Sunday, February 25, 2007

Weather: its night.
25th february 2007
music: wonka welcome song(kindda childish=))

hi.ok, today, i am gonna post about my very first aeroplane ride. which happened last year, during my sarawak trip. wrote this down on a piece of paper and now, i am gonna transfer here. enjoy it all rights? =D. the rest of the trip nothing much laa, cos i fell sick.=.=. oh ya! and wei jun is a great doctor. took real good care of me during the trip. haha, jun pro lor. can be doctor lawyer musician.. so many things=). ok anyway, here goes=)

When i finally reached school on 4th december, hope and anticipation lingered in my soul, as i were feeling super enthusiastic about the trip to sarawak. As this would be a time, to meet band people in sarawak(met 3 flautists, francis, alvin and 1more yea.), and that would be my very first time, taking an aeroplane. After the band settled down, and that attendance was taken, we loaded our stuff onto the bus, boarded it and headed straight for the airport. we made a prayer before that, to hope that everyone would be ok during the trip.(didnt work for me :/) Everyone was busy chatting on the bus, like some crazy people. I was sitting with wei jun, and was talking crapp, playing my phone, laughing, etc. you could sense excitment, anticipation and an aura of mystery lingered as we wondered what experiences we will face for the next few days.

when we finally reached the airport, we wore our blue band blazers with collar pins emblazoned on it. When all of us had done that, we looked like a bunch of seahorses, ready to go out there and meet the big vast ocean. Thereafter, we took photos with our family, friends, seniors, teachers and was wishing and greeting each other. We spent about an hour doing all that(gosh. haha) and that we then streamed to the other side of the airport where only people taking flights could enter. Before we bid our seniors and family good bye, my sisters gave me a cute litle carrot cushion, an arab bookmark and lots of beatings and punches(cos they wont be able to do so for the nxt few days, so bad right?) and my mum gave me a great big hug. through that few seconds, i felt warmth, motherly love and that i am gonna like so miss her. After bidding good bye, I felt really sad and excited at the same time. I looked around the airport shops like a blur sotong and then we headed straight to the customs. I thought that my screwdriver was gonna get conviscated as it was a sharp object, but the understanding officers there returned it to me with a kind smile.=).

The band waited at a waiting area, then walked intot a linkway to the plane. Butterflies were fluttering in my stomach as i passed the pink-wall papered linkway.I entered the plane, and my seat was 16B. I was being sent to be seated with mdm zaibon and miss Faten. i was a little disappointed that i didnt get to sit with my juniors joanne and jun. haha, and they could sense the happiness and joy that is within me. Yeah, and they even questioned me whether i was excited. maybe there is some kind of glow on my face that everyone could see.=). Then the plane left the airport, it first did the warm ups, that is to like go slowly on the run way; i was looking out of the window and see through that damn freagin window now the scenery will be like. All of a sudden, this TV thingy pooped out in every row right in front of us above our heads. I exclamied "cool!", and miss Faten who was beside me was like "cool right?". i nodded showing signs of agreement . The plane started to tilt as it started to soar above the ground. I felt air brushing past my face. and was like being compressed and restricted to my seat. i tried to distract myself by looking at the scenery outside of the window. of what would be the birds eye view of a plane. my stomach felt queasy. I was very amazed and flabbergasted at the scenery of Singapore which depicted much beauty in it. I saw cars on roads which resembled ants marching into their ant house. Also, I get to see the top view of changi airport; the vibrant colours, the beautiful shape of the planes, and the twinkling spotlights, which looked a lot like stars blinking at me. The plane was tilted at a degree of 45 degrees, gradually becoming less inclined. We were like astronauts soaring into space never returning to earth. Thereafter, was the top view of Pulau ubin and pulau tekong. It was really interesting and amazed me of how the scenery looked like. It was marvelous, marvelous i tell you. All kinds of shapes and colours, land and water. As the plane accelerates at a fast speed, the scenery changed from shapes, sizes, into clear blue skies with clear horizons and clouds. The land totally disappeared. It was like i was in heaven. Away from the stressful life style of singapore. The clouds looked a lot like cotton candy, i really felt like reaching out grabbing them to eat and enjoy. Also, My imagination also told me i was not in heaven. i was also like in Antartica. My imagination ran. The clouds looked like penguins and seals, and that there was even 1 which looked like a humongous killer whale. Too bad i didnt get a camera to capture the beautiful sights and scenes, However, the feel and the picture is still clearly imprinted into my mind. After 20 minutes or so, the skies turned black and grey. Nightfall and rain had arrived. Thereafter, the captains voice brought me back from dream world. he boomed that the temperature was 29 degrees and that there would be showers. The sky remained as black. As black as justice Baos face. I then got real bored(xianned) with the scenery, as i usually associate black with unhappiness and that some disaster is gonna happen. I looked around the plane, the teachers beside me were chatting as happy like birds chirping away. EVeryone was busy talking away. I reached out for my haversack below my seat, and took out my A math ten years series, and started doing. After attempting super complicated and sophisticated sums, the teachers broke me out of my engrosment. "waseh, model student!" they said. My face obviously turned red like a big huge red tomato. and i hurriedly kept it.

