Turn Away

Happily find someone to chat, when I finally can stop doing other things and concentrate in chatting, But somehow it will eventually turns into a long loop of waiting. At the end, will even get ignored.

Maybe my attitude of mine leads to these situations. Talking lots of nonsense, using lots of bad words, or even talking things that is uninteresting. Even maybe I choose a wrong time to chat, where you have lots of works to do, and chatting with me will occupy your precious time, even 5 minutes.

Thats fine, while I don't want to waste your precious time no more, I'll just stop that initiative. While myself doesn't sound appealing to you, I know there's always other people that will entertain you,

Why should I keep getting the same results that frustrates me over and over? Every time I compare myself to others, and it just makes me more disappointed. If I'm not that valuable for you, thats fine. I rather keep my value for myself.

I can't speak well, I can't tell stories, I can't entertain you, I can't help you, I can't calm you, I can't cook well, I can't sing well, I can't develop a mutual interest with you, I can't be kind hearted as others, I can't be decisive as others, I just screwed all up.

Maybe I'll just stick back to my own principle, which makes me have better feeling. Right now, I'll just turn away from you where I can, I can just continue my own life without your presence.
Since I'm that non-valuable and unnoticeable by you, I guess it doesn't make a difference. But that will be better for me, at least I will have lesser feeling of being ignored.

Life goes on, without you. Maybe you will find the importance of me, maybe I will find the importance of you, and that's the time where we will find each other again.

Ubuntu madness #2

This is my second post for Ubuntu madness, this is an idea that long formed in my mind, that is too reformat the netbook into Ubuntu once I get it. The netbook is a freebie where I signup for TM's Streamyx Unipack. While in UTAR, I saw many people carrying this netbook, which everyone's netbook is almost same, make you thought it as a clone, except the username and password. Since I want some difference, and also to impress people, and also to introduce Ubuntu to others, I want to reformat it. So, I did. The netbook comes with Microsoft Windows 7 Starter Edition, and with a sticker. What I did is, reformat the laptop, and stick a new Ubuntu sticker on it. Bye bye Windows 7 Starter Edition.
















PS: Time frame between reformating my laptop and sticking new sticker is about 3 months.

PS2: Lazy to hack pictures layout, done my best to let them stick together. =p

Ubuntu madness #1

This should be an old post, but too bad I don;t have the time to update at that period, so I'll make a post about it here. Before exam starts, I had done something new, crazy, with satisfaction. I ordered product from Canonical Store (Canonical is the company behind Ubuntu). I came through various products, and I decided to buy some of them( i wanted to buy ALL, but it's GBP).

To place order, I have to create an account. Well, thats easy. And then need to fill in your information like billing address and whatever, Well, thats quite normal. The hard part comes in when you choose your payment. Why hard? Because I don't have Paypal that time, I only have a Debit card, but they give two options of Credit card and Paypal. So i wonders, how on earth I gonna pay with my Debit? Well, after some asking and searching, I proceeded with Credit card option.

But then met a problem, which you need verification from VISA to activate your account. I blindly fill in the particular and damn, get locked. I searched the web and found some people teaching how to activate the account, and how to unlock. So I follow the steps, make a few calls (it's easy procedure that can finish in 1 call, but they hard to get on phone), and unlocked my card. So I go fill in my particulars again, but locked again. I make a few calls again, only to find out 1 field is different. My mother's maiden name is different? I was like "OMGWTFBBQ". But yet still success.

So after place order, is wait for the parcel to arrive. take around 3 days to reach their post office, and another 3 days to process for oversea delivering, around 2 weeks to reach Malaysia, and around 2 days to reach my area. In this process, the UK Royal Mail does provide a tracking number, which can be use to track your parcel, until it sent to overseas. The tracking number does work on their website. But for Malaysia's, the tracking system are failed. But calling them will provide excellent assistance.

So after the thing arrive, open it. Took some picture of it.


That's my order, 2 Ubuntu lanyards(1 orange 1 purple), 1 pack of 3 Ubuntu stickers, bundle of 3 CDs (Ubuntu Desktop Edition, Kubuntu Desktop Edition, Ubuntu Server Edition). You think I'm crazy? I'm going more crazy on next post.

