last entry of july ???

will this be the last entry of july ? .. I dun know .. this month is kind of ... er... no word to describe
This month I am happy ~
cos some of my overseas friend have came back and we had fun and outing and really glade to see them again ~ life is already full of good bye and separation ~ can see each other once more and enjoy the time we all had together is great ... this friendship is precious and priceless .. I love this month ..

This month I am in love ~
yes I say again .. in love .. but one sided hahah have been trying to put in some effort but think only friendship is growing ^^ and think she think I "can't make it" ... that is kind of like ~ er... sad !! but maybe only due to I like her so I feel this way ba.. otherwise I will just heck and return the words back =) . happy and sad is always ard the word love ... I still trying to figure out how it really works but think maybe I still not good enough to control the sad feeling ba .. think now just really scare that i will irritate her or make her feel uncomfortable. HAHA think I really cannot make it .. no wonder I am the vice-chairman of the bachelor club ... can't woo girls at all ... even though the people in my club all not golden or platinum ... but I think we all have a platinum heart ...

first entry of JULY

was being lazy to update my blog~ everything to me is ..... stagnant
stagnant feeling ~
stagnant emotion ~
stagnant life ~
stagnant relationship ~
stagnant day ~
of course it leads to a stagnant blog ~

was being annoyed to write down my feeling~ everything to me is ..... ironic
ironic thoughts ~
ironic mind ~
ironic action ~
ironic me ~
ironic decision ~
of course it present a ironic blog ~

FOR you ... the girl in my heart ...
you are so near yet so far away~

you have never fail to appear in the center of my world~ my heart ... you are so near
you are just a button away, just a few sms away ~ you make my day.. you are so near
we all breath the same air, look at the same sun ~you and me are related .. you are so near
sometimes you just less than 5m away from me ~ we are actually that close.. you are so near
HOWEVER
I have always fail to appear in the center of your world~ your heart ... you are so far away
even though we just 5m away, there seem to be an invisible wall ... you are so far away ...

I still a bit confuse .. I still don't know what to do ...
are we near or far ?.... I still don't know ...
one thing is for sure ..
you are the nearest when I think about you ..
you are the furthest when there stood a invisible wall between us ...