Dinner then arrived, teriyaki chicken sandwich, with water. Well, better than nothing. After finishing my simple meal, I was starting to get real bored. i felt vibrations below from my feet. The plane was landing. I actually expected plane landings to be fun, exhilarating, and exciting. but it was just going parallel, down and decelerating. So, i learnt something here. and that is "plane take offs are much more fun than landings!" We arrived at the sarawak airport, cleared the customs and headed for merderka palace hotel. where we will be recuperating for the night. WE stopped to get some food at a mall. then to the hotel. My room mate was jun. yea. and we shared a suite with keeem, erhao, taufik and farhan. keem and er Hao goked the master bed room. haha, but we are satisfied with ours. It was kindda comfy and cosy, though i prefered home. I smsed my mum to tell her i was safe. Something spoiled my mood thereafter which was something i wasnt suppose to find out.yea. yea. got kindda envious with someone. dont wann rake up the unhappiness. yea. But still can remember how unhappy i felt when i found out about that thing. yea. but its ok. then after that, talked to wei jun for the rest of the night, while the rest of the band members were partying away. As we talked till about 5 in the morning, we drifted off to dreamland...


well, thats about it. gotta go sleep already. tomorrow is my chemistry and english common test. 11.30pm. gosh. yea.

bb

-jErMA

@ 10:53 pm

Friday, February 23, 2007

Weather: raining-suits my mood
23rd February 2007
music: Danceries

hi. I aint in a very good mood while blogging. But i dont think i will be offending anyone. i am just very disappointed with myself, and i wann cry. really really wann cry. when i got home today, i just fell asleep, i thought i would have felt much better after sleeping. but i woke up feeling even worse. i tried to numb myself from watching TV, eating, sleeping. everything i can think of. the thing just stay there.

well. today is our A math and physics common test. and that is bothering me. Like hell. the thing is that, ytd, i was studying very super duper hard yesterday. and i found both tests to be killers. the worst part is that my A math has sucked ever since the beggining of this year. and I dunno why. i tried everything. maybe i just lack practice. I have been getting B4s and C5s. i used to be getting A1s and 2s. i dunno what the heck happened. feeling very hurt. very unstable.. VERY. and for physics, i felt that it was really really weird. i got wrong questions. and i found out that i carnt explain fully. i am so dead. such a failure. i die ler i die ler. really die ler. i feel so emotionally hurt. i dunno what to do already. i tried and tried and tried. maybe my trying isnt hard enough. i think that from now on, i will ban myself from the computer from monday- thursday. saturday to sunday. only friday. i wann cry. really really wann cry. i give up. really really wann give up lers. tried and tried. i think i will just study laa. study till i go crazy. till i go mad. i wann give up. really really wann give up already. if i dont study, i wann die. sec2, i needa relax to do well. and i aint enjoying my studies this year. I think let this common test be the last setback I will occur. the VERY VERY last 1. lets work hard for the rest of the papers. and do my best. i hope i will know how to do all. for bio just memorise. and for chemistry do and do and do. so dont disturb me this weekend unless its urgent. and from now on.
monday, wednesday and friday--> BAND till 6.30pm. go home straight. rest, then start work.
tuesday and thursday--> 3.25pm so, go home straight.

