence. Life is hard. But, bills aren't the only worries that I've got. Say hello to friends family colleagues and people around. They do give a little bit of headache, or sometimes always heartache.

For the past month, I swear I've never encountered so many incidents in life. Almost every single day. Then I start to wonder the next best disastrous thing that could happen lol.

I guess, you can always plan the future but what's more important is the present. Plans can always change. Like they always say, 'Live by day because Tomorrow is a promise to no one'. Now that's my quote for the year.

These posts that I've written recently are not to show regrets nor attention. I'm pretty sure everyone goes through the same shit. I'm not perfect, I've been used, pushed and left alone alot of times. If you're reading this, stop comparing lives with others. Just be comfortable with who you are and live every moment. If you're already stuck in hell, stay there and make a party. But never lose yourself obviously. When you're out of that shit hole hell, voilà! At least you had a good party? :/

Good night all.

Same ol same

"A girl will always be a girl, regardless how strong she is on the outside"

Same ol same.. Always the same. Same situation. Same problem. Same solution? I hate it. I just don't understand.

And I guessed it right. My colleague got frustrated at me haha.

It's fml day.

Signing out.

Give and Take

"Will I get back whatever I gave?"


Do you ever believe in Karma? Even the slightest thing, helping someone in need or doing something expecting no return. I do. I just wish for the better for everyone, friends family and people around me. People go through hard times understanding, realizing the importance. But, at times, I feel bad for what they have to go through, ie emotional breakdown. I can be selfish and say 'Haha, none of business. Save yourself'. Well, if I really really really hate you for some reason then yea maybe. This is one thing I cant seem to overcome, the inability to make one smile. Most, would give up or just couldn't be bothered taking any initiative. I know of a few.. haha, maybe its you! I'm kidding. Then I start thinking, that I'm weird. Why the effort! People are selfish. People relate to what they've experienced in the past. "Ohh... I used to do so much for people I love, but got nothing in return..I give up" Really? That's your excuse?? Man, this is what I call living life to the very least lol! Nah just kidding. :)

Anyhow.. I've a big feeling someones gonna be frustrated with my work tomorrow. Gahh!
computer batt dying!! okchaobye

Signing off

Hope, Mission and Dreams

"Determination makes it possible for almost everything. So how much determination you've put in for yourself, love and society? There's no measure."


We put hopes on achieving every mission that we dream of. New dreams come, old dreams fade sometimes they stay. Regret come into play when hopes are gone, which means we've failed our missions and dreams we had. So, what's the missing puzzle? Determination to go after our dreams. I've heard so many people yapping forever about doing something extraordinary, like a dream. Year after year, as the earth spins, even global warming is beyond dispute. Still most of us are doing the same thing, not that they really WANT to stay the same. That's my problem, staying the same. :) yes, I'm still officially the one yapping person who goes on about things.. I would say, impossible. HAHA! I'm the worst motivator. You just went down the deep dark hole with me. Woohoo i'm not alone ;)

I'm just waiting on opportunities. Then, the question of Why not create an opportunity? Hmmm... Think about it. Because "apparently", opportunity is always around us when we are able to see it. I need a pair of Mr. Opportunity Goggle. Problem solved! Not.

Life has been good in Melbourne, every place I've worked in made great impact in my life. Every single one even shitty jobs I honestly have no idea why. Does that happen to you? And several times, I've dreamed of things that happened the next day. 1 just happened not long ago. Not 100% the same, but roughly. I swear it was the freakiest thing ever. Well now I can say, sometimes dreams do come true - literally.

That's all for tonight.
Signing off.
*I had my cotton candy today at last! ever since Friday... I was determined for cotton candy for sure.

Malaysia 2012

"You can always find time, is the effort that matters"

Touched down Malaysia, feels like home sweet home.

My first visit to LCCT toilet has already pulled me off from visiting Malaysian public toilets. But i'll get used to it after some time :/

Had my first chicken rice meal for lunch. God! Tasted soooooo good! But, portion was too small? Guess it was too good.

Weather has been all right. Not very hot thank god.

Family as naggy as before. Questions after questions.. Fight for small reasons.. Running errands for parents -_- home..

Home cooked food prepared by mummy, which means NO cooking for me!! :))))) the best!

Friends still as crazy as before.. Miss them much!

Till then.. Happy Chinese New Year to all! Welcome the dragon year rawwwr!!

Food to Conquer

"Dont forget where you belong.."

Food I WILL eat when I get back:

- Bah kut teh
- Roti Canai
- Banana leaf rice
- Hawker stall food
- Char kuey teow
- O chien
- Pasar malam food
- Pisang Goreng
- Keropok Leko
- Crab
- Durian
- Tau Fu Fa
- Satay
- Pork Noodle
- Lala
- Nyonya kuih
- Chinese new year biscuits
- Snowflakes
- hmm..... thinking.....

Thats all for now.
This venture starts on the 20th of Jan. See you!

No Feel

....and we were talking about going out with guys we dislike.

Friend: No feel, how can you go out with the guy?

Me: Yea I know right! Got lah! feel bad. HOW?

*she stares and we started laughing

Man, I love the shit we talk.

I think?

"If humans can read each others mind.. wonder how the world will be"

Facts:

• I attract more beautiful girls than good looking guys. 
• I never seem to be with someone with the same ambition/profession as I do. 
• I have short term memory. Its very true. 
• Highly independent, but prefers to depend on someone, like 100%. 
• Sometimes way too friendly. Needs to take up a "Rejection lesson"
• Always looking for the perfect one. And my definition of perfect is..
• I can daydream on a couch all day
• Always complain about body fats but never work it out consistently
• Not good with babies. It happens when you've no baby- siblings/cousin/niece/nephew/neighbour/friend..yada yada yada.
• Easily jealous. Knowing that 90% of the time, I'm just wasting my time. Its feelings, cant help.
• Loves attention, everybody does!
• But, don't take compliments very well. I think, there's an evil intention behind every compliment

Ok.. I think I'm wasting my time now. I just wanted to write the 1st fact. -_- logging off!

Happy New Year, 2012

"Appreciate everything that made you who you are at this very moment, that includes all bitches and assholes"


I've been missing for a veryyy long time. As you know, its normal and not surprising. :)

And so, I had a peaceful celebration with friends and it was good. Clubbing and big parties weren't my first choice to celebrate, I think I'm getting real old. Haha! In 2011, I learned a great deal in appreciating people around me. Broken heart or losing ones I loved. All the complications and decision making I had to make. Even natural disasters, man I do feel bad for all those who had to suffer. I would say, the nature took its course in a very unpleasing manner in 2011. Especially first half of the year, life was tough. I believe, not only me but most people have experienced the same.

So in 2012, I just hope for better mankind. I want everyone to start appreciating things and people around them. Its never too late to tell them how much you mean to them. There's no right place nor right time to express such feelings, it's now or maybe never. Life is unpredictable.

New Years Resolution, appreciate. And not forgetting, make more $$$ - buy shares and make donation. Be happy, of course :)))

Good night.