Sunday, June 26, 2011
i have not felt so afraid in such a long time, this time round it's the fear of losing, the fear of losing my love ones:( just the thought makes me shudder....-
by jessie=] @ 12:23 AM
Sunday, January 09, 2011
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
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by jessie=] @ 1:23 AM
Monday, October 18, 2010
DILEMMA!!!:(
wanted to call, but i need to focus, i need to concentrate.
i believe i can get past these few days.
pls dun let my mind wander again...
wanted to call, but i need to focus, i need to concentrate.
i believe i can get past these few days.
pls dun let my mind wander again...
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by jessie=] @ 11:37 PM
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
i kinda miss hearing daddy clearing his throat every morning.
i kinda miss daddy playing all his music at home.
i kinda miss daddy coming into my room farting. ok maybe not really.
all in all, i do miss seeing daddy at home. although i do visit him every now and then. it has been close to 2 month now, and i seriously do hope u will recover really soon. :*(
i kinda miss daddy playing all his music at home.
i kinda miss daddy coming into my room farting. ok maybe not really.
all in all, i do miss seeing daddy at home. although i do visit him every now and then. it has been close to 2 month now, and i seriously do hope u will recover really soon. :*(
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by jessie=] @ 11:28 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2010
I HATE IT:(
already foresee these troubles, highlighted them before, was assured it will all be well. and shit still happens.
already foresee these troubles, highlighted them before, was assured it will all be well. and shit still happens.
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by jessie=] @ 11:37 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2010
siaowei! i miss you so so so so so so so much! :)- I MISS MY BEEBEE!
by jessie=] @ 12:39 PM
Thursday, July 22, 2010
my heart ache when i saw daddy in pain:( it's the kind of feeling where you just feel very terrible. tears swell up at the back of my eyes, but i had to tell myself not to let them roll out. yes, i know he will recover in time to come but i just can't help feeling horrible. there is nth i can do to lessen the pain. adapting to work is enough to keep myself busy, learning by the ropes mean i have to adapt fast. it's really tiring at time, but you just have to learn and move on with the pace. i love you daddy!-
by jessie=] @ 10:26 PM
Tuesday, July 06, 2010
Been real busy for the whole of last week, work was super hectic with 2 back to back camp. Hardly have time for myself much less my frens and family, baby had to meet me at the weirdest timing, like early in the morning and at night when i am busy packing stuff for another camp! But i must say it was definitely a good experience! more to come and i must hang in there. When i was at batam, i totally broke down la, cried while i was showering. It was like, i was super duper tired, had no heater to shower, and showering all alone in the ULU toilet at like midnight. Biut i still managed to come back in one piece, and i feel that i am much stronger! I think i still need time to get a hang of the job, but it's ok! i have the time:)haven been training for close to a week now and seriously speaking, i do miss my aikido frens and training, it's like my body itches at time and i just have the urge to roll ard-.- ok i know i am not a monkey. 3 months, and i will back... perhaps even b4 3 month i will go back. HMMMM....
had the ytd and tday off, and i finally managed to get time to rest! it's back to work tmr, and i am kinda looking forward to it actually although i will be tired! POSITIVE MINDSET!!! JIAYOUUU!
and and and! happy 2nd monthsary baby! i know i dun have much time for you, and i really do appreciate ur effort in meeting me during the times when i am free even though the timing can be weird ttm like early in morning and late at night:) LOVE YOU!!!
i want to meet up with my dear girlfriends! so much catching up to do!! SOMETIME SOON PLEASEE!!!! LOVE YOU GIRLS:)
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by jessie=] @ 10:22 PM
Sunday, June 13, 2010
we had a belated 1st monthsary celebration yesterday. ok, i am not really someone who celebrate monthly because i feel that if we do so, we are not thinking in the long run! i mean no one celebrate their monthsary 10 years into their relationship/marriage right. will run out of ideas man=x but bibi feels that 1st month is something important, so we decided to to celebrate it! 
i must really give a THUMBS UP to bibi!
ok, i was so engrossed in the food and totally forgot to take pictures! so i only had picture of this madly awesome chocolate cake!