i seriously am beggining to wake up. I think what mrs chua said about the band that it has reached its peak and its falling. i think its happening to me. during sec 2 i climbed the mountain like mount kinabalu. i think i needa aim for mount everest. like aim that high. and i am not gonna give up. lucklily i wake up now. not like a day before O level or prelims. From now on, I will do these stuff as listed below. dont count friday.

-playing the flute and piccolo
-study
-swim
-do homework
-revise revise revise whatever teacher has taught for the day
-tutoring my juniors if they ever need help.
-family stuff.
-prefects

you see. donovan also woke me up. He has been getting A1S for his A math tests since the beginning this year and this common test, he finshed EVERY SINGLE 1. and said it was easy. Amos lim and wei neng also. i felt really disappointed. despite the class also averagely losing many marks, i felt really upset. I realy really am back into the mood of studying. like really studying. i carnt fall. i dont wanna fall. well, thats all for studies.

AND for band right. i am gonna gao dim the section politics ONCE and for ALL. finish it. if the band dont wanna wake up, i dunno what to do. all i can say is that, as an SL and as a player, i will do my best in my part and help the section to be at its best. despite the main band flautists or the junior band flautists. I shall now do my best in everything. i feel the drive when i was in sec2. except, this time, is really big set back that woke me up. lets hope that i can survive through this common test. for the rest of my subjects. yeah. and i seriously hope that the band will wake up. some of them still like slacking, so relaxed. SYF is coming. no band still can HOORAYYY. wakao. then i dunno what the hell i am working so hard for. seriously. i go research so much, I go work hard, i go buy so much other insturments for the senza part. if i know that my efforts are gonna be wasted just because of this few people, then i will not work hard. but i will continue working hard. to do the best that i can. zodiac pic parts. and my solo for sunrise. well. going off to practice flute lers. since its friday. tmr wake up, straight study for biology.

-jErM

@ 9:01 pm

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

weather: ok laa
21st February 2007
Music: Into the joy of spring- James swearingen- ( I got addicted to it liao, kept listening to it until xi huan=) )

HELLO.

ok, since wei xiang wants me to continue blogging right? i blog baa. but i will be VERY VERY careful and will only say happy things and myself. haha. ok. first i wann tell you all something. VERY VERY important.

If you all see me behaving like a ZOMBIE tomorrow, please dont be scared kayy? =). THANK YOUUU =D.