I'm In Love With Trance

Well well, after I bought my Sensonic EP 500, I started addicted to trance. I still remember the 1st trance I heard, which is DJ Mystik - Time To Say Goodbye. But that time I don't know this genre called Trance, I only know the rhythm, the music sounds good, it does bring in emotions and feels as the music change.

Then after I grind o2jam till a certain level, I came across 2 songs, which is A Trip To Heaven, ESPERE(o2 short version), and I saw "Trance" for the 1st time, in the image of A Trip To Heaven. That's the time I know "Trance" for the 1st time. But I didn't start find tracks for it, because I don't have much interest to listen to it. Not I don't like it, but just simply lazy to find some nice tracks.

But after i bought my earphone, I started looking for nice trance tracks, and my friends guided me to Armin van Burren, Paul van Dyk, Tiesto this a few DJs. So i started to grind, and hell, they sounds good, especially Armin which is the No. 1 DJ for 4 consecutive years (2007~2010).

Trance have different sub-genre, such as acid trance, tech-trance, psychedelic trance, goa trance, uplifting trance, progressive trance, vocal trance, and others(please wiki "trance" for details). I personally like uplifting trance, progressive trance, and vocal trance more.

As in my opinion, trance is far more better then the pop. Those songs are so annoying, I don't even know what they sing, but yet they gained so popular? Another reason is they sound alike, don't you feel that all songs now sounds like same? The music structure, the MVs, all have been "formatted". Thats why the pop is getting me bored, and I like trance more.

Well, here's some link to the trance that I like, hope you all get the feeling why I like trance.

Armin van Buuren ft Sharon den Adel - In and Out of Love

Armin van Buuren Feat Jennifer Rene - Fine Without You

Armin van Buuren & DJ Shah Feat. Chris Jones - Going Wrong

Andy Blueman - Florescence(Emotional Mix)

Yamin ft. Marcie - Forward Motion (Original Mix)

Svenson & Gielen ft. Jan Johnston - Beachbreeze

PS: English Pop sucks, their lyrics brings so many negative things, I like J-pop more than English.

PS2: Justin Bieber? A immature kid who pop out to sing a puppy love song. If Tomorrow Never Comes much more better then Baby. Go back and study, dude.

PS3: Vocal trance vs English pop? I vote for vocal trance. Although the lyrics of vocal trance repeats on the same track, but it is far more "hearable" than those nonsense lyrics of English pop.

Hapi New Year

It's 1st of Jan of 2011, which means I'm unofficially 20 now. With the 1st digit changed from "1" to "2", I have a few new wishes, hopes, experiences(from past year), and also new targets.

Since all of them sounds similar to me(in terms of achievable), I'll just blend them altogether, which is my WISHes.Below is some of them:

My Wishlist, Technics RP-DH1200 DJ Headphones. This headphone gets alot of positive reviews, looks cool, sounds good, and some pro DJs are using it, like Armin van Burren. Cost is around RM650, last time saw 1 at ebay selling for $80 only, too bad not US resident.

My Wishes, learn how to DJ and mix songs/tracks(thats why I need that headphone), learn how to make some songs, get A (at least A-) in data struct, pump CGPA to 3.5+, learn Java, C#, Python, Ipoh friends can still have activities together, got lenglui in FICT's new intakes, introduce Ubuntu to more people, Microsoft market share will be decreased, improve in Minesweeper's time (hoping to get into world ranking), and some other things( currently still thinking)

Look back at the top, I have so many wishes, am I too greedy? Yes, indeed. But I hope my greediness can lead me to a way that can learn more things, can share more knowledge with others, and to improve my own attitude, behaviour, and also time management. Next year gonna try a few things, new approaches, hope to see how far can I go, where is my capability.

At last, this will be the saddest year for me, because all Form 6 friends will start split up to different Us, which means we will getting fewer time to spent together. UTAR's holiday is so "special", means I can only meet up with old friends in RARE cases. Well, that is the truth of life. Embrace it, and believe the next time we ever meet, we bring our own stories. I believe, the JM you knew, will still be the same, at least in front of you.

PS:Countdown x 2, damn loud!