Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Rainbow after the heavy rain =)))
Hubby and I have been quarrelling very very badly for the past few months =((
We quarrelled almost everyday and we were both really tired and vex =((
There was a lot of misunderstanding and unsecured feelings between us =((
For the past few months I've been feeling very unsecured and very lonely =((
Hubby and I really been through a lot of ups and downs this past few months =((
I finally realised that in order to make a marriage last long and successful it takes a lot of trust, understanding, patience, love and giving in =))
If I were to be so hot headed all the time and if i were to be so calculative towards every single thing between us then it is just going to make both our life very miserable =((
It really takes a lot ups and downs for me to learn my mistake and realised what is wrong with my marriage =))
I seriously hope that everything will be over and from now on everything will be smooth and lovely =))
I can't wait for my baby boy to arrive into this world and be in both hubby and my arms =))
Love my BABY BOY =))
Mmuackzz
1:18 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Pissed off =(((
I'm really angry with Jeffrey Kee today!!!
Fucking attitude, character and temper..
I seriously don't know what is his problem today!!!
I Woke up in the late afternoon at around 3pm, i was hungry and yet he refuse to accompany me for lunch, when he was the one who woke me up and ask me to help me check something..
( If i don't eat how am i suppose to take my medicine?? )
He say he will wake up at 4pm and bring me out for late lunch but he DIDN'T ...
( He fucking sleep till 9 plus like nobody business....)
I clean up the room and vacuum the floor ask him to help me yet he didn't even want to give me a helping hand...
( He just lay in bed and play with his stupid phone...)
Ask him to fix the vacuum cleaner for me and guess what he didn't fix it properly, once i start vacuuming the floor the vacuum cleaner breaks into pieces.
( Seriously FUCK UP !!!! )
After cleaning up the entire room, i went to wash the clothes and hang them up.
I simply just ask him to help me buy tea bag when he come back yet he tell me all sorts of rubbish!!!
PISSED PISSED PISSED PISSED !!!!
I did everything on my own today and yet he didn't even give me a helping hand...
Not only that, the whole entire day he have been giving me all sorts of attitude and showing me his colours...
Why must i stay here and get myself so worked up
9:37 PM
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Baby Check Up Results =))
I was very ill for the past few days. I was down with a very bad fever, cough, flu and not stop vomiting that i had to go into the hospital for drip.
While i was actually having my drip hubby was actually waiting for me throughout the process.
( Only when something bad happen to you then you'll realise that the people beside
you really cares a lot for you !! )
Anyway, i was got a little better today, finally i do not need to lay in bed all the way anymore.
I went for my baby scan this morning with hubby and I'm very happy to say that, my doctor had confirm us that our baby is a BOY...
Hubby was really very happy to hear that, he was smiling happily to himself and was trying to hide his true feelings from me at the same time.
To me be it a boy or a girl I'm equally as happy but i guess hubby really wanted a baby boy and glad to say to his wish he got himself a baby boy.
As today is Valentine's Day, hubby and i was Vivo for shopping and had our lunch at Vivo City. Nothing special at all just walk around, didn't get to buy anything that i really wanted for myself because hubby was nagging non stop, telling me everything is very expensive this and that...
Had lunch at Sake Sushi , half way through i was feeling very very unwell and we headed home.
I just got home from playing mahjong with my dear brother GuoXiang.
The money i won is just enough to get be back home by cab, Sometimes i seriously don't understand what the hell am i actually thinking.
Anyway i had fun at his place today.
Sometimes, i really hope hubby can be a little more sensitive toward my feelings and try to really understand what i really want and what is the least that i expect from him as my husband.
( I guess that is something that i will have to work on for a very long time!! )
Can't wait for my next doctor visit to see my baby boy.
Mummy love you baby =))
2:40 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
A brand new year and A brand new start =)))
I haven had time to blog for a very long time, many things have changed in my life.
I can't imagine that I'm actually having a baby soon.
I'm four months plus pregnant already =)))
My precious baby would be arriving in end of end.
I seriously can't imagine that I've actually moved out and started a family of my own, something that I've dreamt for a long time.
Everything seems to be very different ever since i moved out from HOME =((
( Not really how i imagine it would be )
I have to start learning how to do house chores like, washing the clothes, vacuum the floor , mopping the floor, clean up the room, change bed sheets, wash my own dishes after every meal, wash my own clothes etc ....
( All these which i do not need to do at home )
I finally understand why people always say, it's always easy to date a person but when you really start living with that person everything including the feelings for each would be very different.
There have been many disagreements and arguments between Jeffrey and I, some which i really don't understand why either.
My temper is getting from bad to worst and my body just seems very wrong, as though it doesn't belong to me anymore.
As my stomach gets bigger and bigger i start to be really afraid that i might never be slim again.
My relationship with my family is getting from bad to worst ever since i had this baby, My parents just can't accept that fact that I'm pregnant at such a young age with no future and no career. Ever since the day i moved out of the house, they have never contacted me at all.
( Now a days, I really start to miss HOME, I miss my dad and my brother, I kind of miss the life i use to live in the past )
I recently just went to see my doctor and she said that my baby is very healthy and is growing very normally. I also took my first blood test and baby is normal as well.
I'm really thankful that my baby is healthy and normal =)))
Now that I'm a mother myself then i really start to understand the feeling of carry a baby for 9 months is really not that simple.
Sometimes i really thought of giving up and go back to the kind of life I used to live but i know that can never be possible anymore.
Jeffrey can really be very supportive at times but he can really be a pain in the ass too. Sometimes he just drives me nuts and i just feel like killing him in his sleep =))) I know he is trying his very best to be a good husband and a great daddy to be and it's really not easy as the both of us are still pretty young.
I spent most of my time right now thinking what i want in my life right now, whether the choice i made was right ?? whether am i really ready to be a mother and whether can i really settle down that young.
(I'm really scared most of the nights, I can neither sleep nor do anything at all.)
Jeffrey and I have been quarrelling over what to name our baby but we still can't seems to agree on a name yet.
I'm really thankful that i have really great friends around me during this period of time when i need support and help.
Only at times like that then you'll start to notice who your true friends are =)))
I seriously can't wait for baby to arrive into this world, I really can't wait to hug him/her and hold him/her tightly in my arms. Most importantly i want this whole pregnancy thing to be over so that i can gain my freedom back again.
Special thanks to : Kristine, Gina, Jizhong, Debbie, Kazuno, Lynn, Victor, Tzewei, Vicky Tan, Sheena gow and all my beloved cousins =))
( without you guys i seriously do not know what would happen to me, thanks for all the support given )
MUMMY LOVES BABY =)))
9:06 PM
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
In a total mess !!!
My life is in a serious fucking mess right now, everything is going in the wrong direction.
As usual my family fucking sucks and both my parents is totally crazy again.
I trusted the wrong person and got myself into really deep mess.
I'm really sorry JEANETTE, I really didn't mean it!! I dunno what else to say but only I"M VERY SORRY.
I'm currently looking for a place to move out, i seriously no longer wanna stay in such a miserable place anymore.
I would rather stay in the office till late at night than just go home and sleep.
The sad thing is not even the closest person to me understand how i really feel!!
ONLY kristen and my group of best friends knows how badly i have been treated from the past 22 years of my life.
I had enough, i really had enough!!!!! I'M MOVING OUT ........
7:21 PM