ok, you wann know why? cos, i was excersing from ytd till now. you see arhh. ytd horr, flute section gen 2 go Bai nian. then horr, i ran up from 1st to 11th story then ran down after visiting our dear toshikasa xinhui. then erm, after that, yarr, ran again. like a mad man, sprint in fact. then after go my house lers, then follow them go tampines mall. then sprint back as my family was waiting for me to go hongbao river. even if i tired cannot reject, cos they waited 6 whole HOURS for me to go. then right, today, during PE lesson, ran 2.4, did pushups and crunches until i wann die. then go for band, lalala. then after band, sprinted cross the park to talk to jun(he left first) I wanted to talk to him about some stuff. then luckily saw him at bus stop. then talk laa. yarr, then after that sprinted to the bus interchange. take 15. go big book shop, to only finding out that it is closed. =.= cos i wann go buy for jun something. IDIOT NIAAA. then ran home, while running home, saw kian hao at the opposite traffic light! >.<. haha, so cool cann?!?!?! i also saw shi min (trumpet senior) yaa. so qiao lorr. then run run run go home. waa. we also did compre test today which i think i am gonna fare terribly. i hope not. cos i wasnt really in the mood of doing. very very tired. so very very tired. friday got common test somemore. so gotta choing my tys today ALL NIGHT LONG. i must last. I dont care. so i tmr will be like mentally and physically tired. so after choinging, tmr after school, i will choing AGAIN to big bookshop to buy (I hope there still is :/) to big bookshop to find the assesment for him. since the physics common test is on friday, yarr, i will go and buy and choing ALL the way back to pasir ris then back to tampines. i dont care i die or wadd laa. but for my juniors sake, i WILL do it der. no matter whatt. *determined face* haha. =). yup. so it will be even worse tmr. I really really dunno how the heck i am gonna survive the last 4 periods tmr which is all periods which is kindda boring (NO OFFENCE!!). so tmr, is gonna be a day of survival... and tomorrows day's title will be called.
"Hai sing catholic.. the limits of the piccoluter- a victorious hero who will have hope in whatever he does." haha, got that from zodiac, the limits of the lion. yepp. No time liao. must chiong TYS and my flute playing totally sucked today, REALLY REALLY SUCKED. after 5 days of no practice, i sound like da bian.=.=. must faster get back. yaa.

i wann die ler. haha, and zhi Hao arhh, you got me addicted to into the joy of spring lers=).

-jErM - jia you jia you for those in E1 doing your TYS.

@ 7:16 pm

Sunday, February 18, 2007

to all my readers:

i AM never ever gonna blog again. till unless is a special event. I am such an idiot. real goon. never even delete things properly. such a smart ass. Now worsen things for myself again. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. i really really am never gonna touch this place like EVER AGAIN. really really EVER AGAIN. i shall heed my juniors advice and keep a diary instead. this way, i can get rid of my careless mistakes. and no one will get hurt. thanks zhi HAo.
-jErM

@ 11:16 pm

Sunday, February 11, 2007

weather: same
date: same
music: same

WOA. 3 posts in a day. AMAZING NIAAA. ok, i just called Zhi Hao, and am glad that he is willing to talk. i seriously hope that things can turn back to norm. even if there will be a hole in that piece of wood, you still can use wood filling to fill it up right? =). so lets hope things will turn back to norm soon. :/. AND from now on, i will post only when i am high or happy all right? when i am sad, I will just cry to my pillow. wont tell anyone in order not to make them worry. unless ppl i trust really wanna know, then i say baa =). AND when i am angry, i will thrash it ALL out on a piece of paper, and tear it, throw it away. This way, i feel better, and they wont feel hurt at all. zhi Hao, jun even my mum, say is the TONE i used that is causing me my misunderstandings. well, so from now on, when i am angry, I wont go to msn. sad and happy then go. yup. I am stressed. too stressed. really needa chill. when i am stressed + angry= going overboard in my posts. zhi Hao is like hurt. i caused it. stoopid me. think that blog is diary where NO ONE READS. wan ping read it, stacey read it, etc etc. jehan also replied to zhi Hao's tag. cool siaa. haha, so yar, this is what i plan to do from now on. control my emotions, instead of it controlling me. and NEVER EVER EVER tell anyone or SCOLD anyone when you are angry. cos me, this kind, love to exaggerate things is gonna cost a lot of harm.

thanks STACEY, mama, and zhi Hao for telling and teaching me all this. I hope through this i will learn loads.

