Second chance

Wow, I'm so happy today. Because I get a news, which is I'm debarred from the bar list. A second chance is given to me, so now I can go to have exam without worrying given.

Before this news is out, I have been depressed for whole week long. Healed by friends when went to have fun, but depressed again after back to here.

Heard a news during my stay on hometown, 1 of my senior withdrew from UTAR because he can't cope with the stress. Well, UTAR is stressing us with lots of subjects, we have to be careful and good in stress management.

When hanging out, is sucks when watching 3 pairs of couple playing beside you, and you are the only single there. Well, seeing them happy then I feel happy too, they are my friends after all.

Next semester, and during my break, will be very busy. But hope can achieve some of my target. Don't want to feel like inferior than others anymore. I will learn as hard as I can, just afraid of my own laziness.

Prom night, first time for FICT. But can you guys don't take it so seriously? Yes, it's the first time for FICT having a prom night, BUT it isn't that grand, until whole UTAR have to help you celebrate. And stop comparing our night with others, others had their nightS, they had experience on what to do and how to do, so it make senses if we doesn't do as good as them. Just try to enjoy the feeling of organising the FIRST prom night, damn it.

Felt quite sad when idea is banned, but it's OK, it's not my own prom, isn't? Although it looks different than what I imagined, but I will continue to bring it out to FICTians.

Well, Saturday going UTAR beach party, hope can learn something, and gain something. Maybe it's the first step for me to take forward. Charge! FICT!

PS: Data struct assignment, I can't even help myself, so how can I help you?

Dissapointment

A nice day have been ruined by a call from office. I was told I that I have a 28% absent rate for that subject. I counted, it is 4 times absent??? I was like "WTF?" I only absented 3 times? But now you tell me 4 times? Damn, unbelievable.

Maybe attendance is still counted after bar list? If that so, then I cannot be saved. Well, it really ruins my mood, whole day. Damn it, wasted time and money, and have to come out with new planning. Well, let's see how's the final bar list goes. Damn.

PS: Due to my super bad mood, I hope all people in Kampar also suffer bad mood with me. Best if they all get barred with me.

You asked for it? You deserved it!

This few weeks, has took a peek on the reality. Don't have money? You deserved to get bullied. This fact is known since long time ago, but it's a total different thing when it strikes directly at you. Some people just can become that unethical when is comes to money.

What can I say? What can I do? Scolding? It doesn't bring much benefit. I dislike to scold each other because it doesn't bring benefits to both parties, but it doesn't mean that I won't angry, and just stand there to let you bully. I have my own way, I'm not that kind.

Frequently skip class has finally lead me to another reality, which is already expected, but still hope for different result. Well, I deserve this because I really skipping a lot of class this semester. Just as I thought, I will become lazier and lazier if I don't ride my bike to campus. Funny, eh?

Sometimes not I don't like to help you, but who will like someone that always change their mind? This world is big, and I can't fulfill all of your conditions, and requirements. It doesn't mean that I didn't put my heart it if I can't fulfill it. I tried my best to help you.

Still got 2 years in Kampar, but actually I wish I can graduate faster. Living here doesn't bring any UBER nice memories to me, despite those beautiful scenery of "lakes".

Hoping to getting unbarred. Else, plans will need to adjust, and more time will be wasted. Next semester, no more slacking. Those subjects seems hard, and also interesting. Hope they can lead me to discover more knowledge.

PS: Felt that I'm not that good as I think, and not that knowledgeable in the field that I'm going to enter. The words of Dr. Choo is spinning around my ears.