too little words.. too little interest.. too little concern... too little space in the heart or none at all..
it broke my heart... which i put in all.. it is now cold and on the brim of being dead... the flame still flickers and i still have hope.. but once it blows out... i have nothing to anticipate for anymore... I will have my hands off all his matters... I WAN MY LIFE BACK... i wan to be once again be off to pursue my dreams and be with my friends... to be building my career and my future... it has been delayed for eight years... a shitty long eight years....
June 25, 2008
June 04, 2008
Oh Gosh My Graduation Project
Haven't start at all.. gonna die man.. busy packing and have not done any research... have left with only July itself to finish.. gotta start some opening template by end of June... need some surveys and print references.. who's gonna save me?... only me myself.. must at least finish with a B grade for it... to get the certification.. advance dip in mass comm.. it's not gonna be easy... killing my brain cells... it requires huge amount of input before i can spit out the 5000 words report.. need inspiration.. by the way.. what was my topic supposed to be?... great..~ no idea at all~.... >.<
落腳處
6月... 快搬離現在的住處...有小小的捨不得...
對新住處沒什麼期待... 因為環境較複雜...
如果可以... 想擁有自己的地方...
會是在什麼時候呢? ... 為甚麼有年齡限定? !!!
嗨... 繼續努力吧...
忙著搬家的事項...
朋友們... 對不起唷~!.. 事後再連絡喔~!
對新住處沒什麼期待... 因為環境較複雜...
如果可以... 想擁有自己的地方...
會是在什麼時候呢? ... 為甚麼有年齡限定? !!!
嗨... 繼續努力吧...
忙著搬家的事項...
朋友們... 對不起唷~!.. 事後再連絡喔~!
May 17, 2008
My Zoo trip experience
Time to add some nice pics here. I haven't been to the zoo for some time.. It was the 1st time to go alone with friends. The pics are not very nice though. Great amount of room for improvements. I will have to try to improve my skills so that I can bring out what I was trying to capture. Taking pictures is can be really fun. It's full of surprises and excitement. While trying to catch one object in the whole surroundings, you may find surprisingly other interesting things along the way. It kind of depicts life in a smaller scale. Perhaps greater inspirations can be found and builds on my mental spirit.
Here they are:
Erm.. this is not what I saw 'Live' at the zoo. In fact it was just on a piece of wall up at a strawy 'tree' hut near the elephant area in the zoo. I had a touched feeling when I took this. I was imagining the images of elephants moving in herds in their natural habitat in the wilds. The young elephant's trunk would hook itself onto the tail of the mother elephant. Was I missing motherly love? Haha.. anyway it reminded me of how wonderful and how fortunate it could be to be with your own mother... kinship?
In an interesting corner, where you'll find Asian Crops, this was where we found this magnificent view. The water was peaceful and so was the sky. It had slow moving clouds which I enjoyed looking at them changing shapes and formations. They moved slowly, merging and separating. At this point of time, I thought I had seen a side profile of a teenage mutant ninja turtle. It seemed to have been moving from my left to the right. Apparently from the picture, my shot does not this focus. This is because my perspective was the upside down reflections of everything above the water line shown in the surface of the water. I had a standalone picture of my 'turtle' which I have not put up here. :P
Have a guess where this was taken. It was a few meters to the left from where I took the previous one. The whole color scheme changed from the blue sky and water to this greenly feel. I was amazed how things could look so different from a different angle at the same place. It had felt so full of life and fresh.
Wouldn't you find something weird going on in this picture. Yes, we spotted the clear trail moving towards the opposite direction of the current on the water surface. I was thinking like: 'Maybe there were traveling fishes in schools which were swimming against the current?'