-jErM

@ 3:23 pm

WEather: still bright and sunny
11th february 2007
Music: graduation- by vitamin C

HI. ok, whew, just did 2 WHOLE HOURS of practice on sunrise solo. just that 4 bars. you might call me a crazy man. and the section also said that i should give it up to jun due to my unstable playing. but then, yar when to crec, I know everything about it already. i did a lot of notations on that 4 bars. just sit there, noting when to vibrate,endo, when to decrescendo. and i found a place to breathe!!I even researched on types on tongueing. and i found out A LOT. seriously A LOT. when legato, instead of daa, you have to sayy "tooo" then when you play normal, you go teee. haha, even if jun takes over, i will pass him all my notes der. and then, i also know why i am playing super unstable. why my tone is sooo unstable, like sometimes super nice, sometimes like da bian. why i cant vibrate.

reasons for unstable playing:
1) I AM NOT EATING ENOUGH. - vibrato needs a lot a lot of energy, if dont eat, no way to express
2) TONE. when dont eat enough, you play like crapp. serious
3) didnt sleep early. when i dont sleep early, cant concentrate, get very restless easily. play like shit.
4) sitting directly RIGHT UNDER THE AIR CON WHICH HAS BEEN JUST INSTALLED. brr. very very cold. when you are super cold, you play like shit.
5) your instrument gets affected. Cos, when you expose your instruments to extremes of temperatures, it will go wrong. That explains why, ben lai sectionals, my flute hao hao der. then after that, come down band room, go heywire, dont wanna listen to me.
6) piccolo playing. by right, it shouldnt affect me much. But the prob is, if mrs chua starts with SUNRISE that day, the solo can play out very very nice der. But is like play a lot a lot of songs hou, then sunrise super hard to express.

hence. I found out that factor 4 and 5 is affecting me the most. Hence, i shall ask mr chua er Hao to NOT switch on the aircon that blows me directly. next, talk to mrs chua whether shuold let jun or me do it. mrs chua decides. I will talk to her der, see what i can do. so hence, next practice, i wont listen to the section to give up so fast, If my theories above all dont work. then i give up. haha, if it remains unstable, then i think give way to jun baa. for the sake of the section. I think i can do it. i can der. today, when practicing the 4 bars, noting, researching, my sisters hit me, beat me, ask me to stop. soo freagin noisy. repeating the same melody like a spoilt tape. but i think, i can do it. i dont care, i will TRY MY BEST TO DO IT DER. SO, i again once hold back my descion to let jun do it first.

SORRY FOR BEING SOOOO CAPRICIOUS. but if jun really wants to do it, go ahead, I have no objections. But then so super sorry for keep blowing hot and cold. but i really really think i can do it. this 2 hours, sitting there, researching, noting, doing everything i can; i want to try it ONE LAST TIME- which will be on FRIDAY. yup. if friday, i really really cannot do it, then jun takes it baa. I will suggest to my conductor der.=)

-GO JERMAIN. woots~~

-jErM

@ 1:39 pm

WEather: SUNNY=)=)!!
11th February 2007
Music: Graduation- Vitamin C( just added it to the music column!!)

HELLO!! =)=)!! haha, you know when ytd when it was TOO much to hold? I went to grandma's house yesterday, then ending up telling my mum there why i am stress. she said i was sha gua, dont wann tell her anything cos i stress, scared she worry. but I am feeling so enlightened now. how to approach zhi hao, flute solo probs, kai ping probs, your role as a sectional leader. From studies flying all the way to prefects. i feel that she has opened up the lock to all the possible routes. FEELING SO relieved after that. FEELING SO HAPPY=)=)!! no wonder as the saying goes, shi shang zhi you mama hao. which means, in this whole world, your mum is still the best! haha, feel like telling jun about each possible route. but apparently, he is not feeling well. so i think i better keep it to myself first. feeling kindda guilty that my head pounded like crazy last friday, then i was like telling jun everything without even realising he is sick. =.=. UGHH. stupid senior. but anyways, haha, if he gets better maybe i could share with him? =).. and even though zhi Hao says that things will NEVER BE THE SAME. bao qing tian face, mrs chua knows about all this. I am not scared. you know WHY??? well, better dont type here. later things become worse again yup. =). ok. take eg the solo probs, though all of us agree that jun should take up the solo, i think i should approach mrs chua on what to do first. not let the section decide for me. i am sl. i should be firm with my descions. I should ask mrs chua on what to do. not let me decide, not let the section decide. Reason is cos in zodiac, pic is kindda impt. and in sunrise not so impt. oh well, nvm, just lemme tell mrs chua laa kay=). YAY. haha. just feeling so happy now. and i dunno laa. i think that i have a crush on someone. Like serious. a crush. i dunno whether it is a not laa.. but ya, its somewhat a crush. EEKS~~ NOT GOOD... oh well, gotta study for chem lers. chao=)

