miss my "no fringe" hairstyle.. So, i did something today. I spend 15mins to clip up all my fringe before going to school. 1pm lect. I took 171 at 12.10pm.

Funny thing. The lect was a review of the module, as exam is approaching. Guess what? the lecturer gave a lot of hints lor !! weet~ so good.. ha.. and unexpectedly, the whole thing ended in half an hour time. Make me do this do that, and ended up spending only half an hour in school. Nvm.. slack in canteen one for another half an hour, drinkIng soya bean milk, before going home...

Not exactly home. Went northpoint anyhow walk walk..

now rotting at home. okie. i'm still feeling so excited about her birthday! argh.. got to finish exams before the day comes.. shito. haben start my revision. No motivation! can some one nags at me to study? yesh....................................



Get out of my dreamland

Ah!!!! haha.. i m so lucky today..

oKie. we are good friends like before. This is good. I did not lose any friend. :)

work. after work. haha.. guess what? i was in the train back home.
from outram park(after supper)
train stopped at toa payoh. as it started to move on, i saw Kim. haha! wasted. he didn't board the train i'm in. Guess what, my eyesight is so good that i saw what he wore. Polo tshirt with collar up, bermudas, sling bag, spike hair.. whaha.. oh gosh.. i was so elated that i was smiling to myself. Sister and her bf thought i was crazy. But. seriously la.. he is so handsome.. im in luck? haa... he's attached and i never contact him any more.

okie. got some other people too.. but i lazy to type in here. ahha!


///// im mad. just reach home nia. and i blogged this. ////


hahaha! :) :) :)

Bewitched``

This is a fake smile. An evil one.

One that depicts how much the girl is desiring for, that something.












Been busy and exhausted recently.

Busy with poly sch thingy. projects. revisions. and and and ... many more. Gossips too.
Exhausted due to sleeping late, working very hard, putting in my fullest effort and energy in doing things.

Wanted to get the frustrating out of my mind. at times, i will recall of the horrible incident. that hurtful one.

Why am i still therE? i wanted so much to move on. And, i did. By just one step. Pathetic wasn't it?

F**cking hell time for me!

Never mind. Im strong and i shall move on.

Don't worry about me.

Felt so tempted to go out now. So bored. Hey! It's a Saturday, alright.
I had already wasted the day just by working. And now, sleeping is what i can do now. It is late. Nowhere to shop. I want some new tops. But. I still need to save up for one beautiful dress meant for Kay's birthday.
How i wish......... someone will bring me out to buy things! muhaha.. *evil grin* and of course, PAy for me! That will be so great! (dream on, my dear...)

I'm supposed to do my ejournal plus revisions.. Exams are coming. And im still playing about. BUT.One thing for sure. I want to play. Play as if there's no tomorrow.

I need a partner. Someone. Who has the time to be with me. Someone who can tolerate my naggings and negative characters. Fuck. I am not desperate. A princess. I just wanted to own the feeling of being loved. Be the girl who has a guy with her most of the time. Someone who she can share her thoughts with. Intimacy. Im not perverted, in case you don't know. Im just normal. It is just that i do not mind shouting out loud that i desire for intimacy. OOPX. i think that's a bit too much. But, who cares ~ Desperate . . . . .


Arsehole. He is such a bad guy. No comments anymore. i could only reminisce the past to myself. No one else would like to hear my story. It's a fact. Yesh. Indeed he is a flirt. One big philanderer. *nice word to use* A desperate one. Who cannot live without girls in his life. Useless human on Earth. Why can't he just improve on himself. And not be that "dangling" in his fucking life. Alright. I have not much say in his life and I do not wish to be in his life since then.

"...wake me up inside..."

"..thinking back of where we first met.."

hell.
good night. gonna do something to my eyebags. Sleeping is the solution.


Smile. For myself.

Fuck him.

Fancy me, still keeping high hopes that we will get back together. STupid fool. OH! im such a stupid fellow. With childish and immature thinking.

Messaged him. Ask if we have any chances to get back together.
..... i really don't wish to think about it now.. sorry..
I was stunned. Heartbroken. I do not know what to reply.
... i hope you'll really understand.. i really don't wish to make any rush decision that i might regret next time...

FUCK! Hell you go. Stupidity really got into me. I did not reply. Shit! I was totally saddened. Could probably due to the fact that im at 36th storey by then. I was thrown down ~ all the way down........................... freak! who can exactly understand how i feel then? who know.

My day is spoilt. Arsehole.

If this is what you actually had in mind. So be it. I don't really want to waste my youth le. Sick and tired. People just reprimanded me not to be so affected. But i just can't.

I wanted to cry. I could not.
In the end, I did.
While watching Superstarr results.
Fuck. What an arse i am too.

::You turned my life around.You picked me up when I was down::You r the only one::

WHAT AN UGLY SAYING!

It was once true. But not any more.

I hope you can understand.

No way will i understand, as i was never that understanding in such events/issues.

Mind eu! Im a taurean. Meant to be stubborn.


Pss.... jieting. thanks a lot. listening to me via sms is tough. but thank you You.

wake up at 10am. my lecture at 9am. It is alright. Since i intended not to go.

what a happy dream i have. i was in this bus with a guy. this guy is someone i know. :X i shall not disclose his name here. hmm.. my dream is abit messy. i oculdnt piece it up nicely. pardon me for that.

we have fun, i assume? then we were at the Mrt station. waiting for the train to come. I do not know why. I hug his waist. He is taller than me. Hug his waist just like a loving couple u can see out in the street nowadays.. So sweet.. i guess, in reality, im jus hugging my pillow/bolster ba. haha -_-

we chatted happily on the train. it was such a nice feeling. huggin someone. i had not done that officially since my last relationship when i was in sec2. that is long. my heart cannot stand the loneliness too long.... wah..........

that is just the first.
here comes the second one..

I was back into my old house at block 153. i went to our neighbour's house. gosh. haha.. of course, last time, we were very good. looking out for one another. i peered into that girl's closet! gosh!!!! so many pieces of nice clothing. Unknown to why im so happy over the fact that there are 3 closets full of clothes, i jus love it. haha!

that is about it le ba? okie.. i shall do my things now. gonna rush my research and tutorials...

take care beings.

To my friend, MaK.

Work hard. You can do it! Saw you sending the girl home. So sweet of eu. It was already like, 7 plus.. So tiring after the test and yet, eu make the effort send her home. Glad for eu. haha! besty lUCk! :)



To my girl guides:

All of eu were great today! Contigent, colour party, gymnastic performances etc.. I was so glad to see all of eu enjoying yourself at the Ytss national day celebrations! Great job.
Oh.. guess what? I was quite.. How should i say? I MISS THE GUIDING TIME!! haha.. i felt like joining the contingent..! i miss the fun... i had for the last 4 years.. Oh gosh! I missed being the one holding the guide flag (2003), being part of the contigent (2002), then... blah blah... !
*grinning*



To my friend, Him:

I do not know what to say. I do not know what to message eu. Let time decide ba.


Okie. I go bathe le. Going out after this. Muhaha. take care then!