Seeing animals ought to be the primary objective going to the zoo. However, it was the environment which earned more of my appreciation. Maybe I was in the urban city for too long. Should have exposure to greens more often. On second thoughts, I was quite worried to find only polluted parks or natural reserves. It's quite a spoil sport to the outing if it happens. Gosh I am so contradicting. (-_-)"
Here they are:
Erm.. this is not what I saw 'Live' at the zoo. In fact it was just on a piece of wall up at a strawy 'tree' hut near the elephant area in the zoo. I had a touched feeling when I took this. I was imagining the images of elephants moving in herds in their natural habitat in the wilds. The young elephant's trunk would hook itself onto the tail of the mother elephant. Was I missing motherly love? Haha.. anyway it reminded me of how wonderful and how fortunate it could be to be with your own mother... kinship?
Have a guess where this was taken. It was a few meters to the left from where I took the previous one. The whole color scheme changed from the blue sky and water to this greenly feel. I was amazed how things could look so different from a different angle at the same place. It had felt so full of life and fresh.
Wouldn't you find something weird going on in this picture. Yes, we spotted the clear trail moving towards the opposite direction of the current on the water surface. I was thinking like: 'Maybe there were traveling fishes in schools which were swimming against the current?'Seeing animals ought to be the primary objective going to the zoo. However, it was the environment which earned more of my appreciation. Maybe I was in the urban city for too long. Should have exposure to greens more often. On second thoughts, I was quite worried to find only polluted parks or natural reserves. It's quite a spoil sport to the outing if it happens. Gosh I am so contradicting. (-_-)"
New blog on sina
Gonna use sina blog when I feel writing in Chinese. Will still rattle here. Trying out the features over there. I like mblogging but have not set up the linkage after lost my dear SE k800i. Well look out on my sina blog in future. May have some surprises. The main reason of the switch is because of convenience. Lol... well since I am checking out on Ashin's blog regularly, I might as well drop my thoughts at the same space over there. Think I will reserve the space here for my long stories.
check out at sina : http://blog.sina.com.cn/jerlyne
check out at sina : http://blog.sina.com.cn/jerlyne
May 16, 2008
實踐，空想，還是說說而已？
10% - 實踐
50% - 空想
40% - 還是說說而已
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成功率 = 10%
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所以, 成功是非常稀罕和可貴的。要珍惜、還是珍惜!
50% - 空想
40% - 還是說說而已
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成功率 = 10%
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所以, 成功是非常稀罕和可貴的。要珍惜、還是珍惜!
May 13, 2008
開始既是結束，結束既是開始
5月16號，即將開始最後的一學期。終於開始了，這也意味著它即將結束，為我的傳播系高級文憑劃上休止符。心情不上也不下，好像是有一點忐忑，卻又沒有不安。是不是因為熱情已逝，在也讓我感受不到任何欣慰？
May 09, 2008
$ Monetised~! Stress & Panic~!$
CPI rises at a exceptionally high rate this few months. The meal expenses and utilities has went up too. Going to pay rental soon as I move out from my current place from 22 June 2008. They are sure to be high. My pay increment this year is not even able to cover the increase in GST later this year. The worry is about paying the rent.
Not enough income? The solution is to further my studies and get that bachelor degree to cross the salary mark. This would put me onto a better career advancement scale than a poly graduate. However, the contradiction is to pre-pay a sum of $$ for the course fees first before this happens. Sending the cheque for application this week. Meanwhile my graduation project for mass communication advance diploma shall begin it's 1st meeting next week. Yet to receive any notification yet. Got to call them again. Haiz. Really disappointed with MDIS administration. Sux~!
Looking ahead, I am certainly stirred and felt unrest by the upcoming uncertainties. Sometimes I feel that it might have been easier if I just choose to walk out of them, and to be on my own. It is not about me not willing or not to stay and help them solve the problems. It is about them not willing to face the problems themselves and running away from them by pushing them to me, when I am in no position to do anything nor make decision for them. It is really difficult to put it through to them. We all have to face our problems. No one can forever take care of your problems for you. When you have to take it, you'll have to do it. It will not go away until you, not other people, deal with it.
For me, it is easier to deal with my own problems than other people's. This is because each decision that I make answers to only myself and I will accept whatever outcome or consequences possible. However, when other people's problem is pushed to me, I can only provide suggestions but I cannot make the decision nor to handle the problem directly. I feel that I am really in no position to make decisions for them nor handle the problem. If it turns out well, alright and they appreciates your help, but if it turns out worse, here comes the blame and souring of the relationship. So what happens if I were to handle the problem? Then what do they do? Waiting to thank me for solving the problem or to blame me on the failure?