-jErM

@ 10:47 am

Saturday, February 10, 2007

weather: OK
10th feb 07
Music: dont have-

I am just hiding too many things. its really a lot. i dont know who to tell and i dont know what to say. serious. its too many things. and seriously, if you know what is going on in our section, you would probably go crazy. serious. now, i dont know who to approach. seriously don't. BUT all i can say is that, my theories have been proven correct. seriously, my theories of something have been proven correct.(Only I know about this.) jun's sick. this is not good. and now, I feel very very scared, confused, puzzled, feverish. and i dont know who to approach. i miss my seniors, toshikasas and senpais like crazy. i miss flute section gen 2 2006is really miss like hell. i hate this year. really really hate it. who to approach? Why so many unpleasant things go on this year? to be honest, real real honest, I cant wait to leave prefects, i cant wait to leave things that make me stressed and vexed up. this is bad. REALLY REALLY bad. dunno who to approach, and even if i find him/her, I dont know whether i still can say. thats all. this is bad. real bad.

-jErM

@ 5:30 pm

WEather: Blue sky. partly cloudy
10th febuary 2007
Music: LALALA love song- Long vacation's theme song.

HI. ok. first of all, I would like to reflect on the latest incident. though things can never be the same between me and zhi hao. at least, we are still talking to each other. though i somehow "blamed" him and "maglin" him. lets look at the bright side. at least we are still talking to each other normally. not ignoring each other. anyway, i would want to say something about his latest post. about the solo. i am seriously ok if jun took the solo. seriously. my face will not black like bao qing tian 1. I already said that that time i play solo is just for mrs chua to come back to teach haising. Now, she come back, mission accomplish ler wadds. still want for what? furthermore, I will be playing piccolo that day and will somehow affect everything. It is BEST i let him play. you agree, hilary agrees, amanda also agrees. haha, even i also agree. It would be better. Its not a stupid solo laa. Just a tough 1. thats all i disagree kays? ok. next, about the O level results. and anyways, i am graduating out of the band soon ler. 90% I will miss the band. 10% - i cant WAIT to leave the band. reason? is because of the politics. I dont have to REN anymore. WOOHOO~~ but for the 90%, I will miss the music, the section, etc. But right now, priorities first. O level. must score well. then when receive results, then i will SCREAM MY HEART OUT. haha, =)=)!!!

ANDY TOPPED THE LEVEL. WOOHOO~~ flute setion rocks can??? LOLL. he topped with 8 distinctions- 1 A2, 7 A1s. SO PROO CAN??!!??!! mann. christine got 11 points. haha, - 2 off cca, makes 9! PROO ALSO. candice and jian hui also did well with a score of 12 points! - 2 off cca makes 10! haa.=). ALL so proo. rachel and rui shan did pretty well. you know, I kindda wanna keep the flute tradition. seriously. I wanna see my RETARDED face upthere when we get our results. i wanna feel the euphoria. haha. and i am now like super under pressure, everyone is like, hoho. andy top, you dont top arhh. bla bla bla. haha. ok baa, I will TRY MY BEST. to get my name up there. me, wei neng, er Hao and kin chung were like seated there waiting laa. we were prediciting. scarly our year dont have top student. the WHOLE of 4e1 scored 8 distinctions!! haha. waa, if like that good ler. but the good thing is, I am suddenly like so super motivated to study!! =D.christine was SUPER DUPER high that day. haha... =).

well, gtg. lets hope that things btw me and zhi Hao would STAY this way and not deteriorirate any further.