YUMSSSS! 
how can i ever resist it! their braised duck pasta is also super yummyy! I LIKEEEE. i seriously need to run tmr. LOL
how can i ever resist it! their braised duck pasta is also super yummyy! I LIKEEEE. i seriously need to run tmr. LOLden we headed for karate kid, 
i must say the time is pretty well planned and i like the show too! it's a must watch i would say. will Jayden Smith grow up to be so super hot like Will Smith?? HMMM... i look forward to that! hahaha. took the night rider back and we continue cam whoring below my house with our prezzie!!
baby, i know you must have spent quite a lot on our first monthsary, the celebration, prezzie and everything. i really do appreciate the effort and i LOVE the prezzie alot! most importantly, i enjoyed your company and i guess when i start work we won't be able to spend so much time tgt.
I LOVE YOU!
i was pigging the whole of today! oh my, so not productive! woke up at 11 plus, had my lunch and i slept again when my cousin came over cos they were playing with my lappy and i only woke up at 6 plus! OH DEAR! i am like sleep nearly the whole day! talk to cc for awhile cos we haven catching up with each other, and we will be meeting up soon!!!:) i have a week to adjust my sleep time back to normal work hours, so that i can endure working life! my last week of life as a "slacker" and cc can't say that i am wasting earth's resources anymore! i will be a productive person on earth!! WHEEE! actually i am kinda excited to start work, cos it's something interesting i believe i will enjoy work! but they have to send me for some first aid course and i will have to attend the 3 day course ALONG! tell me how am i going to survive!!!?? shall see how it comes along, have to go down to the company to sign some documents tmr!!
TOODLES!
i must say the time is pretty well planned and i like the show too! it's a must watch i would say. will Jayden Smith grow up to be so super hot like Will Smith?? HMMM... i look forward to that! hahaha. took the night rider back and we continue cam whoring below my house with our prezzie!!
baby, i know you must have spent quite a lot on our first monthsary, the celebration, prezzie and everything. i really do appreciate the effort and i LOVE the prezzie alot! most importantly, i enjoyed your company and i guess when i start work we won't be able to spend so much time tgt.
I LOVE YOU!i was pigging the whole of today! oh my, so not productive! woke up at 11 plus, had my lunch and i slept again when my cousin came over cos they were playing with my lappy and i only woke up at 6 plus! OH DEAR! i am like sleep nearly the whole day! talk to cc for awhile cos we haven catching up with each other, and we will be meeting up soon!!!:) i have a week to adjust my sleep time back to normal work hours, so that i can endure working life! my last week of life as a "slacker" and cc can't say that i am wasting earth's resources anymore! i will be a productive person on earth!! WHEEE! actually i am kinda excited to start work, cos it's something interesting i believe i will enjoy work! but they have to send me for some first aid course and i will have to attend the 3 day course ALONG! tell me how am i going to survive!!!?? shall see how it comes along, have to go down to the company to sign some documents tmr!!
*PS, xin msn is like my hot favorite now! catching all the shows i have missed.
TOODLES!
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by jessie=] @ 12:27 PM
Sunday, June 06, 2010
i have been feeling lazy lately!
1st thing up to rant!
job search so far is super sucky, it's feels as though i am like just settling for anything. it's like, i am just applying for anything which comes my way. interviews are really getting to me now!): and lately i made a super horrible blunder! it's like i was browsing through classified and i called up a few number to enquire about jobs and one number which i dialed is regarding retail work. *my close frens would know i am an ANTI RETAIL person* don't ask me why i call the number in the first, told you i am desperate already-.- it happen to be a miss call, and when the person call back, he went like
HIM: hi, i receive a miss call from you, are you looking got a job
ME: OH YA! hihi. i am looking for a job.(i actually forgot which are the job that i actually called up for, but i applied or quite a number of admin position) so i 'gei gei' and went, oh ya, u all looking or admin assistant right.