Please for gracious sake, solve your own problems and never regret about it because you have taken on the challenge and faced it all by yourself. This is what matters, the act of courage, integrity and living spirit. Pushing it to others is just an act of shirking own responsibilities and letting your fate lie in others' hands. We should take control of our own lives and make our own moves. Therefore, for those who have not started to face your challenges, wake up now! Take charge of your own life~!
Not enough income? The solution is to further my studies and get that bachelor degree to cross the salary mark. This would put me onto a better career advancement scale than a poly graduate. However, the contradiction is to pre-pay a sum of $$ for the course fees first before this happens. Sending the cheque for application this week. Meanwhile my graduation project for mass communication advance diploma shall begin it's 1st meeting next week. Yet to receive any notification yet. Got to call them again. Haiz. Really disappointed with MDIS administration. Sux~!
Looking ahead, I am certainly stirred and felt unrest by the upcoming uncertainties. Sometimes I feel that it might have been easier if I just choose to walk out of them, and to be on my own. It is not about me not willing or not to stay and help them solve the problems. It is about them not willing to face the problems themselves and running away from them by pushing them to me, when I am in no position to do anything nor make decision for them. It is really difficult to put it through to them. We all have to face our problems. No one can forever take care of your problems for you. When you have to take it, you'll have to do it. It will not go away until you, not other people, deal with it.
For me, it is easier to deal with my own problems than other people's. This is because each decision that I make answers to only myself and I will accept whatever outcome or consequences possible. However, when other people's problem is pushed to me, I can only provide suggestions but I cannot make the decision nor to handle the problem directly. I feel that I am really in no position to make decisions for them nor handle the problem. If it turns out well, alright and they appreciates your help, but if it turns out worse, here comes the blame and souring of the relationship. So what happens if I were to handle the problem? Then what do they do? Waiting to thank me for solving the problem or to blame me on the failure?
Please for gracious sake, solve your own problems and never regret about it because you have taken on the challenge and faced it all by yourself. This is what matters, the act of courage, integrity and living spirit. Pushing it to others is just an act of shirking own responsibilities and letting your fate lie in others' hands. We should take control of our own lives and make our own moves. Therefore, for those who have not started to face your challenges, wake up now! Take charge of your own life~!
My Wishes remains as Wishes (yet to achieve but remains)
Back to my blog after so long, looking at my wish list.. Nothing has yet been achieved.. yet there is a change of my goals until rest of the year 2008.
1) enrol into IT degree (by Jan 2009)
2) save enough for taiwan trip in 2009
It doesn't mean that I am giving up my wishlist but I will slowly work towards them.
Maybe along the way I will pick up my electric guitar 1st. hehe ~ Fender or Gibson.. I think no point getting cheaper brands because I'll be lazy to get rid of them later on. I will want to keep forever if it's from Fender or Gibson. Can see Ibanez ones also but depends on the sound... If due to budget constraint, I'll get a good acoustic folk.
The target timeline would be in August or September if the Thailand trip is not confirmed by July. A self wohha to motivate my aspiration..~ W-H-O-o-Ha-~!
Y-E-A-H~!
1) enrol into IT degree (by Jan 2009)
2) save enough for taiwan trip in 2009
It doesn't mean that I am giving up my wishlist but I will slowly work towards them.
Maybe along the way I will pick up my electric guitar 1st. hehe ~ Fender or Gibson.. I think no point getting cheaper brands because I'll be lazy to get rid of them later on. I will want to keep forever if it's from Fender or Gibson. Can see Ibanez ones also but depends on the sound... If due to budget constraint, I'll get a good acoustic folk.
The target timeline would be in August or September if the Thailand trip is not confirmed by July. A self wohha to motivate my aspiration..~ W-H-O-o-Ha-~!
Y-E-A-H~!
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