-jErM

@ 9:07 am

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Weather: ok baa, sunny, blue sky
6 Febuary 2007
Music: Ross Roy, Jacob De Haan. Tom and jerry kid's lullaby

hi.
ok, today woke up. didnt feel so good. Found out that i got fever ytd. then slept, etc. woke up today, body didnt feel any better, just got worse. Felt really feeble, really really weak. but in the end decided to come school, cos if dont come school der hua, then will miss out on a lot der! and i am glad i did come school. History test can kill my hand. wrote 3 pages of foolscap, hand pain like crapp. hope i score well *cross fingers*. then, erm, got back compre for CA. i got 25.5/50. kindda sucky though. haha, highest was 36- Dominic. and i found out that if i hadnt make more careless mistakes and watch my tense, read more carefully, I could've scored higher. kindda angry with myself. Morning also felt really really energy consuming to talk. but i kept quiet about it laa. yup. then after lunch break, Took my fever medicine. and i think that was a highly wrong move. miss ong started on a new chapter on A math today. and i totally didnt capture anything, just copying and copying the solutions. I feel so tired, so drained, staring at the white board like some dumb person. =.=. yup. then bio, tried to keep myself awake. after that, went for sectionals.

found zhi Hao and jun there. looks like i hid from jun that i was sick. HOPE that if he ever reads this, he wont get angry for me hiding stuff from him. Speaking of which, i have too many things to hide. =(. aiya, anyway,nowadays. i also dont dare to scold the section anymore already. whew. confessing a lot of things now siaa. =(. and things are looking bad on my playing. =(. today, sick, tried to play flute. running notes cannot play. =.=. then, got oucle, + a pimple(not so obvious) at the place where i put my tone plate. so pain! oh goshh. so scared. why why why?? i am gonna die soon. playing the flute now kindda hurts me physically a bit.=(. crapp, confessed another thing. well, haha, aiya, jun also wont read der lor.hmm. and erm erm.. should say nots marhh? ok baa, say then say. *breathes in* ok, I got really really weird phobias. and these weird phobias are normally what guys excel in. especially jun. sighs. i've got soccerphobia and englishphobia. haizz. =.=. everytime i see the soccer ball, i would shan. i think that jun will be super disapointed with me lor. In my bday card he did for me, he hoped that i would excercise and play soccer with him. but i just have the phobia. and i dont know how to overcome it. mann. HOW??!?!?! goshh, why am i confessing so much stuff now. and for language, Books make me bored. haizz. I WANNA READ INTERESTING 1S!! SCREAMS!! and arhh, I ALSO dunno how to talk lers. serious. i dont wana talk that much. Maybe i should learn jun's way of talking! Much much more fun niaa!! when he meet you, xian xian der. dunno laa, maybe he is still pissed or angry with me over something? wel, I duno. HAHA, but the sunrise solo. *screams* i wann give up ler laas. But i keep telling jun that i should not give up. sighs. ZHI HAO ARHH!! YOU DONT TELL HIM HORR. *STERN LOOKS*, ok, going to play kong with christine, then log off to recuperate. sighs, hope i get well soon. =((. SO MUCH HMK =((. THEN, tmr i bringing camera to school. TO take pictures of my piccolo and flute. squeals~~. take the band room also! heh. but must make sure empty laa. some people arent photogenic.=(. haha. i am 1. bleahh. blahh~~ oh ya, I got 2 sec 1 juniors now! both girls!! AAAAA~~ I WANT BOY I WANT BOY I WANT BOY=(((!! but no boy wants us. I think. haha, but anyways, 1 is call winnie, and 1 is call emily. hope they are happy in the section!=)

P.s. to someone. How you want others to treat/talk to you, would be the way you talk/treat people. Told you many many times lers. and i am just tired. too too tired to go on lers. haizz.