HIM: erm. no. we are hiring retail assistant, are you sure u are looking got a job as a retail assistant?
ME: "feeling super paiseh, but luckily it's through the phone" yes yes, i am actually keen in retail too!
and then i proceed on to ask him about what kind of retail is that and where they are situated, and when the interview. took down the details o the interview but i never went for the interview.
total BOOBOO for that day.
met a super f***ed up HR woman some time back, totally spoil my day. thanks to AH NEO for listening me to ramble non-stop, if not i could have probably died from anger at that very moment.
putting aside all those unhappy events! there are definitely nice and sweet events which cover up or those unhappy ones.
met up with bibi's best buddy and their gfs over dinner, they are a bunch of super crazy, friendly and fun-loving people! enjoyed myself with their company.
and oh yaa! happy first monthsary baby!! LOVES. met up with ah neo for dinner and we htht quite a fair bit! she's totally looking like a OL now, very diff from her usual tshirt+short dressing! nu da shi ba bian!
I LOVE YOU GIRL!Ning, got free ticket to Don't forget the lyrics, and she asked me to go with her! it was definitely a nice experience although i can't take any photos inside. DO WATCH THE LAST EPISODE! we might appear on TV cos we were sitting in the front row! HAHAHA!
headed to instructor aw and joanna wedding over the weekends in JB with some of the SGAC peeps, had quite an enjoyable time there, chit chating with them! we took 2 hours to cross the causeway and even with the aid of the GPS we nealy had to cross the causeway TWICE! ALL THE BEST TO THE NEWLY WED!!(:
credits to calvin! for this group photo.just had a htht session with bibi, i realised i don't know EVERYTHING about you, but we have got all the time in world to slowly know each other better!!(: I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!
i will start to go crazy tmr with all the job search again tmr.JIAYOUUUU JESSIE HO!!!
goodnight(:
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by jessie=] @ 10:20 PM
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
i am starting to get sick and tired of looking ard for a job which suits me):
interview are not fun at all!!!
interview are not fun at all!!!
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by jessie=] @ 1:34 AM
Thursday, May 20, 2010
jessie feel super duper LOVED and HAPPY today!!!(:
my "ai xin" breakfast! LOL
hand made sandwich for my breakfast from bibi! i was half-way through my breakfast when he called and surprise me with that! i made him finished my noodles while i finished the sandwich. HAHAHA! yes i know it's something very simple, but it's the effort that counts!(: and bibi, you made my day with that! LOVESS!
and the pasta he cooked for me for lunch few days back...ok, back to tday!
rushed off for work after that, it's a pretty boring job but good pay! so no complains abt it. HAHAHA! met up with tcher paul and had a short chat with him, it seems like i am getting clearer and clearer about what i want to do now. i just need to like really sit down and think over what is it i really want! thank you tcher paul!!(: 'godpa' and xav came down to pick me up and off we headed to IKEA! it's like their second trip to Ikea for the day, but this time round it was more of a chit chat session! 'godpa' gave me lots of talk abt relationship issues (his love tank theory etc) and he is super encouraging abt it, i know i am mean, but i think my daddy shud meet up with him sometime! LOL. and did i mentioned that both daddy and him has the same name: ERIC! such coincidence la! is that what we call fate?? LOL and and and! i satisfy my IKEA meatball craving!!! WHEEEE!
and chocolate from godpa(: which makes me a happy girl!ok, i must say i am a pretty easily satisfied person. i do not need big big presents and i do not need expensive presents to be happy. sometimes it's all this small gesture that can make someone's day. it's like would u prefer a bf who buys u diamond ring on your birthday only and 'bo chap' u normally, or a bf who constantly shower you with love, care and concern daily but don't buy u diamond ring? i would definitely choose the later! cos to me, it's all those small lil actions that counts. there is a chinese idom which goes:
积少成多
it's like receiving snack can also make me happy! yes, one things is that i get food but the most important thing is that, the person who got it for you actually thought of you when they are out shopping etc. it's the whole idea that your friends actually think of you and bother to make an effort and get it for you which makes me happy!
i am hooked onto snowqueen now!
but because i am super duper happy...
i am actually taking time off my show to blog !! LOL
but because i am super duper happy...
i am actually taking time off my show to blog !! LOL
back to snowqueen now!
