琅琊榜

I have just finished a drama today. 54 episodes in total and all I spent was 3 days time. Some empty feeling there when I finished the series. Don't know what went wrong. I even thought is this a wise choice to finish the whole sires LOL. Apparently it affected me. One of the best China drama of the year but why do you give me sad ending leh? I rather you bullshit a bit and make them together. Loving each other and that guy need to suffer for his first half of life d why wouldn't you as a writer makes his 2nd half of life better? You are so cruel leh! Fake some shit out to make them together also nvm. This is drama, where people can find fairy tales at which people couldn't find here in real life.

Okay let's go in a bit into the movie. Overall the plot is good. I would say 环环相扣, 伏笔also can link well to later in the story. And one thing good is that they don't drag the story line. Everything goes as smooth as possible. Worth watching but with a bit of bad ending.

I think I gona feel empty for a while. Hopefully it won't take me too long. I even went searching for comments and hoping to look for some bad comment about the ending. Hahaha.... Isn't that lame? But what to do LOL

facebook says 3 years ago

Today had been a bad day. Sister suggest me to try out on Avago and Agilent. I have been in dilemma for a week+ already. Tbh, I don't feel like changing so soon. This might affect my portfolio after all it is less than a year since I started working in this company. Furthermore, colleagues have been great to me, this is the other reason I don't feel like leaving. However, I am not convinced with my boss. He is an experienced, knowledgeable engineer. Nonetheless his managing style is not something preferable. I have 2+ months to reach my contract termination, should I look for a job now? Agilent is a good place to go, what I am reluctant is the ME job role. This is not something I want. Thursday could be a decisive day for me. Let's see how things go this Thursday. As mentioned, Facebook said 3 years ago I made a friendship with VVC in FB. This is not a good move from Facebook. I felt like I am an abandoned people which has no more value already. She made me feel I am not appreciated. Boss made me feel like my hard work isn't been look into. He doesn't believe in me. Although I am new in industry, I don't mind putting extra miles to achieve my milestone, credit taken by others. But are you seeing what am I doing? VVC pun macam ni, WMF pun macam ni. What is this crap la aiyo.

VVC, frankly speaking, I am not sure if knowing you is something good in my life. Yes you might say I ruined our friendship as I am asking something else further. What would you expect when I am to Skype you day and night, texting you is the first and last thing to do in the day? thinking back from now, things went kinda wrong already at the beginning, I text you more than I text Anna. Time zone different? I don't know. I think I am kinda 犯贱 to fall for you. Tried to cover up Fu Hou's stuff from you because worried you might lose faith in relationship in future time. Owell, I think even if you know, you might just think that I am covering for him. But sorry you are wrong, I am doing this for you. Nevermind, this is not important anymore.

To who would appreciate me,

Please bump into me next year. I need you guys badly.

TYVM

到此为止

I drank a lot tonight. Enjoyed the night! However, there is something must come to an end. I had been loosing focus for past two weeks. Don't feel like doing anything, procrastinate for everything. Did nothing in the office. This isn't good! Time for you to let go mate. You are just nothing!! You don't fet apprexiated! You are just a friend, a friend that is possible to be ignored! This is life. Nothing can be done in between when you are being friendzoned. What are you actually getting is ni shi hao ren. I felt so stupid. Things must come to an end. When she doesn't appreciate then i must let it go already. You are just NOTHING!

Decision?

I got an answer from her today. "I respect your decision. Let me know when you are ready k?" Omg! What kind of answer is this? Wouldn't you need to reflect on your own first? Do you think that what you are doing has absolutely no problem and all these problems are entirely mine? You gotta be kidding me right? Just because I have feeling to you, that make the entire problem mine? I am confused with life value now. Should I continue to treat people well? Believing in what are you giving right now will get paid off later? I am so lost right now. All the believes that I had on you are totally gone. I feel like I am one of the “soldier of goddess of mercy” of you, which I have absolute zero of acceptance. I feel so cheap right now. I am hurt. Totally hurt.

来者何人，表明来意！

It has been a while since I last drop by here. This two week has been eventful. Done booking Taiwan trip accommodation. Manage to secure a driver for Taichung with negotiated price. Get drunk and puke.Phone got stolen, Got replacement within 24 hours. Catch up with Louis Lim, one of Adam Khoo's student who will be going back Singapore for good. Had a great talk with him. Decided to meet Fu Hou,Yan, Steven and Stan up in coming December. Will get my air tix tomorrow. Halo HK, Dongguang! Here I come!! Will go for Joey Yung concert this coming Saturday at Genting. My first concert experience in my life! 苦冲开了便淡~~ Will meet my honey Thai up at KL this Sunday before he goes back UK for good. Ohmaigawd, how colourful.

Despite of the colourful and eventful life I have got now, I still can't get rid the bad feeling. Now we have gone back to the stage that stop talking already. It is good? It is bad? I got no idea. We stopped contacting each other for about a year already. Honestly I thought I let it go already. But sadly I haven't. But after a year, we started talking to each other. And that is when I got updated about her again. So what does she want? She can just leave me alone and we could still be a hi-bye friend. I don't understand what is the point of her updating her recent news to me. Confusing much. Let's be fair. I did initiate conversation to you twice. One was East Malaysia earthquake, I was worried. One was the day she left to UK for further study. I cut both conversations as short as possible. I need an answer. My friend told me there is one kind of girl in this world .Even when they don't like you, they would want to keep you as a friend. I don't think she is or I rather hope that she is not. I was told that I am not in her priority list that's why she will decide when she reply. Can be right after my text, can be days later when she feel like replying. HOPEFULLY it is not as what I thought. How pathetic am I if this is really happening to me.

Honestly I want an answer. This is bothering my life already. My mood is fluctuating up and down, badly affected by this. Wrong time? Wrong place? Wrong people? 可以给我个答案吗？表明来意！Face to face talk?

New chapter!!

Finally!! It's tomorrow!! It gonna a whole new chapter of my timeline!! I will officially start work tomorrow!! Tho I worked part time before but I am kinda nervous after all this is my first full time job. How should I react tomorrow? Hmm.. We shall see how does it go tomorrow. Just came back from my Hokkaido last week, gained weight, ate a lot of nice food, being guilty to food because i just feast as if i wasn't appreciating the food. Hokkaido is a must go place in this planet. Nice view, nice food,well protected environment, well preserved habitat, nicely made dairy products, good manner from the Jap, and of cos Jap leng luis. Hahaha! I just loved there! I will see you again Hokkaido!! Remember Budapest? I been there after Anna. Now it's Hokkaido. She been there last December. I was like walking over all city that she been to. Well it sounds creepy, but yahh this is the second time I am doing this already tho I didn't do both on purpose. Text her when I was there. She introduced a lot of food to me. I told her I wouldn't be able to remember, but I tried every food that she recommended. I was too cared about her. Trying to remember whatever she had spoken. Nice recommendation tho! It's her birthday this Saturday. I wish I could celebrate with her. However, with this situation of us now, I doubt this is going to happen. And I remembered she said she is going to Taiwan this month. So most probably she gonna spend her birthday in Taiwan. Anyway wish you leng leng everyday, detox thoroughly, no more pimples and acne. Study well for bar which will start end of this year. Enjoy your birthday in Taiwan. Enjoy your gap year to the max! It's time to bed. Oyasumi Nasai! Sayonara! Wish me luck tomorrow!