-jErM

@ 5:42 pm

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Weather: sunny, windy.
4th febuary 2007
Music: Danceries- Musart wind orchestra

ok. musart concert was quite good. heard a couple of bands play together with the orchestra. Towards the end of the concert, I suddenly had a mood swing. with myself. I dont know why. Suddenly, Screaming in concerts dosent seem fun anymore. It seems irritating. And suddenly, I dunno why felt a mixture of anger and sadness in me. i felt really really weird. i had really really weird thoughts. seriously. But anyways, some bands were pretty good. Like boon lay, who played ross roy. was almost like the original recording. yup. and, to the summit was pretty nice.=). but i didnt really enjoyed an english sea song suite. dunno why. Maybe the melody didnt really enjoy laa. haha, zhi HAO was sooo shuai ytd! haha, got girls see arhh, sure fall in love der!! *joking laa* haha. if you find this offensive arhh, tag me kay? haha.. ok anyways, he also power der laa. alvama was nice=). power.=).haha. nvm, hope i can faster finish O level!! then can go join outside bands! Like hmm, dunno. lol. =). but i wann continue with band. flute.=)

oh, and 1 more thing. I've learnt something. i should aviod speaking highly controversial topics during the night. I found out that me, jun and zhi Hao everytime we talk, will be late at night. Everyone will be feeling pretty lethargic, pretty tired, pretty restless, and our minds wont be working properly. or, if someone didnt had a goods nights rest, its really best for avoiding speaking topics that my evoke his/her emotions. seriously. learnt this from the pass few weeks. and during the night, it is best not to chat, or talk to much. best to spend time recuperating and some quiet time with yourself. maybe do some revision? haha. if not arhh, you all talk during the night, will create yourself a intense friendship tmr. yup. unless you all feeling high that night la! EG, band members that night got concert, feeling damn high=).yar. haha, i gtg choing hmk lers. oh, and for the story blog, will tell you all when the prolouge is done=).

-jErM

@ 8:42 pm

Friday, February 02, 2007

weather: pretty good weather, windy
2nd febuary 2007
Music: peterloo overture- Malcom arnold

100th post! finally. waited so long. ok, start this post HAPPILY. then sadly and angrily.

TODAY IS THE GRAND OPENING OF MY NEW STORYBLOG- the adventures of the piccoluters! haha, stacey is super enthu about it. well, haha, today i also got back my BAOBEI FLUTE. SOOOO FREAGIN SHINY!! SOO NICE TO PLAYY!! *SCREAMS LOUD* WEI JUN also can use miyazawa lers. the repairman made it soooo shiny also, so hard to resist to play the flute. HAHAHA. ok, anyways, then, what else hurr. hmm. mr tan seem s ok today. yay. dont worry sir, will WORK HARD IN THE NXT TEST TO SHOW YOU. =)=)!! ok, then todays solo everything all can play. juz lacks vibrato! ughh. then jun suddenly came to me, and said by my ear: " soooo sooo sooo pro, squeals, etc etc" omggg. hahahaha=). where got pro? guo jiang ler laa. =). you also soo pro still can say pp? LOL. and zhi Hao is super stressed today in band. =(. dunno whats wrong. yar.

ok, the sad thing. go read stacey's blog. feel so super pissed with kaiping. i dont care gonna ask for xinhui toshikasa's advice. and then dunno whats wrong with jun. haii. after band horr, i feel like a pest to him like that. I feel like i am a leech clinging on to him like that. like he dosent want me around. woa, say only come online. nvm laa. its ok. really really, maybe i am juz being too sensitive. and taufik quit band(or being sacked?) I dont know. but moreever, i dunno whether should be happy, or sad. haiz. nvm, dun wanna elaborate. The perc section is already emotionally unstable already.

gtg=).bb.

-jErM