BYEEE!
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by jessie=] @ 11:36 PM
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
i can proudly call myself a RP GRADUATE now!!!
mummy and daddy went for my graduation!(: (i told to them to clap loudly for me=x)
mummy and daddy went for my graduation!(: (i told to them to clap loudly for me=x)i have officially graduated from RP! but i actually kinda miss schooling life! it's like you don't get to see your friends every other day now. everybody is starting to work, and each have their own stuff to do and that EQUALS to less time seeing each other. we are all headings towards different path now, but my lovelies from RP, you guys definitely made my poly way interesting and memorable! 3 years passed just like that, but i am pretty sure our friendship will CONTINUEE!
esp you guys! my fyp lovelies!!! we went through quite alot together, we work hard and play hard! super lots of memories with u all! LOVE YOU ALL!(:
and lastly to my beloved one!
like i have told you before, LOVE is just a 4 letter word, but you gave it meaning! lots and lots of meaning!(:
xoxo
esp you guys! my fyp lovelies!!! we went through quite alot together, we work hard and play hard! super lots of memories with u all! LOVE YOU ALL!(:and lastly to my beloved one!
like i have told you before, LOVE is just a 4 letter word, but you gave it meaning! lots and lots of meaning!(:
xoxo-
by jessie=] @ 5:21 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
the weekend was a happening one! bibi's 21st birthday party plus mummy's day celebration!!!on friday, headed down to look for popo for dinner, and despite me not having a job, i treated her to dinner! not anything expensive but we decided on BK. it's like when i was younger, she was the one bringing me around, and i would be one saying that i want fastfood, cos kids all love HAMBURGER!! and now it's my turn to bring her to eat! LOVE YOU POPO:)
* delete uphappy stuff... and thanks ning for listening to me! u are my most awesome fren(:
joined the guys after that, and instead of getting any grocery shopping done, we caught iron man 2 at 2 instead. was super duper tired during the movie, but still thumbs-up for the movie!
saturday was grocery shopping at the gigantic GIANT hyper mart for bibi's bbq at night. headed off for aikido and only joined them back at night. ok, believe it or not i was super "EGGCITED, NERVOUS??" while i was on my way there. like it's my bday party-.- there is a reason, and it's cos his frens and family will be there!!! but luckily his family and frens were all super friendly and welcoming! *heave a sign of relief* it made me felt so much better. plus bro was there, so all was good for me.
BUTT
things were not all good for the bday boy, he got his share of being sabo by his frens in a sober state,
things were not all good for the bday boy, he got his share of being sabo by his frens in a sober state,
and in the end, he ended up dead drunk.
LOL! see la, drink some more. =xSUNDAY WAS MUMMY'S DAY!!!
celebrated at my popo's house with all the other mothers, and we cousins each prepare a dish! i think we made a mess in the kitchen! LOL. but the end product is awesome!!
a table filled with food is how we celebrated this day, and roy brought up that shoulden it be the dads cooking since it's always the moms cooking. NEXT year we shall make the dads coook!!mummy was working so i text her happy mothers' day and that i love her!(: plus a kiss when she return from work! HAHAHA!
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by jessie=] @ 3:31 PM
Friday, May 07, 2010
when i stepped into my room ytd, i saw a SMU letter on my table, i was like OMGG! SMU finally got back to me!! i happily open the letter and read the content..... ended up, it was like a rejection letter! -.- i immediately tore up the letter and threw it away in to the bin.at least for now, i know i should start looking for a full time job. cos NTU chances are even slimmer.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
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by jessie=] @ 1:27 PM
